Many have heard the old song now, Bye Bye American Pie I am sure it is a classic. It has several meanings to many people and it’s lyrics, are well known. It talks of the Day The Music Died. In Musical History that can be many different days. Bye Bye American Pie, which one does it really refer to? I think it refers to the day, Buddy Holly, The Big Bopper and Richie Valens died! The music world was never the same after that day.

In my mind today though, Bye Bye American Pie, is what is facing America today. Under the trying times, we are living through. As, America goes forward, we are now facing many changes. Americans decided to Re=Elect the current President Donald Trump. American Traditions and society shall never be the same again. He is killing the American Dream, it’s Constitution and our way of life.

Food Prices rise daily, clothing costs more, medical costs rise. He is killing Medicare, and Medicaid, trying to Dismantle Social Security and dismantling our Education Department. Trump is withdrawing America from the world Stage in many ways also. The day the music died, could be changed to the Day America Died, to the same beat. I remind all, America always had an Education Department. It was good enough for many of the most famous and illustrious people we have ever had. Without the Education Department many of the most brilliant minds in history, would never have been. If it was good enough for them and us it should be good enough to keep. Our children and grandchildren, need guidance, and fostering, and knowledge, just like we did. Leave the Education Department alone!

Don’t try taking Social Security away! Social Security supports and helps millions upon millions of Americans in their old age. It gives us benefits we need to survive when we can’t work no more. It supports the Disabled, the Seniors and lets us live a life of peace, in our old age. Leave social Security alone! We paid in, we deserve it in return, when we need it.

Killing Medicare and Medicaid is not intelligent either. Without them, Americans will have to pay more to take care of their elderly relatives. The Cost of Prescriptions will go up. The cost of procedures needed by the elderly will rise. More families will find out, they must pay more to care for their elderly family members. Housing costs for the elderly will rise in all ways. Nursing Homes are expensive folks, and Medicare and Medicaid help many. Let them be, stop!

The next item I wish to address, in this is The Veteran’s Administration and The Benefits, we Veteran’s get. When no one else would go to war, or serve our country and protect it we did. When, it was time to give all, to defend and protect we did. Some lost limbs, some lost their lives, some suffered injuries that are horrendous, you want to take our benefits away? We didn’t avoid the drafts, or the defending of our country, we didn’t claim bone spurs! We served, protected and defended our Nation, our way of life, and every American Citizen who did not serve. Remember this, for in the end, when the time comes, your asses, were saved and protected by us. We gave more than some, we gave all! Leave our Veteran’s Benefits alone! We earned them, more then any politician earned their federal pension, these days. If we didn’t serve, where would America be today?

I am tired of the war on the American Way of Life. I am tired of politicians, who think the best way of saving America, is by taking things away. You want to save America, you want to save money, cut your own salaries and benefits! Lets see how you like it. when you can’t get a prescription, or an operation, or help when needed. Come on Politicians, instead of talking it, live it! Lets take away your medical coverage and prescription coverage and see what you say then. I think Americans should now stand up, rise,vote against any politician, who thinks it right to kill the above items. You want to eliminate benefits and care and education? Do it to yourself first and see how it feels.

Last and not least, this Trump Tariff Shit must stop. He was elected to lower food costs, and make life affordable. Instead he tariffs everyone he can, prices rise and we pay the cost and do the suffering. No, lets limit the politicians food, lets take their benefits away and lets make them pay. The rich don’t need a tax break either, you have enough as it is. Billionaires getting tax breaks and contracts from our country is wrong. Musk has more than enough and he has no business in our personal data. The rich keep getting richer is all that is. He has conflicts of interest and he should be banned from the data. His worth rises as the American People’s drops. Wrong! Musk must go!

Ok, I think somewhere in time, I did somethings right it seems. I overcame seizures as a baby and survived. Then I overcame a rough childhood filled with, Hyper-activity, Attention Deficient Disorder. Violence from a Step=father and a mother who didn’t know what to do with me. It was the 1960s when I grew up. They didn’t know what was wrong with me or how to handle me.

My mother handed me over to the state because she couldn’t handle me. I was instutionized for two years. During those years, my mother tried to give me up twice to Foster Homes. I refused. Then when the State decided, they contacted my real father and asked if he would take me. when my mother found out, she went nuts and stopped it from happening. It would take me making a statement into a Dict a Phone system to get me home again. Once home, it was different, not the same that I left it as.

But, I would go on to help my Step-father rebuild a home for our family. Sanding floors, hanging paneling, painting and rebuilding. We made the home livable over two to three years. By then I was 16 heading to 17 years old.

