Life they say is but a game and they let it slip away! That was said in a song by Seals and Crofts many years ago, and believe it or not it is true. many people tend to play at life, having fun daily and not realizing, excatly how fast time flies by. We tend to laugh and joke and play games, physically and mentally, and in the end one day we look up and we are suddenly, old or elderly, and not as capable anymore.

We age and the wear and tear on the human body can be painful and sometimes delibilerating also. mentally we start to forget things, because we stop doing them. Or because of chemical imblances we get in our systems. We forget places, and things, we never thought we would. we end up not being able to danc eor walk or run like we used to also as we age. we end up giving up sports, or clubs, or conversations out of frustration or lack of focus, as we age.

While this is a normal process for all of us who age and reach our elderly period of life, it doesn’t mean, wec an’t try now and then. I love reading, but find myself, reading less as I age, concentration became a factor for me. I love solving puzzles, but again my concentration has waned overtime also. Physically, i don’t walk like I used to either, I was averaging about 3 miles per day, now my body and back, tells me no. I love bowling but found myself, lately in more pain than pleasure from doing so. So, I have to stop for a while an dhope my back will be better in the future to do so again. It means changing how I bowl if i do it, so I don’t pull my back muscles anymore, and with six herniated discs in my spine, it may be best not to bowl. Each person is different and we all have different levels of pain tolerance also. Some of us can handle pain and still do, others can’t.

Lucky, in my case at least, is I can still write, poetry, short stories and blogs, to entertain my mind. I write poetry as it hits me, as many probably already know. I have written many and at least 51 short stories. I write of life, love, laughter, and sometimes serious subjects. My blogs cover all of the above and more, for I delve at times into the political arena, and talk of the countries current state. I wrote blogs for a web site for a summer, and of course have submitted some to news agencies.

Now as I age and my body starts to fail me, I am cutting back on physical activities. Those include bowling now, at least for a while and pickleball I gave up in 2022 after twisting my ankle, badly. It was like a softball for up to 6 weeks before it came down. I am a competitor at anything I do normally, that includes pickball, pool and bowling. Yet, i am also acutely aware that, others ee people who win all the time, as people they do not wish to play with anymore. So, I play the sports I do, without trying to win all the time. No sense having people saying they don’t like playing with me, cause I beat them always. I consider others feelings at all times.

I have what is called hyperactivity and attention disorder also. I get hyper at times and then slow down, and I sometimes don’t focus as well as I used to. I also have Post Tramatic Disorder from childhood and military life. So I try to control myself at all times, I had it drilled into me as a child, self-control. No one is perfect and may wonder why I Do not participate in many events here in Condo Activities. The answer can be found in my PTSD and, other medical problems. I try hard not to be rude to others, and I do not at times have the patienance to handle all that is thrown at me.

I am now facing shortly, the fourth Anniversary of my wife’s passing come August 10th, 2025. Losing her has been the biggest loss of my life. She steadied me, keep me busy, and was always there for 28 years. her sudden passing from her cancer, was rough on me. While I cared for her for 16 years, for her cancer, taking her to Doctors, tests, scans and more, including all her chemo and radiation treatments, over those years. In the middle she went into recession and life was good, till I wa shit with lung cancer myself. I survived it, and had a lobe and one third of my right lung removed. I came back fast and continued to care for my wife, till she passed, Ultimately, I hospiced her at home, in her final fourteen days.

Some ask me why, I do not participate in events here where I live. well the answers are found above in all I have spoke of. As to some who ask why I do not date, well, I am not an easy man to date, based on my PTSD, attention deficiet disorder and hyper-activity. There are times when I do slow down, and focus. I would never date a woman where I live an dit is nothing to do with the women who live here. It is based on the fact that it is a close neighborhood period.

I grew up as the black sheep of my family. I was the unwanted one, who was given away for two years and came back. In the end I was there when my step=father needed help rebuilding the home they bought. I wa sthere to protect my younger siblings when needed and care for them. I helped friends and family where and when I could it was me. I went on to a military life that lasted 16 years, through three branches of service, so I did ok. I even went back to school at 37 years old and graduated witha 3.7 grade average out of a possible 4.0. I ama member of two Honor Societies, Alpha Beta Gamma and Phi Theta Kappa. Won awards in Collage also. So I believe I did well. Even if I was always told I was a loser as a kid.

In the end, life is a maze of overcoming, dealing with and moving past problems and complications. Life is not, handed to us, and all handed to us. as we all know, one must work at what you want to achieve it. All is an effort folks, for all of us, maybe more so for someone like me. But, I am now 69 and headed to age 70 soon enough. I thank God each morning I wake up open my eyes and am able to get out of bed and move about. God Bless All!

July 21st, 2025 has begun folks. Time is moving faster the older I get it seems. It moves even faster, each day flies by, as I try, to stay healthy and keep going. There are times, I just feel like surrendering, and giving up, for each of us, have to havea reason to carry-on, or the alternative comes to be.

