As we age , we get aches, we get pains, and we carry-on and do the best we can. Some of us have more serious condition, physically and some have conditions mentally. Yet, all of us are striving to stay alive and enjoy the time we have on the planet earth, that we call home.

You can’t overcome deadly diseases, like cancer, unless your lucky and catch it early. Other major diseases are all the same way. Some there is just no hope in overcoming. So, if you watch a person who is terminally ill, as they live out their lives, they try to keep active, they try to keep engaged, and they try to participate in their own ways. They maybe can’t jump a rope or run amile, or find it hard to breath and look good in style. But, they never surrender and never give up, until they have no choice.

My wife was such a person, she died in 2021 from breast cancer. She fought for 16 years to survive and stay alive. when all was said and done, and we had 28 years together mind you, she never complained, she never cried, she never said she couldn’t do a thing. She just did it, smiled, laughed and had a good time. Everyone who knew her and loved her, appreciated her for all of it. I loved her for many reasons, and I was there for 28 years with her. we laughed, we traveled, we hosted family and friends. we cooked together, we cleaned together and we loved one another. We went to plays and musicals and concerts, we ate fine food. wewalked small towns and large together when we could.

As time went on, we would watch tv, play game son our computers across the room from one another. I would write, as she asked me to, for it was her who said it was something I should do. She would read my stories and the ideas I had, and that look at me, and say write these, and don’t make them bad. I would write them and print them out for her and she would read them for me. We shared a life, we shared a bed, we had a relationship that few have had.

I miss her, big time and yes I have grieved all over 4 years now. I have held myself in check, not approached or asked another woman out. I respect my memorie sof my wife and our life. I also remember something she said about me one day. She told her daughter and her sister and friends, he will be fine whenI am gone, he will survive and ultimately carry on. heisa realist she told them and didn’t know I was listening. She said as a realist, you know what you must do, to keep going an dliving, and he knows how to too. I didn’t say a word to her about what she said. I just listened and kept her words in my head.

The other day I was thinking and reading a book. It hit me, I need to change something, I am only 69 now. My wife was 16 years my senior when we married and she died. She had told me, age is just a number and I listened and married her . I will never regret that, or 1 minute of our life together, But, I also remember her telling me, I will have to move on and find someone else, cause ultimately, she didn’t want me to stay by myself. I agree with her now for four years, a lil over I have stayed alone. And found that I would rather have someone in my life than to continue alone. But, how to go about that is a mystery you see, for at 69 yeras old, what woman would want me.

I have never been perfec, but always I have been fair and kind. I have never been Einstein, or a Romeo, nor Mr Handsome at least that I know. I can count the women in my life, on one hand, including two that were my wifes. That doesn’t include my sister or mom. Love it seems, is not easy to find, and the longer I live I see that in time.

I have met many women in my life, some funny, some serious and some warm and some cold as ice. I have sailed the Oceans in the Navy, been around the world, been to many countries too. I have been to Europe, been to the North Atlantic area, around south America and even down to the Virgin Islands. Seen ladies of all colors, shapes and sizes, all different nationalities too. It’s amazing, that all wnat the same mostlt too. They want respect, they want to be cared for, they want to be known for being themselve, for being unigue and an individual. They wnat to be smart and some are sassy. But in the end all want the same, to be loved and remembered for being themselves, and someone remembering their name. The women I have met in my life from even my younger days, all were determined to be unforgetable in their own way. So, I don’t look at bodies and shapes, I look at the person inside you see, if she is positive, happy, can laugh and have fun, she has a chance of being my one. If you are bitter or upset all the time, well I am sorry, you can’t be mine. I don’t care if your a model or beauty or a star, if you can’t be positive and happy an dhave fun, you won’t get far.

As I go forward now, and I search, I have been asked what I seek. The above I have written, wil give you a peak. You don’t need to be a Maryilyn Monroe or Raquel welch or something with me. Looks are nice but not everything you see, If i can talk to you and we can get along, we can laugh and dance and sing a song. If we can walk in sombe rmoments you see and I can stay with you and you with me, it works. It isn’t the public moments that count. I don’t perform acts, out and about. I am me and shall always be me, and that is what makes me happy you see. Don’t try to dress me up, change the way I walk and talk or what I do, and i promise I will never do that to you.