I dropped out of High School in my Junior year, and was forced to get a job by my parents. I worked till I was 18 in factories. I then decided to join the Army. It was a quick stint, I was immature and not ready, so I was given a Honorable Discharge. It was the beginning of a 16 year career for me. I went from The Army, to the Army National Guard, then to the Navy. I married and had two daughters in the 1980’s. That would end in Divorce for me in 1990 to 1992.

In 1993, I met my second wife, and moved in with her. We would have 28 years together. During it we traveled America some, bought a home together. We shared everything we could, our Wedding Vows said it all. We would learn and grow together is what we said, we did.

I went to the Veteran’s Administration for help, since i was injuries in the Navy. It was decided I needed to go to college. I entered college at 37 years old. During the next 3 years, I worked when I could, collected unemployment when I could and attended at night.

In 1997 I graduated College at 41 years old. I got a Degree in Hotel Management. Was inducted into two HOnor Societies, Alpha Beta Gamma and Phi Theta Kappa. I graduated with a 3.7 average out of a possible 4.0. Received two awards also. I went on to run a hotel for a company, till I could not anymore. I was awarded 100 percent unemployability status in 2000. My wife worked to 2006 as a bookeeper, and then she quit one day. Our life went on just fine. We had one another we started cooking together. We did everything together and rented rooms in our home for extra money to survive.

In 2006 my wife came down with breast cancer the struggle, would begin. From 2006 to 2016 she suffered from breast cancer, I would take her to appointments and chemo and radiation. In the middle of that I would get lung cancer myself. I would support her and her me. I survived lung cancer by way of an operation, they removed a lobe and third of my right lung.

After a brief couple of years of remission, my wife’s cancer came back, Back to appointments, radiation and chemo treatments. I sat through them all with her, and brought her home each time. as time marched on my wife would encourage me to write. She said i should tell the stories of my military career and anything else I thought of. She would read them and made me publish them online on Amazon. In the end I had written numerous poems, and 51 short stories.

Yet I would take her to all her appointments sit with her through each treatment. By then, we had reached 2021. Her health was failing slowly at the time. Sadly, I would watch her go down hill slowly. One evening we were watching television, and I saw her slump to one side in her chair. I ran over and propped her up by pillows and asked if she was ok. She wasn’t. I called an Ambulance and to the hospital we went. She was admitted that night. She would come home once more and be ok for a short time. Then, one night I told her it was bed time, lets go to bed. She said she wanted to sleep right where she was in the recliner. I couldn’t get her to come to bed. I went up to bed alone.

At 3 am, I was awaken by banging on the walls and ran downstairs. I found my wife on the floor in the bathroom doorway, and unable to get up. She had a knot on her head the size of my palm of my hand. I helped her up and into a chair. I called an ambulance once more. The next six months would be in hospitals and Rehab Facilities for her. I would visit her everyday, sitting with her as we watched tv, she ate and we talked some. Covid was big at the time, so I was the only one able to see her.

In the end I went to see her at the Rehab Home down the street daily. I would sit with her daily and feed her if needed. I would get there in the morning and stay as late as i could, my whole life was seeing her. One day I walked in and she couldn’t feed herself anymore it was near the end of July. I fed her and she fell asleep, I headed to the ADMINISTRATOR’S office. I asked why she wasn’t being fed. The answer i got was they had more patients then they could handle. So I asked how long she had left on her Medicare Insurance. I was told three days. I told them to call Hospice. At the end of July i brought her home. Ten days later she would pass, at home. I lost the one woman I loved more than myself, and i was utterly destroyed. we buried her ten days later.

Today I found out I am now in Public Libraries with one of the books I wrote. My wife made that so, when she encouraged my education and then my writing over the years. I miss her today, it is March 5th, 2025.

In the end, I am a widower these days and 69 years old now. I struggle in someways. I know I can’t bring her back. I also know, will never never find another like her. The real question is what do I do next. I know she would not want me to stay alone for the rest of my life. I have no idea, how to find anyone to be with. So, each day, I get up and wonder, what to do next. I have no idea, so I struggle, scared to approach any woman, and not sure of myself at all. 28 years of marriage I had with my wife and i am out of touch with any kind, of dating. I guess in the end destiny and fate has control now. What does one do now?

That’s my Question, these days! I have accomplished one hell of a lot for the Black Sheep of my family. In the end though, the loneliness may, do me in. I am not sure anymore.

Trump’s Speech last night was not what the American People wanted to hear. There is no concentration on the economy, food prices, Health Care and more. He wants to sit in the White House and shift all blame to Biden’s Administration and Joe Biden. He talked like Biden left him a mess economically, the truth is the complete opposite. So why does he do these things?

