Four Men, One game, two left who remain!


    Very recently, a friend of mine committed suicide, by shooting himself in the head. I would never have believed he would even consider such an act yet he did it. Why, well no one will ever know the answer will they, because it was a sudden and swift act no one expected including his own family and close friends. 

To see him in his younger days was to see a strong healthy man with a sense of humor and who was a lover of fishing, hiking and camping, and hunting. An outdoors man who was 6 ft something, big and bold and always smiling. Now he is gone and lost to his family, his friends and the world due to sudden depression, alcohol and drugs. Sadly, we shall never hike anymore, laugh anymore, play cards anymore or do anything with him. But we shall always miss him!

I know for a fact we had some great times, playing cards together, camping, hiking and fishing, but none of us ever realized what could happen or even gave it a thought. Now , his family must make decisions on whether to bring him home or bury him or cremate him where he is.It is a sad day when you hear such news about someone you knew well.

Last time something like this happened, it was the elder friend who died and we called him poppa.  There were four of us back then now there are two left, Poppa killed himself in his own way by not taking his diabetic injections, Big G, shot himself in the head and the leaves two of us who played cards and penny ante poker together for years. Four men, at one card table playing poker, drinking having fun and now two dead and two alive and who knows what will be next. You can’t figure who will do what anymore, nor can you understand why they will do it, it just is fate and the way of the world. Humanity has it’s problems folks and we all know it, depression gets many of us including me, yet I survive because I have a wife, a sister and the Veteran’s Administration and hospital when I need them.

One card table four seats, two now empty and the game incomplete, how will it end I do not know, but God Rest Poppa and Big G’s souls!

Happy Father’s Day to All


     June 21st, 2015 is upon us now folks and according to all Calendars it is Father’s Day across the world. In many homes, fathers are having days with their sons and daughters and will be enjoying meals and special times, but it doesn’t exist for all of us fathers, no matter how bad we wish it did.

      Some of us had children when married and can not be with them due to separations, divorces, and things that were not the child’s fault, but the fault of both parents they had. To overcome this, there is no way as long as one parent carries hate and animosity toward the other and one parent had custody as the children were growing up. Sometimes, it is not the missing parents fault they can’t be there and no matter what the circumstances, the children need to understand, it’s not that that mother or father doesn’t want to be there, it’s they can’t.

In The end though, I may be five hundred miles from my daughters today, on this father’s day and many before, and many after, but no matter what they do, say, or are, I will always love them period. A Father’s Love for his children doesn’t disappear, die, or not exist due to separation, divorce or any anything that happened. it stays steadfast forever more till that father dies. So, as father’s day is Celebrated across the world and America today, I want my children to know I love them and always will no matter what!

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I love and mIss my children and always will love them no matter what the other parent says of me and will till the day I die! If I had one wish in my life to spend on this Father’s Day of 2015, it is that both my Daughters’ their children and partners know that I shall always love them till the day I die no matter what. And that I wish they could fully understand the circumstances and understand someday why it is this way and they forgive me for not being there!

A Father’s love for his children never dies till he does !

Racial fights and Deaths No More!


     Racial Conflicts and battles are worthless, Americans, we point at one another over our skin color or nationality and avoid one another like poison at times why, why do we fear one another over the pigment of our skin? 

Let me point out some basic facts for all to see, and all to understand no matter what color or pigment your skin may be, for all to see. No matter what, we are all human beings put here on earth by God, no matter which God you believe in, ok. Secondly we are all born the same way, we all die the same way, as a basic fact anyway. We all want peace for our families and loved ones and we want to protect them and guard them against those who would hurt them and us.  And in the end it doesn’t matter what pigment your skin is, we all love, laugh, hate,care, cry, and bleed. We all eat the same foods, breath the same air, and all of us in America are Americans period. 

 So tell me why a man child would go over and kill people of a different race or pigment and want to start a racial war?