I had motivation to keep going for many years of my life, and at each period of my life, I seem to have done decently. As a child I was like a Rebell without a Cause, as a teenager I was more into helping my family and friend sin all they wanted done. as I aged into my 20’s I relaized that at some point I had to do something to help myself, so, I joined the military, to stop myself from flaying about in failure. I did, stop and get a GED Diploma, after dropping out of college, I knew I neded it to survive.

In the Military I found, structure, and interaction with fellow service members and basis’s for occupations. I became first a M-88 Tank retriver Driver and it sucked in the Army. When I left the Army, the job market was bad and declining so I went Army National Guard and became a Machine Gunner Scout. As I continued to struggle to survive, and ended up living in the YMCA in town, I became desperate and wasn’t sure what I could do next. So, I took a long deep breath and decided the Military was for me once more.

I entered the U.S. Navy in December of 1978. I became a Sailor who became an Engineer onboard ships. I was a Boiler Technichan, and I hated the job really, high heat, sweat, hard work, that was labor intensive. Constant drills, and long periods at sea, protecting America it was for me. I grew used to it after so many years, and it became a job that was steady. After, the first contract was ending I reinlisted twice more. By that time, I had, married and had two daughters at home. I needed the stability of the job and service, to keep myself inline. It worked for me at the time, and for my family at home too.

Then I was injuried aboard ship, when I fell down a steel ladder going into the Engineering spaces one day. I was picked up off the deck and shipped out to a Hospital in Germany. The U.S. Army General Hospital, admitted me and put me thru numerous tests, MRIs and Cat Scans, Physical Theraphy, before they got my back straight and me able to go back to full duty. The injury, would ultimately cause my discharge from the Navy, As one Navy Doctor put it, I was a Engineer, if I could not go back to sea, they would discharge me. Simple solution it seems to me. Once discharged things changed fast, I could not get a job, due to the injury, and the money dried up fast. At the same time so, did my first marriage. Not having the paycheck anymore and no way to pay the bills, we sold our home. Once that happened, it was over, really. Divorce hit and the life I had was finished I was on my own once more, alone.

I jumped from job to job, never happy. I struggled finacially. I eventually ended up in a small apartment in a basement, trying to survive once more. I was depressed and down and out. I decided one summer day to get off my ass, and go out and try something new. I went to a Singles Dance.

I met my second wife there, by asking her to dance. She saved me, in many ways. She took me in, and helped me straighten myself once more. I got with the Veteran’s Administration and they put me through College. I hit a High Mark as I got my Associates Degree in Hotel Managament. I ran Hotels for a short period of time and resturants, fast food for a bit. Then, my back acted up again, and I was determined to be Uemployable. I ended up on SSDI amd Veterans’ Disability. My wife and I stayed together no matter what, and we lasted 28 years.

As I helped her keep up the home we lived in, she worked. Then, we had o sell her big home and we did that and moved into a smaller model for us. It became a daily routine, I would take care of her and her me, as she worked and I handled the home and more. Then, things began to change again.

My wife fell ill, and off to Doctors we went. At first we thought it was temporary stuff. Then, a Doctor took blood tests on her and scans. We found she had Breast cancer, and the battle began. It would be 16 years worth of battle, testing, MRI’s, Cat Scans, Chemo and Radiation. A Brief break came when the cancer backed off for a bit. while she was in recession, I was hit with illness myself and diaganoised with lung cancer. As I went through my cancer my wife sat by, standing by me all the way and worried I would die. I survived it, and had a lobe and one third of my right lung removed. No Chemo, No radiation at all.

Then shortly after, my wife’s cancer stormed back. It went from breast cancer to blood cancer. The Chemo and Radiation trips were now, once a week for each. I would sit by as they hooked her up and pumped her full of it all, as she fought for her life. Each day was feeding her, and staying with her, and watching her. She was a tough woman, who knew what was happening to her, but she kept a positive attitude and kept going. I called her Miss Amazing to everyone I knew, she refused to give up.

Then, came 2020, the summer, her health had started to deterioate, that spring. She was weaker, slower and she just never said or complained of anything. Doctors, tests, scans, Chemo and Radiation weekly. she just kept steady and smiling the best she could. I would watch her daily and wonder how the hell is she doing it. Then one July day it began in the evening.

We were watching tv, and it became bedtime. I got up and told her lets go to bed. she said no, she was gonna stay in the recliner and sleep there. I tried to get her to come up stairs to sleep, she said no. So, I went to bed. At 3 am, I was awaken by a beating on the walls. I got up and ran downstairs, to find her on the floor in the bathroom doorway. she had gotten up in the middle of the night, to go to the bathroom and fell in the doorway and couldn’t get up.

I got her up and put her in a chair, then called an ambulance. Off to the Emergency Room we went. She has an egg on her head, and couldn’t walk. They examined her and admitted her that morning. It was the beggining of the end. I didn’t realize it yet of course, and she hid information from me.

