As we get further into 2025 and Trump’s second term as President, we are learning, we must listen more clearly when picking a President in the future.

Things, Donald J. Trump ran on, are not coming true folks. He promised to turn the cost of living around an dlower prices in America, for food and clothing and more. Nope, they still rise each month he is in office.

Trump promised to stop the Ukraine, Rissia War within a day, nope, not happening folks. He told the country and the world, there will be no wars while he is in office. Now we have a second one in Israel vs Iran. Trump also promised to keep us out of war, yet here he is debating wheither to drop bombs on Iran, to help Israel and stop the nuke threat. More lies is all we got with Trump.

He has killed the Department of Education, why, beyond my compreshension for sure. Without guidance for Education, where do we go from here to educate our children and men and women of America’s future?

Trump has killed Medical plans and improvements too. He is dismantling the Vaccine Programs, he is killing Medicare and Medicad, he is messing with Social Security also. Why?

When the MAGA Followers and his voters, voted him in office, will go down as the worst choice in American history. He has produced no results that have done anything good for America or the average American citizen. As it sits, today, food prices have risen, clothing has risen, unemployment has risen, housing costs have risen too. education levels are dropping, because of him attacking out colleges and, education system, why?

All really because, Americans refushed to Elect a Woman President really. People were like a woman can’t do the job, they are weak or don’t know nothing. Well, folks your were lied to, and you allowed yourselves, to believe false statements and beliefs. Hillary Rodham Clinton and Harris both would have better for America, and both have not only the leadership and strength to do so, but, the brains for more than Trump can ever do. They would have never put into positions of leadership, people Like Hegseth,Noam, Gabbard, and more. They would have seen the flaws and lack of education and skills and experience, and said no way.

So what is our choice now as we watch Trump stumble and fall and fail daily? where do we go from here? Well, I can tell you what I think, Americans should do, next.

1. Lets start by watching closely all Trump does or does not do. Lets not let him drag us deeper into an autocractic country.
2. Lets use the midterms, to stop Trump in his tracks, turn out vote and vote out hos MAGA Followers and the Republicans who back his ways and plans. Lets, put Congress, The House and Senate all back in play by balancing it out again, between the two parties.
3. Lets stop, Trump’s Supreme Court, from going crazy and allowing him to do as he pleases. The Laws must be followe din America and so must our Constitution.
4. If necessary, Americans need to speak out, on all Trump does and show all, he is wrong and why? Freedom of the Press and Free Speech should not be killed. Our Bill of Rights should stand, not be torn down by Trump.
5. America needs to get back to it’s core values and leadership status, not this I may do this or i may do that bullshit. The President has no right to get involved in State Issues in anyway. He needs to stay out of them. Telll him so Americans. There is a seperation of State and Federal Governement for a reason. The Forefathers even stated that.
6. Think Americans, why is one man, able to change the laws, change the way life is lived and shut down vital industries and medical programs and education ssystems, and why is he doing so? Why are vaccine that saved billions of lives over generations, being stopped and killed off?

Let me close with this my fellow Americans. America fought a Revolution to get out from under the rule of a King. We fought among ourselves, to stay one nation undivided in the Civil War. Then we moved forward and helped the world in World Wars One and Two, saving it from domination, torture, and crazy dictators. Now, we need to stop, Donald J. Trump from becoming one! Americans do not want to live under the rules of one man, one King, we do not accept that folks! Let’s change it, starting now. America has not had street riots and protesters so large on it’s streets in decades, why now? Lets, do it correctly folks, protest yes, fight back yes, do it in a civil manner and obey the laws. Then head to the polls come mid-terms and cast out the republicans and Maga followers of Trump and let balance this country out again, so the sysytem of checks and balances works once more. It’s time America, Americans we must unite, fight back, and balance the system once more. The Founding Fathers knew a balance was the best way to lead and hear all people, if your congressman or senators, are not listening to you, you have the power to toss them out of office and make it better for all of us. It’s called the Power of the vote, lets use it!

In my lifetime which started in 1956, America as a nation had some of the best leaders as President. We also had a few that were labeled corrupt, or criminals. Yet, only one was forced from office by Impeachment, and that so far has been Richard Nixon. With that said, I wonder, how many should have been removed, and if anyone like myself, believes Donald J. Trump should be now.

Donald J. Trump took office, without putting his hand on a bible to be sworn in. He also has pushed the limits of Presidential Powers and the Justice System to it’s extremes. He has tipped the Supreme Court to his side of the equation, so he gets away with many things no other President in American History has.

It seems to me and this is my opinion and blog, that The United States made a big mistake, when it elected all Republicans to the Senate and House of Representatives as well as the Presidency. Too many of one political party is causing an inbalance in the country, more crime, more autocratic policies and in the end, destroying our economy, our systems and more. I remind all that Donald J. Trump promised to end the Ukraine vs Russia War in a day, He promised to turn the economy around and lower prices on food, rent and needed items. He failed on both. Trump also promised to stop wars in the world, now we have two major ones happening world wide, in Israel vs Iran and of course the Russian/ Ukraine war too. He has raised tariffs and isolated America from the world and lost us allies in many ways. Americans, we can not survive as an isolated country on the world stage, we need imports and to export our products. We need allies and friends world wide. Why, push away Mexico and Canada who are both on our same continent? What is happening here folks? I remind all, Canada and Mexico are the first two countries to come to our aid when needed. France has been our ally, since the Revoluntionary War here in America. Yets, Trump treats all like trash and ignores them, why? Can anyone answer that question, in today’s America?