I will tell you what this is about now folks simply put it’s a breakdown in the american culture period and the way people are raised. Don’t teach your children to hate or fear others due to pigment of skin or nationality or any other damn thing, teach them to respect and honor and get along with each other, no matter who it is! 

When I was a child of 5 or 6 years old living in the projects of waterbury, Connecticut in the 1960’s, we were a racially diverse neighborhood, whites, blacks, hispanics and even orientals. We all played together, ran together and lived next door to one another. We didn’t have racial killings back then and the 1960s was much more turbulent than today is. The good thing is our parents encouraged us to play together and have fun and get along back then, the bad thing is we separated into neighborhoods and groups that don’t allow us all to socially interact with each other.  Back then, I was a child of 5 or 6 years old chasing bees with a jar, when one stung me. I yelled and cried, and an elderly black woman came out of her home and comforted this little white boy and showed me how a mud pack on a bee sting pulled the stinger out. She hugged me and kissed me and sent me home on my way and we both smiled. How I grew up some of my best friends were black children named the whites believe it or not, my dad and theirs were friends from work so we all got along. The point is we found that they cried, we cried, they hurt we hurt, they laughed we laughed, they went to church we went to church, they ate, we ate and it was all the same food. we lived in the same type of housing, had the same primary amount of money and we all struggled together to get by. we didn’t care if you’re white, black, hispanic or oriental, what we did care about was survival and loving our friends and family and compromising and getting along. What happened and why are we shooting and killing one another, and who is responsible for it all happening?

The real answer folks no matter what race, color or nationality you are as parents in today’s world, if you want to know why it is happening, look in the mirror, and ask yourself what did i teach my children, as they grew up? Am I the one who taught them to hate white, blacks, oriental or Hispanics? Did I make racial slurs and comments in front of them, did i show hatred to the other races around them, did i teach my children to fear them? If you can honestly look at yourself in your mirror and say yes then you are the reason this shit happens. Stop it now, join hands, no matter what your race, pigmentation or nationality and learn from it all, hate begins in childhood and grows in beings in the environment they grow up in, AND FROM THE PEOPLE WHO RAISE THEM!

 

 

 

 

June 13 th, 2015/ Hillary Rodham Clinton begins——


Hillary_Rodham_Clinton-cropped      Officially today, Hillary Rodham Clinton is having her first campaign rally, to kick off her run for the Presidency for the second time. Americans everywhere should watch and listen as she discusses issues and problems needing repair and correction in our land. Listen to her on education, economy,environment, jobs, manufacturing, unemployment and so much more.  Listen closely and while you’re at it, then listen to the Republicans and her opponents too. And then stop and think why are there about to be 13 or 14 Republicans running against her plus some Democrats too? 

The republicans fear a Hillary Rodham Clinton Presidency, they don’t know what to do to stop one though and never will, the fates have brought America to a point many countries before us have reached folks, a woman to lead us and fix what men did wrong before her. Germany has Merkel, other countries have female presidents, why not America? If Americans can stop and think it is not the sex of a person that determines their abilities and smarts, it’s their experiences in life that do. She has been a First Lady, a Senator, a Secretary and now wants the Presidency and i don’t blame her at all! She has the knowledge and experience to handle it all and should get elected if she doesn’t it will be because of people who hold sexist views on the Presidency and don’t want to trust a woman in it. The bottom line is, a woman may have more common sense and logic and brains then the men running now.

As 2015 rolls along and the election of 2016 gets closer our option are few for real integrity, for real smarts, or real logic and common sense to be in office.They say many don’t trust Hillary Rodham Clinton today, and they fear what she may do. But can you trust Rand Paul, Ted Cruz, Jeb Bush, Santorum, or any of the republicans who are popping up to run at this time too, Rubio a freshman senator who will be like  Obama was when elected being trained in office. Come on Now! Elect some one with experience and knowledge and skill and Elect Hillary Rodham Clinton!

