The Human Connection: Seeking Love and Understanding


True For me and You

September 6, 2025

William M McCurrach

Life is not as complicated as some would believe,

We all are born, we all learn as we go on,

We all look for caring, connections, and sharing.

We want someone to talk with, walk with,

And to be understood by,

As we grow and age, you see.

At points of time, in our hearts and minds,

We meet the someone it works with, we take a chance,

We work to make it continue, and maintain,

It’s a part of the human needs,

Of the body and mind and the brain.

When we lose a connection, we may stumble,

We may fall,

But in the we shall drive and seek again.

It may take time, it may not happen overnight,

But we do go on,

With our needed fight.

Remember, the old song,

Everybody needs somebody, sometime,

It’s true, even for me and for you!

September Arrives

September 1st, 2025

William M. William McCurrach

Welcome to September!

The sun still shines, the temperatures cool, the leaves start changing, and it makes life cool.

The colors abound, the winds make sound,

The leaves start falling and hitting the ground.

Between the cooler temperatures,

And the colors of fall,

We laugh a little more,

Sing a little more,

Through it all.

Ahead we know comes the holidays you see,

It makes it happier in time, and more fun,

For You and for me.

Welcome to the time of year,

When things seem easier and fine,

When the colors do bloom,

And the winds sound like chimes.

Happy September folks!

Wandering

August 28th, 2025

William McCurrach

Wandering is what we do,

As we age we wander and wonder,

What to do?

There comes a time,

In your mind,

When all you do is wonder and wander.

It’s a period of time,

In between you see,

When you wonder what can be,

But are unsure.

So you wander and wonder,

And ponder and ponder,

Till one day you go.

Enough of this,

You Know.

So, you decide to take a chance,

You can do so,

And find rejection,

or you can do so and find romance.

Then you stop wondering and wandering,

And settle down once more,

Takes away the feeling of wandering,

For sure.

EveryWay

BY: William McCurrach

August 22nd, 2025

When I was young,

I loved to run,

Through the woods

Over the hills and dales,

But, now a day I am more like a beached whale!

I have sailed the oceans and seen the world,

Seen the people all around,

Found one thing out,

Few do know,

We are all the same is true,

It is how it does go.

No Matter where you go,

No Matter who you are,

No Matter what language you speak,

No matter black, white,

Bold or Meek.

It is always Love and Respect and Honesty we all seek!

So, no matter what one does,

No matter what one says,

Remember, we all laugh, we all cry,

We all love and we all die.

We are equal more than some will say,

Truth is folks, we are all human,

In Everyway!

Life Lessons: Cherishing Each Moment as a Gift


The Gift from God Above

William M. McCurrach

September 9th, 2025

At times, we stop and think,

We wonder and marvel,

We smell and sometimes stink.

But in the end we are all the same,

We laugh, we cry,

We play we work,

We love, we hurt,

And we survive.

No one can say how long we shall roam the earth,

They can just tell you,

About your birth.

We are born,

We live, and then we die.

We all want respect, and to be loved,

and honored,

Before we die.

It’s an inner drive in all of us,

It makes us move,

Makes us groove,

Makes us love.

Just Remember it is all a gft,

From God up above.

The gift is life my friend,

Live it well, from beggining,

To it’s end.

The best thing any man or woman can hope for,

Is to be remembered fondly and know they were loved.

For that is our destiny believe you me,

From the Heavens and God Above.

I am glad to be back doing my blogs and poems and stories and rants again. As time goes on and I age one of the few things I love to do is write. I may blog on politics, trump, The Economy. I may post poems like above or better. I may write stories, or ask questions about many things. I range from poetry, to stories, to rants to opinions, to yes, even questions. But, what I don’t do, is, sit and wait for people who get angry over anything I do. I write, it;s me folks, my poems are mine, my stories, opinions, rants are mine. I just use my right unde rour constitution and bill of Rights for freedom of speech. That my friends and others is what is nice about America for me.