Time is ticking and it never stops. It runs down for all of us you see, I just want to live it fully. Is That asking too much, to live it fully with someone to love? You tell me!

September is beggining folks, the weather is cooling down and each day seems shorter as the year rolls on. The leaves shall change soon enough and before you know it, back to the winter we shall go.

I wake eack morning early these days, my back is out of sorts from my Navy days. Each day is a wake up to pain it seems, and yes I have no time, to dream. But, surrender is a word I do not understand, I am not one to quit, not that kinda man.

I clean my condo, I go shopping and do my thing. I read, write, walk and more. I have a hobby of bowling if I can and I play pool when I can. Each day goes by at a leisurely pace, and i don’t push myself to win any race. I would rather laugh, have fun and enjoy those around me, then to cry of my injuries and pain that abounds me. I have Doctors for that, don’t you see, so, I may live in pain, but I try to be the best I can be.

I have witnessed too much in my 69 years, I have seen President’s shot, and too many wars. I have seen a peaceful time in the USA and had some of the best of everything is what I say. We had the best music, 50’s, 60’s and 70’s of any generation. we had jobs and the best cars too. They were made of steel and so real. Now a days we have cars made of plastic it seems and more than anything too many broken dreams.

I was taught as a child manners and such. never thought twice that it was too much. respect your elders my parents would say, and if we didn’t, well we learned, the hard way. We were sent to school to learn and if we didn’t, and we dropped out, we were sent out to earn. Earn our own way, pay to stay, if we were still living home. So, we became industrious and secure, and we learned we had to earn what we wanted and to pay to keep it. So when we bought something, it wasn’t too cheap , we made our toys last and yes we ran fast. Thats the life we led.

Today’s world is so different my friends. we have hand held cell phones and computers and video games. people who don’t like eachvother, call one another names. Bars and Taverns are all around, banks sprang up without a sound. Churches are everywhere you do look, all preaching the good book. Yet, in America there is a rising anger it seems, people are mad over their broken dreams.

They can’t keep the job they want, they can’t stay employed, because the jobs disappear, because of politics and fear. People go broke and end up on the street, it seems to be, it’s like a recession time again, like back in history, back then. Food prices rise, Cost of living has doubled in size, medical costs soar like never before. A simple walk these days, you do in fear, for you do not know when a madman or madwoman is near. Relationships are hard to find, for people have fear of being used, for money, sex or abused from the unkind. I know it sounds bad and even sad my friends, but the truth is, the era of the American dream is slowly rolling, to it’s end.

We had it all, and we threw it away. we elected the wrong people and they took it away. They line their pockets and stand above on benefits we provide. Even when they are criminally to blame, they have no shame. Children get abused and used and trafficed and sold, doesn’t it seems nasty that they are so bold? Where were the parents of these young girls, that Epstein and his friends used for thrills? I know if they were my daughters, I would chase down these creeps and break their legs and knees and more so they could not sleep. I would not let them run free, for my daughters sake, not for me. The children of the world and America you see, is why Veterans fought to keep us free. They are our future and our way of life, the harm done to them, cuts them like a knife. These perverts and sociopaths, and pedophiles made injuries that last. The mental anguish shall always be, with these young girls, who are now women, among you and me. They did not ask, for what they got, and the ones that did it should be shot. But they roam free to do it again and again, don’t you believe like me, it is time it should end?

As wars rage on and economies come and go, there is one thing Americans should stop and think of and should know. In history my firends, empires did grow, they reached a point like a pimple that popped and off they did go. Look back in history my friends and fellow citizens. Think back to the Aztecs, the Inca’s The American Indians and more. Stop and think orf the Romans, the Germans and Japaneese, those who all thought they ruled the world who were brought to their knees. They fell each and everyone my firends, why, because they became too full of themselves, too proud and stubborn or too greedy and full of it. I tell you this you see, because as I see it today, America’s peak seems to have been hit and now we are tumbling down like the rest of it. We are slowly losing our hold on the world, becoming more isolated and lost you see, So, in the end, America will not stay free, unless we fight back and realize, we are not special, we need to work at it, to survive.