My belief, is simple, America is not an island unto itself. we do not have every resourse there is in the world, or the power to stand alone forever. As we lose the tourist trade, the job climate goes down and the unemployment rate goes up. Medicare and Medicaid are under attack by the Trump Administration, Vaccines are being pulled and taken away, and illness grows. Why? I pray Trump does not involve us in either war, the one against Russia or the one against Iran. We do not have the military leadership or Presidential Leadership, necessary to win either one. Nor, do we belong involved in either one.

For the first time in my 69 years of life, I have witnessed and seen people, yanked from American streets and deported out of the country, without due process of law or court proceedings. Why? Now we have protests on the streets, against a President becoming a King, against illegal deportations and more. Why? Why Americans are we allowing one man so much power that he thinks, he can do what he pleases and destroy our republic and democracy? Americans, you need to wake up, realize, the life we have lived from Washington to Biden is being destroyed and reshaped by one man, for his own purposes, not for the good of the country! At some point, we must vote out the Republicans backing Trump and his policies and return to a balanced government once more. The mid=term elections will have to be where and when this change occurs, if not, then America will fall and crumble under the current policies!

As we go forward I remind all, Social Security is under attack, Medicare is under attack, Medicaid is under attack, the Eduction Department is being phased out. Now, tell me Americans, who will teach our children, who will protect our ederly, who will provide for their health care and more? I will tell you who, each American citizen of a working age will be forced to do so. Which means, more money out of your wallets each week and pay day. As health costs rise and food and more rise, where will you get the money to pay it all folks?

I tire of the bullshit, of Republicans and Trump saying, he is bringing jobs back to America, please tell me where and what they are! The car industry is in trouble, manufacturing is down, retail businesses are closing, hotels and more. The unemployment rate is jumping up as more federal workers are laid off or fired, due to Departments closing. Where do these people now turn for work or to support their families? Please tell me. The Housing market is tight, home prices are up, people are living on the streets in America these days. Why? What can be done to help the poor, the homeless the elderly and the sick? And when will that kick in for all, who need it?

I remind all, we are not all Billionares, or Millionares in America! We are not all born with a silver spoon in our mouths! We are not all handed millions, when our parents die, like Trump recieved. We are not all Elon Musk either. These Billionares and millionares who get richer while we get poorer and we struggle to survive, don’t even want to pay their fair share in taxes! If they did, Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid and more could be saved for future generations to come. yet, Congress, knows this, yet they do nothing to help the middle class and below, they help themselves. It has to change America, if it does not, America is headed straigght to a Autocratic system, a communist take over, or worse.

I have said this before Ladies and gentlemen, to all Americans in previous blogs I have written. History tells us, empires are built and empires have fallen all for the same reasons that America is now failing at. Take a good look back folks, The American Indians, The Aztec, the Peruvians, The Romans and more. All reached their peeks and then destroyed themselves, by, getting too greedy, too power hungry, too overly controlled by one man or one group. Dynsties have fallen over the things that are happening in today’s America! If the Indians, Aztecs,Roamns and even the Russians and Germans all fell, or were taken down, it will happen to America too. It can and probally will in the near future, as people like Trump rise, America will fall. The saddest thing about America now, is it’s leadership or lack of it. we have better people who can lead this nation. At some point, there has to be an end to the MAGA Movement to stop it now, before Trump can sell us to Russia! Wake up America, or be prepared, to buy Babbel and learn Russia or another language soon.

As a Disabled Veteran, who has 6 herniated discs and PTSD and other problems, I served my country for 16 years total. I believe in America, I believe in Democracy, The Republic, The Constitution and our Bill of Rights. I believe America can survive, but in order to do so, the American people must wake up, they must listen to the news, they must be informed of all that is happening. The power struggle between Trump and his MAGA followers and the rest of America must end. MAGA, must end, for so blindly following one person, is destroying our country.

God Bless The United States of America folks! I pray that my great grand children, will have to right and the honor of living in a Free Country when they get old enough to enjoy it!

Morning all, it is Monday June 16th, 2025. My area is gray and foggy today so far, weather wise. As I age there are some lessons, I have learned in life, I can honestly say, are decent ones.

First is lying is not good for anyone or anything. You lie you get caught, it hurts whoever you lied to and yourself, don’t do it folks. It carries on for a long time, and ruins you.

Second thing I learned and maybe the most important, don’t be fake, or play act, or not be you. People will see through it all no matter how or why you do it.

Third, don’t allow someone else to change you. You can adapt to fit in if you wish, but giving someone control over how you act or do things is just wrong.

Fourth, decision making must be your own, in all you do in your life. You don’t need to explain to anyone why you do what you do. You do need to look back over past experiences you lived through, and look at what others did yes. In the end though it is up to you what decision you make, always make the best one for yourself first, and those you love most.

Fifth, what many do not realize as we age, we look back a lot more, at what we have lived through, to make daily decisions for our lives in the present. The best way to do so, is in a wide picture so to say. When you can see and understand why you are who you are, and what you have done so far, it makes the present better for you in all ways.For you avoid the pitfalls of the past, for yourself and those around you.

