Morning all! I broke my dominant arm back on Feb. 4th and it is still healing, after almost 6 weeks. The Black and Blueing is gone, the bone has knitted, but the tendons are shot it seems. So I start Physical Theraphy today, for 15 sessions that I know of so far. Now, I know it will take time to get back to the things I like to do like pool and bowling, and I understand it, but, it doesn’t make it any easier to miss what I like to do. yet, when ya break an arm ya live with the consequences, until it heals. The worse part of it is the tendons, they do not heal easily and hurt like hell and interfear with my sleeping, waking me in pain nightly. I sleep in a recliner these days, because i am afraid to sleep in my bed, due to rolling over. The pain is worse when prone at all times. So I try to sleep at a 45 degree angle. Doesn’t always work and i wake up twice a night in pain. They say it wil heal in time, I just wish it would hurry up, the dull throbbing pain is awful.
Anyway, life goes on and I do everything I can by myself. I still cook, eatr, clean drive and do my things i can do, broken arm or not. One has to struggle thru and hope to get better is all.
Enough of my pain and misery here lol! As momma once told us all, ya can cry all ya want, it doesn’t help ya, and no one cares really. They just sympathize and shake their heads and move along. Life isn’t easy for sure, but I have lived over 70 years now, so I get it.
I am not happy with our economy, nor am I happy with our involvement in a war in Iran we started at Trump’s whim. We are losing munitions, and now people too. Trump gave no reason for the war that makes any sense and he never even cleared it with congress. Sad really.
Ok enough of that too, for no matter what I say or do, it won’t change the facts.
I can’t change much and I have learned all one can do is live with the circumstances and times we are in today. Society changes and so do the rules between the sexes and for dating purposes too. I think, as i age i have come to avoid dating these days. I don’t like dating apps online, and i never ask any woman out, any more. The last woman I asked out wa smy wife way back in 1992. And we last 28 years together, til she passed from cancer. Miss her in many ways, and I would never trade one day of those years for anything. But, she has been gone now since August 2021, and the loneliness syndrome has hit me big time.
I don’t ask women out, no matter how much I may like them these days. I am 70 so most women laugh at me, due to my age. No woman wants a 70 year old man. Secondly, I hate rejection and fear it more than anything in life. No one likes rejection and yes we all suffer it at one time or another, yet, in my case, I do not have the nerves or ability to handle it anymore. I remember, even in my teens I was a quiet guy, and kept to myself, some called me a loner, they may have been right. Never thought I was funny, or handsome, or even cute, I am just an average guy and most women look once and then never again, at me. I blend in or I stand out too much. Never did learn to flirt at all. Guess I never will either.
Anyway, time is flying by, as I age so many changes in dating I could never keep up. Which apps to use, what to say, how to approach, when to approach, what to say or how to act when you do. Complicated and not the same as when I grew up, in the 1960’s and 1970’s. Funny how you date ok in high school years, get married in you 20’s, and then bam one day your married an dthe next divorced. It doesn’t work out always. I was a lucky one, my first marriage went 12 years and two daughters. The second I managed 28 years and enjoyed it all. So, make it a total of 40 years being married out of 70, not bad ya ask me, I did ok. But, the hardest part of life, is when you lose that mate, or spouse, and ya get lost in it, and grieve away for years. Yet we all do it, don’t we folks? It’sa natural progression of losing one ya loved and were so close with, it’s like losing a wingman if ya a pilot. LOL
Todays dating scene is not for me I think, Why, well, lets see, women are tougher, they are smarter, they are not easy to get along with either. They have things they want and if you don’t provide it, bam your gone.I just know i don’t want a woman, who just wants my money or what I own. And i don’t want theirs either. I don’t looka t materialistic shit, don’t care really. I don’t search for Marilyn Monroe or Raquel Welch either. Ya might say I am not like most men. While a woman has her curves and charms an dthey are greta to see and enjoy, those alone wil never get me. I look for intelligence, humor, caring, passion and adventuriousness. Some one who can laugh, hold a decent conversation and shows empathy too. In my mind thats what all should seek really, someone ya can enjoy life with, through the ups and downs is all. Material things come and go, money does too, but a real friend and companion is forever.
Anyway, just figured I would write this out and see how i feel when done. LOL! Just my thoughts at this tim ein ealy morning here. Have a Great Day all!
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