Had a few conversations, about dating apps and such. Some recommend dating apps some do not. Being a widower, I thought maybe dating apps were the way to go. I tried Zoosk, met three women and nothing worked out. So, I gave up on Zoosk and ran the subsciption out. I have tried Match.com now and so far nothing, seems to click for me. Why I have yet to figure out, I was never a flirter, never learned to flirt, I am just me always.

My first wife I met in the Navy, and we had two of everything, including two daughters. It ended when the United States Navy discharged me for an injury. The money ran out, and we ended up having the house foreclosed on and moving in with my mother-in-law and her son. It took a total of approxiamately, five months living there, and divorce began.

My Second wife, I met at a Singles Dance in a tavern in Connecticut. We were together for 28 years total and I still miss her today. We had a great life together and we were happy and content. It all ended on August 10th or 2021, she died of cancer. It will be 3 years since her passing soon enough now.

I figure 3 years is long enough grieving and life must go on and I am not sure how to move forward anymore. I live alone in my condo, walk as much as I can depending on weather rof course. I play billards once a week, and I play Mexican Train one night also. I have investigated the Taverns and Bars around me, and I am a non drinker, so, it is hard for me. I used to go bowling once a week, but, that died out for me. So, I am basically in a 55 plus community and alone these days. I have learned to live alone again, since her death.

What will the future will bring for me I do not know, I do know I am doing ok right now. As long as I am self-sufficent and well enough to do what I can, I am happy. I write blogs here, poems and short stories as I go along. I try to keep my mind busy, by reading, writting and building puzzles. Never have been a social butterfly type nor am I a casinova of any type. I consider myself an average man, I am not handsome or unique in anyway. I just be me, being a phoney is no good, so, I try to interact here in the condo complex. Living in this 55 plus condo complex, reminds me of my childhood days, in the projects when I grew up. Everyone knows everyone elses business, so I avoid all I can.

The age factor comes into play for me, being 68 now and on my own. I know some men, like to chase younger women, but, it’s not my thing. I am sometimes loud, sometimes silent, sometimes annoying to there’s, but, I am not hurting anyone or myself.

I am always wondering what to do each day, to keep busy. Yeah, the Community here has events and clubs, I do two, As to anything else well I don’t know, I am looking at MeetUp to see what’s possible is all. I am not a religious person, haven’t been to church since I was young. The LIbrary is always here and available, since I don’t work due to my disability, it becomes a walking thing for me, either routside or at a mall. For me being single again is a two edged sword type of thing. The point being, I am 68 now, and it is hard to meet anyone when you don’t go out much. So, life will roll on for me, and I can hope is all.

As the day gets underway this July 11th, 2024, Americans are about to face a choice they do not wish to face, does one Vote for Biden or Trump. When I think of the coming election, I think of what each man got done as President, what they stand for and how they go about their business in politics, period. I also have to consider character and morals and ethics, as I try to decide.

Biden has served the American people for over 50 years now and accomplished one hell of a lot. Even in his 3 1/2 years since elected President he has worked overtime to represent the American People, to face immigration, the economy,jobs, and equality for all Americans. Yes, Biden has grown old now at 81 years old and as he said himself he moves slower, he talks slower and he knows he is older. he also knows he must consider all of the above and the call of his party and the American People to step aside. As I said already, Biden has been serving for over 50 years now in many positions and capacities. I believe, Biden will make the correct choice as to staying in the Race for The White House or stepping aside, for Biden understands the country comes first.

Trump on the other hand is 3 years younger than Biden and he says he is healthier, yet he hides it well is all. Trump has mental problems also, and more. Trump also did nothing he promised in the term he did serve, with the exception of a tax plan, for himself and his rich cronies. He did not build the wall he promised, he did not get Mexico to pay for it. He failed to control the Covid virus, and told us to drink bleach on public tv. Next he lost the last election to Biden, refused to concede it, set up a insurrection on the capital, calling the Oath Keepers and Proud Boys to come in and storm the Congress, and destroy the place, scare all politicians there on both sides of the political releam. He let the Proud Boys and Oath Keepers build a hanging platform, and look for hos Vice President also. He sat in the dinning room in the White House and watched dit all on tv doing nothing to stop it. When Trump left office he sulked out of office and town and went home to Mar a Lago, taking Top Secret and Secret documents with him why ! What was he doing with them, what was his purpose in taking them and who did he show them to ? When asked to return them, he refused, and forced the Justice Department to get Warrents and to search his home to get them back. Trump isa convicted felon 34 time sover also and still had 54 or so charges to face. He has been Indicted 4 times folks, he is a confirmed sexual harasser of women, held liable for raping some women. Is America going to actually elect this man President again? Trump has said he be a dictator the first day in office if he wins again. Does America really want to allow Trump to do as he pleases and choose two more Supreme Court Justices? You Tell me America ! At some point in time, Americans must realize they are going to elect a convicted felon to the presidency, if so, do you trust what he may or may not do?`

Let me say this in ending, even if Joe Biden steps aside, we do not need a second Trump term in the Whoite House, he is dangerous, and who knows what lil whim hits his fancy, and what he may do next . Americans need to wake up now !

