Attended The Division 2 meeting tonight.
I apologize for my getting angry and disrupting the meeting. I lost self -control and I know it What I saw and heard, was some decent answers on the finances, and people asking questions, but not getting correctly answered. What started my argument with the board was a simple question, who sets the priorities, of when things are done and how.? What I got was, the painting is being done then, because that is when the contractor is available. That was not the question. It was who sets the priorities and why, and how is it decided?
No answers except pushing things off on the HOA and Dartmouth or the Primary Board. Wrong. So, the argument grew because , everytime I mentioned something on the property that was wrong, it was deflected to The Primary Board, to the HOA, Or someone else.
How do we get, our Division Board to first communicate with the residents, how do you get our board to communicate properly with the primary board, how do we get the HOA to do it’s job properly and handle the grounds, trees, benches etc and the clubhouse? Who is responsible for cracked cement, broken. pavement walkways? Rusting Benches to sit on?
I think what needs to be done is The HOA, The Primary Board, The Division Board and The Entertainment Director and company all need to sit in one room and figure it all out. Who owns what here at DWCL, who is responsible for what? I do not appreciate, a run around, nor do I accept it doesn’t belong to our Division Board. What we need is simple, what is Pulte responsible for to fix? What is Dartmouth responsible for and what do they do? Besides just the grounds and the clubhouse. What exactly is the Divisions Boards Responsible for? Once we clear that up, we need to get Pulte, Dartmouth, The Primary Board and our Division Board in one place, so they clearly communicate with one another and things get fixed properly. As someone else said communication is a problem between residents, and each part of the setup here at DWCL. Before anything can be fixed to work better, open communication must be here, secondly, once that is established and we know who owns what to fix, we can push to get it fixed. I do not appreciate, a board member who ushers me out of the meeting and then jumps in my face telling me he is disappointed in me, he doesn’t know me or understand why I was upset and he doesn’t care. He was just as wrong as I was, for jumping in my face, raising his voice at me and losing his self-control also.
Let me say this in ending for now, I will be assembling, what I have found around, broken, damaged or done incorrectly here at DWCL in a written document shortly. I think the main factor here is a lack of communication, hiding of things and how they are decided by the Board and we are asked to pay, out of our funds we pay in HOA Fees, for things we did not approve. No one asked the residents/ Condo owners if we wanted speed bumps put in or where they go or what type they should, be, no these decisions where just made by the Primary Board and we got cheap speed bumps that fall apart, stop no-one from speeding , and people just fly over them anyway. Yes I agree something needed to be done, but it should have been a better solution that will last longer.
We get siding falling off of buildings, people paying for showers like I did, because of shabby building, people have leaking windows and the buildings aren’t ten years old yet. Why? We have leaks in the basement of Building 12 and Building one too. Cracks in cement entryways to garages also. Why?
Someone is responsible, for each of the above things, and when you question The HOA they deflect to Pulte or to our Division Boards, lets stop deflecting, lets stop giving excuses, lets get to know who does what? I tire of the infighting between board members, or residents over who is responsible for what where? A simple solution is, we are getting toward the point where Pulte will be gone, so, the Grounds are what Dartmouth was hired to care for, they should do their job, replace the trees, fix everything and make it proper. People are paying HOA Fees ranging from 400 dollars a month and upwards here as owners, yet, we can’t even get the TVs in The clubhouse properly working and no one will call in Verizon to fix it properly. Why, oh we are trying to save money. Yet we pay for these services period. Jon Ebb is not responsible for fixing the tv system in the clubhouse, or anything like that. He gets called for almost anything that goes wrong, why?
We pay For LON, Carolyne, And Laura to do their Jobs. They should not be hiding in their offices in the dark, they should be doing what we pay them to do. None of them should be rude to any resident here and they should be available to answer all questions period. They should not fight with residents over anything period, nor should residents be banned from the clubhouse we pay for, to use in our HOA fees, for any reason. Too many things are not working the way, they are supposed to here at DWCL. We pay Lon, Laura and Lon’s helper and Teddy too, They should respond to what we ask in a polite manner and get it done, not say no.
As a resident and Condo Owner, I want to know why we don’t get told about things we must pay for ahead of time and get a say in them and if we want them. Why is The Entertainment Director, telling people to get out of her office or asking them what they want, when you try to talk to her. Why is Lon not able to get up, open a file cabinet and find forms residents need for whatever reason?
I have tried to stay to myself and not complain now for over four years, and I think I did well doing that. But, when, our own Board Members avoid questions, and make decisions without our vote or being asked, I get upset.
Last thing I will add here, for those who want to judge me, say I am wrong for what I did or any other thing, like I told Stu, you don’t know me. You don’t know my background, my education, my experience or where I have been. You Don’t know I suffer from ADDHD, and PTSD. You don’t know I am a Disabled Veteran who served this country for 16 years. You don’t understand, that I can not handle deflections, bullshit and lies. Thats why I got angry, and upset and , I will not sit by and watch people ask questions and the people who are supposed to answer them deflect, lie or give no real answer.
Let me close by saying this, I personally, appreciate, what Jon Ebb has done as President of our Board and the work each member puts forth as volunteers. If a Board meeting is held with us residents, the board members can not just expect to stand up there, state things and not be able to correctly answer questions. If you bring up a subject or item, tell us why, what you are doing about it and when and how much it costs. If someone disagrees and asks questions again, and you can’t answer it just say so. I would rather you say to me, I don’t know, I will find the answer and get back to you. To repeat answers that don’t make sense, or a resident disagrees with, is just wrong.
I tried to participate, to get involved and to voice my concerns and complaints is all. I apologize once more for disrupting the meeting in the way I did. But, as much as I am wrong, so, was the Board people trying to talk me down, and jumping in my face and not properly answering my question.
We paid a lot of money to buy a condo here at Dell Webb Chauncy Lake, we pay Hoa Fees for the services we are supposed to be getting. We pay, but, we don’t get polite employees, or people who do their jobs properly. Why? We don’t get all the services we pay for period. If something breaks or does not work or is rusting out or dying it should be taken care of in a reasonable time. Why isn’t it? Please explain that, because it does piss me off to see, us as seniors over 55 living here, and being taken for money, and not getting what we were promised or told we would get. There are too many things not being fixed, and no one is taking action to get them done, why?