After two months in a hospital bed, they released her to come home. I brought her home and she acted like nothing was wrong. I fed her each day, watched her and did all I could for her. Then, one night, we were watching TV, together, her in one recliner and myself in another. I looked up, and she had slumped to one side in her chair. I jumped up and asked her is she was ok and helped her try to sit up straight once more. she couldn’t do it. I propped her up with pillows and told her I was calling an ambulance, she argued and said no. I did it anyway, cause I knew she needed immediate help. Off we went once more to The emergency room and Hospital. It was the final run folks, I was hoping I was wrong, but, I could tell and she knew it.

Pills, chemo, radiation, and stuck in a hospital bed, she fought still. They treated her, then transferred her to a convalenscent home. I went daily to see her, one was in Hartford, a 50 minute ride away and daily I drove back and forth to sit with her, stay with her.

In the Hospital once more, back to the convalenscent home we went once more. It was to be the last time, I got her moved closer to our home. I would be with her daily, every chance I could or they would let me. We had hit the Covid Scare in America and I was limited in my visiting, due to it all.

Finally, it was the last week of July 2021. I went to be with her and keep her comfy as usual. I walked into her room, and she couldn’t feed herself anymore. I fed her, and she fell asleep shortly after. I got up and marched down to the Administrator’s office and asked her why no one fed my wife? The answer was, we only have so many nurses and we do the best we can. I finally had enough. I asked the Administrator when my wife’s Medicare ran out. she looked at me and said three days. I asked how much it would be, if she stayed. Three Hundred and Fifty Dollars a day was the answer. I knew we didn’t have those funds, and couldn’t afford it. I asked that Hospice be brought in to qualify her and bring her home for me to care for her.

Three days later she came home, and was set up in a bed in our dinning room. she was home and glad for that, but, she also knew what it meant. As the Hospice Nurse discussed her care with me and made me sign the DNR forms, she heard it all. When I fed her something and finished she asked me with her eyes closed if she was on a DNR, I told her yes, I was sorry, but had no choice. She understood.

I set up what I could to keep her going, and called my sister to come help. We had hit the final days now. I hired a Nurse to help care for her, worked with Hospice and my sister too. After ten days at home, I went in and saw her for the last time as she lay there. I bent down and kissed her forehead and told her I loved her. I told her to go ahead and join her parents and son and rest, and stop her pain. It was the last thing we said to one another, I love you. She passed at 5;35 pm that day, it was August 10th, 2025.

The next ten days, were a blur as I prepared for her burial and was lost in a daze of despair. We buried her on a sunny August 20th, 2025. I almost joined her myself, wanted to, but my sister saved me, by taking me in and helping me clean up all.

It is now July 21st, 2025, the memories of it all flood back to me today, as I know August 10th is getting close once more. It wil be four years since she passed, come that date. i remember our final days together and our final words to each other more each day. These day get to me each year, and I find myself, fighting to maintain myself. Yet I know, I must carry on, for there is no alternative for me. I end each August 10th, each year since she passed, in tears. Grieving I am told is natural to do, and I know, it is what I must do. So, I do it it and carry on.

Cancer has taken my Grandfather on my Mother’s side, it has taken my Father, it has taken my Step-father who raised me, it has taken my Mother too. It took my Bloved Wife from me, and it hit me also in the mid-stream of trying to save her. Yet, as I grieve, I am still here fighting on and surviving. What the purpose of my being here still is, I do not know, but I do know, I go day by day, and try to be the best I can and live the best I can, each day. God Bless, those I lost, I pray they rest peacefully each day!

I only ask, That People Give to The American Cancer Society, so they can help others. If You can do so. Thanks to those that do.

Inside, each of us, is a still the child we once were, what we do is downplay and control that child like quality, and we mature they say,

Well, here isa thought, few of us forget, on a constant basis. That child like quality of playfullness, laughter and just joy at everything we do is suppressed far too much, folks. We lose a part of our personality and souls as we go along. We stop laughing at things that other laugh at, we start taking everything seriously, and in the end we tend to mature to apaoint, where weverything we do, has to have apurpose or reason, we can justify.

Why, is that, folks? Well, simply put, we are taught and it is drilled into us, to grow up, mature and act in certain ways as we get older. We tend to be less playful, less funny, less easy going. We tend to avoid trouble of course in this way. So we interact less as we age with others. Why, well because we get stuck in our ways, and we do not allow change, nor do we accept difference in the people we know well. We tend to get comfy, with the same friends and family, we accept them, because they act like what we are used to. Accepting change becomes a problem and so does accepting differences.

This person does this and i would never do that! Ever hear yourself saying that? Or I don’t understand why that person is so loud, or laughs so much, or teases so much? Or maybe, you stop and go, why doesn’t that person join in more, in community activities or conversation or events or sports? Everybody has reasons for not joining in. Some don’t like the people involved in such things. Some don’t like the events, or the type of community interactions that are occurring. Some don’t like gossip and talking behond someone’s back, some have trust issues, medical issues or more. The thing is, each of us, have our own reasons don’t we?