At some point Americans must stand up and become united once more, before a war comes to our shore. Instead of being a Me, Me, Me Society as we are today, we must return to a we.we.we society of yesterday. All together as one and go for the best for all of us, not just some. For when we do, we get things done. Until we do once more, what we did before, we shall continue our decline, and in the future it will be over, for our children in time. Our children wil struggle to survive, our grandchildren will find it hard to survive. They won’t be buying homes or cars, they won’t be eating well and able to dream of reaching the stars. Resources on the planet are diminishing, we are using them up, food sources are dropping in size. Water is becoming polluted and foul, what will become of humanity after all?

This is not just me running off at the mouth, or voicing fears out loud. These are facts that stand out and should not be allowed. We need to turn it all around, make our waters safe and let our animals abound. We need to lower costs for the average family, we need to listen to the voice of humanity. Don’t be greedy, don’t be power hungry, don’t be foolish and have some care. For if we don’t there won’t be much left for our offspring, out there. The future is at stake, and we, as humanity, must give ourselves and the world a break.

August 31st, 2025, the weather is beautiful outside and it has been a clear day. I walked some today, for the first time in while, but not as much as I have in the past. While walking, I think things over and wonder what is what in the world I live in.

I try to eat and sleep well each day and night. I do my laundry on time and shop when needed. I go to Doctors as instructed and when needed also. I pay my bills like any other person also. I write blogs like this and poems and sometimes stories, although I haven’t since my wife passed, on the stories. Guess losing her, took away my want to or need to, on that point.

I have been asked a question, about where I live. here at Dell Webb Chauncy Lake in these condos. Before I go further with this ubject, I want all to understand, under our laws and constitution in the United States, all have freedom of speech and a right to voice their opinions. In this case my opinion may not be liked by many, but I am a honest man.

My opinion of Dell Webb Chauncy Lake is not what others have for sure. Many believe it’s a great place to live and say they enjoy it immensely. They are happy here and I can see why, until, something happens to their equipment or applianances. Then, they will complain and still have to pay for whatever it is. Can’t escape that one, if you bought here, it’s a part of the deal.

I was asked how I like living here at Dell Webb Chauncy Lake and to be honest, I hesitated before I replied, and told the person who asked they may not like what I say. They replied thats ok, I can handle it. So, I hesitated for a minute or two more, before I spoke.

Then I told them, In my opinion, Dell Webb Chauncy Lake Condos, are one step above being in a convalenscent home. You can move about, associate with the other neighbors but live in a big enough space is all. The appliances in the condos, are construction grade only, until you replace them as needed, The Rinnani Hot Water and Heater is a base one, that won’t last for ever, The AC units are bare minimum models, and they go on you.

I continued, as to the people who live here, well thats a subject I won’t get into too deep. But, most are good people in my opinion, and like all other places you may live, there will always be a few bad apples in the bunch. For me, it is extremely, boring, and yes I have been told it is my fault by some, because I do not participate in events here. Maybe so, but I have my reasons actually. Personally, for me, I have Attention Deficiet Disorder, Hyper-Activity and PTSD. So I avoid large crowds and loud noises. I also tend to avoid people who try to change others to fit what they wish them to be. I don’t appreciate, being told to quiet down, or to tone down myself. I do not appreciate being told, I don’t attend so it is my own fault. I wish some would just take it as it is and stop and think before they engage mouth. I am not into large crowds and public speaking. Nor do I wish to take part in many things here. I have tried events and tried to get involved, but, for me, it is not to be.I would rather stay alone on my own and not say or do something that would bother, hurt or upset anyone else. I also, do not wish at anytime, to be a burden, to anyone around me. I stand alone and I am proud of that.

I thought when I moved here, it would be a nice place for people my age range to be. Then after being here a while I realized, being here is like being put out to pasture, before you die. To me that is a sad realization for me. It means, I am here to face the end of my life, and that is not what I wished for or wanted. Yet, in the end, I could have said no, and I could move, but, I don’t have the energy left to do some. So, I settle for what I have, I mind my own business and I do only what I can for myself and others. I bowl, because it gets my out and about, I play pool, for fun, not in a serious way. I play Dominos sometimes when I can and I am up to it. It’s is like living in an Old Folks Home, but the expanded version for safety purposes, lol. Bigger private rooms, and do as you please. Sadly, I have come to realize at 69 years old, there is not much more to do.