Good Morning America and the World. It is Wednesday, August 19th, 2026 here. I don’t want to preach, leacture, or try to tell people what to do, yet, I am seeing a trend in humanity and America that is bad for the world in general. And being who I am, I just want to mention it here for all to consider and think about as we go thru life in general.

Communication, is something we don’t tend to pay attention to between humans unless we are forced to in someway.I am not a politician, a doctor, teacher or professor, but, I do know, communication has more than one part to it. First is verbal, second is physical and facial looks, and how we convey our thoughts. But what we all forget and never seem to slow down to realize, is the art of listening, is vital. You can scream to the stars, you can talk till you are blue in the face, if the other person or country your talking to is not listening, it falls apart. This is currently happening, with Iran, Iraq and other countries and the USA.

But what brought this up for me and to mind is a recent example of a meeting I attended. Look, you can set meetings, hold them, invite people in to speak, and discuss it, but, if you don’t, enforce and adhere to your own, purpose and listen and let people communicate in return, well it is worthless. If I say something to you, and you do not understand what I mean, ask, and if I see you are not fully understanding me, I will slow down and try to clarrify it for you. Yet if you run a meeting to discuss bettering communication and openess in a community, and then cut off people who are trying to speak or voice interests or concerns or help, during said meeting, then the purpose of your meeting is gone. Slow down, realize what you are doing, don’t let personal dislikes, get in the way of open communication. I understand when people say they just want to watch or listen in, and that is their right to do. But, because they said that does not mean at some point during the discussion, something may hit them they wish to reply to, should not be allowed. Look your holding a meeting about open communication, be open about it, even if you don’t like someone, or what they have to say, you should let them speak. To cut them off, and tell them you said you didn’t want to participate is wrong. It is all about open communication, so let them communicate.

That said, I hope it can be understood by all, open communication is a two way street. If you have something to say fine, but when you voice it, stop and listen to the replies or questions and clarrify. Not everyone will agree with it, but in the end at least you allowed it to be a part of said conversation, and you don’t look small for cutting someone out. For in cutting off someone because they said they wish to be an observer, and then tried to interject is against the whole purpose of discussing open communication. I know some will disagree with what I am saying here, but when you stop and think of it, I am right, the whole purpose was to open communcation lines up, not shut them down. if you don’t practice what you preaching to others, it is worthless, for the example goes out the door so to speak, and you look like, you can’t do what you asking others to do. So, slow down, don’t jump up and shut someone down, because you don’t like them, or they said they were just there to observe. If they speak they have a reason, let em so we can all hear them. Isn’t that what a meeting on communication is all about?

I was asked, by some people why I do not attend events at the clubhouse here at DWCL. My answer is many things. 1) Some people don’t accept everyone who live here. 2) Some people are rude, impolite and inconsiderate of other’s feelings. 3) I do not agree with all the rules enforced in said clubhouse, nor do I believe anyone should be banned from it for asking questions. 4) Between the HOA and Arch Emedias The rules are enforced unfairly and unevenly.
I tried to attend events and found myself feeling like a fifth wheel and that did not feel well. Some asked me to give it another chance to get involved more, I am sorry but, I say no. If you go to play a game and your told to tone it down, not to laugh loud or talk too much, that is not a social interaction to me anymore. Next problem is simple really, I do not do large crowds well, my ADHD kicks in and my PTSD, from my childhood and military career. I barely handle playing pool on Monday evenings, or going bowling on Friday afternoons. Yet I force myself to do so. Some have said, well, you don’t like it move, my response is simple, no energy for it, too old to do so, and money is tight.

This is not meant as a critsizing of anyone person, nor, do I mean to say this neighborhood is all bad. I do say, there are ways to make people feel welcome, who live here, and ways to treat people with respect, caring and just be nice, even if you do not like them. We live in a neighborhood of 55 plus individuals, who should know how to treat others with respect, decency and politness at least. People make decisions in their own ways and not all will like one another and that is understood by me and all who live here, I am sure. I walk alot and mind my own business, and I say hello to almost all I see when I do. I do not ignore people, I do not anger people or upset people in anyway. I live here so I try to get along with all, even if I do not like someone. I thought moving here would be a good idea for a widower of my age, I did not know I would be judged for what I say, or how I laugh, or if I talk loudly. There is a very old saying, Do not judge others, unless you wish to be judged yourself. For you will be.

