Hello January, 1st, 2024, the new Year has arrived! What the New Year shall bring for me I have no idea, I believe that is true for billions world-wide also, inclusing the animals of our planet too. We can not predict the future, what shall happen is beyond our capabilities to understand or to change. The world is not ours to shape, except to do our best to preserve it.
Each day, we live is a blessing for each of us, I know, because, I am now 67 and soon to be 68 if I get there, this month. Each day I open my eyes, I wonder why I am still here on this planet, whats my purpose, what am I supposed to be doing and I end up, doing each day like the last. I have learned in my life that destiny and fate control me more than I do myself. Yes, there is nothing much left if you have no one else to live for, the loss of my wife in August of 2021 was a major loss in m life. I miss her voice, her smile, her laughter, her straightening me out. Her touch, her warmth, her kindness, and in the end her companionship in all ways. If you find someone who fullfills all of the above for you in your life, don’t let them go, for they bring joy, love, happiness and most of all that companionship,we all need. Yes, I do miss my deceased wife, I struggle daily without her, I sometimes talk to her and to myself about her in private. But, this is not something that is strange, many of us do the same, when it comes to our deceased spouses, I am sure.
Anyway, time waits for no one as we all know it shall roll on and on, and we as human being only have so much time on this planet. We grieve for thise we have lost, we struggle through the emotional turmoil and pain, and we attempt to keep going is all. It’s what we all have to do, isn’t it?
Now, I realize she is gone and have for sometime now, and yes life is lonely, it can get depressing and all one can do is press on through, the alternative is not a choice. Some will commit suicide, the depression and loss and grief, gets to all of course. The fact is, those who do give up in such a fashion, leave behind others they affect greatly too. They just don’t realize it when they do it, and are so depressed they can’t handle life anymore and want to say goodbye. It is a struggle for me I must admit, but, I can’t see me, myself, going in such a way.
As to the future and what 2024 will bring or not bring for me, I do not know. I doubt it will be a ride on a roller coaster or a ferris wheel type thing. Will there be happiness I do not know,will there be a new woman in my life, a lover, a friend ? I have my doubts thats for sure, I never was a social butterfly type and as we age we get older, set in our ways, we don’t get more handsome o rprettier we wrinkle and we seem to just keep plodding ahead. Our bodes are not what they used to be, our vision starts to fade, and we become elderly, and slower and care less what others think of us. LOL!
I have learned that, as we age,society begins to push us aside, ageism is indeed a factor ! For no where you go, is american society set up for the elderly at all. Yes we have handicapped parking, and electric doors, but there is no place for the elderly to meet others in their own age ranges. So, we muddle through,we hunt, we peck, we look for places to go to enjoy the golden years of our life. Some go traveling, with their partners or loved ones, but what of the elderlies like me who are alone? What do we do? We go day by day, night by night alone, end up building puzzles, reading books, watching tvs, playing on computers or video games. We walk for exercise, and we tend to stay alone, because we are scared of getting involved with anyone else, rejection in your 60’s is no fun folks ! Dating apps cost money, everything you do in life cost money to do. We can’t afford to play that game and many of us who are elderly, realize the cost of dating apps, we also realize those who are on them, can scam you, take your money, and can be cruel and mean too. So, I tried them and then, I walked away from them, too dangerous in my opinion, we elderly are on set incomes and limited by that also and we can’t afford to blow wha money we have, we must live. While people in general want to live till they hit 100, trying to get there can be be a bitch so to say. So, we go day by day, try to avoid going broke, or losing what we have and pray our health holds on.
I personally have faced cancer in my life, and I don’t know if I may have it again right now. Coughing is a bad sign for a lung cancer survivor, and I have been doing so for a over a week now. I am lucky I am a Disabled Veteran and can go to Doctors to get checked for free. I have somethings being done, my teeth are being rebuilt, my eyeglasses have been ordered and the VA will scan my lungs come January 23rd, to see if I am ok. My Medications come from the VA. and all my healthcare. Time shall tell what is next, I just try to get out of bed each day, have my coffee and thank god my eyes opened and I can walk and talk still. We face not only old age, declining health these days as we age, but there is covid, RSV Flu, Pnumonia and more. We all try to stay safe, keep warm, stay away from others who are sick, but it does become a cycle of isolation to survive. It’s a Catch 22 situation, that all of us have to face and deal with daily.