My Poems and my stories are online folks. My blogs are here of course. I have written 51 short stories and many poems I have lost count actually of those. But, if someone wants to check and look through some poetry I wrote you should be able to find in on Facebook on my page there. https://www.facebook.com/william.mccurrach.7?fref=pb&hc_location=friends_tab&pnref=friends.all

As to my short stories, they are on Amazon Ebooks or Kindle as only Ebooks. https://www.amazon.com/stores/author/B00CQMGTSM Just so, anyone can find some.

I haven’t really attempted a short story or book in some years now, since my wife passed in 2021. I have left it be as it is. The Poems, I do as I feel it, or when I feel them. Some are emotional, some inspiring, some fun, some even silly or stupid, but they are mine. To me, I would rather share them, then destroy them. Some people like them, some do not. So, I do what I want because of Freedom of Speech in this country, because I can. It’s that simple lol.

Notr everything I write will appear online in any form, why, becaus ethere is always ina writers world, things you do not wish released, or that are only meant for private. SO we all do it folks, whethe rit be love letters, from our teenager years to, personal correspondse we have with friends, and lovers. So, I hope what I share brings a smile to some, or makes them think. And most of all, I hope, some out there get me, and understand it all. Have a fine and Happy wednesday folks, and stay healthy out there, and enjoy life please.

Best Dating Apps for Seniors: A Guide for Men Over 70


Ok, I am going to ask, the women of the world,What Dating App is the best for us men who are 70 and up?

I have heard Match/com/ I have heard Zoosk/OurTime/Silver Singles and more. It is confusing for me, because i am a widower at 69, and haven’t been in the dating scene really since 1993. Back then, I went to Single’s Dances and it worked for me. But, as we all know, today, Single’s Dances don’t exist for people my age.

I am not a real drinker or bar or tavern person, although I may stop in once in a while ata atavern for a sandwhich I like and maybe a beer or soda. Just to get out some

I like Bowling and do so once a week in a Senior League at my area’s bowling alley. I like movies, I like reading and walking. I like playing Billards/pool also.

I read alot on and off as I go along, current;y I am reading The Let Them Theory, while is does repeat itself somewhat, the theory itself is an interesting thing, I never considered before. I have learn it doe shelp to just say Let Them, as you go along. And decide to just do what you can or will to help yourself instead of getting involved.

So my question is simple. I don’t wnat a young woman, I don’t want a hustler to take me, or use me for money. And I am sure many women feel the same about us men. So that isa two sided problem in life. What I am wondering is whats the best way to go for me. Maybe I shouldn’t ask, but, I wa staught asa child, have a question, there is no dumb ones, just ask the right people or person for the answers. So, I think the best place to ask for information on dating and meeting women my age, is the women my age. I hope i am right, but time shall tell, right?

Dating is like riding a bike I am told, once you do it, it should be easy. It isn’t really, why, it involves flirting and asking somepone out. If you are like me, and have been out of the dating scene sinc ethe 1990s, well, as you can tell the world has changed and so have people in general and what they expect and are looking for. It is all a mystery to me, all because I dedicated myself to one woan for all the years i did, till she passed from Breast Cancer in 2021.

Not trying to complain or bitch or moan here, not trying to impose or be a burden or an asshole here either. Just looking for the best apps and way to go, I am tired of just being alone these days.

Figured hey, I havea blog site, andI can write and ask and see if anyone will answer me, in a correct manner and not sarcastically or mean. If people get nasty, I can always delete the replies,and just surrender and give up, also. I don’t like arguing or fighting with anyone, I am a peaceful person. just look at it as a man looking for suggestions on which way to go, at a later stage of life, after many years married. This single stuff is not the same as when I was younger lol.

Starting Over at 69: My Journey Back to Dating


September 9th, 2025 and yes I am back all. My Blog is still alive and well and in my possession once more. It was abit os a struggle with the company to get it back, but, it is worth it if you want it to be a secure one.