In the end, Dell Webb Chauncy Lake, is like a modern project, just built like condos, and an enviroment much like the old TV Show Peyton Place was. Since i have been here, already two have committed suicide here. It is a place, in my opinion, built by Pulte, to milk seniors out of their money. It is also a place, that some are moved to because their families do not want to care for them. Sadly, today’s Amercian Society is failing it’s ederly generation and forgetting or ignoring us. Would I recommend Dell Webb Chauncy Lake to another person? No, I would not.

It’s not what they advertise online or on the television screens, and the people are not the friendliess around. It is a place built on cliques and groups, like a project is. So if you don’t fit in, you get pushed out, left out, or ignored and end up alone. Thus the suicides that have happened so far, and will probally happen again. Just because you live in a compound of so many people, it does not mean you will be accepted by them. Suicide is an option I am sure many have thought about living here, for that comes to mind when you feel isolated and alone in such an enviroment/ community. Depression will seep in, it happens, to many.

So, if your a widower, or widow, or divorcee, alone and on your own, this is not the place to find a future partner or lover. It’s a community where word, travels quickly, fingers get pointed fast, and talked about. Like I said it is a Peyton Place, of 55 plus people. While it is nice to have a clubhouse, an entertainment directer, a HOA to care for the grounds and such, it is also a cost to each resident each month. Keep that in mind also. Last thing, the build is not grerat here by Pulte in my opinion, mistakes are made and units are sold to people. Appliances are construction grade, and they go too. Maintance costs include, mainaince on your AC and HEAT/Hot Water units too ,each year. Plus your normal Utilities, TV services, Internet service too. Just so all know. Is there really an advantage or a pleasure thing about living in DWCL, in my opinion not really. yet many rersidents here , who have bought, play along and try to enjoy it to the best of their ability. Additional costs comes into to. play, if you get a parking space under your building. So, I always tell anyone, if you move here, make sure you have money in the bank, or a steady income, to cover these items and upgrades that may be needed.

I only want to say, Nothing and I mean Nothing, should stop, delay, or avoid for any reason, the Epstien Files and their release! The hundreds many thousands of victims who were young girls used by Epstien, Maxwell, and yes, it looks like Trump in everyway, was totally abusive, rapes and more. If Trump is named in those files, it should all be included and given out to the public immediately. Those young women now a days are suffering from it all and they deserve justice fully, not partially. If Melania Trump was Jeffery Epstien’s girlfriend or intimate with him she should be questioned legally before Congress and so should Donald J. Trump and anyone else named as a friend, associate of Jeffery Epstien, immediately. Thousands of Pictures of Trump half naked with these young girls are all ove rthe internet and in papers in America. Just because Americans were foolish enough top vote him to the Presidency for a second term, does not excempt, excuse or pardon Trump if he or anyone else touched these young girls. It is sex abuse at it’s worst and a shame and against all laws in all states of our Country. If Congress does not act and do something and release these file sin full, they should lal be removed from office as soon as humanly possible an dmade to face charges of aiding and abetting a pedophile and his associates.

The biggest shock of my life is how the Supreme Court is doing nothing about the Epstien files, the victimes and those who victimized the girls. Why are they not acting and why are they not forcing the release of all the files? Someone explain that please!

As it is now, Donald J. Trump is a 34 time convicted felon, who owes E.Jean Carrol for rape now, 5 million an dmore for it. On top of that he is a con man, corrupt as hell and a theif who is stealing from America. Someone needs to act and if Congress, either House or Senate does not act or take action, then, we need to clean out all Republicans from their offices they now hold. They are aiding and abetting Donald J. Trump and all who, touched these victims. Period!!!

Donald J. Trump started a damn war with Iran, to distract and slow down the release of these records period. Now we fight a war we don’t need and use up our weapons and money too. The economy is shit, prices rising daily on all items costing the average Americaqn more money each day. gas prices flew up on all Americans and oil prices too. Inflation, Illegal killing of Immigration and deportions, ktrying to kill American Citizens for people born here? Come on now. Add in Interfearing in Elections, and trying to stop mail in ballots an dmore. Be Real! The saddest thing I have ever seen on my 70 years alive in America is the fact, Americans voted Trump a second term in Office and now they are paying for it big time. It Must Stop, Trump should be Impeached again and removed under the 25th Admendment, he is incapable and incompetent in my opinion. What President would hold a Wrestling Match on the White House LAwn, none, it’s a disgrace to all Americans, period.

The United States was put together with three seperate Branchs of Government,what it is now, is run by one man and controlled by his party the Republicans. Sadly, America is now tipped in one direction under Donald Trump and The supreme Court is even in his favor at all times. America is being destroyed unde rthe current situation. I advise all Americans to neve rgive control of all three Branches and The Presidency to one party ever again! We are seeing the reason why each day we live in America since the last Election. How one man can scare so many Republicans into voting for all his decisions an dthey have no will or backbone of their own to say no to him. It’s sad as hell folks. Politicans on the Republican side are scare dof getting primaried by others at Trump’s direction, because they went against him. It’s a sad thing to see.