Political Perils facing America are not good as of this date. Where will America go next is the real question. Will they stay with President Biden or take Donald Trump ? If they stay with Biden, will his age be a huge problem, will he falter due to it? Donald Trump is only three years younger, he stumbles in his speeches also and is erratic. He lies constantly, leads a cult of Maga followers, wants to be a dictator for a day he says, is convicted of 34 felonies already, more legal charges are out there to a tune of 54 more at least. He has been accussed of many things and charged. The January 6th, insurrection at the Capital is all Trump calling for it, arranging it and he made it happen. He refused to admit he was defeated, tried to stop the legal process of the electoral college. Then when he left office he decided to take secret and top secret materials to his estate in Mar A Lago and refused to return them, until the FBI got a warrent and went in and retrieved them. The question is why did he take them what was his purpose with them, who did he show them to and why?

Now, I understand the problem of Biden’s age, and his mental accuity, he may be slow, but he is not illegal, or out to become a dictator. Biden has well over 50 years experience in governing and policies and more. But, if America does not vote Biden and he loses, then we shall be stuck with a man sworn to bea dictator and more. So, what will America do, and will we stay a free democracy and Republic as the founding fathers set forth, or shall we crumble and fall, and become Russian ? Many questions abound here folks, and who will be able to stop Trump from selling our nation to Putin, or Kim, or anyone else?

America is now in a crisis of many proportions, and at a point in it’s history, the founding fathers, would declare dangerous and deadly. Stop and think what would Washinton, Jefferson, Adams, Franklin, think? What would they say of a man who wants to kill democracy, kill the Republic they built, who stole secret and top secret documents, and led an insurrection at our capital, then skunked out of town only to rise again four years later, trying regain the presidency. In American History, only one man, tried to turn on his government during the Revoluntionary War, Benidict Arnold. He sold secrets to the Brittish as out nation was fighting for our freedoms and finally becoming a country. What happened to Benidict Arnold, he was banned from America and outcast, to die in sorrow in England. What should America do with Trump, now, is the question ? If America elects him again, what will the results be ? He wishes to ban taxes, cut social security, cut medicare and medicaid, he wants to give himself and his rich cronies another tax break and most of all he has already affected the Justice system beyond compare, now he want stop add two more Justices of his own chosing ? Really now, he killed Roe vs Wade, that alone should be enough to stop women from voting for him. Yet, he sits at the head of a cult group he calls MAGA, why?

Will America allow Trump the Presidency again, and are we smart enough to see what we would be allowing before it happens ? No matter what people may say about Biden and his age and problems, he never ran an insurrection, took secret and top secret documents and harmed women’s medical coverage, or tried to take away benefits that help millions. If America chooses Trump, you are chosing your own countries demise folks.

We are at a pivitol stage in our countries history and life span. 248 years. I remind all, all the top world powers are watching us, and in the past all the great powers of the world have crumbled under such conditions. The Maya, The Incas, The Romans all fell from power, are we the next nation to go under ? Is America the next great powerful dynasty to fall, will we survib=ve or go under, and end up sold to Putin and Russia, or Kim or some other dictator ? History shows great dynasties and powers that be only last so long, has America now run it course and lost it’s way ? Is the great American Democracy, and Republic now lost it’s way, and can we save it ? That Americans, is the real choice now, do we Americans have the same courage, guts, and balls, the Founding Fathers had in creating this nation, or will we fail and watch America and democracy disappear ? The choice is the people’s of course for we still have elections, and we can still save it all, if we have intelligence and the guts to do so.

Note; I know I do not have spell check folks and my grammer is not always correct, but at least I try to voice what I can.

Ok, I don’t have spell check folks lol, but, I do have thoughts, ideas and more.

I shall not bash Westborough anymore, because, I have no real reason to, my anger and being upset is more about my own state of mind and emotions, Yes I am depressed and missing my wife, and no one else is to blame I know. I also know that grieving takes time and the longer I, stay alone and do nothing about it, is my own fault. I have been told many things I can do, like volunteering , or finding a grief group, going to the Senior Center, Library, and even walking. I am told bars are not the way to go for a man who is 68 and I agree, especially since I am a non-drinker in all reality.