Some won’t wear shorts in hot weather, some won’t run or exercise/ Some won’t participate in things others will. Some won’t share things they consider private or personal, and to that, point, it is fine of course ans better for them in the end. No one needs to know your birthday folks, or your medical conditions. No one needs to know who you love or like either, unless your in a relationship with them. IT’s all a matter of what we share or care about most is it not?

Some like a breakfast at a certain place, some like italian food, some french, some greek or whatever, Matter of taste right and sometimes, it is a matter of the area we grew up in or our ancestry too. But even with that taken into account, what is it that makes us all so different, on a personal basis and so different in public places and interactions. Some accept sociatial norms so to say. Some don’t. Some go along with the crowd and some don’t. Those who do, are not always the happiest, but, on the other hand those that don’t aren’t either. Those who do, may be happy for a short period of time and then find themselves, unhappy later, because they went along due to peer pressure. And tjhose who don’t fall prey to peer pressure may feel like they want to belong, but don’t know how to be accepted. It’s a problem in society in America and around the world. It’s actually called living andlearning folks. What most do not learn isa simple thing, accept those around you, doesn’t ean you have to like everyone, just be accepting them for who they are. You don’t need to be best friends or in live with them, just respect them. Understand, personal preferances and tastes are something we all aquire as we age. Some love to dance, some have two left feet andc an’t. Some love sports, some don’t. some like large crowds and some don’t. There are so many differences that sometimes we shut out others due to them.

Introverts like small crowds, quiet times, and one on one interactions. Extroverts love large crowds and being a part of large occassions and events. A introvert is more quiet, an extrovery more noisy. Why are there these two kinds in the world? Well, folks, here is an insight for all. Our parents make us so. It has to do with the way we are raised and taught and guided to adulthood from childhood. the Parental teaching and lessons we are taught make us who we turn out to be. For some lack certain qualities, certain abilities and develop at a different pace. So, we become the mixed society that make sup the world.

July 18th, 2025, When you look at American Politics, you get stuck on Donald J. Trump as President, first and foremost. he has single handily, shaken America by it’s throat! The Economy is a mess, no matte rif he says it isn’t. Medicaid and Medicare are under attack, social Security is worried and people are being knocked off it, when they need it most. He has Killed USAID and the Education Department. Why?

Now the Epstien Case is back, because Trump ordered Bondio to refuse to relase any of the files regarding it. While I agree all files related to the Case against Epstien should be released and i mean all, I also know Trump does not want that. Why, simple photos of Trump and Epstien together with 12 and 13 year old girls are all over the internet, papaers and magazine in America. Of course Trump doesn’t want to face charges over it, and of course he knows it can effect his Presidency and life. So, he obviously told Bondi to make the list and files disappear. Now he does a 180 and tells her to release all pertinant files. Which means, what he considers Pertinant to what Epstien did, not him. The problem with this is simple, who were Epstien’s clinents and where are they, and shouldn’t they be facing charhes for using his services and these young girls? Of course they should and the world owes it to the real victimes of Epstien’s crimes to reveal the names of the individuals who, participated and took advantage of these youg girls. They should all face charges for it and they know it too, just as Trump knows he should too, but he will fight it, of course and deny it of course.

In the end Americans, we the people need to speak in this case for these children who were used and abused over os many years. They deserve their justice, and to be heard and listened to and to be able to fight back against these rich, politicans and businessmen who paid Epstien for this service and the use of their bodies. Anyone saying I am wrong here is a total nutjob, or a screwball or just plain assine and that includes Trump! If it were his daughters, his children or yours folks, wouldn’t you want the men and women who did this to these children, arrested, tried and convicted for doing so? I know, I would, if they were my daughters and sons!

While Trump is President, he believes he can control all issues and the Country. He can’t folks, and it is time Americans stand up to him, stop his path of destruction and make him face all charges for all crimes he has committed. He doesn’t belong in the White House folks, he belongs in an orange jumpsuit behind bars, just like his buddy Jeffery Epstien was!

I Am Me

By: William McCurrach

July 10, 2025

I am me, for who-else can I be!

I may not be a genuis, or a Don Juan,

I may not be a President, or a Kings son,

Yet, I am me, and that is who I be,

I live, I laugh, I cry and I shall die.

By the time I leave this earth,

I just want to be known as a decent person,

Since my birth.

No one is perfect, no one is pure,

But, being a decent person of this I can be sure.

I may hold a door open for a lady,

I may laugh with a friend,

But, I am never shady, or a liar,

And thats how I shall be till my end.

You can hate me,

You can love me,

You can even think you are above me.

Just remember one thing ,

No matter what you do,

I am a human being just like you.

I have my faults and so much more,

That is what living a life,

Is definitely for.

So if you don’t like me,

Do what I do,

I shall avoid you,

If you avoid me too!

Lessons we learn in life start at a young age as we grow up. Our Parents teach us basics first, who our family members are, how love shines or dims. Tey teach us right from wrong, honesty, faith, caring and how to commit to what we want and need to survive. The lessons continue as we age as they teach us how to interact with others, how to stay safe, and most of all, how to sustain and stay alive as individuals.