Eggs are now almost 9 bucks a half dozen. Then he adds tariffs left and right raising more prices on many items. Trump lied to get elected. He lies while in Office and he shall continue to lie till he leaves office and passes away. The sad part is he wants to give his rich cronies and himself that big tax break again. Like they need it right, they have billions to play with.

Trump is coming after Social Security, ,Medicare and Medicaid, folks. He wants to kill Obama Care, cares not what happens to your money, except he and Musk can reach it. Elon Musk does not belong in our private data in anyway. He doesn’t belong leading DOGE either. He has contracts with the US Government, worth billions, it is a conflict of interest. Sadly, no one is doing a thing about it, why, they all fear Trump and Musk. Someone must get off their ass, and investigate Elon Musk. It’s time to remove Musk from any attachment to our private data.

The show Trump and Vance put on on TV regarding Ukraine and it’s President Zelensky was sad. Taking the financial and military aid from Ukraine just points out how, Trump is tied to Putin’s hip. Sadly, millions will die because trump got angry over Zelensky’s talking points and more on television. Trump doesn’t care! He wants what Putin wants, and he will keep preaching that till his term is over, if he can. Congress needs to wake up. The Republicans do not get the idea of the damages Trump has inflicted upon their party. They think he is fine and within reason as they say, wrong. republican commentators like Shermichael, and Scott Jennings and more, will get it soon. Scott Jenning believes he will be a Candidate soon, and run for office. He will lose if he does. Put it plainly his view and his ass kissing of all Trump does, will kill his chances. Trump is dragging the Republican Party down a rabbit hole they will never recover from. It looked on tv like a ploy by Trump and Vance to embarrass and control Zelensky, period. America is losing in all deals Trump tries.

We are losing our status as a World Leader, we are being withdrawn from the world stage. He wants us off the world stage and kissing Putin’s ass. Sadly, American’s are foolish enough, and gullible enough to fall for all of it. The cult Trump formed is strong and it will be hard to get people to break from it. In my book, the cult is filled with people who bought Trump’s lies.

Britain, France, Germany, Italy, now Mexico and Canada all see through Trump and his cult. yet, Trump keeps pushing here and it is isolating us from the world and our closest allies. I want to remind all Americans and Trump MAGA Followers and cult members. You will shortly feel the hurt all Americans feel. When your older relatives can’t afford their care. When, Social security is cut, you have to pay to house and feed them and care for them, you will get it. The time when you have to pay additional taxes and the rich get the tax break, you will see.

Measles has risen now in Texas. Kennedy JR. has no idea what to do and is scrambling. The medical experts in Texas are fighting hard to contain it now. Yet Kennnedy Jr. talks down vaccines that have saved billions of Americans from this disease over many decades. Ever get the feeling, someone is stupid, but, you say it you may get attacked. Kennedy Jr. has no real medical background of any kind, he doesn’t belong the HHS Secretary.

It has taken Trump a whole 43 days to destroy American’s place on the world stage. Put in danger our health and our children’s too. Add in the cost of health care, his trying to kill, The Department of Education, well you get the picture. He is slowly destroying dismantling the American Government, just the way Putin wants it. The destruction is beyond measure folks, wake up. It will indeed only get worse, not better.

Price increases for all items are coming folks. Health Costs are rising. Trump is attacking anything and everything he can. Why, simple, he wants a tax break for himself and his rich cronies. You want proof, take a look at Musk’s income and and it’s rise since January 20th, 2025.

I can’t express this in any better way then to say this. Americans will pay more, hurt more, lose more under Trump. American’s needs to wake up. He is cutting jobs, raising the Unemployment numbers,, he is cutting Veteran’s out of jobs they need. That is not improving the American Economy!

Look I want to make something clear before I go any further. I do not hate The Republican Party or Donald Trump. What I hate is the dismantling, the destruction, the isolation of America, by him. I hate the fact, he may mess with and destroy programs Americans depend on. Don’t mess with Medicare, Medicare, Social Security, or Veteran’s Benefits. We earned what we have, by paying in or serving, don’t take it away. Stop attacking Obama Care, if you don’t like it, adapt to it, change it, don’t kill it people need it. A defiant and nasty Trump is not good for the country, period. At some point, The Republicans and Democrats must come together, or the next four years under Trump, will destroy America. His anger and want of retribution is dangerous. he needs to realize, controlling his anger is important and he mast stop it. Compromise is a word he doesn’t want to hear, but it is needed to the country and it’s future. No man or woman, should be President if they do not understand that compromise is vital.

