Month: March 2014

March Ends/ Writing/Health/Cancer/Flight MH370


       The End of March 2014 for us in Connecticut is a snowy day, as we expect up to about one inch of snow. The weather keeps changing back and forth and yes I believe Global Warming is the cause. Mankind is the only species on the planet that can kill the world it is living on through stupidity and being selfish. It is sad as hell really.

        As March ends my health hangs in there so far, my breathing is a lil slower and I can’t run like a used to, but what do you expect from a guy who lost a lobe and a third of his right lung to cancer. Thats life as they say. I am awaiting further tests for a spot in my liver found on my last Cat Scan and a Endoscopy test of my throat due to thickness of my esophagus and to find out what may be what, where. I keep trucking along trying to write and be me, and enjoy life each day is all.

         My writing has slowed now a days to a much slower pace as I think of what I want to write about or make up as I go along. But hell, each story or tale or poem I have ever written has some attachment to real life for me.  I try to change the names and mix up and add things to amuse others to get their attention, so they may like them all. Doesn’t always work and sometimes my writing skills are not as good as I wish they were. I sometimes wish I listened better in Elementary School or High School, especially in English Classes, but what the heck youth got the best of me back then.

          I have written now over 40 different works dealing with my childhood, murders, mysteries and poems but I do not sell a lot it seems. I suppose it is because my skills are not as good as I would like them to be, and some of the items I write do not interest others as much as they do me. I did takes on Hyperactivity, Attention Deficit Disorder. I did stories on my childhood problems with Wails, and Children Center Lessons and Years, love stories with Unattainable Love, and Maria and more. I did Murder Mysteries with The Northern Woods Murders, The Project Murders in Broadview Acres, and more. My Poems are now turned into books and hopefully some will like them over time. I do what I can when I can nowadays so everything moves slower for me.

           On the upside of all, is The UConn Huskies here in Connecticut, both Mens and Womens teams are in the NCAA Basketball Tournaments and winning a big plus for our state. The revenue alone will help UConn gather more students and players over the following years.

            In The meantime we have disasters galore across the planet and no way to turn them around or change them, anymore than we can now stop Global Warming. Battles still rage in Afghanistan, Iraq and Iran are still fighting for recognition and Russia has decided to try and annex not only the Crimea, but maybe Ukraine too. Why, I have no idea, except to increase their own land mass to accommodate more people. Who knows I don’t, for I am not a political genius of any kind.  Which brings me to todays News Headlines: North and south Korea fire missiles at one another, why? Be damned if we know right, but I will say one thing, Americans can not get involved, we already had out Korean War fiasco no more please.

             Flight MH370 has disappeared off the face of the earth as far as mankind can see so far. All those lives lost and no answers is not a good thing. Was it a mechanical problem, a pilot error, a terrorism incident,an accident or what and will we ever know? What do you tell the family members when you really have no proof what happened in anyway? I don’t know, but I do know if it can’t be found and is under the Indian Ocean so deep, we may never know and families need to face that fact.

              My close for today’s blog:

               I am a cancer survivor these days as is my wife and many other human beings on this planet. A disease so horrible it eats away human beings and turns their own bodies against them. It needs to be cured and stopped folks believe me for i survive only after a accidental find of my lung cancer. I appreciate my survival and the Doctors who helped me through and the family I love so much for being here. Somehow, someway, I am still here and I am amazed. But as my dad said, Life shall go on, long after I am gone.

              I leave you with my cancer story I wrote, at least the link to it, it costs 1.99 to buy, but in the end it tells a cancer story many need to read so here it is:

The Disease [Kindle Edition]—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CD79QL2
Bill (Author)
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Some thoughts for March 3oth, 2014


      Welcome to Sunday March 30th. 2014. The Final Four will be determined today in college basketball. The weather is beginning to shift toward spring, and life slowly goes on. The Russians are deciding whether or not to annex or take over the Ukraine again. The Afghanistan’s still don’t know which side is up and may fall prey to terror groups once again, Cancer is being fought worldwide, politics suck worldwide and people go down in planes and may never be found again. Yet the world keeps spinning in it orbit, and continues on it path intended for now. One day we will destroy this world from polluting it and misusing it’s resources at a greater rate than they can be produced. Sadly, the future of the planet and humankind is not unlimited. What mankind has not figured out is the only thing keeping us going is the planet we live on, and if we keep destroying it we can not survive.

          Battles are opening across the worlds surface on more than one plane of existence. Each of us fight our own in many ways. I fight cancer as an individual, and so does my wife daily. We survive on pure stubborness and determination, but how long can one fight their own body turning against them and survive? No idea but we shall fight on no matter what, for we want to live is all, but sooner or later even the force of ones soul and spirit gets tired and we fade from the living. It happens to all living being on the planet folks, our time runs out. Amazingly, it is usually when we have completed, our missions we were put here to do. I know, I know no one understands that when I say it, but, we were all put here to accomplish missions given to us by the supreme being that gave us life, once we complete all of them we are recalled to from which we came from. That just my personal view is all.