Others have family who come to see them, I don’t. Others plan trips and go out and about, I don’t. Others have wives or partners, I don’t. While the men here who are single are vastly outnumbered by the single women here, I would not venture into trying to date any of them. It could be a mess if something goes wrong for sure, it is a tight knit community and word spreads fast, if something goes wrong. Rumors and gossip flies for sure. It’s something like that old TV Show- Peyton Place.

I have been asked by some about who was picked up by an ambulance, I don’t know when it happens and I don’t watch folks. I have been asked who is moving out and why, not my business either really. If I hear the rumor or gossip and I don’t know I will go to the person it is about and ask them lol. Just me is all.

Yes I miss my wife and always will and at some point, I need to move on and look for companionship. Whether I can find it or not, in Westborough I have no idea. But, at some point I shall try once more. as long as I can breath, and walk and talk, I am sure I will find a way, when I am ready.

As we age, we all get set in our ways, so not easy to change.To Adapt and change is a part of life we all have to do, and I know it too. SO, I go one day at a time and hold on to memories is all.

Lets talk about the American Problem that is growing these days, Isolation, Loneliness and lack of human contact. In America in the 1950’s we had the baby boomer era. Then we had the peace and hippie era of the 1960’s. The 1970’s brought us the conservative era. Then the 1980’s hit and we went from a we, we , we society to a me. me. me society, which turned into a combo of I got mine screw you, get your own. And The Era of the Bill Cosby Show, and his talk to your kids, don’t hit them. The Anti-violence began.

By The 1990’s children were being brought up by advice, computers and video games, as babysitters. They got lost in a virtual world and basically never recovered. It became and still is today, a generation that wants everything handed to them and hates work. The 2000’s now began with a revitalization of discipline to a point, and things changed to lets help our families some. By today and we are now 25 years into the 2000’s it is once again the me, me, me society, but with an added dimension of fear, of abuse, being used, for money, or anything else. So, the dating scene for all, has dried up, especially for the mid aged to elder years.

So people invented dating apps and sites to meet others. They worked well for a bit, until, people began to put up fake profiles and fake photos and couldn’t be honest. The lying, and fake photos and more is now leading to a decline on the dating apps also. People are tired of it and basically, tired of trying to pay for what should come natural, meeting people. People don’t talk to one another anymore, they don’t laugh as much, they don’t interact the way we used to. Everyone is afraid of one another due to the possibilities of being used for money or sexual abuse, or more. Narscist abound in today’s society it seems. It is no longer the one for all and all for one, it is now I am for me and screw you. It is a sad state of affairs in America, when the trust, loyal and caring of the past generations is now reduced to such a point, society is suffering from it all.

Now it is not just America that is going through this folks, but it is America that has the power, and ability to change it back if we try. We need more places to dance, to laugh, to play, to do sports. More places for people tp go, to do things, and a more open society. Unless people start mingling, talking, interacting and learning to get along, America will fail and so will the world actually. Too many are now, staying alone, isolating, and keeping to themselves for different reasons. Now, I know I do so myself, to myself. Why, I fear involvement, taking a chance, and being talked about behind my back. I fear being taken for money, that I earned. I fear not being liked, or not being handsome enough, to be wanted. many have the same fears I know, which is why I know I am not alone. I have seen the news reports about it all, professors talking on it in discussions on TV and on the news. The reaction of society now erupting in violence due to this is crazy folks. We have people shooting one another for attention, children being shot in schools, teachers and parents too, getting shot on the streets. The animostity is huge in America right now, the recessed anger is unbelieveable.

I am old now, in my opinion at 69. I went to a tavern to have a sandwhich and beer by myself one day. I was talking to a younger generation couple next to me. We were discussing generations and i said, I thought my generation was the best, we grew up in the 60’s and 70’s we had it all. We had real cars made of steel, we had jobs and worked, we had the best music in the world. Well, the gentleman next to me went off on me, and I didn’t even know him. He insisted the 1980s, were the best period. As the discussion got deeper he started getting louder, so I shut up and let him be. When a simple discussion about which decade was the best goes bad, you know there is something wrong. The anger was crazy and I just walked away, once I finished eating. When, the guys girlfriend had to tap him on the shoulder and tell him to leave me be, I knew, there was anger issues there. But it shouldn’t have been that way.