Good Morning to All. Today is March 4th,2025, sun is up and the temp is 24 degrees today. My back is messed up again, in a back belt for now. As I age my back will get worse and there is not much more I can do about it. It’s something I have learned to be careful with.

The news I usually turn on daily is off today. I didn’t turn it on after, hearing that Trump wants to pull all support for Ukraine. If this happens and he shuts it down, Ukraine will become Russian period. Putin will not quit folks. The loss of Ukraine as a fully independent country, would be horrible for the world. I pray for the Ukrainines daily, they need all the support they can get.

So much is happening in the political world in America these days. That we need to step back and reevaluate what is going on. Many have thrown their hands up and given up on stopping Trump and his autocratic ways. IT is wrong to do that folks, if we as a nation, allow Trump. We as a Nation must do what we can to stop him too. Checks and balances need used now. If Congress is going to sit there and rubber stamp all Trump does, America will not be America anymore.

That said I now move on to trying to survive. Trump tries to kill the Education Department, Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid, if this is fine for everyone or not? DO the American people really want no Education Department? No Medicare or Medicaid? Do you want to lose Social Security for real? Wake up because it is coming.

Any American, who works for a living must understand, you paid into Social security ever day you worked. Medicare and Medicaid keeps you alive as you age and helps to slow costs. Money is tight these days. Without a backstop, Americans will free fall into old age and die poor. Many may not afford to even get buried. That my friends would mean you end up on potter’s hill and forgotten. And I think Americans would like to be remembered by family and friends, not forgotten.

The seriousness of the current situation in America, leads me to believe, Americans have lost their way under Trump. We are being pulled back away from the world. Isolated, and alone, no nation can survive. Zelinsky the Ukrainian Leader is correct, the large beautiful oceans we have, will not protect us forever. There will come a time when aggressors, like Russia, China and North Korea will attack. They question is when?

Long Ago now, America’s for-fathers, Washington, Adams, Franklin, Jefferson and more, all warned us. We would only have a Republic as long as we defend it and nuture it. They were right. As it sits now America, is on the brink of being destroyed from within. Sadly, we have allowed the Autocrat, Donald J. Trump to become President again. This time, he plans on destroying all from within. It is a sad state of affairs in my book.

Staples that have been parts of America, since it’s beginning are starting to feel it and the cracks are showing. The Foundation the Constitution was based on are under attack. Freedom of Speech and Free Press, are being controlled now. If you bad mouth Trump or his Administration you are cast aside. All of a sudden, Trump is like a king instead of a President. This is not what America and it’s Founding Fathers wanted or want currently. The sadness of the moment is unbelievable. To see America and it’s people being led to destruction and damages beyond repair is too much.

Measles is back now, what disease will be next? America is isolating itself. We are arguing with Mexico and Canada why? China I can understand of course. Trump is kow- towing to Russia and Putin also, why? You can say what you will, about Joe Biden and his Administration. He didn’t kiss Putin’s ass like Trump does. we are in serious, sad shape now.

We have maintained peace in our own way in the world. Hundreds of years, now, we have been the steady hand behind the tiller of life and justice. It has all been pushed aside, and we are falling into a pit of despair and loneliness as a nation. The more isolated Trump makes us the more vulnerable we become. For no man or nation is an island unto itself. America is no difference folks!

As I have stated before in my blogs, other empires have risen and died out overtime. The American Indians,the Romans, Aztecs, Incas,Germans and Japanese all died out. Each for their own reasons of course, but the American Empire is now being killed from within. Is it really America’s time to die, or can it be saved? You tell me folks!. How far will American’s allow themselves to be dragged down, and destroyed from within, before we react as a country? Or will Americans just sit back and take it?

I find many things in America I love, but, I also know we have our faults. We are too easy going, we are far too kind in many ways. Yet, we vote and the Majority rules. While i believe in the system we have in place, we are forgetting to use the checks and balances here. Unless American’s step up and stop Trump, we will be Autocratic by the end of his term. If that happens, you can bet, Putin will have won. America will not be a power house anymore. we will have fallen under the communistic sword so to say. Has America run it’s course now, are we done? You tell me America, do you like independence, and free speech? Do you believe in the Constitution and the Bills of Rights? Or, is America ready to be controlled by others?

Saturday Feb. 22nd 2025. Good Morning everyone! As the news rolls on about the cuts of government employees, and more, I shake my head. I ask, when will Trump bring down food prices, when will he provide healthcare, to all. When will he keep his promises he made when he ran for election? I know now he won’t and he doesn’t care.