Sixth, relationships, between the sexes and the peer pressures of those around you. Do not let anyone tell you who to get involved with in a relationship. Do not feel pressured to be in a relationship with anyone, if it happens fine, but it must happen because you both want it, not just one. We all look for someone for companionship, love, lust and more, make sure you know which you seek another person for. Also make sure they are fine with being that person for you, if not, it will not work folks.

Seventh, for myself, I will not chase anyone, follow anyone, or be with anyone who lives in my own complex. Some will, some won’t, my belief in the complex I live in is people talk. Chatter does matter folks, and if you date someone in the complex, if something goes wrong it spreads like wild fire. People love gossip and chatter and thats just a fact.

Finally let me close with this, I am now 69 years old, I have lived in my mind a decent life and have had relationships that last a long time. I have had marriages, that totaled 40 years of my life. I have learned if you want a relationship with the opposite sex to work, you need to use certain abilities given you by the good lord at birth. A) Listening, don’t listen to hear what you want to hear, listen to hear what the other person is saying clearly. B) Compromise is vital in any ongoing relationship. Meet in the middle folks and make it work. Any other way and it blows up in your face. C) Honesty is vital D) Emotions- will happen folks, don’t hide your feelings from the one your in a relationship with. Accept the fact they have emotions and feelings too. In the end Ladies and Gentlemen, life is complicated yes, but we survive it and carryon, because we know it must be done.

Remember, time is limited that we are on this earth, so use each moment or minute, or hour or day, in the best way you know how. Make each, worth living and as pleasant for yourself and those you love the most.

As time goes on and I age, I still have friends from my High School days. That was a good 50 years ago folks. I had two marriages like i said, the first went 12 years the second 28 for me. I must of done something right, is all I can say. I know when my second wife passed, the last words we spoke to one another were I Love You as she was passing. So, I know, I was loved, and cared for and she knew she was too. Never, ever forget to tell your partner, lover and friend you care.

Question, Americans, and I ask this as a Disabled American Veteran, who served for 16 years. Do you really believe it is right, for The President of the United States, to send National Guard and Marine sinto Los Angeles, California, to stop protesters of any kind? Be real folks! It’s not ok, and not right, no matter what laws he claims he is using to do so!

As we sit back and watch, Donald Trump is dismantling and destroying the Domocracy and Republic our Forefathers, built and grew! Yet Americans sit back and let it happen, what is wrong with you people? I don’t care what you say, picking people up off the streets and deporting them, without due process, is unconstitutional and illegal. Allowing a President the right to use American Military Might, against our citizens is wrong! I don’t care who you are, if you are an American you know, what I am saying is right!

I have now watched days of the protests and the response by Donald Trump, and the man is insane with what he is doing. America has rights ad laws, we have the right to protest and speak our mind, it’s called freedom of speech folks. So why is Donald Trump trying to take over California and whats his purpose in doing so? And why is Congress not stopping him? We havea Senate and Congress filled with cowards, fools and idiots these days. They are afraid of Donald Trump and his ability to primary them come mid-term elections. So they are frozen and scarred shitless of him! Wake up, folks, vote the Republicans out come mid-terms. Let’s return America to Democracy amd the Republic back to what it was built as. If, Congress and the American People do not stop Trump, by the end of his term, we shall be served up on a plate, for Putin and Russia to take over. America as we knew it,a once proud Republic and Democracy and world leader on all levels is now, a nation, falling apart and being destroyed from the inside out, like cancer kills.

So here is my Question folks, How long will Americans, stand by, and allow Donald J. Trump tp destroy the Land and Nation we love? How long will we allow him to use American Military Force toc ontrol the American People? How long will the Senate and House of Representatives, allow this to ocntinue? And most of all, when will Congress as a whole react and stop this? I know as a Disabled American veteran, who served for 16 years, if I was ordered to take over an American City, I would have objected and refused to do so, and called it an illegal order! The Military has the right to refuse such orders, and it is time they do.

A madman in the White House is not the way, American is supposed to be run! God Help America folks, for we know not what they have done! But, I think it can be corrected, if Congress reacts and stops Trump! Wake up Congress, Wake up Americans, Stop, Think and React, for npow is the time to save our country and way of life. Our Forefathers, Washington, Adams, Jefferson, Franklin and more, would be up in arms right now, and they would go to Washingtone, DC. and they would tar and feather Trump and run him out of town and office. Why, isn’t Congress stopping him and will this turn into a new Revolution folks? We are indeed bordering on it now, as our way of governement, and life and liberty,crumbles and falls apart. I ask, when will Congress and the American People stop Donald J. Trump?

Hello all, today is June 9th, 2025, and I have now lived in Westborough, Ma. 01581 for the last 3 years. As a resident, I have learned that the people of Westborough can be helpful, kind and polite when they wish to, but when upset or something is bothering them, well, you get the idea.

I am not a bar/ tavern type of person mainly because I don’t drink a lot, and crowds bother me. I frequent grocery stores as needed, I bowl when I wish, and I play billards once a week. I walk if I feel up to it, I read, and write as I want and basically, mind my own business. Not complicated for sure, I believe in taking it easy at 69 years old.

As a widower, who lost his wife in 2021, I basically stay alone. Never was Mr. handsome or Mr. Social Butterfly. I am just me, and like many, I havea belief, that, I am not everyone’s cup of tea so to say. But as I told one person, isn’t that why they make so many different flavors of tea?