As America goes forward we are now, wrapped in anger, discontent, worry, and in the end many are poor, abused and misused. many are now working two or three jobs to survive, Prices are soaring and they have less time to enjoy themselves. So, it is work, work, work, I am out to release some pressure and stress and tension, and because it is all recessed inside them, it erupts on society and spills over. We have a Presidnet who is lost in his own world, has no care about his country really, he just wants to be remembered. he is destroying, America from within. Medicare under attack, Medicaid under attack, Social Security under attack. Tariffs flying around left and right for no good reason, and in the end where is all that money going and being used for? Do we know?

Look the homelessness grows, home prices soar, car prices soar, food is up and so is necessities. When will it come down again, where are the jobs trump promised, where? What once costs 100.00 grand for a home now has tripled in price. Utility bills climb, cost of living has climbed, even vacines are attacked and they saved so many lives. What is happening folks, and how do we turn America around and go, enough, it’s time tos top the madness, the anger, and work together once more! The only question for me is when will it be, and will it be fast enough for me to see it in my lifetime?

As, I head into September of 2025, I have now cancelled my renewal on Word Press. I will stop making posts when my subscription runs out here. One only has so much to say and tires of doing do, so often. When it is fun it is one thing, when it becomes a daily task or work, well I don’t need it anymore.

I hope as time goes forward, all will be ok with the world, but, as one can tell, it is not well right now. Wars rage, an American President is haywire and doing as he pleases, violence is erupting in our schools and the economy is just bad. Prices are rising on food, gas, clothing and more. Medicaid and Medicare is being attacked, Social Security is too. And The American Congress is not doing a damn thing about it. No one is standing up to President Trump and attempting to stop him. It is a sad state of affairs for sure.

Joe Biden forgot things and stumbled and Trump got in. Trump would point at Biden and point out his physical frailities and his mental slowness. Now, Trump is doing the exact samethings, folks. He stumbles and falls and has all kinds of medical problems and his mental accuity is failing fast. Yet, it’s ok if Trump is like that as President, but, wasn’t if Biden was right? Bullshit!

As 2025 goes on my writing is slowing down and my thoughts are more about survival for myself than anything else. What to eat or not eat, How much it cost, can I afford new pants and clothes, can I pay my bills, how high will gas go or electric? How many american children are being killed because gun laws have too many loop holes in them? How many disasters will it take for Governement to react? This is not The America I grew up defending as a military memeber anymore.

People argue in bars and taverns over everything these days, it is getting more violent not less. Instead of being happy and having fun, people are angry, worried, and I can understand it. I wish things would change for the better, but, it doesn’t. America which once was the pod for the seeds of happiness, contentment and health and welfare, is now a pod of hate, mismanagement and anger. And that my friends is a sad thing to see.

I fear walking the streets somedays, as kids with guns kill others in schools. Perverts attack our children, but, they don’t get arrested, they get elected, sad. Look you can say what you want regarding the Trump/ Epstien connections that are apparent for all to see. Pictures of the two of them and Maxwell together, with young girls sitting on Trumps lap, his hands on the young girls legs. That is plain and simply wrong whether you call it a pedophile situation or not! If a man put his hands on my daughters at a young age like that I would chase his ass down and hurt him. I wonder where the parents of these young girls were, and why they didn’t react when it was happening? Yet, the Republicans go, oh no big deal! Let it happen to their kids, and see what they say then!

Final subject for today. For all MAGA and Trump followers out there. There will be no third Trump Term! They can be none under our laws and constitution. Two terms is it people. If anyone thinks, Trump can go three, you and he are out of your minds, in my opinion, won’t be allowed. Secondly, Trump is less healthy then, Biden was before him. He stumbles, he fumbles, he can’t speak straight and he is bruised and damaged period. The man has vein problems and heart problems and is on IVs a lot, I am sure. Yet people go yay Trump, you people are out of your minds! But, each and everyone in America still has the right to Freedom of Speech and our opinions are are own. Some believe Trump is great, I happen to believe he is the worst thing to hit the world ever. He is destroying America, democracy and our republic. I heard yesterday someone on the news say what Hillary Clinton said long ago now, Trump is Putin’s Puppet. I think it is true, he is systmatically dismantling America, as Putin wants it. It’s a sad thing to see, that so many American’s are so gullable and stupid to keep backing Trump at this stage. They need to wake up and realize what is happening, but, american’s have blinders on when it comes to Trump. So, the country shall go downhill under him. Just the facts folks, unless Congress and The American People stop him. He wants to kill elections, kill mail in voting and so much more. It’sa dismantling of democracy and our way of life. Why, isn’t Congress stopping him, you tell me!