But, that is another issue for the political world to solve now. we are stuck with it, and the Trump backers and MAGA crowd will suffer like the rest of us.

Lets discuss, something else here, for I tire of it all and the bad news only gets worse. Lets talk about those of us, 55 and up, or older. Lets talk about how we are going to take care of ourselves and those we love, as we age. Social Security it looks like is going to be maxed out and fail within 10 to 20 years at best. So who pays for us senior citizens when they steal it away from us? How do we survive? Do our children take care of us, or does the government help? Any ideas folks?

What of the Veteran’s who served our country like myself, got injuries on duty and get Disability Payments monthly? Will we continue to get our payments to live on monthly. What of our health care we earned and benefits, do they stay or get better? I ask, because i am like many, I live on both social security and disability payments. If they get shut down or taken, I have nothing left, I am rated 100 percent unemployable. What then, where do I turn?

Next thing, I worry about is the fact I am a 69 year old widower. Living alone in a 55 plus community. So I have to provide, for myself, gas prices are rising, medical cost is up, food is up. where do I turn if my monthly checks get cut and does anyone care? bad enough I have six herniated discs in my spine and PTSD, right. I learned long ago now, I have to live cheap and hang on to survive. These are my concerns at 69 years old. Imagine what your children or grandchildren, will go through when they get older. They will have no Social Security. And no place to turn either. What then, folks?

As I age, I pray each month my checks come in. Just so I can pay for a place to live and eat and stay warm. Imagine what will happen when Social Security is shut off, or Veteran’s Benefits are cut. Imagine when you receive bills from hospitals in the thousands of dollars and can’t pay them. Or you have to go to food pantries to eat, or senior Centers to beg for a meal. That is where Trump is pushing America to, folks. When you see it happen to your relatives, your children or family members or yourself, you will understand. You won’t cheer for Trump then.

The Unemployment lists are growing as people are fired and laid off. Food Prices are rising each day, Trump’s tariffs will raise your taxes too. he or Musk do not care folks, they have billions to live on, you don’t. IT’s a sad predicament for the average American isn’t it. Some will live high on the hog so to say. The average and below will starve and die off ultimately. We don’t have the billions Trump and Musk have, and they are getting richer from it all too.

I ask now one thing to all who Voted for Trump, did you elect Musk too? He wasn’t on any ballot I saw! Why take away Social Security, we paid into it, why mess with Veteran’s Benefits and Medicare and Medicaid? Why attack the lowest class or average American trying to survive? Explain please, go after the rich, tax them.! They have billions, have them pay more and help out the poor and average, please. Stop killing jobs, stop the rising food prices, rising rents and home costs and utilities cost. Let Americans earn a living and be healthy too. Lower Medical Cost, medical bills are crazy in this day in age, they need to be brought into check. Don’t do it out of the average or poor’s pockets or wallets, your killing Americans. Wake up folks! Leave Veteran’s Benefits alone. Leave Social Security Alone, Leave Medicare and Medicaid alone, leave the Senior citizens something we can survive on.

This morning, I awoke and made my coffee, and started my laptop and received an email. that said my blog post was just an Anti_Trump post and rant. I found it stupid, silly and insulting that some simpleton does not understand what is happening.

To help these individuals, who think, all I do is rant about Trump, lets discuss why, I would do so. I have many reasons, and I will list them here for these people.