Each day is different, yet the same in many ways. Can’t control the weather, the political climate, the economy, but I can control me. Some may think that is not good enough in today’s world and they may be right. There is far too much violence, anger and more in today’s world. I don’t fully comprehend why, but it does exist. For instance I stopped in a Tavern one day just for one beer and a sandwhich and started talking to a couple next to me. The conversation went on about the different generations I have lived through and the decades. I stated I thought the 1970’s were the best years I loved through, we had the best cars, they were still steel, the best music, from rock and roll to country and motown and the best economy of the time. Plus, people were more friendly, polite and nicer, and working well. Well, I had no idea such a conversation would upset anyone. The man went off on me, arguing the 1980’s were better, and when we disagreed, he got upset and mad. His girlfriend had to tell him to calm down more than once. so, I stopped talking and walked away once I ate. never went back there due to such behavior.

I don’t take to violent people, angry people or unkind people. I don’t enjoy being told to shut up, or behave either, especially if I don’t believe I did anything wrong. if you havea bug up your ass folks, do me a favor, keep it there, don’t spit it out in anger all over the place. I understand all of us have our bad days or times, but, swallow it some and remember, the whole world did not do a thing to you. Aim that anger where it belongd or swallow it and move on, life is too damn short.

Next, I have found since my wife passed in 2021, that the dating scene in America sucks. Yes, I know there are a million dating sites online, on the internet for people to use. I also know, many of them, work at time sif used correctly they say. What I found is people post pictures that don’t look like them, they build fake profiles also. I also have found women and men are all afraid of dating these days. I hear the complaints daily, of how people are angry, or how they try to take advantage of others, go after your money, or use or abuse people. It’s sad to see and admit, but, if your like me, you know what I am saying is true.

Did a few dating sites for those my age, Match.com., Senior Sites of different kinds too. While they do work, I find it is not a way that works for me. I do not post naked pics of myself, I do not chase women, constantly, and if I like someone I usually say so. But, online dating is more like a meat market, and so many are already married, or running from a relationship that harmed them. So it becomes a minefield of problems using them.

So what do I do now, many ask me? well asa Senior citizen nowadays, I have given up on any hope of finding a female companion or partner. as many know, each of us, who are widowers or widows, are set in our ways. I find many, look for what they had in their lost one, in others. That comparision process, works against the process, you are trying to do. No two people, wheithe rmen or women, are the same folks, we each have our personalities, our attitudes, our styles and our ways. so in the end, if your stuck on just one of those, you stand zero chance of finding someone. Attitude is everything, willingness is everything, openess is everything, and so is the ability to openly communicate honestly. LOng ago and far away, many years ago, i told a very old friend, who was looking for a lover to slow down. stop writing letters and posts to women you don’t know. So he said what do I do. I said be you, have fun, work your job, laugh and do what you love on your own. if you are you and natural, and having fun, someone will join in and notice you. It worked! Today he is married now over 30 years, to the woman he met doing what I said to do and very happy. As long as you learn to be you and learn to openly communicate and compromise your fine. It’s when you don’t, that you lose out.

I can tell people not what to do, better than I can what to do. I am not perfect, far from it. But, I can say this for me, I am 69 years old now, I had one marriage that went 12 years, a second that went 28 years. I think I did ok, considering I am now 69 and alone. 40 years of marriage in a 69 year life span is pretty good in my book, I don’t know if ya agree, but, thats my opinion, lol.

Don’t be selfish, don’t be foolish, don’t act like someone you are not. be honest, be clean, be neat and be you. Don’t fake anything in life folks, but learn to openly communicate, shut up when needed, laugh when something is funny and try to compromise with those you want to be around or like. Friendships are important, as are belonging. as to me, I find myself, in the same position as many do, scarred, fearful of being abised or used, fearful of someone coming after my finances,. I didn’t get to 69 by being ignorant or stupid folks, ever hear that old saying, don’t mess with the elderly, because we didn’t get here, without knowing things we learned. LoL

As I go forward in time and age I have learned, don’t piss people off, don’t take your anger out on someone else, you don’t like someone for whatever reason, move on, move away, let them be. who they are and what they do, does not affect me or you, unless it does, and we always have the option to need engage again. Thats life folks!

Just some simple opinions of mine above and some simple opinions of the dating scene an dlife as I age here in Westborough, Ma. I grew up in Connecticut folks, in the days of the 1960’s amd 1970’s, we played outside, we engage with other children, we ran, jumped and laughed. We fought to survive and mom always said you get home before the street lights come on. we ate what we were fed, we wore what we were given, and we went to school when told. We didn’t have gaming consoles, computers and the internet. So in those days, we had no choice but to learn to engage and get along with others, or else you were an outcast. Times have changed. We went from a world of we, we, we toa world of me, me, me and in my opinion, it sucks. As a very old black woman told me when I was a child stung by a bee, a lilttle kindness goes a long way ypou see. She put a mud pack onm y hand, and drew the stinger out. She smiled at me and said take care. Those kind of people are very rare, these days. Life has changed, I don’t care about color or race, or where your from, if any place. I care, how we get along, and that my friends should be a happy song.

As we go through life, we have our ups and downs, our choices we make, make our lives go round so to say.

We all make mistakes and I have made more than a few in my life. I have to admit, not every decision I made in my 69 years was correct and i don’t think anyone else, my age or around my age has either.

I can list the mistakes I made in my lifetime, very easily. To do so is to sit back and review the years I have lived through, and the decisions that made me who I am today.