That said, away I go once more. Tuesdays are always slow days folks, and at my age of 69, I lose interest in things faster than before lol. I love people and i love women, I admire them from afar of course and have never approached any in many years now, since my wife passed. I grieved her fully now and i believe, I am still here, so at some point I need to find a partner once more.

I have tried different dating sites, and I have taken maybe 3 women to dinner in the four years since I moved here to Westborough, Ma. My reasoning has been ok I will try this, but then, I didn’t really give them a chance. I avoided any physical comtact and did not attempt to even kiss one. I just felt it ws nice talking with them, and they were nice ladies, but, I had to hold back. Like I said at some point, I need to start over, I am not getting any younger lol.

What do I seek I am asked. well i don’t look for a beauty queen, I don’t look for rich, I don’t care. I look for friendly, kind, considerate, intelligent, and with a sense of humor. Someone who likes to laugh some, but can also hold a decent converstaion helps.

I don’t like smokers, sorry ladies, it almost got me years ago, so no thank you. I am not a drinke ror bar or tavern person really, once in a while is all. I like movies, I like walking, I like playing pool, I like helping people. I have fun at bowling and enjoy those who do so with me, in the Senior League I am in. I am not into big crowds, and can’t handle that well, I tend to shut down and disappear really. Yet, I like’ smaller crowds, and will talk to almost anyone.

Politics wise I don’t care either wya, although I do lean democrat. I am a non-Trumper folks and non-maga person. They are destroying our country and our republic and democracy. I can’t and won’t date a MAGA Supporter in anyway.

Ok, now that said, life goes on and we are all struggling to survive in today’s world. Time is short folks, and i believe one should live it dya to the fullest, laugh as much as possible, have fun, and enjoy. Am I wrong, I don’t think so. I like movies, I like plays. I like music of all kinds, from rock, to country and blues, and even classical at times. I read a lot and I am reading The Let Them Theory these days. Mel Robbins stumbled upon a great theory and i can’t say it willwork for everyone out there, but, it helps when you use it in the right situations for your ownself.

Now for the ones who recommended I try dating sites for Seniors my age, I am at this time. I have tried Match.com, Zoosk, and I am currently trying Silver Singles. Now I hate writing profiles of myself, for any purpose folks. So I am not doing good here. But, at least I am trying and will see howit goes. There is no such thing as a perfect relationship folks, between a man and woman, but, there is such a thing as a lasting one, that works if you work at it. Just my thoughts on it all really. So time will tell if I meet someone or not.

As to dating someone in my community where I live here, well I have not done so. Why, because people speak, and even you date someone in your own community and it doesn’t work out, it gets around and itis usually us men who get the blame and bad mouthed. LOL. But, would I date anyonein the community, is there anyone interesting here for me? Of course there are ladies, but if your looking for me to approach you and ask you out, it probally will not happen, because i have no idea, how to anymore. Last time I asked someone out, to dance, I ended up married to her for 28 years. LOL, and I forget how to flirt, I just am me, for who else can I be. I hope that explains that, right1

I am glad to have my blog page back, so I can write again here. I am sure i shall produce more blogs and poems and rants. I always do it seems. It is easier to write, for me, then to try to stand up in front os someone and give speeches or presentations. Some wanted me to read my poetry at an event here, andI said no and they couldn’t understand why. In private i have been asked why, and i told the few who asked, I have PTSD from childhood and military service. So I panic and my nerves get me in large crowds. But, to each their own they say, so I leave if the crowd is too big, easier for me that way. I am not being rude or non-caring when I do it folks, I just have to.

Ok, I have ranted and written again. I have gone over some of what is on my mind for now. Until the next blog, I wish all well.

My Rant for today!


Good Evening all. I am back. I have seen Trump now send troops into LA, and now he wants to do Chicago next and New York for what purpose folks. Look, this is how dictators get started folks. The U.S. Military is not trained for policing, at all. It is trained to kill and attack, so why is he doing this to Americans and our cities?