For me folks, an era seems to have gone by. I write less and less these days it seems. As I age and as I have become a widower, I find, that, there is less for me to say. I have done Short Stories, 51 to be exact, numerous poems, and numerous blogs . I have spoken of the loss of a spouse, politics in general, Trump and his antics and more. I have even delved into Condo living, and 55 plus neighborhoods. The cost of living and how it has risen has been a subject also.

As time now slips further for me, at 69, and the summer is rolling to an end for 2025, I wonder at times how long I may have left to go. No one knows for sure, because some of us are destined for longer stays on this planet than others, it seems. Personally, I never thought I would go past 40 years old, but here I am. I did many things i would have never imagined doing in the world. I never thought for instance, I would draw, I would do art, I would write. I never thought I would have two marriages, two daughters and in the end 4 grandchildren and never see any of them, due to a divorce. I never thought I would have had a military career that lasted 16 years, between three branches. Yet here I am.

I never thought as a teenager I would be a teenage dropout, who went back and got a GED, but, I did. I never thought I would actually go back to school years later and get a Degree in Hotel Management, but I did. I never thought I would be a member of two Honor societies, Alpha Beta Gamma and Phi Thetta Kappa, but, I am. It’s amazing how, you do things you never thought you would do, and make it work as you go along.

Life my friends is a challenge and an adventure too. I have played the part of a M-88 Tank Retriver for the Army and failed at it cause I hated the Army. I then did the Army National Guard and became a Machine Gunner Scout. In The end I went Navy and became a Boiler Technichan. I saw the world folks, by oceans. I did the North Atlantic, Europe, South America, and the Carribean. met many folks and experienced many cultures. I learned it doesn’t matter what country one is from, what religion you are, what language you speak, if you treat others with respect, they do so in return to you.

I have no enemies list like some do, why, because I don’t play hate. If I don’t like someone, I avoid them, and just carry on. My life is being me for who else can I be. I laugh at what I believe is funny, I smile as much as I can, and I usually talk to anyone who speaks to me. Like I told one person, if you wish to argue or fight, please don’t try me, go home, look in the mirror and do so. I told another who threatened to hit me or beat me up once, go ahead do your thing, cause when I get up, your going to prison. He stopped and didnt do a damn thing then. So, I don’t believe in violence or arguing just to argue.

Am I a paficfist, probally, am I a democrat, definitely. What I don’t do is force my views on anyone, and i don’t expect them to try to do that to that to me either. I avoid such things, if you try to force me into a box so to say, I go the other way. As I told one person, I gotta be me, was said in a song, but it fits me well.

Now that I am a widower for over four years, I have gone through grieving. I have thought of finding someone again, for my later years to spend time with. I haven’t as of yet, because I fumble and pause and halt in either fear of not being liked, or not knowing even how to flirt anymore. You spend a long time relationship with someone who passes like my wife did from cancer, you forget how to attract or approach anyone else. You get stuck in your ways, and you just do you. So, to think about asking someone for a date or approaching someone, you run through numerous doubts in your head and you stop. It’s a thing one goes through, and you just don’t know what to do.

Anyway, I don’t know how many more poems I have in me, how many more stories to tell. How many more opinions on politics I may have to put out here. There more than likely will come a day, when I stop writing, and just slowly disappear from it all. I do still like playing billards/ pool for fun, I do still like bowling when my back allows me to. I like to walk, I build puzzles and I read, I watch tv and movies. While I like women and like to talk to them, I do not cross the line and ask them out. Why, because i look at it and go, no woman wants a man my age. Most women want men with money, or power, or younger than I. And at 69, the choices for dating any woman are few and far between in my mind. Even if I had an interest in one or two, I would not know how to approach or ask them anymore, lol.

