Pray with me Please!


       Cancer has no feelings, it doesn’t care who it takes or when it takes them. Cancer is not discriminating, nor is it prejudice in anyway it gets all it can. Sadly, it raises it’s head unexpectedly and can attack at anytime. It did in my birth family and now in my marriage.

 It got my Grandfather on my mother’s side when he was 70 years old, it got my real father at 55 years old,it got my step-father at 55, and my mother at 59. It got to me at 57 and I am still here at 59, beat it once but who knows, now it has hit my wife for the second time in her life. Cancer sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recently my wife thought she had thrown her back out or something after surviving breast cancer in 2006. Well, it has raised it’s head once more in her, this time it is affecting her spine, according to Doctors who did an MRI of her. Seems it has grown tumors on her spine, who knows how long it will take to fight it or how or what we have to do, she is now 75. Who Knows what can be down, but I sleep on a couch now as she sleeps in my recliner so she can breathe at night. I know she will need possible oxygen tanks to inflate her lungs soon and won’t be able to go upstairs anymore, it’s all too painful for her, She is now medicated on Percs and wearing depends because she can’t control herself anymore. Where she was once a proud women who graduated UConn  with a degree in psychology, her mind is slipping too, her memory is not as well as it was before.  But she keeps aupbeat attitude and keeps moving and trying to keep her spirits up as much as possible.

As her daughter and I now scramble to find Doctors to help her, in a panic hoping we can save her, we also know the odds, when some say the only thing that they can do to kill her pain is radiation. But we will fight on now and see what we can do to prolong her life and keep her with us. But I know if the pain becomes unbearable, she s\will be in a hospital or nursing home some day soon, unless it can be reversed. All I can do is pray and hope, can you pray and hope with me, please?

Second Amendment Says:


The Second Amendment of the United States Constitution reads: “A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed.” We the people are no longer the Militia are we, we have arm forces to do the job. Citizens of the United States don’t need to bear arms, period, follow the Amendment folks no gun for the public.

Make it So America!!!!!!!


   Personally speaking, I am a 59 year old white male, who grew up in a family of five children, with a french canadian mother, my father was a scottish american whose parents came here on a boat in 1919. I was raised by an Albanian Step-father who was a muslim and  I was raised roman catholic by my mother till I was 14 years old. I was raised in the projects of Waterbury, Connecticut in the 1960’s and in Naugatuck Ct in the 1970s, I lived among whites, blacks, hispanics and any other race or nationality you could think of. And yes I get along with all of them too and I don’t care what color, race, ethnicity, you may be, respect me and I will respect you period. I just want to make that clear for all before I start my little speech and what I want to say. I am also a Disabled American veteran who served in three branches, The U.S. Army, The U.S. Army National Guard and The United States Navy.

    I have all over the United States from Connecticut to Florida, to Texas to California, and yes some of each race, culture, and nationality that read my writings and stories and poems. And I listen when others speak and I respond in kind to what I am asked, believe me, but I have a problem with The Black Lives Matter group. All lives matter people period, no one race is more important than the other and the white man, or asian, or hispanic is not responsible for killing off the black people as much as the black people are of killing off their own. The African Americans are killing off their own at a faster rate then any other race cares to kill them off, plus they tend to leave more children fatherless than any other race why is that? I don’t have the answers to it but the African American population in America should stop and start looking for the answers to this among themselves, not pointing fingers at others.

      Next subject, I am a liberal individual who leans toward the democratic side but prides himself on being an independent in all ways. Yes I approve of women’s rights, yes I believe in abortion in the cases of rape and health reasons for the mother and child. I believe in Education for all, no matter what color, race, or ethnicity. Yes, equal rights and equal pay for all work, and yes Social Security should be fixed and extended for all. Medicare and Medicaid are both needed as is Obama Care, or if you are going to change Obama  Care you better cover all it does and more to do it. That’s my opinion. I also believe all American Veterans deserve full medical and dental benefits and that the disability payments for disabled veterans should rise at a rate better than they do today, better than the cost of living please.These men and women who served did so voluntarily at the cost of their own lives and health to protect and defend our country and you and me, lets give them the benefits they deserve! AM I too liberal, am I wrong, if you think so fine, but in the end, we the people will be electing the next President, the next Senate and House and it is about time The Politicians and candidates of both parties understand they are elected to accomplish things for the people not deadlock the government. Speak loud and clear this election folks, if they were part or are part of the current deadlocked congress and senate than they need removed and replace by people who will accomplish things for all of us. Make it So!

Continue reading “Make it So America!!!!!!!”