On top of that, Trump is an ill man folks. His veinous condition can only mean heart trouble for him. One’s ankles don’t swell like that for no reason nor do your hands come up bruised like his for no reason. My guess is he is being interveniously treated with drugs to thin his blood and control his heartbeat. Trump stumbles, he talks with a slur at times. He is not ahealthy man. People complained about Biden, but, Trump is just as bad or worse than Biden was.

Trump can not control Putin or stop the Uraine War in anyway. Putin laughs at him. China is laughing ta him, North Korea is laughing at him too. And many more. Many countries are calling him a fool and a joke Yet, the Republicans keep backing him and so does the Supreme Court, why?

The American economy is falling apart folks, jobs are disappearing, and people got fired form governement jobs and factories are disappearing and shutting down. Food Prices rising, clothing rising, utilities rising, so where is Trump helping anyone, but himself?

At some point Americans must wake up and realize also, they elected a convicted felon, who is a rapist and a pedophile. They must realize, Trump was Epsteins friend, been to his island many time sand he is in the Epstein files and lists. No one stays friends witha peophile for 15 years and says nothing about it. So what wa sTrump doing, look at the pics he is in with Epstein folks, the young girls on his lap, around him his hands on their legs and thighs. Then tell me he isn’t Pedophole folks, If you do you just in denial, and trying to protect him. Why are the Republicans protecting Trump, simple he threatens them left and right with being primaried, and him forcing them out of office.

At some point here the American People are going to say enough on all counts. Trump will have to be impeached and removed. If not America will sink and become a third world power, laughed at by the world.

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Finally I am back folks. I got my account back, and can now post my blogs, poem, stories and opinions onc emore on WordPress.

It Took a week of arguing and finally I have it back. Thank you WordPress .com

Embracing Life at 69: The Search for Love


As we age , we get aches, we get pains, and we carry-on and do the best we can. Some of us have more serious condition, physically and some have conditions mentally. Yet, all of us are striving to stay alive and enjoy the time we have on the planet earth, that we call home.

You can’t overcome deadly diseases, like cancer, unless your lucky and catch it early. Other major diseases are all the same way. Some there is just no hope in overcoming. So, if you watch a person who is terminally ill, as they live out their lives, they try to keep active, they try to keep engaged, and they try to participate in their own ways. They maybe can’t jump a rope or run amile, or find it hard to breath and look good in style. But, they never surrender and never give up, until they have no choice.

My wife was such a person, she died in 2021 from breast cancer. She fought for 16 years to survive and stay alive. when all was said and done, and we had 28 years together mind you, she never complained, she never cried, she never said she couldn’t do a thing. She just did it, smiled, laughed and had a good time. Everyone who knew her and loved her, appreciated her for all of it. I loved her for many reasons, and I was there for 28 years with her. we laughed, we traveled, we hosted family and friends. we cooked together, we cleaned together and we loved one another. We went to plays and musicals and concerts, we ate fine food. wewalked small towns and large together when we could.

As time went on, we would watch tv, play game son our computers across the room from one another. I would write, as she asked me to, for it was her who said it was something I should do. She would read my stories and the ideas I had, and that look at me, and say write these, and don’t make them bad. I would write them and print them out for her and she would read them for me. We shared a life, we shared a bed, we had a relationship that few have had.

I miss her, big time and yes I have grieved all over 4 years now. I have held myself in check, not approached or asked another woman out. I respect my memorie sof my wife and our life. I also remember something she said about me one day. She told her daughter and her sister and friends, he will be fine whenI am gone, he will survive and ultimately carry on. heisa realist she told them and didn’t know I was listening. She said as a realist, you know what you must do, to keep going an dliving, and he knows how to too. I didn’t say a word to her about what she said. I just listened and kept her words in my head.

The other day I was thinking and reading a book. It hit me, I need to change something, I am only 69 now. My wife was 16 years my senior when we married and she died. She had told me, age is just a number and I listened and married her . I will never regret that, or 1 minute of our life together, But, I also remember her telling me, I will have to move on and find someone else, cause ultimately, she didn’t want me to stay by myself. I agree with her now for four years, a lil over I have stayed alone. And found that I would rather have someone in my life than to continue alone. But, how to go about that is a mystery you see, for at 69 yeras old, what woman would want me.

