It can’t hurt !

Ok, I don’t have spell check folks lol, but, I do have thoughts, ideas and more.

I shall not bash Westborough anymore, because, I have no real reason to, my anger and being upset is more about my own state of mind and emotions, Yes I am depressed and missing my wife, and no one else is to blame I know. I also know that grieving takes time and the longer I, stay alone and do nothing about it, is my own fault. I have been told many things I can do, like volunteering , or finding a grief group, going to the Senior Center, Library, and even walking. I am told bars are not the way to go for a man who is 68 and I agree, especially since I am a non-drinker in all reality.

Some have suggested MeetUp to find things to do, some suggested trying Worcester. Or surrounding towns in my area. What I do, I can not be sure, for I am not the most social butterfly around for sure. I don’t talk much until I know someone and trying to know someone causes me to go silent or freeze up. I tend to shy from women in general, why, because I do not consider myself, handsome or a catch. Then add in my age and well, the picture is not pretty for me.

I shall look into MeetUp, and then retry the Library and The Senior Center at some point. I am grieving yes I know it and there will come a time when I must learn to move on and live again. I believe, at some point, I need to at least make some new friends and new people in the area. Isolating myself, does not work, it only makes a circle of loneliness, that shows me no way out. I have to overcome my fears, anxieties, and moods, and live again.

I was told to try dating apps, because that is the way the world is these days. It is probally correct, since most live online these days. So I did sign up for Match.com and post a profile there, hoping at some point, I will meet someone that way. I am not asking to marry someone, or to jump into a relationship full time. It would be nice to just have some friends, of both sexes I can talk to, hang with and get to know some. Anyway, I shall continue on, try to keep a positive attitude. It can’t hurt.