Top Ten Reasons to Dump Trump!


Top Ten Reasons Trump should not get the Republican Nomination

1) Arrogant in all ways.

2) Obnoxious individual.

3) Has no experience in office period.

4) His Ideas for foreign policy are not realistic and he has no idea what he would be dealing with.

5) The way he talks about and to women,is a) rude, crude and indifferent b) insulting to all women and their families.

6) He has had to file for bankruptcy on four casinos he has run and they all failed!

7) The  amount of his divorces, is only exceeded by the number of times he has filed bankruptcy in business.

8) If he should win the Republican Nomination, the fact is the Republicans will lose in the general election he is not electable as a President!.

9) Ever notice when Trump makes a mistake or insults someone he  always makes  up  a line to say he loves them, why is that?

10) Politics is not always the art of negotiation, it is diplomacy too and the ability to listen to others is big, Mr. Trump fails in both areas!

And one more thing Mr. Trump is not always right and never admits when he is wrong, you can’t be President if you can’t change your mind and listen to others, period.

Stop The Trump Fiasco


      It is now time folks for the Donald J. Trump Fiasco of a Presidential run to halt! Are Americans actually thinking about making this man the President of the most powerful nation in the world, come on now!

Do you really want to trust your economic, military and moral fate to a man who has been divorced three times, committed bankruptcy four times, and we are gonna count on him to create jobs, help the economy and the average American, come on now! Do you really believe his horseshit about building a wall across America’s southern border to keep illegal Mexicans out, if you do your more gullible than a 6 month old baby! And what makes him even think Mexico cares what the hell he says and will allow him to build his wall and them pay for it, never will happen I tell ya. This guy talks good shit, but the fact is he has to deal with not only the world’s leaders if elected, but a thing called Congress! You know those Senators and Congressmen and women. What makes him think he can overcome the Bill of Rights And Constitution  regarding the laws of who is an American Citizen or isn’t?  Our forefathers who wrote and produced the Constitution and those who wrote the Bill of Rights did so for good reasons and those documents are not only honored and respected by Americans but also by the world, just ask the legal and illegal immigrants trying to come here, including Mr. Trumps ancestors and yours and mine. So Wake up!

 Mr. Trump show me how you will create jobs, how will you get them back from other countries, come now I want a clear plan not an oversight, facts, steps and more. Show me how you will negotiate a wall with Mexico and our own land owners along the southern border and make Mexico pay. I don’t want the bullshit line of how great a negotiator you are are, how you have hard liners to discuss and settle these things, for we all know talk fails don’t we Donald! I tire of hearing all of this from you while you bad mouth women out of one side of your mouth, and out of the other side claim to back them one hundred percent in health issues. Your full of shit man, you couldn’t save your self and your companies from bankruptcy  four times or your marriages three times, be real.

Mr. Trump has no diplomatic abilities either! Can you imagine him going to Germany, Japan, China France, Spain or any other country who may have female Presidents and Dignitaries and calling them fat, ugly, over weight, stupid or not tens! Come on really, I can see the German Chancellor kicking his ass out of her country for his mouth, he just totally disrespects women every where he goes, not just Rosie O’Donnell!  Sad isn’t it, when Americans are looking for a new leader, and actually thinking of voting for such a man just because he knows how to control the media outlets and act well. This is not a television show Mr. Trump just because you can point a finger at someone on television and say You’re Fired doesn’t mean you can run a  country! And America you are a sad country if you elect this man President, while he talks a good game the facts are it’s all bullshit and he could never pull it off and he knows it too, whether his hair is real or not! lol! 

So while you watch the Election period grow and time move on Americans, you better be looking further and far beyond Mr. Trump for a President and get into the nitty gritty of who can really get things done and fix the mess we have. Donald John Trump is not the answer for America, or the World, believe me folks! 

          

Depression at it’s best!


             Ever get to the point of who cares or  give a shit? I have many times and more so than most recently! When you don’t want to get up in the morning, cause you know your day will not go well or you have nothing to do, but sit around all day. Well welcome to my world!

Welcome to world of I don’t give a shit and who cares is what I say, I live it each day, same thing each day, get up have coffee,check a schedule for Doctor appointments, no Doctors then what the fuck to do hits.Then I live with a wife who doesn’t like me tone anymore, gets mad when she can’t hear and I raise my voice to make her hear. I see no one at all in my home except who lives here period. My best friend doesn’t come over anymore or even call cause he is afraid my wife will try to sell him Insurance thru primerica, sad huh! I know it sounds silly but it’s true!