As we age they watch us, guide us and help us to get along with others, teach us proper manners and communication skills too. We learn to respect one another, to make friends and avoid enemies too. Amazingly, we survive all the lessons they give us and we grow to adulthood, by passing through the teen years. You know the awkward ages of 13 to 18, when our hormones act up and we begin to notice the opposite sex, and figure out the differences. As we do, we look for others who we are attracted to, find ways to communicate with them, by flirting, smiling, laughing and enjoying their company. Most know what I meant when I said the awkward stages, for out bodies are developing at the same time, out mental abilities do too. Maturity starts to hit us, yet we are still at a point in life, where things are still an adventure and full of fun and love and caring. We are taught to avoid dangers, and learn the signs of evil or danger, as we go along being guided by those who love us. It is a process all humans do go through.

Once we reach adulthood we learn to make decisions on what we learned when younger and what we were taught. We find jobs, take on responisibilities and create families of our own. We find ourselves, raisng children of our own or running family units of our own prefeence. It is amazing that, humans adapt as well as we do. A lot depends on the base family you were born into or raised by of course. We learn of racial interactions and accepting each human being as they are. Color or Race we learn can be used for predijuce and discrimination purposes, but we also learn they are issues that are not right.

As we age, we go through many ups and downs, for not all of us are given the same circumstances in life. Some of us, get what they call the Golden Spoon, and others the trashy end of the stick. Yet, as history proves, determination, good attitudes and learning as you go, can raise anyone to higher status in the world.

What we as humans get wrong is the simple fact few forget. Money, becomes important, some get ultra rich, get up in fortunes and become the upper class, others drop in stature and status and become poor. The only real difference is the money folks, and just because you are rich, it doesn’t make you better than everyone else. It is important to remember as we age, we change, we adapt, we mature and in the end we make up our own mind as to what we can be and will be. We learn a great attitude takes us further, a education takes us further, knowing manners takes us further. Communication takes us further and how we react to others does so too. What stops many, are basic attitudes or beliefs, that do not fit in, in the society we live in. It is a matter of becoming acceptable or accepting the logic and common sense of humanity. Those who lack common sense and logic, tend to not fit in, and not be accepted by society as a whole. So, it is like being cast aside from a herd due to the fact, you don’t fit in, anymore.

As I have aged now, reaching 69, I have learned to be more independent and on my own. There comes a time in life when all of us, must live alone and on our own. We learn to be self-sufficient, we learn to be independent and we get set in our ways. We learn to stand alone, take care of ourselves at different ages in life. When we are suddenly alone again due to break-ups, lose of friends or lover or mates, depends on many things. But the first is what you were taught when young, and what you learned along the way. So, I have learne donce again, sinc emy wife passed in 2021, from cancer, one major thing. No one is going to care for me, no one is going to approach and help me, so I must do so all alone. I have also learned as we age, due to being set in our ways, we are not acceptable to all in society and society as a whole is geared to the youth, not the elderly in anyway.

I also have learned that, the comfort and love and caring of a partner or wife, is not agiven guaranteed in life. If your lucky enough to have someone, in your elederly years who is a spouse or partner, you have beend with for along time, you will feel the loss, big time. There will be a hole in your life, that you must figure out how to breech and covercome. That gap is scary, it is lonely, it is hard to do, but, like me, I am sure most reach back in time, and remember how to be alone again. we go by the history we have lived through, we make our decisions on the basis of what we have lived through, we look back and make decisions, on what we know and have experienced and lived through. Thats, the part of life, many elders or older people like myself who are widowers or widows, learn and use to survive, in the current situation we are in. we learn to save money, we earn to be kind, we learn to adapt once more,. Life is ever changing folks, so be prepared, the biggest sadness, is accepting loss, and not being able to adapt to it. If you don’t you tend to shut down and shut and hide all inside. It will get you in the end.

Find what you love to do, and do it, is my advice to all. You love to cook do so, for many, you love to do arts and crafts go for it. You like to write or read do it, you like to dance, then dance folks. Do what makes you happy, content, but find you first. Find what you love do it, and don’t worry about finding a partner or lover or friend. Why, because if your doing what you love, and enjoy most, your personally happy, and you wil lsmile, laugh and carryon just fine. Being you is vital, for the mor eyou, you show the world, the more others will notice you. As I once told a friend who had gotten divorced, don’t write letters, answer dating sites, or worry. Get up off your ass, go out, do what you love, work at what you like to do, and someone will find you. It’sa natural occurrance that wil lhappen, as long as your not phoney, dishonest, or harming anyone. Be you, as the old saying goes, Be you, be all you can be! And remember one thing, all great leaders in life, got there by first being great followers. So, join something, do something you love, follow and grow, in the end you will lead, or be noticed. Thats the best lesson, anyone can learn, be yourself!

Happy Fourth of July week to all. I hope all have great barbecues and family fun tomorrow and over the weekend!

I wonder where there are fireworks happening in the area, being new to it bascially, only been here in Westborough for a lil over three years now. i will have to look it up to see, anyone know or have any ideas where and when?