So, time ticks and the clock moves, the days pass and the weeks and months and years too. I have had a full life thats for sure. At least two of everything I can imagine. So I can honestly say, I am happy being me. So, in the end, where the rest of my time on earth leads me and whats next I take one day at a time is all. I hope all have a great life and stay healthy, and comfy in what they love best. For as we age, we deserve the best in our senior years. You have something you want to do, places you want to go, people you want to see or know, do it folks, do it now! Don’t procrasinate, don’t put it off. It only causes regrets, live your life fully, laugh, cry, smile and enjoy. We only have so much time to be here.

August is rolling to an end soon enough it seems. Already August 23rd, 2025 and weather is ok, outside at least and sun is out. Been over 4 years since my wife passed from cancer. Since then I have stayed alone and not dated much at all. I am also in a new state and place, since 2022, so trying to get used to it and things to do here is not easy. At 69, it’s harder than most things i have done in the past. I am set in my ways, and I don’t like somethings others do, and with my problems of PTSD and AD/HA, it makes it somewhat harder.

The older I get, the more touchy I get about large crowds also. Too many people and I have to leave, the stress levels rise and I can’t handle that many in one place. It’s funny, though cause I can do certain things and other things I just can’t handle these days.

Anyway, at least I do play Billards once a week, and bowl once a week at least. Not much else around here to do, besides drinking and taverns and bars. Not a drinker really, so, I don’t go there much, plus, too many people in those. Seems people still love to drink no matter what it cost them, these days.

Me I would rather walk, or read a book, or write. I like to cook now and then, but since it is just me now, not so much. I miss, doing it for my wife and I, but, I can’t change the fact she passed.

Seems to me, dating at my age is rough for sure. Caution is a thing for most my age, and finding someone to date is a game of chance these days. You never know, if someone wants your money or to abuse or misuse you, for their own purposes. Many are feeling the sameway, I have seen and heard. so, the dating scene sucks in many ways. I try to remind many, if I wanted you for money, that would be a poor thing on me. When you reach a certain age if you are not self-sufficent, then you did something wrong. Most who reach my age are ok, money wise and have a place to live of their own. and usually have their own transportation too.

Anyway, I have learned that people in Massachuetts are very cautious, very hard to get to know. So, I just joined the Bowling League I did to get out and about and have some fun. The Bowlers are fun and we laugh a lot as we play and support one another no matter how good we bowl or not.

I still write poetry now and then, when the mood or a subject hits me. I haven’t written any stories in a long time now. Blogs I do, on different subjects from politics, to dating, to Senior living and housing and more. It’s a way to express my feelings is all. So I do it.

I am glad I have tv to watch, a computer to go online with, a cell phone to calll my sister with. I do miss old friends, but, I moved here, to a 55 plus community, figuring it would be easier and better for me. sometimes, I wonder if I made the right choice, when I did it. I find living in such a community a bit hard for me. I am not everyone’s cup of tea so to say, and some are not mine either. I don’t do Community Events, because of my PTSD and problems. The crowds get larger each time it seems. My nerves fire up, and I just have to leave when I do so. Some don’t understand that, when I do it, but, it’s a part of me and my life.

Westborough, is a nice enough town to live in, though expensive at times. I wish it had more to do in it though, like roller skating, or Karyoke Places, and such. Senior Dances would be nice, if they existed, because it is easier for seniors to meet that way. But, Westborough is a growing community and town for sure.

I miss my younger days, I used to run, I used to find things to do easier and meet people easier. yet, as one ages, you worry about, protecting yourself more, financially and emotionally. It’s not something you can ignore nowadays in America.

So I live day to day, and go slow, no more running like I did before. I admire women from afar, say nothing and stay alone. Don’t misunderstand me, I love women in all ways, but, to take a chance at my age, is gonna be hard to do. I had the 28 years with my wife, I loved dearly, and would never trade one second of it. I know it would be hard for me not to compare them to her. although I know I shouldn’t think that way, since she passed. I remember she told me, to find someone and enjoy. Life is so short she said. She was right of course, but, times have changed for sure out here.

Ok, I want to straighten something out here, for those who believe I hate all Trump Supporters, I don’t, I hate Trump and what he is doing to this country, the greatest democracy and republic in the world. That is what I hate.

I served this country for 16 years total, under many fine Presidents, who stood proud and have honor and respect for the Constitution and our land. I feel sorry for those who now, are in service, and have to serve Donald J. Trump. He is stealing Veteran’s Benefits and medical and prescription coverage when and where he can from us all. He is attacking Social Security and so much more like Medicare and Medicaid. Then he is rigging elections and more , interfearing in the states rights to elect their own electors and representatives.