June 25th, 2026, Good Morning! As I sit here and think and after numerous conversations with other people regarding the state of the dating scene in Massachuetts and my area or Westborough, Worcester County, I find the odds, totally against finding anyone to date. Seems to me I may be too old at 70 years old first, secondly most women 60 and up, if widowed or divorced, are afraid of being used, abused or taken, and I get it I do.

Yet it is nice to have female friends first off to balance a man out. Secondly, their company and companionship is good for the soul.What isn’t good, is the fact the above is happening in todays world. Seems to find someone to date, is like pulling teeth first off, secondly, I get hesitatnt and frankly scared of asking anyone out, because of my age. while there are plenty of divorcees and widows around where i live the third problem comes up of dating someone where I live. Because as we all know whether we are men or women, women do talk big time. So make one mistake, and it will be all over the compound i live i and that would be like forcing me to move. So, it is all a catch 22 situation in many ways. Even if you ask, you have to think twice, and if it doesn’t go right well you get my drift.

I tried dating apps like Match, and others, and found out yes, even the women lie about things too. For one thing age they lie about, looks they us eothers photos at times and they make fake profiles. Been there seen it! I don’t need to be taken for money or belongings anymore than a women would want to be. So, I am at the point of surrender when it comes to women, because to approach and ask, is dangerous her in my book. I know of the story of a man who trie dthat here where I live and six months later he had to move and sell his condo. I am not going anywhere, I am too old to move again in my mind.

If anyone has a solution to the above dilimena, please feel free to let me know. I keep hoping, but never getting anywhere because of self doubt, fears and in the end my age. So,if ya have a solution I would love to hear it, feel free to make suggestions or give ideas to me at wmccurrach20@gmail.com, or if you know me in person.

Saturday May 23rd, 2026 is upong us and it is what is called Memorial Day Weekend. Which believe it or not has been commercialized into a party weekend, across the USA. People pack up and go to beaches, or picnics or parties together and have fun and some get drunk and fall down and so much more. But, it is important that we remember what Memorial Day Really is folks. IT’s a day and time to reflect on the men and women who gave their all to preserve and protect what we all have, Democracy, our Republic,our Bill of Rights and our Constitution. Our way of life and those who gave their for all of us to enjoy the life we have in America.

I know as a Disabled American Veteran who served and did my duty for 16 years, all Veterans and all who have given and gave all we could, just like to be reconignized and a simple Thank You said to us, for all we did. There have been questions asked like, why did we do what we did, why did we serve so well, or so long? I shall tell you what many do not understand, we do not do so for ourselves as members of the military, we do it for the families we leave at home, the wives, the husbands, the sons the daughters the relatives we love so well. We do it so they may stay free, so they may stay happy and flourish and enjoy all the freedoms we have. Across the world there are countries that don’t have free speech, that don’t have rights like we do. They don’t and can’t do as they please because they will be persecuted, attacked and banned or killed for doing thinhgs wrong or not in accordance with what they are told to do. And we should ge grateful that, it hasn’t come to America that way as of yet. But, we should also, guard against it and stop it when we see it coming!

No man is a King in America folks! No one should be a King in America, so said our Forefathers, almost 250 years ago now! They believed in No Taxation Without Representation. They Believed in the right to speak and say what was right or to voice their opinions. They believed in the Right to Bear Arms, for the protection of self and home. These are basic beliefs in America today and they should stay and stand. There is no place or reason to change them, for they have worked for 250 years folks. As KIng Charles of England said, Power Unchecked kills folks, it destroys and checks and balances were built into our laws and Constitution and our Bill of Rights. Congress needs to wake up, it needs to use it’s checks and balances and guide and protect and defend our Constitution, our Bill of Rights and stop anyone one man from becoming a King or Dictator.

If Your Congressperson or Senator is not voting to protect and defend your rights and not voting to stop one man from becoming a King or Dictator, than they do not belong in office. They should be Voted out come November, I don’t care how much money they have, or how long they have been in office. They need to go, for they have lost the ability to think independently, to make decisions on their own, and the ability to be apart of the checks and balance system the Forefathers invented and maintained. If one can not stand tall and say No More Wars and mean it, or they can’t stand and say stop it, they need to go. If they can’t help American get Healthcare or pay their bills or feed our families, they need to go. If they can’t come to work daily in Congress like they are supposed to, they shouldn’t be there or get paid or have the benedfits they have. They are not earning them folks.

Do me a favor this Memorial Day, as you think of those Veterans who gave their all, think also of the ones who are doing nothing to defend, protect and help those of us at home here. The citizens of America need people in office, who can say no, who can explain why they say no and know how to build, and create, and block the want of one man to be King or Dictator. We don’t need a bunch of kiss ass, whiney people in Congress who go yes sir, yes sir, two bags full, we will voted for whatever you wish to do! It’s time American stood tall, it’s time we all wake up and say no more! Billions of our dollars are being used for toys and to build bullshit projects for one man’s whims. Millions of Americans are being sent to war, for one man’s whim, with no justification or reason given. I know I have heard the call, of No Nukes for Iran. That same call was used on other nations too, that now have nukes and didn’t and havent used then since getting them. So, the No NUkes for Iran doesn’t fly with me and shouldn’t with you either. It’s stupid, our wives, husbands and sons and daughters are fighting a war we do not belong in, and for what reason, one man wanted it and made it so. Congress needs to stop him, now and bring our military home!