Anyway, time goes on folks and I am getting older and I feel alone these days for sure. since my wife passed in 2021, I have basically stayed alone. I think I dated four women once a piece is all. Seems, either I am too old, ugly or afriad to step over any lines with them, so I basically, wander on. Being 69 I see no rush in finding anyone tpo be with, and it seems the women here in this area are either taken or not looking. Thats ok, I shall survive.

I do my thing is all, which is bowling, play pool and read, write and walk when I feel like it. I am not a big social animal and I basically run from huge crowds. Just not my thing is all. Would rather a quiet date is I date, like a movie or dinner or lunch. I do miss companionship, the touch and conversation of course, and it does get lonely. Yet, I also know in today’s society andclimate, people my age can be taken for money and more, so I am very careful. Who wants to be used or abused or taken, no one if you get my drift. Too many hustlers and more out there.

As to dating sites, I looked at em online and found, that many are not who they say they are on them, and they lie on their profiles and some even put up false photos. Sadly, when you attempt to meet them they are not who they say they were, and they don’t look the same. It’s a sad world, where this happens, but, it does.

I must admit though, I have had a decent life and done ok. I have been married twice, had two children and my life has been full. Married twice for 40 years between em, is not bad for a 69 year old ya ask me. But hey who am I right. I served my country for 16 years, own numerous DD-214s, that are Honorable and i am proud of it all. I even went back to college at 37 years old and graduated at 40 to get a Degree in Hotel Management. So I did ok, considering I am a Phi Thetta Kappa member and a Alpha Beta Gamma member too.

I did what was right by my second wife as she fought cancer for 16 years. I stood by her, took her to tests, Doctors, Chemo and Radiation, and even took her to her final resting. I hospiced her at home in the end, so she would not pass, in a cold enviroment of a Nursing Home. I did what I thought was right and no one can deny, I took good care of her.

Now at 69 I live alone in a condo of my own here in Westborough, Massachuetts. Never thought I would be alone at 69, and single again but I am as a widower now. I clean my own place as needed, cook for myself, go to my doctors and shop for myself. I bother no one an dno one bothers me. I play pool, oncea week, I bowl twice a week. and the rest os the time I write, read, build puzzles, and walk when I can. I see my Doctors as required. So my life is slow, uncomplicated, and a lonely one. I do miss having female companionship, I do miss having that special one to talk to at hime or to cuddle for a movie or take to dinner. But, I also know, what Elvis said ” Only Fools Rush In”.

Some have asked why I don’t havea girlfriend, it’s simple really, no woman wants a man 69 lol. So, I don’t chase women, I don’t ask them out, and i have never learned to flirt lol. So, I just be me and live my life the best I know how alone. Thats Life, thats what they say! Jsut ask frank Sinatra right he sang it. Lol !

Happy Fourth of July Weekend to all, especially to thoise who served, like me, we did what was right, and served our country, and Thank God we all existed and did so.

Ok, life they say is but a game and they let it slip away! It was a line in a song in the 1970’s, by, Seals and Crofts folks. Although it was only a line in a song, it is a truthful one, is what I say. As we all know, time marches on no matter what we do, we age and eventually we pass from this earth.

As people i have loved and known have done before me, I realized that time moves very fast folks. So, I try to do somethings, I learned from my parents when young, and as I have gone through my own life. 1) I try to treat others as I wish to be treated. 2) I always respect my elders even though I am one myself. 3) I try to help others, teach others or support others, to the best of my ability especially if they are my family and friends. 4) I do not mistreat or disrespect anyone in anyway, I will walk away before I do. 5) I do not treat women like sexual objects or toys nor am I a sexist person.

Now at 69 I have accomplished many things in my life. One I survived my childhood, it’s problems and pains and aches. I blame no one for any of it, but, I still have the scars from it all. Yet it never stopped me from helping my family, or my friends, the best I could.

I helped by rebuilding the home my parents bought when I was young with my stepfather, Even though he beat me and more. I became babysitter and caregiver for my younger three siblings, when my parents weren’t home and had to work. They survived and so did I.

I overcame not being wanted by my mother and her attempts to give me away, when she said I had emotional problems. She didn’t know I had Attention Deficiet Disorder and Hyperactivity, in the 1960’s no one knew what it was. I ovre came dropping out of High School, by joining the military, and making a life of it for 16 years, before I was injuried doing so. I just continued to overcome no matter what.

I married and had two daughters and did the best I could, before their mother divorced me over lies. I married a second time and made it last 28 years, with my second wife, after the 12 years with the first. I found a way to survive it all. At 37 years old , I went back to school, college and got an Associates Degree in Hotel Management, won two awards and became a member of Aplha Beta Gamma and Thi Beta Kappa Honor Societies. I ran Hotels and Restarants too. When I could not work anymore, from my naval injuries of six herniated discs, I survived still and do today. I took care of my second wife for 16 years of our 28 year marriage and hospiced her at home in her end. Cancer is deadly folks, and she had breast cancer and passed, in the middle I survived lung cancer myself. Surrender is never an option folks, some would commit suicide and I have seen a few do so. It is not an option folks, if you think it is, seek help. Depression kills, I know it well.