My day goes as follows I get up, have coffee play a few games on Second Life and read news, Then my wife gets up says morning, stares at me for a few minutes tires of it and leaves to get tea. I have coffee and then we both sit in front of our computers her playing video card games and me, on second Life no one talks unless it is about the Bachelor Series on ABC TV. I used to DJ to big crowds every day in a club in Second Life called WildCat Country but now I don’t anymore my wife said I was doing it too much so I stopped. Sad huh? SO I try to play X-Box One once in a while can’t do it daily or without headphones my wife hates the noise. So that I do seldom now too.

I do the grocery shopping and costco shopping now, I get the mail daily and something out of the freezer for supper after I ask her, if I don’t ask then I am wrong for picking something out myself! can’t eat just pizza or fast food either she doesn’t want it, and she has to have potatoes every day for supper and some green veggie, guess who has to cook it each day? Yep, me! Fun huh?

Each morning she assembles our pills to take hers and mine in four little separate containers and hands me mine. I swallow mine with water, coffee or soda and go my way back to second Life on my PC and he rto her card games and news on hers. we sit less then ten feet away and if I make any noise so she can’t hear her game or the tv news when it is on I am told to be quiet so I don’t talk anymore. Sad huh!

In the meantime I get notes from her on little square pad paper, check the oil level, check the tire pressure on the cars, change the water filter or do the garbage and recyclables on Thursdays. I get twenty dollars a month for pocket change and I am not allowed to buy anything without asking her. Fun right?

Each day i wake up thinking what would be the easiest way to commit suicide and the least painless way to do so! I think hmm gun, no messy, knife nope hurt too much, suffocation nope, involuntary reaction kicks in and saves me. Drowning nope I don’t go near water, so thats out and I don’t own any weapons really. Pills is the next thought yes I can drug myself to death and go to sleep and never feel a thing again! Ah what a way to live huh, am I depressed folks you tell me?

Is this a way to live a life? I write blogs now and then and short stories from my life and the better or worse days I have lived thru. I have a lobe and one third less of my lungs due to cancer and am still kicking. My wife had breast cancer and I stayed and helped her survive and take care of her the best I can each day.She needs me to dry her feet after a shower I do it, she needs me to stand by while she showers I do it, she needs depends picked up and medication from the CVS I do it. she needs to go to a Doctor I take her or to her daughters or sisters I take her. In the meantime, I stay online in Second lIfe doing music and playing Greedy or playing X-Box one games and reading or doing puzzles. My excitement for the day is if I have to go shopping for groceries or to Costco, Nice huh?

Ah well, I shall see how long I can keep going this way is all, and who knows what will happen next! Not me!

Jimmy Carter/ Cancer. The Fight For All of US!


            The dignity and pride of President James Earl Carter, and his religious beliefs show in all he does, from his work with his Homes for Humanity, to his recent and new press conference today on his cancer and his condition and prognosis and treatment plans.  Jimmy Carter has proven that he was elected not just because he is a Democrat at his heights during the times, he is indeed a Leader in so many ways, that it is sad he is usually overlooked. 

Cancer is a diagnosis no human being wants to face and I don’t care what the kind is!. Mr. Carter is proving he is strong, and smart and his dignity shows in all he does. I personally admire him and his attitude and strength he is sharing with all cancer victims.

               My wife and I both have survived cancer, and we are grateful that we are still here today. My wife suffered breast cancer which spread to her lymph nodes under her left arm. After numerous tests, MRI and cat scans and a trip to NYC ‘s Sloan Kettering Hospital to see Cancer specialist, she was saved and did not lose a breast. Myself as a disabled veteran, and survivor of lung cancer I was lucky as hell. Mine was found by the Veterans Hospital in West Haven, Connecticut, and in a survey for veterans with family history of cancer. I was lucky and they removed a lobe and one-third of my right lung and I still persist today, fighting and surviving is a family trait,as it is in the Carter Family too.  We fight Cancer every day and we are winning more wars these days against it than ever before, but the fight has to go on for we are not totally victorious yet. 

Let me say this to those who don’t understand this disease, cancer, it is an ongoing struggle for all of humanity to overcome it and as each victim it takes from humanity happens, they learn more about it and make advances against it daily. The Fight shall continue for all of us cancer victims of all ages, sizes, weights, colors, creeds and races. The battle can never be stopped or held back, for each day we lose people who would’ve been great, and advanced humanity and it’s status, but due to being taken from us by Cancer, they couldn’t. 