1. Trump’s Tax Breaks for the rich in his first Administration, helped only himself and his rich cronies.
2. Trump was laughed out of the United Nations in his first term and never returned.
3. Trump called for and assembled a mass MAGA Rally in Washington, DC during the end of his First Presidency, Jan. 6th 2021.
   • Trump refused to conceded that election when he lost by over 80,000 votes and the electoral college too. No President has ever attacked the Capital in this way.
   • The damages occurred in Washington, DC on Jan. 6th, totaled millions and destroyed the capital, and Trump never paid for the repairs. The American Citizens had to.
4. I remind all Trump backers and MAGA people they went to jail for a good reason and belong there.
5. Now lets deal with the current Trump term. 98 percent of Trump’s Executive Orders are just an attack on all Joe Biden did as President. There are no grounds for them.
6. Firing of Justice Department Officials who prosecuted The Cases against Trump, is all revenge and anger and retribution only. And it is wrong!
7. Donald J. Trump is bought and paid for by Elon Musk and Putin of Russia. Musk speaks and people listen, more than they listen to Trump himself.
8. The economy is not being fixed it is being destroyed by firings and job cuts by Trump. He isn’t dropping food costs, he is not helping the economy. Unemployment numbers are soaring in America.
9. Trump and Musk are attacking Medicare, Medicaid, Social Security and Veteran’s Benefits. Why?
10. Trump is dismantling the Department of Education, for what reason? And how soon will American’s learn there is no guidance for their children to learn from? It is coming! You had an education department to help with your education growing up, now what will our children have?
11. Trump has placed all his own followers in Administration positions,While this is normal for an incoming President to do, firing all lawyers who prosecuted said Trump is not right!
12. Being fired for doing the job you were assigned to do, is not right.
13. Trump has pardoned all his MAGA followers who participated in the JAN. 6th attack. Why?
14. As can be seen on TV, these days, the man running the White House is not Donald J. Trump, it is Elon Musk, the richest man in the world, who bought the White House and presidency.
15. Watching, Musk and Trump in the Oval Office, was like watching a ventriliquist and his dummy working an act. Musk talked Trump barely responded and all he did was agree.
16. The American economy is not being repaired, it is being torn asunder as prices rise. Trump promised to fix it fast.
17. Deportations are being done, but illegally, and without any empathy. While I agree illegal migrants must go it must be done in a legal humane way. We look like Nazi Germany doing it like this.
18. Why attack, Veteran’s Benefits, Social Security, Medicaid and Medicare? You are removing the benefits of those who served our country and the elderly too. Why?
19. As Musk increases his fortune, and Trump too. How many American Veteran’s and elderly will suffer without food, health care and the money we live on?
20. Musk is not an American born citizen, why is he allowed to tear into our private data? He was not elected.

I can go on and on here with this list of what is happening. It is not a rant against Trump, it is an angry American, speaking of the destruction, anger and corruption, Trump, has brought. While senior citizens lose the income they need to survive, and the healthcare they need. What is being done to help then survive? What of the Veteran’s who were injured and served Honorably and earned their benefits? Who will pay the medical bills for these people and house and feed us.? We paid into Social Security, we earned our Veteran’s Benefits, why are they trying to take them? It’s not right folks!

In the end let me say this, why is the only response by MAGA Followers always the same? Never do they, address the real issues and problems. They don’t address Medicare or Medicaid costs and seniors. They don’t address the taking away of Social Security benefits or how to stabilize Social Security for the future. They cry it’s all a Trump Rant, it’s not folks. Sadly, they are so brainwashed, and blind they can not see, nor can will they believe what is happening. The spell of MAGA and the cult Trump created will break. It will do so, when, what he is doing starts to take the food, healthcare, away from them. When they have to start paying for their senior family members care. Or when their children, have no guidance for the education. When the price of eggs keeps going up and food gets too high and people start starving trying to survive. It’s coming.

Let me finish with this for a for instance, for all to consider. Donald J. trump has never served in the military, he avoided it. Secondly, Donald J. Trump has never had an American Woman fora wife, why is that? Answer the simple questions first to get to the bigger ones later folks. In the end, as time goes on in Trump’s second term you can expect certain things. The economy will take as inflation rises. The cost of deporting so many people will get your wallet. The killing of the education and Justice Departments will kill Justice and more. Musk will get richer and Trump will too. The Average American, will pay more and have less. Trump doesn’t care, as long as his coffers grow with cash.

Good Morning all! It’s Feb. 18th, 2025. Damn cold outside folks, and I am wishing these days, that the warmer weather would rush in and save us. Yet I still live in Massachuetts here, and I have always been a Northeast Coast American, funny how that is huh?

Well, as a Widower, who lost his partner in crime lol, in August of 2021, I can honestly say I miss her more than anything in my life. we cried, we laughed, we danced, we cooked and we even talked about the books. We did what she loved for the years I was with her and never once did I complain, of anything.

When cancer appeared in her, I did it all with her. The Doctor Visits, the updates, the appointments, the Chemo and Radiation, and in the end the Immune therapy she choose. I would get up each day shave shower, get dressed and off to the hospital I would go to sit with her daily, talk to her and watch tv. Then when she went into a Rehab facility I did the same, day after day, staying with her. Even when she couldn’t talk anymore, couldn’t feed herself anymore, I was there to feed her the best I could and talk to her. And we suffered through the COVID years too.

One day, I went into the convalescence home, and found her trying to eat, by herself. Her arm could no longer bring the food to her mouth. she was like a statute, frozen and no one was there to feed her. I fed her, and she relaxed and fell asleep. I then turned around and walked down to the Administrator’s Office of the facility and knocked on the door. I asked the Administrator why my wife was not being fed. And she answered they had too many patients and were doing their best. I then asked the administrator how long my wife had left on her Medicare, she told me three days. I said ok, that’s enough, call Hospice I am taking her home. The next thing I got was the Administrator trying to convince me, to pay her 350 dollars a day, for my wife to be there. No Thank you, Hospice showed up and I set it up and she was home the following day, with me.