I have never been perfec, but always I have been fair and kind. I have never been Einstein, or a Romeo, nor Mr Handsome at least that I know. I can count the women in my life, on one hand, including two that were my wifes. That doesn’t include my sister or mom. Love it seems, is not easy to find, and the longer I live I see that in time.

I have met many women in my life, some funny, some serious and some warm and some cold as ice. I have sailed the Oceans in the Navy, been around the world, been to many countries too. I have been to Europe, been to the North Atlantic area, around south America and even down to the Virgin Islands. Seen ladies of all colors, shapes and sizes, all different nationalities too. It’s amazing, that all wnat the same mostlt too. They want respect, they want to be cared for, they want to be known for being themselve, for being unigue and an individual. They wnat to be smart and some are sassy. But in the end all want the same, to be loved and remembered for being themselves, and someone remembering their name. The women I have met in my life from even my younger days, all were determined to be unforgetable in their own way. So, I don’t look at bodies and shapes, I look at the person inside you see, if she is positive, happy, can laugh and have fun, she has a chance of being my one. If you are bitter or upset all the time, well I am sorry, you can’t be mine. I don’t care if your a model or beauty or a star, if you can’t be positive and happy an dhave fun, you won’t get far.

As I go forward now, and I search, I have been asked what I seek. The above I have written, wil give you a peak. You don’t need to be a Maryilyn Monroe or Raquel welch or something with me. Looks are nice but not everything you see, If i can talk to you and we can get along, we can laugh and dance and sing a song. If we can walk in sombe rmoments you see and I can stay with you and you with me, it works. It isn’t the public moments that count. I don’t perform acts, out and about. I am me and shall always be me, and that is what makes me happy you see. Don’t try to dress me up, change the way I walk and talk or what I do, and i promise I will never do that to you.

Time is ticking and it never stops. It runs down for all of us you see, I just want to live it fully. Is That asking too much, to live it fully with someone to love? You tell me!

Thoughts on America, Today!


September is beggining folks, the weather is cooling down and each day seems shorter as the year rolls on. The leaves shall change soon enough and before you know it, back to the winter we shall go.

I wake eack morning early these days, my back is out of sorts from my Navy days. Each day is a wake up to pain it seems, and yes I have no time, to dream. But, surrender is a word I do not understand, I am not one to quit, not that kinda man.

I clean my condo, I go shopping and do my thing. I read, write, walk and more. I have a hobby of bowling if I can and I play pool when I can. Each day goes by at a leisurely pace, and i don’t push myself to win any race. I would rather laugh, have fun and enjoy those around me, then to cry of my injuries and pain that abounds me. I have Doctors for that, don’t you see, so, I may live in pain, but I try to be the best I can be.

I have witnessed too much in my 69 years, I have seen President’s shot, and too many wars. I have seen a peaceful time in the USA and had some of the best of everything is what I say. We had the best music, 50’s, 60’s and 70’s of any generation. we had jobs and the best cars too. They were made of steel and so real. Now a days we have cars made of plastic it seems and more than anything too many broken dreams.

I was taught as a child manners and such. never thought twice that it was too much. respect your elders my parents would say, and if we didn’t, well we learned, the hard way. We were sent to school to learn and if we didn’t, and we dropped out, we were sent out to earn. Earn our own way, pay to stay, if we were still living home. So, we became industrious and secure, and we learned we had to earn what we wanted and to pay to keep it. So when we bought something, it wasn’t too cheap , we made our toys last and yes we ran fast. Thats the life we led.

Today’s world is so different my friends. we have hand held cell phones and computers and video games. people who don’t like eachvother, call one another names. Bars and Taverns are all around, banks sprang up without a sound. Churches are everywhere you do look, all preaching the good book. Yet, in America there is a rising anger it seems, people are mad over their broken dreams.