           A Final Thought for all today, if mankind was supposed to last forever, wouldn’t all resources be unlimited instead of running lower each day? sadly, what I say is true, and in the end generations and billions of people are here on the planet, but we have too many to survive forever on the world we live on.

 

My Little Star trek Story


The Tidy Bowl Man’s Demise

Captains Log; Stardate; 3/15/2013: 8:15 am
I have been stuck in this watery world for months, searching for land. The water get rough now and then yet I survive.

Captains Log: Stardate: 1/15/2013: 1201.pm
The skies above the ship has become dark on and off, and the water gets rough, I still survive, a water spout hit, but, I survived it by paddling fiercely!

Captains Log; SStardate 3/15/2013: 2;15pm After avoiding the water spout the water has calmed now, yet I don’t knpow when the next storm will come!

Captain’s Log: Stardate 3/15/2013; 2;30 pm I am tired after surviving the deadly water spout, and now the skies above have darkened.

Capatains Log Stardate; 3/15/2013; 2;30 pm Looking up all I see is dark skies no light when suddenly the waters get very rough, large waves buffet my small boat.

Captain’s Log: Stardate 3/15/2013;2;35 pm The skies have cleared above for now, yet I hear a voice talking to me, what the hell are you doing here?

Captains Stardate03/15;2013;2;36 pm After trying tro answer the voice for what seems lioke hours I get no reply, yet I hear bombs away yelled as the skies darken.

Captain’s Log; Stardate 03/15.2013: The skies have darken now and the bombs start dropping I fear my end is near. The waters star rushing in a down spout and poofffffffffffffffffffffffffffff, I am gone, Sucked down deep now, looking up I hear a voice, the hell with ou Tidy Bowl Man, you’ve had it!

Age/ passions, Living/ Laughing, Crying and Dying!


      Age, Physical disabilities and overall health issues tend to get all of us as we go on in life. Yet, as I face these issues each day, the biggest thing is not health, it’s mental health really, I think for all of us. We tend not to accept aging and aliments very well and when our bodies fail us in anyway we fight back with will power and tenacity. We tend to never give up untill we don’t have the mental strength to do so, and that is what makes life so hard at times. 

        I have a belief actually, that all of us as individuals are put on this planet for certain missions God created us to complete, and that once we complete them, we return to the place from which we came from, back to the arms of our creator. Life is one constant mission each day with lessons to be learned, and taught to others, and to interact with other human beings, for the good of the world we live in, period. It’s all about what God intended when he made the planet and mankind, interaction and direction by way or each of us towards what will ultimately be mankind’s  fate in the end. I know I sound religious to some but the truth is i am not a firm believer in any religion, I do believe in God but in my own way, I do not believe in attending a church or listening to a  priest or paying a religion to practice it, I do believe God hears us all, so pray when you can though.

         As I age I look back to the good days of my younger friends, the ones who I spent time with fishing, camping, eating,building cars with and more. I look back at family I learned from and siblings I taught things to. I look back at memories of voyages across oceans as a Sailor in the Navy and the countries I visited. The People I met,  I laughed and the tears I cried, these are the important moments in a person’s life to me. following inner instincts God gave you as to your direction is everything. Helping other people is basic and needed to be done by all, so do it folks help a friend or family member survive and learn the planet and mankind will be better for it period and so will you as a person.

         As I have begun my 58th year on this planet in January of 2014, I look back on things because I have regrets, I had hopes vanquished, loves squashed, hates disappeared and in the end, loves found. We all do I believe and it matters not what you look like or who you are, or what color, race you may be, we all dream and reach for goals. Stick with them folks no matter who you be, for one day you will reach them if you keep striving, believe me. So, Strive, LIve, Laugh, and cry, but in the end we all face the fact we die, just be prepared for it, by doing the best you can while living! In the end make the best of your time on the planet and with others you touch and who touch you, for as we all know out time is limited here on Earth!

 

 

 

Health Updates and Tests


       We all get tested in life, when I was a baby I suffered through 199 seizures and survived, then I went through Hyper-Activity and Attention Deficit Disorder and overcame to go on to being a service member in three branches, U.S. Army, National Guard and Navy. I went through the test of surviving those years and going on to survive 6 herniated discs in my spine, ptsd, depression and more.

        I feel I am tested more now then back then, period. I suffer from depression, anxiety,ptsd,six herniated discs, plus now have sleep apnea, and now have survived lung cancer too since last August 2013. Today I went to the Doctor for a six month check-up after a cat scan and blood tests were done on me. Again, I am tested more, for while my lungs of which they took 1 and one third lobes from are fine now and clear, no sign of cancer. But, now my esophagus is in trouble and thick for some reason, and needs scoped out. And to add to the fun and games the cat scan shows a spot on my liver they don’t know what it is yet so that is an MRI coming up next. What other tests will I face and pass or fail I do not know, I just know each day is becoming a challenge in and of it’s own right.