Trump is laughed at by other World Leaders, including Putin. Putin doesn’t care what Trump wants, and Trump threatens, but does nothing he says he will. So Putin, just yes’s him and walks away and drops more explosives and drones on Ukraine and laughs. Putin knows Trump won’t act in anyway against him, Trump kisses Putin’s ass too much to do so.

Now, Trump is still saying the election was stolen when he lost to Biden. The fact is he lost period. He lost so bad he hid for 4 years. Then came back and stole the election from Harris, and it is now coming out that he actually did, with the help, of Elon Musk. Yet, his backers won’t admit it and neither will Trump, why, simple, they would lose their great Trump.

On top of his awlful performance as President so far this term, There is the Epstien Files and relationship. How many photos of Trump and Epstein, are there, with young girls sitting on Trump’s lap and his hands in unappropiate places on these girls. How many Parties did they do together with young girls, how many times did Trump fly to Epstien’s Island, his pilot said 37 times. What do you think Trump had a relationship and friendship with Epstien for? And why did he stay friends with Epstien for 15 years?

Let’s also ask the question while we are at it, where did Melania come from, what did she do to earn a Einstien Visa, for herself and her family? She was never more than a model, and working girl before Trump. Where and how did she meet Trump, Jeffery Epstien folks, at least that is the rumor out there. So what we have now is a 34 times convicted felon, running our country, who is deporting people over immigration issues, his own wife has also. Interesting isn’t it?

So, I do not hate the people who support Donald J, Trump, I do hate Donald J. Trump himself. I hate he is a convicted felon, I hate the fact, he stole elections and messed with people’s voting rights and the laws. I hate the fact he rigged the Supreme Court in his favor. I hate the fact, he is messing with Medicare, Medicaid, Social Security and Veteran’s Benefits in anyway. I hate when he tries to blame all the former Presidents for everything and anything that goes wrong under his term as President. I hate the fact the world is looking at America and going, why did you people elect this idiot to the Presidency?

In the end I just want to make clear, I do not hate the Trump, MAGA people who follow and protect his man, I hate the man himself. I do not approve of convicted felons running a country like ours, I do not approve of a pedophile, being President. He kept saying how Biden fell asleep, or stumbled in office, well Trump is doing it too now, and is just as incompetant as they come. He stumbles, he can’t speak straight, and he is laughed at world wide. He didn’t solve six wars, he can’t solve his own marriage, or his own reputation and more. he does not belong President, of my country, I defended for 16 years.

Let me close with this folks, 2026 is coming fast, the mid-terms will be here before we know it. What must happen is, The Senate and The House must become bi-partisan again and the numbers must be either equal or favor the democrats. Under the current situtation, it is one sided and going down hill quickly. we have a Secretary of Defense who is an idiot, People like Steven Miller should be no where near governement offices or leaders. Steve Bannon, was jailed folks and still, Trump listens to him, why? Well I shall tell you, convicts stick togetjher, criminals think alike, they will do anything to bolster their own lives, get money they can and take from the poor and feed themselves, at your and my expense. It’s easier to steal from the poor or middle class than attack the rich and make them pay taxes and for what we need. They fight back, they have money for lawyers and court cases, we the American people don’t. So unless Americans fight back inforce, band together and vote these republican, Maga Backers out of office, America will decline further. We are barely a step or two, above a third world nation as it is now, today. We must recover, and turn our country around once more.

At 69 years old and a widower for the last four years now, I wonder what people my age do, to find a partner/ companion intoday’s World.

I am not a drinker, so bars/ taverns are out mostly, unless I go there with someone I date. I like to bowl, so I joined a league, I play billards once a week where I live.

I just would like someone for companionship, friendship and in the end a possible relationship. Is that asking too much in today’s world? I am open to dating and dinners with a lady of course. I don’t get out much so, what to do is always a problem for me. I like movies also.

So, what dating sites do people recommend for Seniors my age? And what are the ladies looking for in a guy my age? Any Ideas folks? Just figured maybe someone might have an idea or two. If so please feel free to send em to me, through my blog. Thanks all! Will look forward to them! I live in Westborough. Ma.