They can’t keep the job they want, they can’t stay employed, because the jobs disappear, because of politics and fear. People go broke and end up on the street, it seems to be, it’s like a recession time again, like back in history, back then. Food prices rise, Cost of living has doubled in size, medical costs soar like never before. A simple walk these days, you do in fear, for you do not know when a madman or madwoman is near. Relationships are hard to find, for people have fear of being used, for money, sex or abused from the unkind. I know it sounds bad and even sad my friends, but the truth is, the era of the American dream is slowly rolling, to it’s end.

We had it all, and we threw it away. we elected the wrong people and they took it away. They line their pockets and stand above on benefits we provide. Even when they are criminally to blame, they have no shame. Children get abused and used and trafficed and sold, doesn’t it seems nasty that they are so bold? Where were the parents of these young girls, that Epstein and his friends used for thrills? I know if they were my daughters, I would chase down these creeps and break their legs and knees and more so they could not sleep. I would not let them run free, for my daughters sake, not for me. The children of the world and America you see, is why Veterans fought to keep us free. They are our future and our way of life, the harm done to them, cuts them like a knife. These perverts and sociopaths, and pedophiles made injuries that last. The mental anguish shall always be, with these young girls, who are now women, among you and me. They did not ask, for what they got, and the ones that did it should be shot. But they roam free to do it again and again, don’t you believe like me, it is time it should end?

As wars rage on and economies come and go, there is one thing Americans should stop and think of and should know. In history my firends, empires did grow, they reached a point like a pimple that popped and off they did go. Look back in history my friends and fellow citizens. Think back to the Aztecs, the Inca’s The American Indians and more. Stop and think orf the Romans, the Germans and Japaneese, those who all thought they ruled the world who were brought to their knees. They fell each and everyone my firends, why, because they became too full of themselves, too proud and stubborn or too greedy and full of it. I tell you this you see, because as I see it today, America’s peak seems to have been hit and now we are tumbling down like the rest of it. We are slowly losing our hold on the world, becoming more isolated and lost you see, So, in the end, America will not stay free, unless we fight back and realize, we are not special, we need to work at it, to survive.

At some point Americans must stand up and become united once more, before a war comes to our shore. Instead of being a Me, Me, Me Society as we are today, we must return to a we.we.we society of yesterday. All together as one and go for the best for all of us, not just some. For when we do, we get things done. Until we do once more, what we did before, we shall continue our decline, and in the future it will be over, for our children in time. Our children wil struggle to survive, our grandchildren will find it hard to survive. They won’t be buying homes or cars, they won’t be eating well and able to dream of reaching the stars. Resources on the planet are diminishing, we are using them up, food sources are dropping in size. Water is becoming polluted and foul, what will become of humanity after all?

This is not just me running off at the mouth, or voicing fears out loud. These are facts that stand out and should not be allowed. We need to turn it all around, make our waters safe and let our animals abound. We need to lower costs for the average family, we need to listen to the voice of humanity. Don’t be greedy, don’t be power hungry, don’t be foolish and have some care. For if we don’t there won’t be much left for our offspring, out there. The future is at stake, and we, as humanity, must give ourselves and the world a break.

Reflections on Life at Dell Webb Chauncy Lake


August 31st, 2025, the weather is beautiful outside and it has been a clear day. I walked some today, for the first time in while, but not as much as I have in the past. While walking, I think things over and wonder what is what in the world I live in.

I try to eat and sleep well each day and night. I do my laundry on time and shop when needed. I go to Doctors as instructed and when needed also. I pay my bills like any other person also. I write blogs like this and poems and sometimes stories, although I haven’t since my wife passed, on the stories. Guess losing her, took away my want to or need to, on that point.

I have been asked a question, about where I live. here at Dell Webb Chauncy Lake in these condos. Before I go further with this ubject, I want all to understand, under our laws and constitution in the United States, all have freedom of speech and a right to voice their opinions. In this case my opinion may not be liked by many, but I am a honest man.