The first decision I regret, is not bein able to slow down and think things out before acting. I couldn’t change that fact as I grew up because I suffered from and still do today, Hyper-Activity and Attention Deficiet Disorder. In the 1960’s they called it emotionally damaged. They had no idea what was wrong till many years later.

The second decision I regret is, never being close to or accepted my parents, whom I argued and fought with all my childhood.

The third decision was instea dof fighting back when beaten upon by the parents I had an dmy older sibling I let it happen, until I finally, left.

Now, decisions and mistakes are many in life my friends, and i must admit I had my share. I made a big mistake when I dropped out of High School in my Junior year. It put me in a postion, of no diploma and having to go to work for a living. My parenst demanded I work,to pay my way if I was not in school. I did get a GED Diploma the following year.

I regret not speaking up to a girl I knew and telling her how I felt, about the sametime in my life. She went on to get married and i went on to the service. I never pursued any girls really in my life, what I did was associate with them and let them decide. Sadly, I am still that wya today, and females believe if tyou do not approach or pursue them, your not interested. So I lose on on that one too.

Mistakes i made include the first Military experience i had when I joined the U.S. Army. It didn’t work out for me and i returned home after a Trainee Discharge due to my step-father’s health and more.

I survived it though and went on to the Army National Guard and then The U.S. Navy. In total I have 5 Honorable Discharges to my name. 16 total years in service which ended when I fell and fought to stay in the Navy, but was finally discharged under a Medical Under Honorable Discharge.

Some have asked if I madea mistake when I married my first wife. Not relaly folks, we were fine until, I was discharged from the Navy and the money dried up. we had two of everything for 10 years before we seperated, including two daughters. so no, it wa snot a mistake, but, the divorce was not my fault either so. Life went on.

When I found my second wife, I was lucky she saved me. I moved in with her, and got the VA to send me back to school. I graduated with an Associates Degree in Hotel Management witha 3.7 average. But working would not happen due to my back injuries even though I tried.

28 Years with my second wife was a blessing and I would never trade a second of it, for anything out there. I loved her dearly God Bless her soul. I lost her to breast cancer in 2021. I hospiced her at home in the end.

Once that was done, I found myself at 65 years old looking for a new life and needing help. My siser stepped in and gave me that and i thank her for it, everytime I get the chance.

I moved from the home I had, I soold it. I moved north to Massachuetts to be near my sister. I bought a condo in a 55 plus community. In my opinion while it is a nice condo, it is not really for a man like me, but I won’t sell and move, too much trouble to do so.

The move here is maybe the biggest mistake I made in my life. Why, simply put I don’t fit in and never will. I don’t play Bingo, or go to the Swimming Pool or attend events here. I don’t like crowds and I suffer from PTSD on top of all else I have medically.

For me, this is the loneliest I have ever been in my life. I find some people rude, some mean and indifferent here. I know I am not everyone’s cup of tea and no one is, so I try to keep to myself, mind my own is all. I don’t chase women so the widowers and divorcess here are safe from me. never pursued of chased women, not my thing. If i ende dup with a woman, it was the two I did, because they basically came after me.

In the end mistakes I have made, I live with and have no choice really. So these days I live in mostly silence and alone except for a few things I do. I play Billards with some folks on Monday evenings, on wdenesdays and Fridays I bowl some, and Wednesday evening will find me playing dominos. Otherwise I stay alone and talk to very few. I find, many don’t like my sense of humor, or they don’t like my personality, so alone i shall stay. I have neve rbeen a burden, or imposed on anyone i my life for any reason, I shall not start now, at 69, heading to 70 years old.

I am proud of my accomplishments, My marriages, my daughters, my grandchildren. I am proud of my time in Service too. I keep my Awards to myself, my Honor Societies too. My life isa simple one these days. Play Billards, Bowl, Dominos, walk some if capable, read, write my poetry and stories and blogs, build puzzles and watch TV and Movies. I ask no one for anything and never have in my life. I live day to day, and see my Doctors when needed an dtake my medications. It’sa simple life for sure, and I am guessing, the move here to this condo is the last one. As I told my sister, I shall die in this condo, it is where they shall find me. Just do me the favor of having e cremated an dburied with my second wife, all is prepared.

As I age, I have run into a trend, that I am falling into. It’s a trend of isolation and loneliness, that I find myself doing. Some say oh, get out more, have more fun, then I try to, and bam, right back to the trend I go. Why, simply put, society these days is non-accepting, cruel, mean spirited and angry. While I will always love this country, I did defend it for 16 years, in three branches of the military, I will never understand, why it has become as it is.

The anger is frothing at the top of the glass so to say. There is the anger of the American President, the anger over him being President, of his followers, and his maga call. There is the anger of political hate, racisim, segregation, predijuce and discrimination. There is fear among people for many reasons, from going broke, to being homeless and jobless, in a country that hasn’t had that since before World Wars happened.

Yes, we have electronic advances, yes we have medical advances and more, but what we do not have, is the attitude and knowledge of how to bring all Americans along for the ride. You can improve material belongings all you wish, but if you can’t make it affordable or accessable to all, it will cause pain, suffering and more, anger. The anger, pain and suffering is coming to the top of American society as a whole and frothing over, and spreading slowly. It is a sad state of affairs to see folks.