So when people look at me and wonder who or what I be, I let them wonder folks, for I know who I am. I write blogs, I write stories and poems. I did 51 short stories, numerous poems and blogs as some know now. Am I done no I am not, I may write more of each, why, because I intend to use them to better people and the world if I can. That is what many others should do too.

If I can make you think, if I can make you smile, if I can make you laugh, or even in some cases cry, I feel I have accomplished something to help someone else understand life. No one has all the answers folks, not for life, health, religion, or anything else. we learn, we adjust, we adapt and we survive. We use what we have experienced and lived through, to live the next day we have. we look back and go, no not that way, this way, why, because we learned it, by going through it. Then we pass all of it on to our children and the next generations in the purest and truist fashion we know how. Why, easy folks, we want our children, our relatives and anyone we love and know to be happy, healthy and to do the best they can. Isn’t that, what life is about folks? I believe it is!

June 29th, 2025, Americans now face the destruction of Medcaid, and severe loses for insurance purposes. trump Big Beautiful Bill, give money back to the rich, and steals from Medicaid and destroys keys programs needed by millions of Americans.

In the meantime, we get involved by Trump in the Iran, Israel War by dropping bombs he ordered dropped. The American economy is hurting, the job market is hurting and people are struggling tpo get by. Trump doesn’t care folks, neither it seems does your Congress. The Senate allows this to Happen and the House passes it through for signature of Trump, as soon as it can. The Supreme Court gives Trump more power every chance it can, and Trump acts more like a Dictatot or King, as he moves along. If he gets hois will, try an dget a third term as President by changing the laws, so he can stop elections he does not like. Sadly, Americams, I wil say this, before you vote in the mid-terms in 2026, what is happening, you brought upon yourselves, with the votes you did cast. You made this country run on all MAGA bullshit and people, and Trump is doing what he wants, and you must now live with the consequences for it all.

You can’t Impeach Trump, he is protected by the MAGA Rep[ublicans in the Congress. They won’t allow it, and they will shut down any mention of impeachment. The Supreme Court rule sin Trump’s favor daily, as people are pulled off of American streets and deported without a chance to defend themselves through due process in a courtroom. I spoke to an asian person the other day, who has a green card and got citizanship in America as an immigrant. He told me how great America is and how he had to memorize our constition to pass the test. We were discussing, the deportations going on and he said Trump is great. Well I stopped him and asked him what happens if Trump decides he wants to revoke your citizanship and take your green card back? You know he can do so, as President, and ship you back to your parent country without court approval, what then? Hmm, the Asian gentleman, went quiet and didn’t say much after that. I think he realized it is true.

I wish to say this, while these deportations are going on, stop and think of this. Donald J. Trump has never been married to an American Born woman! Not once, why is that? All of his ex-wives and his current came from overseas. He wants to deport people tell him to deport Melannia and his own son Baron. Illegal is what they are too, unde rhis own laws and standards now. Explain that one to me.

Look I hate no one, I love my country, I served it for 16 years and got injuried doing so. I am a Disabled Veteran, and I am proud to have done so. I believe in Democracy, I believe in our Republic, I don’t believe any one person should be King or Dictator in America. Why is Trump being allowed to do all he is doing folks? What happened to our system of checks and balances installed by the forefathers og our country? Why is Congress, acting like it can only kowtow to Trump and what he wants? Who died and made his Supreme Ruler and Dictator and king of America?

Trump is a convicted Felon I remind all! Did Congress forget that? where are the Jefferey Epstien files? What has America become now, that a convicted felon who dodged the draft in his youth, with bone spurs, can be the Commander in Chief of U.S. Armed Forces? How is this possible in America folks?

As the world laughs at Trump and America and then fights back against his tariffs and policies, Americans kiss his ass and let him do as he pleases. Why, because he said ” Oh I wil get you primaried, when you run for re-election”? Are our Senators and Representatives so scared fo losing their positions, that they can’t do their jobs and stand up to Trump? Is Trump’s grip on American politics so strong, because people are scared of MAGA, that he is allowed to do as he pleases and destroy our country and our systems? What is it that makes Senator and Representative cringe and bend and kowtow to his wishes, and lose their integerity and balls to stand up to him? what is he blackmailing them all with? what is it folks?

