Friday January 19th, 2024 has arrived and yes I woke up and am alive. Never thought I would be here at this age and getting ready to turn 68, in lets see, six days. I honestly thought I would be dead at 40, because of the life I lived in my younger days. Others who lived the same type of life I did, have not survived as long and are gone. I have seen accidental deaths, and suicides as they have gone by, people who I never thought would be gone are indeed gone. I never thought I would see, myself still kicking, yet here I be.
As I get ready to turn 68 on January 25th, 2024, I do so, missing my wife of 28 years still. Yet, I also know she can not comeback to me, nor can I reach her. I know many will tell me, to begin to move on and I wnat to, but, since i havent found anyone to do so with, the memories draw me back to her. I also know the memories are great to have, and missing someone you loss is ok, I also have to keep living day by day, for the fact, I am here.
I look for a way now, to try to just keep going, to laugh, to do what is necessary to keep going. Finding the small things in life that count most is not easy, when your alone you tend to stay to yourself, it’s a matter of fact. Those who know me, tell me to go out, meet people, have fun, thats the only way to find someone, but I ask, where do you go at 68 years old to do so ?
I walk a lot as i said before, and if I see someone who went down, or is injuried I will help if I can. I will never refuse to help anyone who is hurt, I am not built that way, to just do nothing. Living in a 55 plus community, I see it as a place we should keep aneye on each other and help when and where we can. Not all of us have family nearby or that can be called and I am sure we all want help when we can get it. When you get to a 55 plus community like i am in, you know your here for retirement purposes, or to live out the remainder of your life. Doesn’t mean we die on getting here, just means we realize we want to retire in peace, have some quiet, and hope to make and have friends we can share whats left, with.
In my case, my life, has it’s own rewards, to it. I spent my youngest days, helping my family at home, rebuilding a home for us to live in with my step-father, babysittng my younger siblings and such. Then, I helped all my firends I had that I could in my high school years and a lil beyond. I joined the Service at a young age and served for 16 years in 3 different branches of service, Army, Army National Guard and US Navy. I recieved a Honarable Discharge un Medical Conditions. I married twic eone, went 12 years, produced two daughters and now four grandchildren. The second marriage went 21 year, the relationship went 28 years, no children but, I spent 16 of those years taking care of a wife with breast cancer and that ended with my hospicing my wife till she passed on me in 2021. So yes, I have had a pretty full life, but, I am leaving somethings behind when I do leave.
I leave behind when I die, some people i have taught things like drawing, some I have helped along in relationships and there will be my writtings. Stories, blogs, poems, they are out there for all to read. If they help anyone in anyway, then I have done good in this world. I have like all people my ups, my downs, my just hanging on moments, but I have also, given back whatI can, where I can and when I can. a person’s legacy may not equal those of heroes, or President’s or or civil leaders or more, but, we are not remembered for being heroes, we are remembered by those we care for, help, guide, defend or love. In life we make friends, some we keep for alifetime and others we pass by as we go. The same can be said for lovers. Personally, I know my lovers have been few and i can count them on one hand, not all reached fruiation, or relationship status, but I am not, one to mess with destiny of fate, I accept it. You can’t make someone love you, anymore than you can stop death from happening. Destiny and fate is all that is and we make choices, based on what we have already experienced in our past. We draw on all we experienced as we went along, and what we were taught by others, to make the decisions in the present day we live in. Just a fact folks ! We are taught by parents or those that raise us, right from wrong, and we go by those lessons, which is why family units are so important in this world we live in.
Anyway, life is still going on for me as of today, and I watch the political world in America and wonder, what is next ? Are Americans really foolish enough, blind enough or accepting enough to re-elect a man, who lies, cheats, is a sexual predator and harrasser of women. and never kept a promise in his life again? I know many will think oh, another anti-trumper is all I be, but, that is not the truth of me. Ex-President Donald J. Trump does not belong in the White House or in The Office of The Presidency again ! Which in itself as a statement Trump uses himself to run for The Office of the Presidency proves the Presidency is an Office held in the United States and comes under the 14th amendment clause, of the constitution. I remind all Americans, Donald J. Trump, couldn’t sell water, steaks, or a university he ripped people off for money with, he cheated contractors out of money for work they did for him, and only paid them pennies on the dollar. And that just is the start of his crimes of his past, now add in sexaul harrassment of women, found to be liable for doing so and fighting with Judges over how much to pay. How about his Two Impeachments in Office as President, his running an insurection and riot as President and telling people led to walk down to the capital and stop the certication of electorial votes. How about his people yelling, Hang Mike Pence ? He called the Oath Keepers, Proud Boys and others to the capital that January 6th ! Wake up.
Four Indictments, 91 charges later and people still want to vote for this man, why? I don’t have the answer, but, I do warn you, re-elect him and you destroy yourself and your own republican, democracy you live in. This man was removed from the Colorado ballot and Maine ballot because they found him to be the leader of an insurrection against our country and constitution. Now it must go to The Supreme Court for a decision soon. The danger of Donald J. Trump is real folks, if you can’t see it yet, please go read his brief put forward to the Supreme Court fighting for Immunity. He warns the Supreme Court that is his claim of Immunity is not upheld by them, it will cause Chaos and more. Who tells a court this and gets away with it? He tells the court, that his people will cause chaos and destruction and go wild if he is not given full immunity. Are you kidding me, lets just be realistic and do what is right. If his supporters wants to attack and go crazy we have the National Guards and military to stop it all. No way in hell should anyone, allow one man to lead his supporters this way. Trump wants revenge for losing in 2020, he wants retrobuition for his loss. Are you kidding me? I wish someone would wake up this country, and wake up to the fact that electing Trump is just installing a dictator, or autocrat, and paying the price for it over four more years of more crimes and problems. America must wake up !
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