The differences between generations, styles, and attitudes is sad to witness in my opinion. The last great generation is indeed the one born in my era, the 1950’s. We were handed the greatest society in the world, with the greatest economy in the world, by the hardest working parents ever. While we tried through the 50’s, 60. and 70’s to expand on it and make it all inclusive, we lost sight of it. We lost discipline, we lost vision, we lost durability and most of all we lost cohesiveness as a people and nation. Divisions begen to show in America as never before starting in the 1980’s.

Those divisions between the have and have nots and the color lines are now blurred, hazy and in plain sight for the world to see. I wish it wasn’t so, but it is folks. Can it be healed and where would America start, to do so? That is the major question is it not?

It started in my opinion with the lackadasilale way parenting went. Children were given gaming consoles to babysit them. They were ignored and not raised properly by parents who thought they themselves were abused, but were not really. The old talk to your child came into effect in the 1980’s, brought on by what I call the Cosby Syndrome. No hitting a child to discipline them. The line, was put in place by such sitcoms on tv and followed by Americans since. So, today we now have higher crime rates, more undisciplined children, have become adults who now break laws and society norms like they never existed. It is just a fact in american society now. Look around and you see it everyday.

Children running around aimlessly in stores away from their parents, acting out. Teenagers who put piercings and tattos all over their faces and bodies. angry fights in bars and taverns, people shooting others just to get attention. It happens daily now in the 2020’s. We are into 2025 and almost at the halfway point of it, and the violence is peaking, the anger is peaking, people are mad all the time. Does anyone ever stop to wonder why, and how to change it all? No, we keep at it, like spoiled children trying to get our way. In the end that selfishness, anger and stubborness is killing America. It is killing what may go down in history as the greatest society known to man.

Empires of the past have traveled this road to destruction before us folks. Ask the Incas, Aztecs, the Romans, The Germans and others. History shows what I am saying to be true. All fell from the great heights they achieved over years. Why, because they became self-absorbed, self contained, believed they were better then the world, and they were proven wrong. They allowed themselves to become what they believed was better then the rest. In the end it was their downfall folks. Stop and Think, how Inca and Aztec and Roman and even German Dictators and leaders and empires crumbled. we are on the same course folks, unless we stop it. Can we, that is the real question, is there a voice loud enough and strong enough to wake up the modern American Society to what can come next and stop it before it happens? Or will America, end up a page in a history book of the world, as the once proudest and most powerful empires ever, that eventually crumbled and disappeared into history as what once was? You tell me, Americans, can we maintain and better the country and society we have, or we are now at a point of no return and a crumbling of the best there ever was.? Have we lost sight of the pride, distingusment and honor of our forefathers, Washington, Jefferson, Franklin, Adams and more? They believed in a better America, a free America, built for one and all, not an isolated America, not an angry America. How did we get here Americans, and how do we step back, and recover and make it work, instead of destroying what our forefathers put forth for us? You tell me Americans, please! For as we are going, and I am now in the later stages of my life, we may see America, crumble, fall and disappear a sthe once bright shinning star and example it always was. If that happens what comes next for the world, who will replace us, China, Russia, or a communistic world? Will Democracy and Republics cease to exist? Only history and time can give us our answers, ladies and gentlemen, for it wil go as good or as bad, as we the Americna People let it, unless we change it and save it.

Ever stop to think back on life as you have lived it so far. How family interactions of lack of them, attributated to who you are? Or how Friend sinfluenced who you have become? Or maybe how lack of interection made you who you are too?

Or maybe you have thought back over your life and seen what made yo, the best you are and who the people who helped make that so. Anyway you look at it, life can not be blamed on just existence, or being born, it can not be limited to parental guidance either. It can be attributated to, how your react to situations and what you learned to believe from others. Some of us stop, think before we react or do something. Some don’t, some jusyt instantly react on the spot, out of misunderstanding or emotional reactions. No two people are the same are they?

Some of us are emotionally unstable, others are stable but controlling. Yet others, wing it as they go along and react to each situation and person differently. While I believe in a stable person and situation, I walk away from unstable, angry, mean or vindictive people. I also avoid, unecessary conflist at all cost. We grow old and learn how to be careful, by the experiences we live through folks.

We try to meet requirements of jobs we hold, and relationships we are in, but, at times we can not do so, at all times. So Jobs get lost, relationships end and we find ourselfs, searching all over again. It is just a fact of life in modern current America and the world. We seem to make decisions on a more emotional basis then we do base don logic and common sense. When we lose sight of the logic, common sense, educated approach we get lost in the deep grass so to say, and things go haywire so to say. Things get out of control and, haphazard then, don’t they? I have seen it, lived through it and learned, have you?

Each day I see, shootings on tv, unwanted violence and anger, and so much more. Politics had gotten violent and angry, the economy is unstable, education is being shut down and eliminated, people are losing medicaid, medicare and social security, and so much more. The homeless rates and jobless rates climb. What happened to the world we used to have in America folks?

I can still remember jobs being plentiful. families being united, the nation united and working as one, as a we, we, we society. We have gone from one nation of citizens united for the good of all, to a me, me, me society and screw anyone else, the individual comes first. Why?

Where will we get our teachers, scientist, Doctors, Lawyers from if we have no Education System and guidance from our governement? Does anyone know? Where shall the elders go for medical help, or social assistance to survive? How do people pay for medical help, mental and physical if needed? people paid into Medicaid, Medicare and Social Security all their working lives, now, it is being slowly taken away and they are being left with nothing to lean on as we age. Why?