We do tend to face the addition of what the medical community and government are now calling the Loneliness Syndrome. Many Americans and people across the world are facing it too. Society it seems has become a problem unto itself. We avoid contact due to covid and other illlnesses. Then, we avoid contact out of fear of rejection, being taken avantage of, scams and more. We do so, to protect ourselves and that is normal in many cases and most cases, but it harms each of us, because isolation, leads to depression and more. I am not a Doctor folks, nor aspecialist in any medical or mental field of healthcare, but, I am smart enough to see, that all this seperation and isolation is not good for you or for me. People tend not to talk to one another anymore and that is sad in this world. How to change it, I don’t have the answer, not even Doctors and Specialist do. Recommendations are that we all try to be more friendly,we should all talk at least, for no communication, kills. Yet, many ofus go, if I say something will I get in trouble, will it cause a fight or scene, I don’t need to get involved, etc. And we tend to keep our distance as I said, out of fear, anxieties and more. Is there a way to overcome it all, I have no idea and I don’t think many do either, sadly, this is not the 40’s, 50’s or even the 60’s 0r 70’s in America. Our solution is it seems e-mails, electrionic devices, computers, cell phones, but, does anyone else see like I do, that that is not the same as, when we were kids. We played with one another outside, now, kids stare at tv screens, adults have joined in on cell phones, it’s like we are all being programmed these days. It is indeed sad, is modern tech now taking over our lives and are we being programmed by it all? I find it to be a very interesting question, for human beings world wide to consider now. Is the age of electronic communication,and gaming in general, including cell phones, computers, gaming conseoles, television, taking over and controlling us? Or are we controlling it, or is there something to it all.? How dangerous is it all ? I think the parents of the 50’s and 60’s were right, go play outside with others, society worked so much better back then.
As we begin 2024, we must begin to ewalize, wars are bad, food is shorta nd so is water in reality, we are using up the resources of our planet and atmosphere at a deadly rate. You can not keep taking from thenatural resources with out giving them time to replenish,just as you cannot keep eating everything in sight and expect it to be there if you don’t plant or raise it. Species are dying out, oceans are rising, and instead of mankind doing something toprotect itself and change the worldand enviroment, we are destroying one another and killing each other, wake up ! Death, destruction has to stop, the enviroment must be cleaned up for mankind to survive. Takea good look around folks, temperatures are rising, water supplies dwindling, oceans are rising, and icebergs are melting. Elephants and tigers and lions and more are dying out or being slaughtered and species disappear and no one cares it seems. Wake up, Mankind isthe only species on thisplanet that is destroying it’s own climate, envoroment and world, and in the end, if it doesn’t stop, we shall be barren and a wasteland on earth, just like Mars !
Welcome to 2024, the real concerns, need faced. We also, should never allow, oneperson,or many people of a group, or political party of bend, to destroy democracy, our country this republic of America. I pray, that America can stay a republic, a democracy and a leader in the world. We don’t need criminals, running it, and the laws we live by, apply to all of us. I know we are now in an Election Year in America, let me say this, if America as a country,wants to survive, exist, lead and not be laughed at, we need to end The Trump Movements, End MAGA, stop letting one man, destroy the very fabric of pur Republic, Our Democracy, our Nation ! You can agree or disagree, on the political points and matters facing us all, yet, in the end, I pray America is smart enough, adult enough, to stop Trump, and his movement now. For in the end,no man or woman is above the laws of this land, he doesn’t belong in the White House, he is destructive to our nation. Period.
And that is my opinion, thoughts as we begin 2024 ! I pray, it shall be better than all the years before it for all Americans and Mankind too !
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