Do us all a favor folks, take your racial wars, your racial fights, your wars and political bullshit and shove it up your asses! You want to fight something and help humanity, fight Cancer and give so more can live! Jimmy Carter has cancer, I did, my wife did, my grandparents died of it and it took my mother and my father and yes even my step-father, lets fight Cancer folks, it is the number one devastating disease in the world in my opinion. Lets fight and beat it folks,I wish and so does my wife and our families the best to Jimmy Carter in his fight against cancer as we too continue our own fight against it. The Battle against Cancer must continue in the labs, in medicine and in life. Lets fight folks and save what we can, for if Jimmy Carter can be brave, strong and show us his strength in fighting it, we can all fight it in all ways possible and support all who suffer from it.!

Drop Out Donald Trump! For America’s Sake!


     Trump, why would anyone want a man who committed bankruptcy three times on his own businesses and who has been divorced and remarried and went thru 3 wives  as President?  Wake up America, trump says he gets his military advice from Television commentators? really now?  Get informed and educated Mr. Trump in politics, economics, and military planning please! learn before you open your mouth about these things! Imagine a President Trump going to Germany and Talking down to the German Leader as he does American Women today? He wouldn’t last 5 minutes doing so, she would eat him up and spit him out and tell him to go home and learn respect. What a reflection that would be on Americans in the world!

That said by me, we need to now look at his attacking other politicians, such as Hillary Clinton on her performance as Secretary of State.  I remind you Mr. Trump, Hillary Rodham Clinton, acted as Secretary of State and worked for President Barrack Obama not herself. She had no choice in what she did in many cases and received instructions from President Obama on how to perform her duties. President Obama knew how she stored text messages and what she did as Secretary of State and approved it all, you want to go after someone for the security issue here try Obama! Stop trying to knock down Hillary when in fact she will kick your ass in the General Election if you get there! Let’s face some facts Mr. Trump, I have watched you criticize too many people and things you have no idea of or about for real. It’s really sad that you believe you can criticize Veterans and those who served in anyway, you haven’t served one bit have you? You never held a political office period so who are you to say what you can or not do, the point is Congress exists as a check and balance system that guides and fights back against Presidents and The Executive System to protect the people period. Do You Understand that?

What makes you think Mexico will pay for a wall between the borders, freely or that you can create a tariff on your own will and power if President you can’t! Congress must approve of it before you can even begin it. And do you really think Mexico or it’s people will agree to a wall between the two nations, hell no they won’t. They benefit too much from the border  being open and we all know it. The trade between the two countries , the travel industry and more would stop you alone from doing it. You want to stop American Companies from moving North or South of our borders to create items we manufacture and keep taxes at home, try, giving Nabisco and Ford tax breaks to remain here. Try making it more affordable for these producers to operate here at home instead of moving overseas or across our borders. That may change their minds, we kill their profits Mr. Trump by raising our own tariffs and taxes on our own manufacturers. Sad isn’t it? But True. Decades ago here in Connecticut, we had Uniroyal Inc. in a small town called Naugatuck here. They gave their people the best medical, dental and savings plans ever given in america and gave them pay raises on a constant basis. The employees lived high on the hog from it all and Uniroyal continued to make tires and sneakers for all to buy and had a decent profit margin for all. Then, the Unions took over and the employees demanded more pay, more benefits and more or everything you could think of. In the end the company said no, and the Union put the employees out on strike. The end result was as follows Mr. Trump, Uniroyal gave in, brought the employees back to work and six months later they shut down, laying off all workers and management and picked up their factory and equipment and took it overseas. What made them go, high taxes by the state, and federal and town governments, and too much demand by the Union and employees. So in the end, the town of Naugatuck, Connecticut became a Ghost Town Sir, no jobs, for anyone in the area and so many out of work, the state still has not recovered or the area either, of the Naugatuck Valley, sad huh?

Connecticut was also affected Mr. Trump by military cutbacks and the loss of contracts for submarines and naval equipment. Once the largest producer of submarines and naval equipment, we are now toward the bottom of it all. Why? You want to help America Mr. Trump, create jobs by lowering taxes on businesses and manufacturers. from the small businesses to the factories, give them incentives to create and produce and encourage creation of products and innovation. Don’t take shit, do it and watch, you will see a change. Extend Unemployment for all, and retrain blue collar workers for white collar positions and jobs, increase pride and more in people by encouraging not demeaning anyone or anything.