Americans, the rich are getting richer, by taking it out of your pocket and leaving you broke and struggling. The rich get richer, the poor get poorer and the middle income fight to suvive by working more hours. Is it right? How come Senators and representatives have great healthcare and you don’t? How come they get raises every year and you don’t? Why is the American Stock Exchange tanking daily and no one reactiong to it? How far can anyone let it go before, we react and stop it folks?

The only way, we the American People truly have a say in how our economy and country goes, is by the election process folks. If we leave it all one sided as it is now, we lose! You must fight back, if we don’t, we lal lose. Vote so the House and Senate is equal so it balances. All of one party or the other unning the show, drives us down a road we do not want or need to go. The Mid-term elections wil come soon enough, when it does Americans, stop and think how much less you have, how much lower your pay chacks are, and benefits go by. Think about how you have to fight to pay to keep a home, for food, clothing and to live daily. Think of how your benefits an dthe pric eof healthcare is rising. We need politicians and leaders who think more about the poor and middle class, then the rich and themselves. We need to change the makeup of Congress to protect oirselves and our nation as a whole. One sided does not work folks.

The days when this country was at it’s best, are behind us it seems. They were the days when American was run by and controlled by and for the middle class. The factory workers, the truckers, the farmers were protected, they made America Great. Not The Rich Politicians of this country, who sit in a seat in Congress, get richer, give themselve tax breaks and steal your benefits. Wake up folks, unless we change Congress, we lose. We have gone as I said from a we, we, we society, to this me, me, me society, and as we did, we lost sight of what made America Great, the All for One attitude, we lsot it folks and that is sad.

As we age, we face certain things, eventually, that we have no choice in. Loses, like the death of a loved one, not having the money to live like we want. Or other items, of which there are many. The biggest is probably the health issue, physically and mentally. Our bodies and minds slowly go down hill folks and we all know it, and we resist it of course and fight back. Our body shows it’s signs by limiting what we do, not allowing the same movements it once did before. Mentally we lose track of time, appointments, and people and we start to isolate, due to those things. We also start to isolate out of fear, a tiredness of being downplayed, denied, or told we are not wanted. So we isolate, because we grow to believe we are not wanted or needed anymore, so we stop participating in life.

A lesson for many to learn also as we age is to try to keep the mind healthy and strong. So we read, we write, we talk to who we do like no matter how few they may be. I have been down this road now for a while. I avoid people, I can’t handle. I don’t like constant put downs, ribbing and picked on, and I don’t think anyone does. we tend to put up with it to fit in, because most do it. But after a while it wears on a person. So as it did on me, I stopped participating and disappeared from public life basically. Even when I go walking nowadays I avoid people, I don’t talk to them. Cuelity is a big part of american society these days. Our society has indeed gone from a we,we, we society, to a me, me, me society and screw anyone else, I got my piece and thats it, and not caring what happens to someone else.

I guess I was brought up in a different world than most. I grew up with two agry parents, who beat us kids to get us inline, as they said. It wa stheir way of correcting and controlling the five of us. Violence became a daily thing for me, when I was young. If I had a problem in school, my parents stopped going in to talk to teachers. I was suspended in high school in my jumnior year. When that happened, high school was not for me anymore, I was sent to work to pay my own way. It would take a year of working till I finally, said enough and gota GED diploma. when I did I jumped into the military services to get away from home.

What the services did was find the faults I had and problems I had and point me in the right direction. I was always a problem child so to say, but what do you expect when your are born with hyperactivity, attention deficiet disorder. I Overcame both with out drugs. I also have PTSD from childhood beatings and military life now. Yet I persisted and am still alive. While the military gave me discipline and direction, and an education, it also led me to a slower life,

I slowed down and got myself under control and lasted 16 years in the military. I was married had two of everything, including daughters. Amazingly, it worked for a 12 year marriage, that ended in divorced as my military career went down. 6 herniated discs in my spine and bam I wa sout of the military. I had to find my way once more.

I found a way and a woman I loved for 28 years that I married. we shared our lives, our love and we grew together as we said we would in our wedding vows. I had 28 years of a marriage I would never give one minute up of. Now, I am alone again, I lost the woman, I loved dearly to cancer. It was rough in more ways than one.

Like I said, we all face things we can not avoid in life, lose of jobs, friends, family, loved ones. How do we overcome and carry-on is always the answer, is it not? In my case I tried hard to just hang on and reset each time. The last reset after my wife passed was started at 65 years old for me. I have come to the conclusion there will be no more relationships for me. I gave up searching for a woman to be with. Simply put the effort seems to be immpossible, so many things come into play. The dating scene in this day and age is crazy. Dating apps on the internet are not worth paying for. I came to the conclusion, I would no longer pursue a relationship with any woman. I am old, set in my ways, not pretty or handsome, and at times crnky, and cantankerous. LOL! Women look, and probe slightly, and i shut them down fast and walk away. I will not impose myself on a woman, or be a burden to anyone! if I do something and try to participate in an event where ilive and i feel uncomfortable or unwated, I leave. I can’t handle large crowds anymore, I get antsy, I get hyper, I get distracted. some have old me to join in more, my response is always no thank you. I do small groups, yes, I play billards on monday nights, go bowling with a small group here, and do a senior bowling league once a week now.