Some have suggested MeetUp to find things to do, some suggested trying Worcester. Or surrounding towns in my area. What I do, I can not be sure, for I am not the most social butterfly around for sure. I don’t talk much until I know someone and trying to know someone causes me to go silent or freeze up. I tend to shy from women in general, why, because I do not consider myself, handsome or a catch. Then add in my age and well, the picture is not pretty for me.

I shall look into MeetUp, and then retry the Library and The Senior Center at some point. I am grieving yes I know it and there will come a time when I must learn to move on and live again. I believe, at some point, I need to at least make some new friends and new people in the area. Isolating myself, does not work, it only makes a circle of loneliness, that shows me no way out. I have to overcome my fears, anxieties, and moods, and live again.

I was told to try dating apps, because that is the way the world is these days. It is probally correct, since most live online these days. So I did sign up for Match.com and post a profile there, hoping at some point, I will meet someone that way. I am not asking to marry someone, or to jump into a relationship full time. It would be nice to just have some friends, of both sexes I can talk to, hang with and get to know some. Anyway, I shall continue on, try to keep a positive attitude. It can’t hurt.

When I was young, my step-father taught us all some things I have never forgotten. 1) Don’t lie, he hated liars 2) Always stand by family no matter what 3) Never steal from anyone 4) Avoid confrontations of any kind that can be physical or verbally angry. 5) Before you engage mouth, engage brain, think about those you are talking to and how it affects them. 6) Always treat others as you wish to be treated yourself. 7) Do not couch something in a way, when you say it, you are hiding what you really feel. 8) Never insult someone’s intelligence, you may find out, they don’t like it, in a bad way. 9) Never think because you were put in charge, you can say or do what you like, because you can’t. 10) Never harm an animal. 11) Never hit a woman period. 12) Respect your elders at all times .

Following those rules, as I was taught, I have survive 68 years now, never got into a physical alterantion, and got through, Elementary School, High School, and College, the U.S. Army, The Army National Guard and The U.S. Navy. They carried me though two marriages also. Dad also taught all of us as we grew up, we can do anything we put our mind to, if we just stick to it. He was right, about a lot. When we are growing up, we just don’t get all our parents taught us and as we age we forget some of it also. I hope I never forget it, any of it, but I am aging, so excuse me if I do.

Dear President Joe Biden,

Sir, You have served the American people over fifty years now and reached the pinnacle of politics, in America and now the world. We the American People support you in all you do and we appreciated all you have done. Sadly, in the end here, your age is now a factor and we are at a time, where, stopping Donald J. Trump from regaining the White House and Presidency is more important, than you attempting to keep it, in your current condition.

President Biden all due respect to you Sir, but at your current age, we all know, you have stumbled and had a bad debate now for the world to see. Our allies and enemies are watching and seeing you do so Sir and so are the American People in general. While no one wanted dthe rematch between yourself and Donald Trump to occur, it looks like no one has the guts, to stop it, by standing up and speaking the truth.

No Democrat, or Independent wants Trump back in the White House and while we know you beat him once, that is not the concern here. The real concern is down the road from now no matter which of you wins in November of 2024. If you are reelected President Biden you will be 86 by the end of your term, you health and mental accrunity are both a problem, and many you should consider retiring while you can enjoy it.

Donald Trump is only three years younger than you Sir and he is in the same shape as you in my opinion. He stumbles, he loses track of subjects and conversations and he fails and lies constantly. He failed as a President when he was in office, Trump did not build his wall, he did not control immigration, he struck down Roe vs Wade, and killed many by opposing Covid proceedure and medical advice for the American People. He actually stood on stage on tv and told Americans to drink bleach, he is no Leader. He led the Insurrection on Jan. 6th, he called the Oath Keepers and Proud Boys to DC, got the capital destroyed, almost got Representatives and Senators killed and almost got his own Vice President hung. Then when he left DC, after losing to you Sir, he took Top Secreta nd Secret documents to his him home and hid them. What did he have them for, why did he refuse to return them and who did he show them to? Americans need to be informed of more of all of it.

