January 9th, 2024 is upon us, been a slow, overcast day, with the snow that fell here lately, They are calling for another storm, some snow and rain next. Seems I am in a valley area that attracts these things in the winter, I had no idea. Being new to Westborough, Mass and Massachuestts as a state, I had no idea here. Yet, I live din Connecticut for most of my life, so snow is no big deal to me.
As to things other than weather for me, I don’t go out much except to shop for groceries or to Doctors and Dentists. I basically gave up on trying to find a woman to replace my wife who died, first off, I don’t believe I will find another like her, secondly the women in Westborough, Mass, and the area seem either stuck-up, or scarred or not in my age range. It will probally be along, lonely, life for me, till I finally pass away and joing my deceased wife. I have come to accept the fact that, I am not a handsome man, nor am I a comic or laughing all the time. So, I walk a lot as I have said before and build puzzles, watch tv and read when I can. I definitely fell like one of those Grouchy Ole Men in that old movie, I could probaly pass for Walter Mathue in it. I have surrendered like he did, and putter day by day is all.
I don’t playing golf folks, nor am I a big fan of pickleball these days after trying it and hurting my ankle. I bought a guitar and was going to teach myself, but, I have lost interest in doing so. It would take a large effort by me to learn it, and I don’t want to pay for lessons. Hell, I wil be 68 in 16 days now. I am not running any races, nor competing with another man for a woman’s attention. I don’t want any woman reading this, thinking I hate women or don’t like them, that would be false. I just accept the fact, they are scared, have anxieties, are not interested in an elderly man my age anyway they want someone younger. I guess the younger men, bring them more joy. I find the town of Westborough a nice place overall, yet it has no place for the elderly, besides it’s Senior Center. I find the town as a whole, pretty rough on it’s Senior Citizens, if your going to build condos for 55 plus people in your townm you should not be raising taxes on those seniors at a crazy rate, and if your attracting us due to these complexes you should be giving us a break to stay. The people are nice, but, realistically, the town is built for a younger generation.
The hardest part of being a widower is pulling yourself back together after the loss of your spouse. Then, you try to get used to not having a parther to talk to, to take care of or to support you. Many like myself have moved away from where they loss their spouse and into condos like these in Westborough. We do so, to have aplac eof our own, we grieve, and we survive and interact with others our age the best we can. As adults we know not to get involved with others in any serious relationship that live here. It is easy to see why, you cross that line, and something goes wrong in anyway, and it becomes a mess and one half or the othe ris forced to leave the complex. relationships can be messy for sure in that way, never mind how messy that can be at our ages here.
Making friends is one thing like I say, but crossing the line is a mess if you get my drift. So many of us, just do events put on by the community. For me I find nothing interesting in Bingo, or Majong, or Dominios really. POker players get together here also and play, but, they are pros for sure. Shit I don’t even use the swimming pool here in the hot months. If one person gets sick, and it spreads like wildfire in such a community too, so being careful is what we all are. Many belive when you get older and go to a retirement community it’s all fun and games, and there is a high rate of interaction between men and women on a sexual basis, but again, when you live in the same complex you are crossing a line one should never do.
The next problem with living in such a retirement community is, it is like Peyton Place was on TV. Everyone watches one another and the gossip and rumor mill runs wild. You do something, and before you know it, it is all over the compound that you did and the talking begins. people point fingers, make statements, and it causes animonisty and anger and can get out of control for sure, as others choose sides. So, I avoid it all, in all ways I can, by staying to myself, minding my own buisness, and not commenting on most or all that happens. Not my business in my opinion.
As to venturing out in the town or neighboring towns I don’t do that either, because i have no idea of any place to go out to, or what to do where. I get advice like you should get out more, but going anywhere alone sucks. I am used to having a wife to do thiongs with, and of course she is gone now. Then I get questioned about family, well I have none close to me, and I am alone, is my answer. I refuse to bea burden or impose on anyone period. I won’t go there, it’ isn’t right in my mind or heart either.
As to other items, I have been tracking sports, I follow the Celtics, The Pats, my Vikings, The Red Sox too. I am a sports fan in most sports, Hockey may be the one exception for me, if I can’t follow it due to the pace or see the ball, well. lol !
Sometimes I wonder, what will happen next in politics in America or in the world too. Wars in two areas, Congress not acting right, fake Impeachments not needed, being done out of revenge not, on real basis or evidence. All crazy in today’s America. An ex-President who believes he has full immunity for crimes he committed in office, states banning him from ballots, 91 charges, 4 indictments against one ex_president, who already has 2 impeachments while in office. Documents taken out of Washington, DC that were Tap Secret and Secret stored in a private residence in Florida. W ehad riots after the 2020 Election in Washington, calle dby a President and that islablean insurrection now. HUndreds in jail because a President asked them to do what they did. Be real here folks, we saw it all on television, President Trump called for the Proud Boys, Oath Keepers and more toc ome to Washington that day. Be real, then he directed them to go to the capital. I fthat is not leading a riot and insurrection, I don’t know what is. Be real.
I want to add one more thing here, if, the Appeals Court or Supreme Court holds that Trump had immunity for everything that happened leading up to and surrounding January 6th, and all the occurred after, while he was in office, what doe sthat say for future Presidents and what they can do while in office and get away with ? So, you telling me, that a Presidentc an order his rival can be ordered killed by him and he doesn’t have to pay for it or be held accountable for it ? Hmm, if so, stop and think what can be done while a President is in Office for 4 years, if it is hidden, or not. American Democracy would be done folks, out Republic is shot then and we don’t elect President’s anymore, we elect short term dictators ! We are Americans folks we know better than that, and i am sure the courts know too. What is happening in Trump’s cases here, and what he has done, has never happened in 235 years of this countries extistance and should never be allowed, you know it and so do I. I admire the States of Colorado and Maine for being brave enough to step up and ban Trump, I think more states should too. God Bless America is all I can say and I pray Trump is banned,, tried and convicted and removed from all ballots.
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