Connecticut’s Major Problems


      Connecticut has to get it together and realize what is going on before it is too late and it goes bankrupt! During the late 1970s it began it’s downward spiral, with the lose of major manufacturing firms in the state and military contracts. Across the state Scovills, Timex, Uniroyal, Chase Brass and Copper, Anaconda and The Naval Ship Yards losing contracts has devastated the economy here. people are hurting and malls and building stores is not the way to relieve it.

Lower the Manufacturing tax, cut it in half and attract more manufacturing to Connecticut. Give them breaks to bring jobs back to the state, to employ the blue class workers of Waterbury and other cities, train those who are blue collar to do white collar jobs.  You can’t keep building malls and stores when there is no one with money to buy the items you are selling can you?

Connecticut’s infrastructure is falling apart also, the roads and highways  stink here. Potholes and construction stop people from getting to and from where they need to go for work and medical stuff. Sadly, no one is moving in the right direction for greed is getting in the damn way. Too many politicians are greedy and making millions off the connecticut population. Taxes go up for individuals and for manufacturing and companies but no improvements get made why is that, why are there no jobs in Connecticut these days, well the above is the answer.

There is also a lack of respect for others, a lack of education and funding for education for everyone, because the country has become so lackadaisical in it’s approach to raising children, and disciplining them. Children are not disciplined enough to be able to get to college on their own and too many fail or drop out of high school. education is at the minimum levels for many kids. Parents don’t teach them respect for their elders, work attitudes and more. Sadly, the change started in the 1970’s and became in force and has not changed. Sadly as the 1980’s came about parents feared the law because children started filing for divorce from their parents and revolting and no one stopped them. Shows like The Bill Cosby Show of the 1980s, taught people to not spank or hit their kids, raise them using psychological methods, talk to them. well it doesn’t work Mr. Cosby, no it doesn’t america! It is a world of all talk, no discipline, and they don’t learn because there is no re enforcement of it by parents. 

              In the end Connecticut is failing it’s own children, it’s population and it’s infrastructure too as well as it’s job market that was once so rich and full of jobs and manufacturing it was one of the richest states in the country.We may be the Insurance capital of the world, but it is growing poorer each day and failing it’s people big time.

Sexual Abuse big time by a Parent


     I was married to a woman back in the end of the 1970s, who came from Pittsburgh, Pa. while I wa sin the U.S.Navy, her parents used to live in a town called Wexford. 

As our marriage went on within the first six months I met her parents and siblings on numerous trips top Pittsburgh, to visit. Since we were married by a Justice of the Peace they wouldn’t let us sleep in the same room at night, until we were married by a Priest, which did later. As our marriage went along we had two daughters and two of everything by 1988.  By 1989 I was injured and could not do the job, I enlisted for anymore aboard ship, so the Navy Doctors Discharged me on July 24th, 1989. Right after my discharge I went out trying to find a job and came home to find my wife crying on the kitchen phone. when I asked what she was crying about she at first refused to tell me, when she hung up she finally did.

Her mother found out after all those years, that her husband had sexually molested all four of his children as she was working over the years. I wanted my wife to report him to the authorities, she refused saying she still loved him and he was her father. I couldn’t do a thing to make her do anything about it at the time. Little would I imagine how far it would affect others in the family including me. The mother divorced the father immediately upon learning of it and moved out on her own taking her youngest son with her.

In the end the results went like this, the father went to Florida and ran away, the mother lived with her son and took me and my wife and kids in for a bit. Without realizing what was happening, one daughter got divorced and has been divorced 5 times because of this,our marriage ended and so did the parents marriage all within two years. The boys have problems in more ways then one and the youngest sleeps in womens night gowns each night and will never be married.