As to The Supreme Courts recent ruling, the January 6th attack and insurrection and Trump taking the documents should be stressed here. Those two cases should be prosecuted to the fullest. I remind all and you should too, he is already convicted of 34 charges in NY, faces still 54 more charges left, no President has even been Indicted 4 times before ! Today America is turning 248 years old, we have now had 46 Presidents, Donald Trump is the first President in American history to even be charged in such ways, never mind convicted. Yet, here we sit, due to the circumstances of two candidates, who are both old, both failing in mental accuity and even physical shape. The three years difference between the two of them makes no difference really. In my book, Trump is worse because he will do whatever he can to get back power, out of desperation, period. He knows he is running to stay out of prison. He is not stupid, he knows he wins, he makes all charges disappear, that should never happen.

I served my country for 16 years in three branches, and I believe in America and I am a proud Disabled Veteran. Sadly, this is not the country I defended anymore. It has lost it’s grip on certain things and is being destroyed by Trump and his MAGA Followers. They spew hate, they sprew lies and commit crimes left and right an dthen blame the Justice System when they get charged or arrested. It’s a sad sight for the world to see.

President Biden, I want you to consider stepping down and handing it over to the Vice President to run. I know you are against doing so, and your a very prideful individual, yet you must put your pride and ego aside, for the good of the country/ nation. Americans know all you have done Sir, but as you said yourself, you are slower, physically and mentally, and we need a younger President to work the longer hours, the job requires. I am one of your supporters President Biden and I admire all you have done for over 50 years, but, there comes a time for all of us men and women, when we realize or must realize, we have done all we can, and we are no longer up to the task ahead of us and we must retire or step aside, I believe, it is time Joe Biden, for you. It is sad for me to say this, but if you do not step aside, you are setting the stage for a second Donald Trump Presidency that will sell America out to it’s enemies ! Please don’t take that risk Sir, please do what I right, put your pride away, and your ego, and step aside, no one can force you we know that, but, I think you need to realize it all now.

I officially moved to Massachuetts, Westborough, in March of 2022, after I lost my wife to cancer in 2021. Amazingly, I as a widower, have no idea of why Massachuetts people are so strange and angry all the time, but they are. At least in my opinion, that is how I see it.

I also noticed the dating scene in Westborough, Massachuetts and surrounding area sucks. Maybe it is because of my age, I am 68 these days, and I know finding people my age is rough here. The Town of Westborough is geared primarily to the younger crowd, and is not an area for the edlerly crowd, like mine. I live in condos here in Westborough, and I have been alone now for a long time. No female to have dinner with, or go to a movie or do anything with, seems, single people my age bracket are hard to find here. While Westborough, Massachuetts builds 55 plus condo to attract us, they do not provide events, or dances or anything where, we can meet others our own age bracket. The second problem I have as a widower is, I have no knowledge of flirting or how to do so. The third problem I run into living here is I do not drink, so all the bars and taverns, don’t really mean much to me. If I were a drinker and a social butterfly type, I might stand a chance of finding someone to spend time with, and possibly build some sort of relationship. But, even the taverns and bars are not geared for people my age bracket. As to what to do, here in Westborough I have no idea and I think those that read this or other items I have written, think I am being foolish, whinning or have no idea about it all. Let me say this to anyone reading this blog, I am not stupid, nor am I fool, nor am I whinning, I am just wondering, where does one go, to meet others my age ? And please don’t tell me to try to date anyone living in these condos here, it would be stupid to do.

Been to The Senior Center in town, found it a pretty dead place actually, Then I tried the Library once or twice, and found it pretty empty. I have tried looking at the Bars and Taverns in town also, Red Tavern, Central House, Jps. Cold Harbor even, yet, since I do not drink it is hard to stay in such places and the age range is not near me. I have seen plenty of good looking women in town of all ages, yet, even if I saw one I was attracted to, I probably would be scarred to approach. I tend to shy away from women in general, even though I love them. I am scarred of rejection and it’s just a fact for me. So I am in a condondrum of my own sort. I am stuck alone and see no way to meet any woman in my future. Dating apps actually suck I have tried them, and never get by the first meeting lol. So, I have determined I will probably be alone the rest of my life. Guess, moving to Massachuetts was not a good idea for me. I was hoping I may find a woman for company, companionship and fun times, but no luck so far.

I doubt if anyone in Massachuetts and my area of Westborough, in Worchester County here, has any answers for me, for no one seems to even care here. Sadly ! I guess, I shall go on alone, walking, eating out alone when I can, for I have nothing else I can do, except the movies lol.

The people of Massachuetts and the area I live in, are both rough to get to know. While the Town of Westborough, Ma. is a nice place to live, the people are not as friendly as one would think. Westborough has much in it for sure and the neighboring towns surrounding it, provide some things to do, the age gap for us seniors, is hard to overcome.