         My father God Bless him lived till only 55 and died of lung cancer, my mother lived till age 59 and died of lung cancer too. Me, I am currently at 58 years old, and unsure if tomorrow will come or not half the time, will I go past mom’s 59 I have no idea. One day, one Doctors Appointment and test at a time is all I can say. Lord have mercy on me is all I can say. But I am old, stubborn and ornery as they say and I refuse to go yet, so I shall fight on no matter what is next.

LIfe and Aging/ Second Life


     Seems life gets shorter each day ya live, right I know big deal right, everyone knows that. Get over fifty and ya remember and realize it each day you wake up. The body is not as willing and able as the mind is and things start to slow down and take longer to react. Add in medical problems, such as back troubles, PTSD for mental problems, depression and anxiety, and sleep apnea and you tend to move at a slower rate as the world whizzes on by, it seems to me. Seems no matter what one does as one ages you can never seem to fully catch up to the world around you as you age. Ah well all is a part of living and for that we should all be grateful.

        Next subject what does one do for fun when your closing in on sixty and not 100 percent healthy and a disabled veteran? For me it’s write, play video games, read a lot of books and build puzzles and play in Second Life on the Internet as a  make believe world to belong in. Second Life is a pixel driven realm online for all to be who they want as they want and have fun. It has everything in it, music, clubs, motorcycles, cars, boats, horses and games galore. You can Dj in it, you can play games like Putt Putt, Bowling, and lots more. You can visit other lands and people you would never meet in real are on there. Amazingly it makes one forget the pains of real life and gives one a place to imagine and enjoy other people and more. You can teach and learn, you can create a world of your own, or just create things to sell and make lindens on. But Lindens are needed once your in the world and you can earn em through many ways from free games, creating and selling, and  much more. More people should try it and see what they think!

 

 

 

 

Hump Day Thoughts


      It Wednesday again folks, yes we are halfway through the week! Hard to believe when time tends to go by so fast isn’t it, feels like yesterday was New Years Day! But the world will keep on spinning long after all of us are gone or have killed ourselves off by foolish bullshit we do as humans. No other species on the planet is so self-destructive as human kind, we kill off the animals, the planets, we pollute the waters and the air and than we sit back and blame it on everything but ourselves. Time will tell the story of being living on a world blessed with so many fine resources, but who ruined it for themselves and killed themselves off. The only question now is how long it will take and will mankind accelerate the process or work to prevent it from happening?

       That said and done, I do not look forward to cat scans every six months and blood tests, but I have to live with it as a cancer survivor now. All survivors deal with the chemo, radiation of cat scans and MRIs for check-ups and more. It’s crazy but how else will you know if it comes back to bite ya in the ass so to say. Cancer is a bitch!

        Final for today; My story is out in book form on Amazon’s Kindle E-Books: I did 41 small stories into books of different kinds each. So look for them folks and help an Old Disabled Veteran make a few bucks to survive will ya!

         “Blackness in Alaska”
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00IHY5LCS

The story of a Sailor turned Seal by the Navy and sent on a mission to preserve security in Alaska and the USA

 

Concerns


      Concerns abound in people’s lives around the world today. We still have slavery in some places, we have wars still going on and people dying of Aids, and more. The Ukraine is falling to pieces, Russia is stepping in, America is warning and Russia is in return too. Nedd I remind the world and America and Russia too, we had two World Wars already where millions upon millions of me and women and children died for stupid reasons, lets not do it again, Please!

       Other Concerns the world’s economy. America’s economy, education, social help for needy people and more folks. Can we all wake up and realize that there are too many poor and unhealthy individuals in the world and someone needs to help them, that means the healthy ones and the ones with money should start doing their parts Sadly, it has become a me, me, me world and fuck you. In the old days of the 60’s, 70’s it was we, we, we, why is now a me,,me,me society and fuck you, because we have become too damn selfish! Wake up folks!

         Final Concern today, people like myself who live with cancer over their heads and how we survive and carry on. My wife had breast cancer and I sat through her operation praying she would live, and through her chemo and radiation treatments too for a year, she is still here Thank God with me after 7 years later. Me I was diagnosed with lung cancer in August of 2013 and had one and a third lobes of my right lung removed in September of 2013. I survive today, but like all cancer victims I must wonder for how long! I was scheduled for a check-up cat scan recently and had to go down and give blood for it. Upon two days before I was called by the Hospital cat Scn people, what they said was they needed to reschedule my Cat scan when I asked why, seems some Doctor sheduled a second scan over the first and they will be doing both at once. What does it men I do not know, but obviously they found something in the blood tests they will be looking for. I only hope it’s not much. I hope to survive all of it but no guarantees. Ah well life shall go on no matter what!

        Finally for today I leave you with the link to my latest story on sale on Amazon E- Books;

        “Blackness in Alaska”
        http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00IHY5LCS

       The story of a Sailor turned Seal by the Navy and sent on a mission to preserve security in Alaska and the USA