 

 I ended up accused of sexual abuse against my own daughter which never happened and I fought it from day one, and had it dropped to a misdemeanor on Virginia Beach, Va. where I was tried, the year of my divorce 1992. In the end I lived with the misdemeanor on my record till my daughter confessed it all online to me in facebook messenger. I have her statement to me saved in my e-mail now. It reads like this:

 

Nobody’s life here is ruined what the hell are you talking about. I admitted my faults to Lyn and Kayla…that’s between us! And I am so damn tired of hearing how fucked up the family is! Don’t you think I know??? This is my apology to you! Im sorry that as a little girl people (ADULTS) fucked with and twisted my head up to make me believe shit that didn’t happen!!!! Im sorry that I HAD NO CONTROL of my childs mind but not anymore!!! Im not defending anyone but myself! I was a fucking child when this shit happened! What do YOU not understand about that? I don’t deal with Leslie AT ALL and rarely talk with mom.  The problem between us is you come back into my life and acted like we didn’t miss a beat. You talk to me and treat me like the child I used to be. I am a grown woman with a family not a child! And then you pulled that shit where you showed Leslie my texts to you! Who’s the adult here??? What were you trying to gain from that??? There is too much fucking drama and too many damn games being played.

So here is my problem, should someone report this man who destroyed so many people’s and family members lives, and if I were to report it the time limits are way beyond. What should one do in this case?

              

Presidential Race for White House 2016/ Candidates and Thoughts


      Sadly ladies and gentlemen, we are now seeing the Republican plan to stop Hillary Rodham Clinton from become President, they are throwing everyone they possibly can up for their parties nomination. So many of these people don’t even have any experience of any kind in the political world never mind in the Federal Government. Others who do that are running on the republican side, have no business running period for they are foolish.

Look let’s face some facts ok, not a one of the Republican Candidates have any where near the experience, knowledge and skills of Hillary Rodham Clinton.  Secondly, none of them have a back-up behind them as good as William Jefferson Clinton the former President.  With Hillary you will get a two for one deal that can’t go wrong, believe me!.

         Hillary wants to help the low and middle classes obtain status and jobs and education. She believes in Health Care for all and will keep Obama Care in place, she won’t attack Social Security or Medicaid or Medicare. Unemployed will get help finding jobs, for she will create jobs and restore manufacturing to the USA, she will change Fair Trade Laws and change the ratio of the imports and exports, to America’s favor. The Chinese and Japanese are ruling there now, because Americans can’t afford to make those products as cheap as they do. Hillary can change that folks, give her a chance!.

Before you elect a Republican this time folks stop and think clearly, they want to get rid of Social Security and phase it out, not extend it. They want to kill Obama Care and make you pay more to be insured sad isn’t it. They want to take stronger stands against ISIS and Al Qaeda, and i have no objection to that myself but not at the expense of American troops and military costs that are escalating at an unbelievable rate. Check the Billions already by the American Government now in Iraq, Afghanistan, and Iran and the Middle East period, the numbers are crazy. Check the dead and wounded, and what are they fighting for, people who don’t care and won’t even defend themselves, wake up!

          I have a solution to it all that would work just fine folks. America is already involved in so many Middle East conflicts and countries, trying always to defend and protect others, isn’t it time we stopped? Pull our troops out and our military gear and weapons too, and our advisors. IT’s time America starts taking care of itself here at home. Put all that money to good work here at home, create manufacturing, and jobs,support Health care for all, and refinance Social security and Medicare and Medicaid. Americans are living longer folks and we need these programs to save and protect and help our own older generations. Who will take care of them if we don’t?

 Lets use some money to rebuild our infrastructure and roads and bridges. Lets use it to make College Education affordable for all and to feed our own hungry and get homes for our own homeless sleeping in our streets in cardboard boxes.Lets get help for our Homeless disabled Veterans with PTSD who lay in cardboard boxes in the cold and barely survive. Lets stop and help those walking the streets of America with signs like, Will work for food, will work for a place to sleep, and more. Isn’t it time America was put back on it’s feet in all ways? Elect Hillary Rodham Clinton President and Remember folks America is one of the few countries where our women are strong enough, reliable enough and strong enough to lead and do it right! Elect Hillary this time folks and you won’t regret it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pauly Prick


Story of a Hoodlum who tried to get over where ever he could and on who he could who was finally stopped, by an Elderly Couple!