Ten days later, she finally passed in our home, comfortably with myself and my sister to help . We brought her family in to say goodbye to her and allowed them to visit her. The final time they came was within a week of her passing. As they visited, my sister and I stood in the next room, and heard it all. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing at first, and when I did, I just shook my head. I had heard my wife’s sister and my wife’s daughter, sitting there discussing the items they wanted when she died. I want that vase, I want that item there, I want the jewels I gave her as presents back, etc. I couldn’t believe it. I was in shock and so was my sister. Yet, I didn’t toss em out or bother to try, I knew it would affect my wife if I did, I knew she could still hear them, and would know.

When she passed, on August 10th, 2021 in the late afternoon hours, I called her daughter to tell her and she told me, don’t call the Hospice People till I get there and if you do, don’t let them take her away until I get there. I agreed. The daughter showed up before the Hearst for the body and she stood over her mother, thanking her for all she had done for her and said goodbye. when they took my wife away I could not watch it, I stepped outside and walked around looking the other way. I cried to myself and knew I would be hurting for a long time.

When we buried my wife, it was August 20th, 2021. I stood there in a black suit and tie and cried, as my world crumbled for me. I had no one left and I knew it. I was lost and had no idea what I should do next. I knew I could not keep the home we had shared for 28 years, it had to be cleaned out and all sold. So, I started working on that when alone and broke down and called my sister back for help. I also called a Real Estate Agent to put the home up for sale. It would take my sister and I and her boyfriend from August to December to clean the home out, having Estate Sales.

Near the end as we were clearing the home out I recieved a text on my phone from my wife’s daughter. I was shocked. It contained a list of items she wanted, and my wife’s sister wanted now that my wife was gone. It listed games, books, glass items, tables, chairs and jewels. and much more. I couldn’t believe it, but there it was on my phone in text messages. as we cleared the house I set aside all they listed and more. On the final day of clearing the house out, we set all of it in the driveway for the daughter to pick up. She arrived with a SUV and a trailer to carry it all. I didn’t want to see or talk to her, so my sister’s boyfriend did it. She still wanted in the house and I refused.

During the Estate Sales, we sent the daughter a message and told her not to show up for the sales, and to keep her children away also. Well she didn’t listen. She sent her 16 year old daughter in, with a bag full of photographs of her mother and I. The 16 year old wandered into the garage as the sale was happening, holding the bag and looking for me. When, someone told me I rushed to her and comforted her and accepted the photographs and she wanted in the house, so I allowed it. My sister saw her and told her she was not supposed to be there. The child stayed and I walked with her as she pointed out things she wanted of her grandmothers. I helped her box them up, and when she was ready I carried them to her car, and put them in her backseat. I hugged her and told her to take care of herself and to drive carefully on the way home.

The child drove home, and told her mother I kicked her out of our house. She lied and of course the mother believed it. All of a sudden my sister and I were evil people, to my wife’s daughter and her kids. The child lied and there would be no changing my wife’s daughter’s mind. After almost 30 years, and my wife’s death, and all I had been through, with the daughter and her children and all the money I gave for their educations, I was cast out as an evil man who threw her daughter out. No questions asked of course. just, bye.

I took the daughter off of my cell phone, blocked her phone number and her text, after numerous rants on my cell phone. I have not talked to the daughter or my wife’s grandchildren since. The sad part is, it is all based on a 16 year old girl’s lie. But, I can’t change it, so I live alone and mind my own is all I do. Am I wrong for doing so? I don’t think so, and it was far too emotional for me to experience and live through. So, I walked away and never turned back.

If my wife had seen it and heard it all, she would have been one pissed off woman. I thank God she didn’t see it or hear it. I loved my wife more then anything in the world, the disappointment she would have had over it all would have killed her, before her cancer. I miss her terribly and always will, I have pictures of her and my life time together in my home, along side the pictures of the parents that raised me also. I have the memories of the days of laughter, the days of walking, the days of dancing and romancing. I have the memories of our musicals we shared at Good Speed, the concerts we attended at Tangle Wood, and more. These I keep close to my heart forever more. I pray each day and night my wife is resting peacefully, and that she never learns of what happened once she passed. I hope to see her again, when I pass and get buried with her.

As time goes by, the memories remain. They make me smile at times and cry at times, but they keep me going. I know my wife would want me to carry on the best I can and for me to be happy again. I search for that happiness, and hope I can find it once more. I know I am old now, at 69, and as we age it is hard to find a new partner in crime, for companionship and more. I shall just do the best I can, and hold the memories dearly forever.