The young are kind to seniors over 55 and and of course there are plenty of bars/ taverns and such in town. The Town also has many banks, and stores in it too, it is loaded with car dealers up and down Route 9 here too. There is a lack of a movie house here, and it seems, you have to go to Shrewsbury, or Marlboro to bowl or find games or things to do. Fishing you can do anywhere, anytime in town between the resevoir and Lakes and even some rivers, I am told. It’s a quaint little town with plenty of churches if you are religious in anyway.

It has built and allowed to be built Condos for the 55 plus community in more than one place in town. But what Westborough, has not done is figured out, how to handle or entertain the 55 plus community to make us, more welcome, here. It lacks things for seniors to do together and ways to meet others in our own age range, with the exception of the Senior Center in town, which runs a tight steady schedule, but, is not a place that gets very busy, or full at all. I think many Seniors avoid the Senior Center, if they are fit enough, because they don’t enjoy being pointed at as being that senior.

A place for Seniors to dance together, listen to music and socially interact would be great, in Westborough, yet it is not here. A roller Skate Rink, Movies, and other ideas I am sure can be thought up. A place to meet the opposite sex in the same age range would be cool too. Yet, it hasn’t been found by me so far in my two plus years here in Westborough. I did a tour or try at some of the taverns/ bars in town, from Central House, to JP’s to Red Tavern to even the Neighborhood Tavern on RTE 20, hoping to meet some my age, but most are 30’s to 45 or younger. It makes it rough for older people when they are forced into places with people too much younger, the comfort level is less. Plus as being a senior myself, I have to curb what one can talk about. Started a conversation in a tavern about the differences in generations and the person was fine with it, until they suddenly got angry. Anger in the people of the town and area of this part of Massachuetts seems to be a problem area, I have noticed. Plus, the people here tend not to be open to meeting new people who move here from out of town or states, so to say. They are guarded in many ways, and they never seem to be relaxed, here in Massachuetts that I can find. Why, I do not know, it just seems so to me.

The longer I am in Massachuetts and this area, the stranger somethings seem to be to me. People will gather at an event or bar or restaurant but, they only interact with the people they are with and not, outsiders. I find them guarded, I find them at times angry, and I find many to be unfriendly. Why, I have no idea. So, I tend to stay home or walk a lot, of go fishing, of just do some events in the Condo Association I live in. Even then I find some who are in the 55 plus age range who live here, strange also, for they can get short, rude and even insulting to others and not realize what they are doing. I tend to let things go, and roll off my back or chest so to say, because if you don’t here in Westborough, it could be trouble, and I do not wish any. I have run into some who are narsicist, some who are rude, some who are outright angry without reason, it seems. Narcissistic personalities it seems, are in town for some reason, and I have dealt with a few before, they are not fun people, nor are they friendly, except to others of the same ilk, so to say.

Yes, I tried walking, the library, outside events, bowling, pickle ball at one time even. I play billards where I live and small games like Mexican Train Dominos just for fun. We have a swimming pool here where I live, but, I do not use it, never have and probally never will, I burn in the sun, like a red rooster. And the whiteness of my legs would blind people lol.

So, the real question I keep asking myself is, was iy worth it to buy a condo here in Westbourgh, Mass. or not? While it is nice to have a condo, and a place of one’s own, it is not great for a person of 55 plus, who is alone or single or divorced or widowed. A person of either sex who is alone, should have someone to share life with and you can not find that here, due to the Peyton Place atmosphere of said condos, and what can happen if you were to try to date anyone in it. As to the town, like I said it is not geared to the 55 plus, nor does it have any real places to meet people in our age range. So, if you like isolation, or loneliness, then ok, if not, I would not recommend the Condo plan, or Westborough at this time. The seniors here are actually overlooked a lot. Sadly, you don’t realize how alone you really are until you actually live here. It looks friendly, clean, neat, but, doesn’t mean you will have any chance of living a decent life, unless you can expand who you know. When your 55 plus you are indeed set in your ways, so it makes it hard. Just my opinion folks, I am not saying Westborough, is a bad town, or Massachuetts is a bad state, they are very guarded here , and not geared for the 55 plus crowd.

Over the years, I have noticed somethings and although others disagree, I still say the greatest generation in American History, is the one born in the 1950’s,, raised in the 1960s, and hit adulthood in the 1970s. We had the best music, the best jobs, the best cars ever made. Our parents taught use discipline and corrected us, and taught us manners.

Yes we talked on phones on the walls or wired to it. We had to actually answer the phone to know who was calling lol. We had to go to school, and if we didn’t we were put to work to pay our own way. In the end it made us responisible for our own actions and mistakes. It was a different life style and society then it is today !