There are phases in life and we face them. We were all young once, free, happy, and full of energy. We ran, we played, we talked to other kids on a daily basis in school and out side as we played. Then, we grew more, and became teenagers, who wanted to do all adults did, but, we slimmed down those we hung with to a few, we liked the best, Then, romance comes into play as we, notice the opposite sex and start the chase that leads us to dating, relationships and ultimately marriage and creating families. At one point or another, we face the ending of those relationships, either through break-ups, separations, or divorces, or in the end the death of our spouses. Each time we lose the one important to us, many of us pick ourselves up and try again and move on in life to other replationships and marriages. But, when you reach a certain age and it happens to you, you flounder, you try and fail and lose your confidence, to try again. We all go through it folks, even, if we all deny, it has happened to us. The best we can do then, is carry on alone as singles, and that causes stress, tension and emotional problems for all of us, no matter our sex. It’s just a fact, we become divorces, or even worse, like widowers or widows, and we know not where to turn next.
So we move ourselves into 55 plus neighborhoods or complexes, for safety, affordability and for things to do socially and hope it works for us, as individuals. When you live in a 55 plus community, you learn quickly, not to approach or date someone who lives in the same complex as you. Why, simple, the community is like Peyton Place and people talk and, no matter what, if a relationship you start goes bad, the man is always blamed, just face it. So what is there for a single person over 55 to do ? There is no answer to this in the community I live in, or the town of Westborough, Mass really, you can try dating sites, but they cost money and people play mind games on them. It’s not worth the money you may spend on them. So, you come to realize ultimately, that you have moved into an area, where you will stay alone, make the best of it all and more than likely die. For without interaction, and having someone to care for and such, what purpose do we really have for being alive? I have honestly come to the opinion that I made a mistake moving to a new state and town, without knowing anyone, and that decision will in the end, end me.
Unless you have lived through the death of a loved one, cared for them and lost them, you have no idea of which I am speaking. Someday, all will for, many of us, end up living alone, we get isolated and we attempt to connect with others and fail. Why do you think, spouses follow those they have lost, within a short period of time ? It’s the loneliness factor, it’s the loss factor, it’s the feeling of getting no where no matter how hard you try. So you withdraw, you isolate, you surrender to the impossibility of it all, and give up. No matter how you try, you end up figuring out, no one can replace the one you lost,, the age factor then comes into play no matter how hard you try, and in the end, there is no place to find a partner in your age range. Thus it only takes a matter of time, till you lose your spirit, your energy, your will to push on and, the slow decline begins to the ending all mankind faces. We all end up in the same place folks, it’s just a matter of time and how soon we accept the inevitable if you get my drift. So, I have come to accept my fate, my destiny, and I go day by day, just puttering along, walking, and basically watching my demise come at me slowly. Some say to me, this is called depression and I should seek help, I do not see it that way. I see it as, I have done all I can in life, for others, and there is not much left to give anymore.
As I told my sister when she left me in this condo, to move on in her life, this is where they will find me, when I pass from this earth, period. And ultimately I have come to accept it now.
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