 I heard recently Mr.Trump you say that Ronald Reagan is the last era of greatness for America. I disagree Sir, you want to know when America was last Great and productive and admired and respected, take a look back to John Kennedy, Lyndon Johnson and Richard Nixon. When was the last time we had plenty of jobs and food and gas was affordable, when could you get a comic book for a nickle or a quarter, when could you get a loaf of bread for twenty nine cents? Tell me Sir and why could we do it back then, because our Leaders, learned and knew to get along and be prosperous in America, Americans had to Compromise and these Leaders knew it back then, shouldn’t we also know that today! I think we should!

One thing I will say before I go any further Mr. Trump is this, We the American People are tired of supporting, helping and sustaining and policing other nations !. We spend so much money and time on military and political aid in the world and other countries we allow our own people who serve and protect our country to come home and end up on our streets and live in cardboard boxes and not get their health taken care of , or fed?  You want to be President Sir, then I say this bring jobs,back, stop policing and protecting the world, that didn’t give a damn when we were hit on 9/11, they didn’t come running with money, or medical help of reconstruction help did they, why do we do it for them? Next if necessary lets end the Middle East mess the best way possible Sir, lets locate Isis and Al Qaeda, where they live and grow and take them out with bombs making a parking lot out of where they hide, and just move in militarily and take over the area and secure us a place in the Middle East, giving us the oil we need and stabilizing the area by our presence there. Even a suggestion of us moving into that area and taking over would rackle and raise hairs and make them think twice wouldn’t it and slow down their bullshit. Think about it folks!. Our presence there would make them think twice about attacking anyone, including us, because our presence would bring our military and political force to the area for them to contend with. Interesting huh?

Lastly and not the least, Mr. Trump, listen closely, you have no diplomatic abilities and don’t understand how to talk to women and you insult and outrage them with the way you talk about them and their bodies and minds. Are you sick or just that bad of a man, that you have to attack women in these ways and manner, to just make yourself look better than them? Your a sad excuse for a man when you continue to make sexist remarks about woman period, and that makes you not Presidential Material in my book! You want to help your country Mr. Trump, drop the hell out of the election and republican running for it, and pack up your bags and go home, keeping your sexist, unreasonable ideas to yourself. I think America needs leaders yes Sir, but you’re not the one we need, when you can’t conduct yourself better than you have so far. Drop out Mr. Trump, please for all our sakes!

 

 

 

 

If I Die


                     If I Die

        By: William M. McCurrach   

 

            If I die tomorrow and my life does end,

            Who would show at my funeral my friend?

            Would they come from my youth, the days when I ran free,

           A boy in the woods, enchanted you see?

           I doubt that they would even remember me!

         Would they come from my Elementary School days,

         Ah even if I wish to know some,

        I doubt it is what I say!

 

       Would they come from the days I roamed high school hall?,

       Carving and writing names on walls, long lost loves and

       Male friends, and all.

      I doubt it you see for I didn’t play ball!

 

        Would they come from my teenage years, when my hormones raged?

         And I had no fears?

         I doubt they would remember me after all these years!

 

         So if I die tomorrow who would come?

         To see a man who always had to run?

        Would my ex-wives show up, or my kids,

        I do not know, for I am a lone wolf and that is my soul.

 

       So as my blood pressure rages, and my nerves get blocked, my heart starts to clog and my life starts

       To Stop,   Tell me Lord who will be there to mourn me when I drop!

Dreams Don’t Go Away


Dreams Don’t Go Away

By: William M. McCurrach

 

I dreamed of peace. I dreamed of joy, I dreamed of things like all little girls and boys.

I dreamed of  love, I dreamed of caring, I dreamed of a family full of sharing.

I dream of all that could be, why couldn’t my dreams come true for me?

My Dreams were like every other child’s,

A World of fun, love and things so wild,

I did not dream of what happened to me,

I did not pick my mommy and daddy!

I did not ask to be brought into this world,

Any more than any other boy or girl!

I did not dream of living in fear,

I did not dream of siblings, who would not share,

Or,  a mother and father who had no care.

I did not ask for the beatings I got,

I did not ask to be hurt and threatened to be shot.

I did not ask for the memories I got,

Where I wake up running and sweaty from who knows what!

I dreamed of peace, I dreamed of joy,

I dreamed because I was a little boy.

The years of dreaming have gone by,

But I still feel the pain and see the beatings in my mind’s eye.

I see the poker coming down on my head,

His big hands,  grabbing me, and pulling me from my bed.

I wake up sweaty, my body trembles, my  mind races to survive,

My dreams you see were real for me,

Back when they were alive.

So, as you raise your children today, think of the pain of my memories and how they won’t go away!.

Please treat your children better is all I can say!.