Try it folks you might like it!

If not ya can comment and let me know what ya think ok.

 

Beginning to my Newest Story I am working on!/ Politics


This is The Forward first part,

Waterbury, Connecticut, is a small city by size but not by population, it carries it problems from corrupt politicians in its history, to gangsters and an Ex-Governor who was corrupt too, to hoodlums on the streets, who want to be gangsters or tough guys, but will never get there.

This is a story that begins with the birth of one such person, who believes he is smarter and more important than anyone else in the world and the city, he believes he is above the law and knows all the answers. The Truth is he doesn’t, and in the end this is the story of his so called childhood and why he is what he is and more. This is also, what happens to a hoodlum like  he is when he runs into a true man and a human being who will not take such shit from such a little person.

Opinions are welcome!

 

Politics leads the race for me this year so far, as I see republicans throwing so many candidates out their for the Presidency, that it is like throw em at the wall and hope one sticks, to beat Hillary Clinton. It’s sad really, the desperation that is coming from the Republican party about the 2016 election cycle. In The end america will pick the President to follow President Obama not based on stupid issues, or broad statements, but on the best candidate who can improve the job markets, economy, and who won’t cut benefits to Veterans and the poor and unemployed.  The one who improve Obama Care for all, handle foreign affairs properly and who has common sense and logic. I firmly do not believe the Republicans can produce such a candidate to match Hillary Clinton. she has strength in her positions, her honor to up hold and the countries face and pride too. she believes in education for all and equality, she believes all should have jobs who need them and she will work to bring back the manufacturing industry that made America Great. america wasn’t built on fights over immigration either we are based on it really, where do you think we all came from, all of us, except for the native americans who were natural top this land we live in. and we should honor them too, for they were here before us.

In the end ladies and gentlemen of America, we need Hillary Rodham Clinton as our leader, president and more. Any other thought should nopt even be entertained at this point in time in America, in my opinion.

 

Jim Croce/ Harry Chapin and Seals and Crofts/ Rock and Roll Hall of Fame !!!!


     I grew up in the 1970s for my teens attending High School in the 1970s from 70 to 74, in small town Naugatuck Connecticut. I would listen to tunes and chase girls for high school days like every red blooded american boy back then. Some of us were long haired and wise asses, some of us were book worms and some of us just average kids, influenced by those things around us including friends, relatives and yes music.

Many were influenced by Rock bands like Aero-Smith, Deep Purple, The Doors and more, me I was influenced by the three I call mellow rock and roll greats who are now overlooked. Sadly, Seals and Crofts, Jim Croce and Harry Chapin who paved the road for many are over looked and should not ever be.Yes , I grew up when a story teller as a song writer and singer meant something, listen to their songs folks, and you will find in my opinion, musical genesis and brilliance in it all.

I would sit in my room on the third floor of an old dutch colonial and the music playing and me singing loud and proud to it all, Songs now forgotten by many like Jim Croce’s I got a Name, You Don’y Mess Around with Jim, and Lover’s Cross, Chapin’s Taxi and Taxi sequel and  Seals and Crofts Summer Breeze and Diamond Girl and get lost in my fantasies and think about the friends and family I had and what i wanted in life. I would dream of places I wanted to go, people i wanted to be and what I could accomplish in life, to the tunes of these great artists. They paved a road for me to grow up on and to think about of peace, love, caring and more, and I followed them as closely as I could.

These people, Jim Croce, Harry Chapin and Seals and Crofts told life’s stories in songs and gave me the greatest entertainment and pleasure i had in my young life at the time. They all belong in The Rock and Roll Hall of fame in Cleveland, Ohio and remembered for the greatness they gave us all. To The Rock and Roll Community and The Hall of Fame I say elect all three in, and make them a big part of history!