We need Health care for our ederly, seniors and disabled implimented. We need our economy turned around and lower gas and fuel prices, We need lower food costs and utility costs too. We need people in office who care about America and it’s people an dour way of life a lot more than we need to be policing the damn world! We are not the police of the world, it isn’t our job to fix everything for everybody. And yes, we say we are the most powerful forces on the planet and we are, but, we won’t be forever folks. Not if we waste our munitions and man power and knowledge to fight every war and everyone the world doesn’t like. we wil lbe diminished, weaker and less capable, in no time. It is not always the biggest gun, that wins folks, sometimes, it is the smartest, mast capable who wins and that should be us.

This Memorial Day, The United States of America, should rededicate itself to the ways and thoughts of it’s Forefathers. We should dedicated our country to Freedoms, to Equality, to Peace, to no Taxazation without Representation. We should remember what was fought for in the Revoluntionary War folks. We should remeomeber those who gave their lives for all we have an dbuild on it, not let one man, one tyrant, or dictator or would be King destroy it! Since when does the United States Governement, allow people to attack it’s capital and the police and defenders of it and then pay them for doing so? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! They attacked the capital, but now, they want paid for doing so, and we the people are stupid enough to allow it to happen, nooooooooooooooooooo! Call your Congress Person, Call your Senators, protest and stop this from happening. Thats our tax dollars they want to hand over to people who attacked our capital and way of life at the bidding of one man. Wake up folks, ya gonna pay your neighbor to attack your home next? Hell no, not in my life, would I allow it and neither should you.! Stop this stupid Fund from being paid out or used to pay these people now!

I do hope and pray, This Memorial Day of 2026 for all of those who gave their all to protect and defend and establish this Country and Union. I also HOpe and pray that America wakes up, and changes what needs changed to keep us going. Vote out the people who say Yes to everything one party wants or one man wants. Lets change this now, or we shall all be sitting here, soon enough wishing we did, soon enough. I didn’t serve my country, to see one an come in and take over and estroy it from within and i don’t think anyone Veteran alive or deceaseddid either folks. Vote out the Yes Sir, Yes Sir , Two Bags full people and lets take back our country and find a way to fix the affordability factor too. LIFE in America is supposed to be for the LAND OF THE FREE!

My Life is a slow paced moving one and at 70 even slower than ever before. Why, some may say, well, I am not Mr. Popular, or Mr. Comedy, or Mr. Music or Mr. Know it all. I am not Mr. Handsome or pretty either. Years ago I wrote a short story and called it An Ordinary Man thats me. Someone who plows through each day at a steady pace, takes care of just what I need to and doesn’t interfear or bother anyone else. I gave up on trying to fit in all the time. I don’t care what anyone thinks of me anymore, I am 70 now, I did my life and did it decently.

I started slowly as a kid and was not really liked or wanted even by my own mother. I have attention deficiet disorder and hyperactivity and it always got me in trouble. I didn’t like school like other kids at 5 years old and I fought the system and wanted to do my own things always. By, my 10th, birthday, I was such a bother and pain in the ass, my mother signed me away to The State and had me put away for two years. I survived that too in my own way. While put away I saw drugs used for the first time, I saw a suicide happen, and saw fights like never before. I argued with the State and Social Workers for the two years and always avoided physical violence. At least the best I could, for my own safety.

By the time I returned home, The house had all new furniture and carpets. My living was arranged, in such a way I was on my own mostly and got shafted by my elder brother into caring for our younger siblings as our parents worked. I had a step-father who was physically abusive to me and a younger brother too. My elder brother escaped into sports and still says to this day that is his excuse for abandoning the family. It is all kinda sad in many ways.

By the time I left High School, I had, exactly one girlfriend who I drifted from easily. I had a handful of friends was all, and I was basically on my own. The High School, Suspended me for something I did, and they wanted my parents to come in to get me back. My Parents refused, so I was told by my step-father, get a job or get out of the house, pay my way. I did for a few years. But by the time the job went under, I still had to move out. He refused to pay for a kid not in school anymore. I moved in to the YMCA in town for a while, about two or three years. Doing odd jobs and jumping from Factory to Factory which I hated.

I surrendered one day and joined the Army and I hated that too and was given a Trainee Discharge, under Honorable conditions. Army life was not for me and I knew it and so did The Army Drill Sargent, who recommended it. I went back home to the YMCA basically and lived alone again, till I couldn’t find a way to survive. I wandered ito a U.S. Navy Recruiting Office one day and signed up and became a US Sailor for 12 years after being a National Guardsman for 3.5 or so. In the End I ended up serving my country for 16 years total. I grew up and matured while in the Navy mostly, and even married and had two daughters. I lost them, when my first wife divorced me. But, life went on anyway and they did grow up ok in their own way. For me, it was a lose, that was hard to overcome but I did do it. I moved on and fought, and ended up marrying a second time for 28 years and no more kids. The total of years I was married came out to 40 total between the two marriages, believe it or not. 12 for the first, 28 for the second. Not bad I say for a 70 year old man.