My opinion of Dell Webb Chauncy Lake is not what others have for sure. Many believe it’s a great place to live and say they enjoy it immensely. They are happy here and I can see why, until, something happens to their equipment or applianances. Then, they will complain and still have to pay for whatever it is. Can’t escape that one, if you bought here, it’s a part of the deal.

I was asked how I like living here at Dell Webb Chauncy Lake and to be honest, I hesitated before I replied, and told the person who asked they may not like what I say. They replied thats ok, I can handle it. So, I hesitated for a minute or two more, before I spoke.

Then I told them, In my opinion, Dell Webb Chauncy Lake Condos, are one step above being in a convalenscent home. You can move about, associate with the other neighbors but live in a big enough space is all. The appliances in the condos, are construction grade only, until you replace them as needed, The Rinnani Hot Water and Heater is a base one, that won’t last for ever, The AC units are bare minimum models, and they go on you.

I continued, as to the people who live here, well thats a subject I won’t get into too deep. But, most are good people in my opinion, and like all other places you may live, there will always be a few bad apples in the bunch. For me, it is extremely, boring, and yes I have been told it is my fault by some, because I do not participate in events here. Maybe so, but I have my reasons actually. Personally, for me, I have Attention Deficiet Disorder, Hyper-Activity and PTSD. So I avoid large crowds and loud noises. I also tend to avoid people who try to change others to fit what they wish them to be. I don’t appreciate, being told to quiet down, or to tone down myself. I do not appreciate being told, I don’t attend so it is my own fault. I wish some would just take it as it is and stop and think before they engage mouth. I am not into large crowds and public speaking. Nor do I wish to take part in many things here. I have tried events and tried to get involved, but, for me, it is not to be.I would rather stay alone on my own and not say or do something that would bother, hurt or upset anyone else. I also, do not wish at anytime, to be a burden, to anyone around me. I stand alone and I am proud of that.

I thought when I moved here, it would be a nice place for people my age range to be. Then after being here a while I realized, being here is like being put out to pasture, before you die. To me that is a sad realization for me. It means, I am here to face the end of my life, and that is not what I wished for or wanted. Yet, in the end, I could have said no, and I could move, but, I don’t have the energy left to do some. So, I settle for what I have, I mind my own business and I do only what I can for myself and others. I bowl, because it gets my out and about, I play pool, for fun, not in a serious way. I play Dominos sometimes when I can and I am up to it. It’s is like living in an Old Folks Home, but the expanded version for safety purposes, lol. Bigger private rooms, and do as you please. Sadly, I have come to realize at 69 years old, there is not much more to do.

Others have family who come to see them, I don’t. Others plan trips and go out and about, I don’t. Others have wives or partners, I don’t. While the men here who are single are vastly outnumbered by the single women here, I would not venture into trying to date any of them. It could be a mess if something goes wrong for sure, it is a tight knit community and word spreads fast, if something goes wrong. Rumors and gossip flies for sure. It’s something like that old TV Show- Peyton Place.

I have been asked by some about who was picked up by an ambulance, I don’t know when it happens and I don’t watch folks. I have been asked who is moving out and why, not my business either really. If I hear the rumor or gossip and I don’t know I will go to the person it is about and ask them lol. Just me is all.

Yes I miss my wife and always will and at some point, I need to move on and look for companionship. Whether I can find it or not, in Westborough I have no idea. But, at some point I shall try once more. as long as I can breath, and walk and talk, I am sure I will find a way, when I am ready.

As we age, we all get set in our ways, so not easy to change.To Adapt and change is a part of life we all have to do, and I know it too. SO, I go one day at a time and hold on to memories is all.

America, Loneliness, and Problems


Lets talk about the American Problem that is growing these days, Isolation, Loneliness and lack of human contact. In America in the 1950’s we had the baby boomer era. Then we had the peace and hippie era of the 1960’s. The 1970’s brought us the conservative era. Then the 1980’s hit and we went from a we, we , we society to a me. me. me society, which turned into a combo of I got mine screw you, get your own. And The Era of the Bill Cosby Show, and his talk to your kids, don’t hit them. The Anti-violence began.

