So, life will roll on for me, and I can hope is all.

Had a few conversations, about dating apps and such. Some recommend dating apps some do not. Being a widower, I thought maybe dating apps were the way to go. I tried Zoosk, met three women and nothing worked out. So, I gave up on Zoosk and ran the subsciption out. I have tried Match.com now and so far nothing, seems to click for me. Why I have yet to figure out, I was never a flirter, never learned to flirt, I am just me always.

My first wife I met in the Navy, and we had two of everything, including two daughters. It ended when the United States Navy discharged me for an injury. The money ran out, and we ended up having the house foreclosed on and moving in with my mother-in-law and her son. It took a total of approxiamately, five months living there, and divorce began.

My Second wife, I met at a Singles Dance in a tavern in Connecticut. We were together for 28 years total and I still miss her today. We had a great life together and we were happy and content. It all ended on August 10th or 2021, she died of cancer. It will be 3 years since her passing soon enough now.

I figure 3 years is long enough grieving and life must go on and I am not sure how to move forward anymore. I live alone in my condo, walk as much as I can depending on weather rof course. I play billards once a week, and I play Mexican Train one night also. I have investigated the Taverns and Bars around me, and I am a non drinker, so, it is hard for me. I used to go bowling once a week, but, that died out for me. So, I am basically in a 55 plus community and alone these days. I have learned to live alone again, since her death.

What will the future will bring for me I do not know, I do know I am doing ok right now. As long as I am self-sufficent and well enough to do what I can, I am happy. I write blogs here, poems and short stories as I go along. I try to keep my mind busy, by reading, writting and building puzzles. Never have been a social butterfly type nor am I a casinova of any type. I consider myself an average man, I am not handsome or unique in anyway. I just be me, being a phoney is no good, so, I try to interact here in the condo complex. Living in this 55 plus condo complex, reminds me of my childhood days, in the projects when I grew up. Everyone knows everyone elses business, so I avoid all I can.

The age factor comes into play for me, being 68 now and on my own. I know some men, like to chase younger women, but, it’s not my thing. I am sometimes loud, sometimes silent, sometimes annoying to there’s, but, I am not hurting anyone or myself.

I am always wondering what to do each day, to keep busy. Yeah, the Community here has events and clubs, I do two, As to anything else well I don’t know, I am looking at MeetUp to see what’s possible is all. I am not a religious person, haven’t been to church since I was young. The LIbrary is always here and available, since I don’t work due to my disability, it becomes a walking thing for me, either routside or at a mall. For me being single again is a two edged sword type of thing. The point being, I am 68 now, and it is hard to meet anyone when you don’t go out much. So, life will roll on for me, and I can hope is all.