The Veteran’s Administration put me back to school in my late 30’s and I graduated from college with a Hospitality Degree, two Honor Societies and Awards in 1997. I won a Reward for the best Hospitality and Hotel Management Student and more. While the education was vital and helpful, it didn’t do much for my job prospects or the way I did my life. I lasted a few years running hotels until I couldn;t anymore due to my back injury from the Navy. My Honorable under Medical Conditions DD-214 was vital, I did something right for sure.

Life would move on for me, and in the end I can honestly say, I think I did ok. My second wife was a blessing in many ways, patient, understanding and guiding me. I loved her to pieces believe me. we had a beautiful home and a life of joy and laughter and love. I dealt with all she threw at me and vice versa I can honestly say. We rented rooms to many individuals over the 28 years together and made friends with many. We had friends all over the place, but, by the time my second wife, passed of cancer in 2021, we were always together and alone.The runs to the Doctors, tests, scans, chemo and radiation were killers and took our times away. Yet, we always had one another and I stayed with her always. 16 years, we fought her breast cancer and kept her going. Scans, doctors, Mayo clinic and more. Each day was run to the Medical Hospital first when she needed it. In the end the battle was a great one to keep her alive, as long as we did. I also suffered in the middle and ended up with lung cancer in 20213 an dhad a lobe and a third of my right lung removed, no chemo, no radiation, nothing I survived.

Then, one day it all came to an end suddenly. we were watching tv, in the evening when she suddenly slumped to one side. I propped her up with pillows and tried to keep her comfortable. Then I called an ambulance and away we went. The emergency Room was first. Then a few days later she came home again and seemed normal. We were watching tv and it was bedtime again, so I asked her to come to bed. She said no she was staying in the recliner and sleeping there. I couldn’t get her to move. So I went to bed alone.

At 3 am, I was awaken by banging on the walls. I got up and ran downstairs and there she was, in the half bathroom doorway on the floor and couldn’t get up. I examined her and got her to her feet and to a chair. Told her i was calling the ambulance again. She fought me over it and I had to call her daughter for help. The daughter called her mother’s sister, and the debate went on too long for my liking I called the damn ambulance and followed her to the Hospital. It was the beggining of the end folks. The hospital admitted her, did all testing and scans over the next few days, and held her. Then, they transferred her to a Rehab Facility and tried to rehab her. She would never come home again with me. From the Rehab Facility she was transferred to a Covalencent Home down the street from our home. Every Day I would get up and go see her and sit by her side as long as I could watching tv with her, feeding her and talking to her the best I could. It became a routine, Wake up, shower, shave, get dressed rush down for visiting hours and stay. I ate very little and tried to keep her company. we had covid at the time in the air and, many were not allowed to visit patients except immediate family.

So July of 2021, at the end of the month to be precise, July, 29th, 2021, I went to visit her like always. I walked in and she couldn’t feed herself anymore, her arm would not respond to going to her mouth she was frozen trying to eat. I fed her and she fell to sleep. I decided then and there to find out what was happening here. I was upset po one was feeding her or taking care of her anymore. I went to The Administrator’s office and asked why. The answer was they had too many patients and were understaffed. I then asked how long she had left on her medicare coverage. They said three days, and it would be 350.00 a day to care for her. I asked for Hospice to come in and evaluate her for home care and they did. The next day the equipment showed up at our home and, she was delivered at home on August 1, 2021.

I called in my sister and we took care of her the best we could. It would only be ten days. I had to sign a DNR for her, to be on hopsice and get help. I talked to my wife and she knew she was on a DNR. I went in and talked to her on August 8th and it would be the last time she talked. I kissed her forehead and told her I loved her dearly and to go ahead and join her parents, and rest peacefully. Her last words to me were she loved me too. She never spoke again to me. On August 10th, at 5;45 pm, she took her last breath and departed this planet. I miss her deeply thats for sure. My life changed forever more and I am humbled and sad when I think of her these days.

Never once in the 16 years we fought her cancer, did she complain, cry out in pain, or anything, She kept a positive outlook, and always helped, all she loved. I still remember the day I married her and what our vows were. we promised to love and cheerish one another and to learn and grow from one another, we did for 28 years. God bless her for all she did and all she was, she is well missed in many ways these days.

As to me these days, well, I am 70 now, I sold the home we had and everything in it with my sister’s help. I couldn’t stay there where my wife had passed, I couldn’t handle it emotionally. I ended up in a Condo in Massachuetts alone of course. These days I remind myself of our life together and think of the memories each day. I live alone in a 55 plus community, and stay by myself, afraid of getting involved with anyone. No I don’t date much, no, I am not chasing women around, for any reason. I still love women and alwys will, but, I have learned over time and my life, any relationship is a two way commitment and I can’t afford taking care of a woman constantly anymore. It’s nothing personal against women, it’s just a logical fact to me, from a finacial stand point, anyway. I am a Disabled Veteran, who lives off his disability and social security, and no woman wants a a man, my age anyway. When you reach 70, you learn, these things and accept it all and just try to enjoy what time you have left. So, I try to stay mentally active by writting poems, blogs and stories. I play pool once or twice a week, depending on moods and weather and such. I try to bowl when I can, for fun and even joined a Senior Bowling League for fun. Otherwise it is a date or dinner here and there, now and then, and I walk alot, alone, these days. I sometimes stop and wonder, did I do right by moving to a 55 plus community or not. I do not participate in Community Events here. I can’t take large crowds, I shy from them, most people find me noisey and loud at times because I laugh. And some even have told me to tone it down so others can think to play games. So I did, I curtailed any appearances at public events, I don’t attend them now. I stay alone and talk to very few people, I find myself, just thinking and hoping I go out in my sleep. But, I am still here so, I go on the best I can. That is where I am now, alone and writting this blog. God Bless, to All, time shall tell what is next for me.