I ask Americans, as your Medicaid goes goodbye, and the laws are broken daily and a corrupted and biased Supreme Court rules in Trump’s favor daily, why are AMericans allowing this to happen and Trump to stay free and Presdeint? Are Americans blind to it all, are Americans ignorant, or stupid, what is it please? As your food prices go up and your gas prices too, your rent and housing costs too, Trump sits on top, with his rich cronies getting richer! And no one stops him, why?

he has pisse doff our one time Alliesin Europe, Canada and Mexico too, with his Tariffs and tells American companies to eat the cost, or face tariffs also. Who the hell doe sthat shit to American Companies and stays President, please tell me? Look I am old now and living off of Social Security amd my Disability pay, but I am not stupid, or ignorant, nor blind, Trump is destroying America and has an iron grip on the Supreme Court and the Congress in fear, how and why? Is there any Congressmen and women or Senators left out there witha set of balls and guts to stop him? Or will America, fall as many other countries have in the past? Are we so blinded by fear of one man, that we the American people can not stop him? What is it folks? I tire dof MAGA lines of how great Trump is, and how they all protect and defend him no matter what he does. Well I have this to say to the MAGA followers of Trump, as he steals the money from your bank accounts and IRAs and Retirement funds, makes you pay for your parents and grandparents and childcare out of your pockets, and raises your house prices and rent, and food prices too, is that what you voted for folks? Was that what you put him in office for? As it affects even you MAGA folks, maybe you will realize what is happening and get out of your brainwashed mode and see it. All we can do is hope, for it will not get better folks it will only get worse as the Trump Term continues. If Donald J. trump cared about you or the Honor of Being President he wouldn’t come on TV, Swearing like a barroom person, in public would he? No president ever has done that before, it should tell you, what a low classed individual you elected! It’s sad to see in America!

We have now, survived the first six months of Donald J. Trump’s second term, the real question now is, What happens next? We have seen Trump fail at lowering food costs, home costs, he has failed to bring jobs back to America. He has now failed to stop the Ukraine and Russia war too. Now he has interfeared in The Israel/ Iran War. He failed to destroy the nukes in Iran he said he did. Intelligence in America and Israel, say and confirm the same. So what is next?

The options are slim as is the world’s confidence in America to do what it said it would do. By failing to take out Iran’s nuclear abilities and it’s uranium, Trump has shown the world he failed. As the world looks on, and Trump fumbles and fails and makes false claims as he has, he is killing, the world’s and Americans confidence in our ability to do what we say we shall, or will. How many countries will now, listen to Trump or America now? To jump the gun and use the word obliterated, when it was not a fact, shows Trump spoke too, soon.

What happens next, where does Trump turn and how will he do it? He can try diplomacy, he can try more strikes, military wise. What else is there folks? If he launches more air strikes, he better be precise and sure they hit what he intends. If he can’t do so, he now faces embarrassment and humiliation from the world. And at the sametime Trump has put America into a war it had no business in, and now has put Americans worldwide in danger, not only at home, but worldwide. If he enters Iran on the ground it will be a quagmire of undue porportions. We lived thru Korea and Vietnam and Afganistan and Iraq, folks, how many Americans must be put at stake now, to save, America?

There is no doubt in anyone’s mind world wide, that Trump has put America and it’s people into supreme danger by ordering his air strikes and not doing what he said he did. Iranian Agents will now be attacking Americans worldwide, in terror attempts left and right. American Military personel, will be in danger because Iran will launch more missle strikes at our people and facilities. So how does America now protect it’s homeland and it’s people now? Iran is a nation of terrorist, and of that there will never be any doubt. Someone needs to explain why Donald J. Trump as President of America did, without Congressional Approval and agreement! Why didn’t Trump ask Congress first?

As Americans in full, well know and have known now for decades and hundreds of years, anytime our President orders an attack on another nation, it puts our country and our citizens both civillian and military worldwide at stake. Did Donald J. Trump consider that, when making his decision to bomb Iran? I feel for the American people now, because at some point, their children will be called upon to fight Trump’s War he has now created with Iran. Did the Trump Followers and Republicans and yes the MAGA Followers realize this when they allowed him to do this? If not, why not? And here is the biggest question, why is there no one in Congress, in the House or Senate, brave enough, bold enough and strong enough to tell Trump no and stop him? Why are all the politicians in Washington, so scared by Trump, that they froze and did nothing to stop him, in all he has done?

As The Eductaion Department is dismantled, Medicare and Medicaid and Social Security are attacked, no one reacts and they allow him to do as he pleases, without questions or response to stop him. Why? Many American Government Employees have been fired and put out of work or laid off without anywhere to go, to get jobs. The Economy is in trouble. Yet no one, stops Trump, or his MAGA Followers, why? I have these questions folks and more, for now, America and it’s people have been involved in a war we have no business in, and don’t belong in. So, you tell me Americans, how much longer must this go on? How far are the American People going to allow Trump to destroy, and damage our Constitution, Our Bill of Rights, and our way of life? What Justistifies Trumps actions and orders, and what Justifies Congress not acting to stop him? What Justifies The Supreme Court giving Donald J. Trump practical Immunity from crimes he has committed ? Why is President Donald J. Trump still President?

The Republican Party defends and protects Trump and that in itself is shameful and sad. They turn their heads and deny he is doing anything wrong. Why? All because Trump says he will primary them, if they go against him? I submit folks, every Republic who wore a MAGA Hat or who currently supports President Donald Trump needs to be voted out of office and removed. As Does Trump himself need to be Impeached and removed as fast as possible. America has become a lost nation, and we need to find our way back to prominance and power.