As a senior citizen these day in America, I find that many like to ignore us, and many have an attitude about the seniors these days, unless they are related to you. Aging is a natural occurrence folks, we all do it. What we tend to do as we age is be self-reliant and we get set in our ways and others don’t always agree with how we feel or what we do.

I know as we age, we tend to stay away from others, and choose friends and family to be around. It is easier that way, and they tend to put up with and tolerate us better. we learn as we age we had our highs and bright spots. I know for me, I have been there and back, but as I age now, I also know the possibilty of finding a female partner again is slim to none. I am a realist if nothing else, so I am handling being alone well, in my mind.

The hardest part of aging, is really, losing the one you love and having to stay here on your own. You lose the company, companionship and caring, you lose the one person you wanted to do things for and with. You lose the support and love they gave you in return. So, we all go through it I would guess, just it is not fun to do. So we make the best of it, by, doing for ourselves, and carrying on the best way we can, alone.

I know for me what I miss most is the intimacy of a relationship, with a female. The closeness, the interactions not only physically but mentally and emotionally too. So, I basically hitch up my pants so to say each day and carry on alone the best I can. Sometimes I may be happy, sometimes I may be sad and somedays, I may be indifferent to all around me. I don’t show it and i think most my age don’t also, we hide it behind a smiles, a laugh, and play the part of the happy camper everyday we can. Why because if we are hurting in anyway, we do not wish to braodcast it to those around us, we don’t wnat to impose, be a burden or bother to anyone else. We work overtime to be self=sufficient and stand on our own until we can’t. we keep the attitude of never surrendering as long as humanly possible. It’s all a part of life, in the elderly community we find ourselves in these days at my age.

We begin to realize we are old, and people fear aging. You shouldn’t but we do, it is all a natural occurrence in a human beings life. The normal flow of life is always getting closer to our ending and knowing it is coming. we prepare by saving money, and material things we wish to pass on to our loved ones. we get life insurance in case we pass. That way when we do, we have paid our way to our own resting place we wish to be in. We leave behind wills or trusts, telling those we love what our final resting place will be, and the funds to put us there. A process occurs when you get to the age of knowing, you can’t live forever, no one does.

We may voice opinions on politics, religion, or other subjects we have interest in. We may slow down and play card games, or dominos or such games, trying to keep our menatl abilities active and in shape, or we may run out and play light sports, to stay physically in shape the best we can. It’s natural although some don’t because they do surrender to it and pass more quickly.

I know for me, I have fallen into a daily routine I do, because I must. I do wake up a certain time, I do take pills and medications I need daily. I watch the news or play on my laptop online. I shop as needed and go to Doctors as scheduled. I am non-religious so churches are not my thing. I may build a puzzle, read a book, chat online or watch tv. When the weather is decent I walk a lot, to stay in shape is all and stretch my legs. I may go fishing in warmer weather, or try pickle ball, but I try to not to over do at anything. I have found moderation is the way to go in what I do or what I eat also. I search for stability, comfort, and enjoyment. If I am wrong for doing so, well that’s life, you do you, I do me is what I say.

In closing, I have found out, that the hardest part of aging is the loss of your companion, lover and friend you married. All of a sudden they are not there to talk to, to lean on, to communicate with, to cuddle with or to laugh with. You find yourself being an island unto yourself, with no assistance anymore. That my friends is lonely and sad, just ask me. You begin to fade slowly and you know it is happening and your instinct is to fight it of course, it is natural. We all do it don’t we?

I wish at times I had a crystal ball to tell me the future and how long I have left on this planet. I am closing in on the ages of my paternal and maternal grandfathers, who passed at 73 and 70 respectfully. So, by that I know, that anything can happen at anytime, and I am right to have a Trust and Will. Never in my life have I imposed on anyone, been a burden to anyone and I will not start now. The other thing one finds out as we age is simply, it is harder the older you get, to find a companion, lover, and the longer you are a widow or widower, you realize, matching with anyone else is basically, that much harder. You are set in your ways, you like what you like, and you dislike what you dislike, period. So, even if you use dating apps online, there is no way for many of us to trust them, and end up happy, due to using them. I find many want you for your money, for added financial help, or to use you for one purpose or another. There is no way, you can just find someone, who isn’t scared, or looking to gain something from you. So, I just do what I have as normal, I am me for who else can I be! I, be myself, I try to laugh, have fun and enjoy life the best I can, and if that doesn’t work for finding a companion, lover or friend than I shall be fine.