I have like all, lived through stages of life. Childhood, Teenage years, leading to first loves. First relationships and on of course. I also survived dropping out of High School, and wnet back to get my GED. Then Joined the Military, and became a husband, a father of two, and went through a divorce I didn’t want. I survived that and military life for 16 years, and became disabled asa Veteran. The VEterans’ administration put me back to schooling, and I got a Associates Degree in Hotel Management at 41 years old. Yet the Disability stopped me from working. I married a second time and between that and my first marriage I was married 40 out of the 70 years I have been alive. Not bad if you ask me. My second wife passed in 2021 and I am still here.
Now i have entered the closing years i believe. My bodt aches, the pains ramain and i carry on the best I can. The final question still remains for me, how much longer can my life be. A great question no one can answer abouth themselves for sure. So, I try to carry-on the best I can, laugh when I can, and enjoy what I can do. The slow coasting to an end, will happen I know, so all I can do is let it. we all face the ending at some point, I know, I have outlived my parents who died respectfully at 55 and 59. My Grand Fathers passed, at 74 and 72. I am now 70, I await what God and Destiny and Fate have in store is all, and that my friends, is all a man, can do.

May 3rd, 2026, has arrived. As we head into the end of spring and beggining of summer for 2026, I believe Americans need to realize some facts. Number one- We elected the wrong man to the Presidency for a second a term, and he choose a worse person for his Vice President too. Secondly, the American Economy is now shit, prices rise daily on all items from gasoline to food to clothing. Thirdly, Health Insurance is now, too costly for the average American to Afford and needs to be brought down. 4) Forthly, We do not belong in a war with Iran in anyway. We are not the world’s police force folks, our people are dying and the Strait of Hormus is not gonna get opened by what is being done. Sadly, Trump is not smart enough politically or otherwise to win in this case. We can not maintain our military posture halfway around the world and win.

We need Health Care help for Americans, We need Social Policies to save our own people. We need jobs, we need lower prices on everything, we need help. Americans made a bad choice for President and now we must deal with it properly. The Mid-Terms must balance the power in the House and The Senate now. That will have to be the first major change needed. Second Trump must be held to to the War Powers Act and he must turn to Congress if he goes any further we are over the 60 day limit now. Trump is breaking U.S. Policies and laws in all ways. We should have known this when he was reelected. Americans were foolosh enough to run from electing a female President now twice, instead it choose to elect a 34 times convicted felon, a con man, a suspected pedophile, why? Where are the rest of the Epstein files too?

Let me say this as plain as I can, America is not the world’s defender or babysitter. We can not continue to support and defend the world when we can no longer take care of our own at home here. We have homelessness, hunger, joblessness, Veterans begging for help, jobs lost and losing more and an Economy thats in the trash, look at the numbers. Gas prices are topping 5 dollars a gallon soon or more across the country. Food prices climb daily, health care prices are high and getting worse. Folks if we can not get our own country in order and fix our own economy, and health care and help our own domestically, we can not and should not be spending BIllions and Billions on fighting a war elsewhere. we have children who need medical help, Seniors and Veterans who need help here at home. if your an American and don’t realize what I am saying here, then you are blind to what is really happening, to Amercia these days.

We need to help our own before we babysit and correct the world. We have no business, fighting Iran on our own, no business correcting Ukraine and Russia or listening to Israel. There comes a time Americans when we must pull back and tell these countries, they must fight their own wars and we must defend and help our own. We are falling in social and political status in the world and slowly but surely under Trump, becoming a third world nation and not maintaining our Republic and Democracy well, at all at home. here.

Now, let me say this, and I say it with pride as an American Veteran who served his country for 16 years, we need to help our own first. The American Military does not belong spread out, and fighting wars we have no business in at all. Iran having Nukes or not, is an important issue yes, but, it should also be a concern for all nations, and all countries around the globe. The Strait being closed is an issue not just for Americans but for the world, France, Germany, Italy, Spain, Greece and more should all be working and fighting to open the Strait. The fact they are not tells us they are weak or scared to do so. We as Americans are not the world’s police force folks and nor should we be. Why are we doing this and why has Congress not curtailed and stopped Trump? Sadly, it is based in a major mistake made by the American people. Simply put, we should never again allow one political party to control the House, The Senate and White House at one time. We should be embarrassed and humiliated that The King Of The United Kingdom had to come to America to remind Congress that no leader or King is without checks and balances, or beyond control. He reminded Americans that the Magna Carta was written to prevent a Leader from starting wars on their own. Checks and balances were built in for a reason folks, wake up, it’s time Congress and the American People put in use the checks and balances they were given now.