By The 1990’s children were being brought up by advice, computers and video games, as babysitters. They got lost in a virtual world and basically never recovered. It became and still is today, a generation that wants everything handed to them and hates work. The 2000’s now began with a revitalization of discipline to a point, and things changed to lets help our families some. By today and we are now 25 years into the 2000’s it is once again the me, me, me society, but with an added dimension of fear, of abuse, being used, for money, or anything else. So, the dating scene for all, has dried up, especially for the mid aged to elder years.

So people invented dating apps and sites to meet others. They worked well for a bit, until, people began to put up fake profiles and fake photos and couldn’t be honest. The lying, and fake photos and more is now leading to a decline on the dating apps also. People are tired of it and basically, tired of trying to pay for what should come natural, meeting people. People don’t talk to one another anymore, they don’t laugh as much, they don’t interact the way we used to. Everyone is afraid of one another due to the possibilities of being used for money or sexual abuse, or more. Narscist abound in today’s society it seems. It is no longer the one for all and all for one, it is now I am for me and screw you. It is a sad state of affairs in America, when the trust, loyal and caring of the past generations is now reduced to such a point, society is suffering from it all.

Now it is not just America that is going through this folks, but it is America that has the power, and ability to change it back if we try. We need more places to dance, to laugh, to play, to do sports. More places for people tp go, to do things, and a more open society. Unless people start mingling, talking, interacting and learning to get along, America will fail and so will the world actually. Too many are now, staying alone, isolating, and keeping to themselves for different reasons. Now, I know I do so myself, to myself. Why, I fear involvement, taking a chance, and being talked about behind my back. I fear being taken for money, that I earned. I fear not being liked, or not being handsome enough, to be wanted. many have the same fears I know, which is why I know I am not alone. I have seen the news reports about it all, professors talking on it in discussions on TV and on the news. The reaction of society now erupting in violence due to this is crazy folks. We have people shooting one another for attention, children being shot in schools, teachers and parents too, getting shot on the streets. The animostity is huge in America right now, the recessed anger is unbelieveable.

I am old now, in my opinion at 69. I went to a tavern to have a sandwhich and beer by myself one day. I was talking to a younger generation couple next to me. We were discussing generations and i said, I thought my generation was the best, we grew up in the 60’s and 70’s we had it all. We had real cars made of steel, we had jobs and worked, we had the best music in the world. Well, the gentleman next to me went off on me, and I didn’t even know him. He insisted the 1980s, were the best period. As the discussion got deeper he started getting louder, so I shut up and let him be. When a simple discussion about which decade was the best goes bad, you know there is something wrong. The anger was crazy and I just walked away, once I finished eating. When, the guys girlfriend had to tap him on the shoulder and tell him to leave me be, I knew, there was anger issues there. But it shouldn’t have been that way.

As America goes forward we are now, wrapped in anger, discontent, worry, and in the end many are poor, abused and misused. many are now working two or three jobs to survive, Prices are soaring and they have less time to enjoy themselves. So, it is work, work, work, I am out to release some pressure and stress and tension, and because it is all recessed inside them, it erupts on society and spills over. We have a Presidnet who is lost in his own world, has no care about his country really, he just wants to be remembered. he is destroying, America from within. Medicare under attack, Medicaid under attack, Social Security under attack. Tariffs flying around left and right for no good reason, and in the end where is all that money going and being used for? Do we know?

Look the homelessness grows, home prices soar, car prices soar, food is up and so is necessities. When will it come down again, where are the jobs trump promised, where? What once costs 100.00 grand for a home now has tripled in price. Utility bills climb, cost of living has climbed, even vacines are attacked and they saved so many lives. What is happening folks, and how do we turn America around and go, enough, it’s time tos top the madness, the anger, and work together once more! The only question for me is when will it be, and will it be fast enough for me to see it in my lifetime?