Destiny, fate, who knows for sure folks. I just know the older I get the more I avoid people. Americans are cruel, mean spirited it seems, due to the climate we live in socially. The American society is slipping away from we, we, we to me, me, me and screw you. There is no doubt in my mind for sure these days. People deported off our streets without due process, arguements over how we protect our borders. Attacks on Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid. Confrontations over tarriffs with over countries, our withdrawal from the world as a whole is sad. We used to be the protector, the defender, the leader of the world. Now, we are looked upon as a failure in world politics. Our neighbors are mad at us, our allies are mad at us, and in the end, our own President doesn’t care. What is to become of America’s future or mine well, I do not know. I am 69 years old now, I have lived through presidents since Eisenhowser, thru Kennedy, Johnson, and all in between to Trump for a second term. Sadly, I have never seen anything like what is happening today in our world. Like I said, things will happen, time will move on and eventuality take place, we can’t change it all, but, if americans, look, listen and learn they can change the direction we are heading to. yet, we are blinded by certain things, predijuce discrimination, fears and more. It is a direct reflection of the society we live in, when you run into people like me.

May 15th, 2025, Thurday and half of May is done as of today. Rain falls more often these days here in Westborough, Mass. than in the last three years since I moved here, it seems. Gray and dreary, wet is all we get. At least it seems so lately.

As Today starts, my thoughts go to things some may not think of, everyday and in every interaction with others. Look, I know we all build protective layers and defend ourselves, I know, we are sometimes too busy to realize what we are saying of doing, but, can we at least slow down, and stop and think before we say or do something? I ask this because I have run into some people and things said, I just shake my head at and go, does this person realize what they are saying and to whom they are saying it?

I am far from perfect in anyway. I have my flaws, I have my inabilities, I have my highs and my lows. We all do folks, but, I try very hard to listen to othe rpeople, and to consider what I am saying. Now, I know ribbing and ball busting is a thing we all do, but, conside rthe fact we are not all the same, may not be able to take it.

I say this as a person who has disabilities, as a Veteran, which range in nature from the physical, 6 herniated discs in my spine, to the mental of PTSD and Attention Deficiet Disorder and Hyperactivity. With these things constantly going on in my mind and brain and physical discomfort on and off, I try to survive in life and get along with others. I have been told I should join in more activities, well, I don’t because of all I just said here. I feel uncomfortable in large crowds, I feel pressure or pushed. I feel like I don’t fit in. I get told to be quiet, calm down, shut up, or behave or not laugh too loud. I have lived with thes ethings all my life and i am old now and sometimes just can’t handle it. There are times when I walk away, shake my head and don’t turn back. I look at people at times and wonder what the hell did I do, for you to treat me this way? I know some will not understand what I am saying, but, it needs to be said to the world and humanity in general.

Even in small groups at times i see things others don’t, feel things others don’t. I get the messages different than most and feel the rejection faster than most. Why becaus eit is built into me over years and years of living through it. Let me say this to some who may read this, people you need to consider, that there are people like me, with disabilities an dproblems you shouldn’t say certain things to, or treat in certain ways. In my case i don’t get violent, havent, since i was a child, I choose to walk away and not turn back around. If you insult me and I think your serious, I am done with you, if you tell me to shut up, calm down, don’t laugh or get too loud, I am done. If you tell me in anyway, that I am not wnated somewhere, or needed anywhere, or not liked anywhere i leave, it’s that simple. Yes, I have been told I am overly senistive and touchy, but, your not living my life with my conditions are you? No I am, and some conditions you can not heal or change. You can’t change herniated discs unless you get an operation that won’t paralyze you. You can’t change PTSD from childhood and service years. You can’t shut down Hyperactivity or Attention Deficiet Disorder either, you can take drugs they may give you, or live with the conditions i mention and adjust the best you can. That is what I do folks. I am not crying over it, I am just letting people know, not all of us who walk this planet are normal, many of us have problems you can not see, or realize. People need to stop and think before they run off at the mouth, because, they are hurting people without knowing it. It’s not good folks, if someone with my conditions, does not have good self-control, someone can get severely hurt. I learned self-control by the time I was 12 years old, I had to have it taught to me, by professionals. For at time I would lost it and bad things would happen. I overcame, so now I walk away, I control the emotions the best I can and walk away, I don’t lash out verbally or physically anymore.

If I look at you and go, OK, if you wnat me gone just sya so, I mean it. I will get up and leave, rather than stay where i am not wanted. I will not ever over burden, be a burden, impose or hurt another, knowingly. I don’t work that way, I don’t have the insenistivity to it all, that others have. I guess it is all associated with my mental and physical and emotional problems I have had all my lifetime. So, I walk away, I avoid large crowds, I walk alone, to make myself feel right and not out of place. If i don’t feel like i belong or I feel like I am not wanted as a part of a group, I leave, it’s simple. and in the end best for all around me and me. I do so to preserve myself and not to harm or hurt others.But, not many people can see that, is all. They judge me as too senistive, or not conforming, not not likeable. To them I wil say what many other sin history and overtime have said, Do not Judge a book by it’s cover folks, please don’t. Stories of life’s and times come in many different versions, from poems, to songs, to stories, each come in their own covers, whethe rthey be soft covers or hard covers. But, as we all realize when reading, not all covers give the full story, you can read or understand. So, don’t judge a book by it’s cover, you will be sorry.