Let me conclude this in this way folks. There is no shame or humiliation in admitting Americans made a mistake in Electing Donald J. Trump President! There is no shame in saying enough either, or stopping what he is doing to us and the world. There is shame in not admitting the mistake, covering it up or ignoring it. There is shame in allowing one man, the power to destroy what it took America 250 years to establish, and enjoy. The Free Press, Freedom of Speech, The Civil Rights Acts, the power of the People to Vote, All vital in America folks. The killing of the 1965 Voting Act is a serious problem and infringement on the Rights of the People of America no matter the color or race they are a part of. Yet, here it happened and the Supreme Court Trump put in place killed it, why? It worked just fine from 1965 till 2026, so why kill it? Simply put Trump wanted it gone is all and sadly they followed him and his wishes. Don’t you get it folks, Trump is hiding his crimes, stealing from America left and right and getting away with it. Why? Simple folks you allow him to do these things, you did it it, you voted him President, you voted the House and Senate, all one party. Now in the end Americans and our country are in serious trouble and no one is acting to stop him yet. How Far will Americans allow this to continue?

I was told when I was young, to always be careful and think before doing, and then get it done! Dad, was a machinist and a fisherman and musician, mom was a Nurse life would go right, so we were warned to be able to make adjustments as we go. It is a lesson, I think all learned as we grew up.

We adjust to losing friends, lovers and yes spouses. we adjust to losing parents and relatives too. Jobs come and go and we all know, not every job is for us. we make our money, we take our loses, we enjoy our victories and we go on. Moms and Dads, build into each of us, the drive to survive, and the knowledge to do so. And as kids we do not realize it until it hits us in later life. The realization that they were right when they taught us, hard work, dedication, loyality and determination. The realization when they taught us, don’t be too greedy, don’t treat others with disrespect, be kind, but, be careful. It’s amazing, the things, that are passed on from one generation to the next in families.

We carry forward traits, talents,patienance, determination. We carry forward the ability to learn and grow and we pass it on to our children too. What no one can teach, although we try to, is how to overcome grief. How long does it take to do so? That is not handed down or found in any text book or podcast or blog. That is a feeling of knowing for yourself, inside, how long to grieve for the ones you have lost. Each of us do it in different ways. Some walk alone forever once a spouse is lost. Some, move on overa period of time and let the memories stay, but the connection evaporates, and we determine it is time. It is a process I know, I have lived it now for the past 5 years come August of 2026. Yet, I also know as i was recently told, it is one thing to survive and be a live, it is another thing to be alive and actually live fully, and enjoy life. many see us daily, he ones who have taken the loses, and just scan right by and go, oh they will be ok. And thats fine in such a fast moving world and society that we live in. Few slow down enough to realize, they are leavingbehind the ones who took the biggest loses. And until we the ones, who suffered said loses, wake up and go, wait a minute, I can change this, and be happier, we don’t do it, do we?

An old saying comes to mind as I write this, time heals all wounds. It heals illnesses, that can be healed, broken bones, broken relationships if you try and make it so. Time also eases the pain of loses folks, and the grieving will always be a part of me, yes, but, I also know, no two people are the same and the world goes on. As my deceased wife who passed in 2021, told her daughter regarding me, after she died, ” He will be fine, fo rhe is a realist, he knows what he has to do to continue on and will do so at his own pace!” I believe fully she was right, she knew, she knew me well enough, she knew how I thought, how I react and that I would grieve her, but she also knew there would come a time, when the loneliness, would be too much, and I would have to move on to live more. She was wise, she was loyal, she was kind and she was pure smart. I miss her counsole, I miss her guidance, I miss her wisdom, and I miss her love and kindness. I am now without it all, and have learned such a relationship, is not easy to find in todays world.

So I do what every other person who is widowed does, I struggle through day by day. I take care of myself the best I can. I try to find what I like to do and do it, for we are only here for so long. I read when I want, I write when I want, I walk when I want. I play games when I want, and I go for drives when I want. Each day is a challenge to wake up to, what pills must I take, what Doctors must I see, what can I find to do, to make me busy and happy? It is all a challenge as we age is it not? What makes it a harder challenge, is when you lose the one you were doing it with. Then you begin to fly in circles, that can turn into a downward spiral if not careful. So, you have to come to a time when you realize, I have to climb up out of the despair and grief, I am still here and alive. That is where i find myself folks, looking for that magical connection, that one thing or more, that will make me want to live again, in happiness. Is it out there for me, I do not know, but like one person told me, if I don’t look and be open to finding it, it won’t just find me. So, I try to stay open, I try to laugh, I try to talk, I try to interact. I amnot good at it of course, I spent 28 years with the same woman, married and happy. We fall into patterns of life we know, and when we lose out spouse, we try to keep the direction we were in, but like a bird with abroken wing we falter some, and learn to slow down and not run. I am not looking to run again at 70, but I want to briskly walk on, and find that one woman who can walk with me, laugh with me, converse with me, and enjoy life again with. Is it asking too much at 70? I don’t know, but I will be damned, if I won’t at least stay open enough to try!