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Reflecting on Life as 2025 Approaches


I think everyone, gets to a point in life, where we stop and reflect on our life, and try to decide where or what to do next, if of course we are healthy enough to.

As 2024 is getting closer to it’s end and the new year shall begin, I do the same I do each year. I examine where I have been, what I have done and try to decide if I did right or wrong in certain cases. The idea is to not make any mistakes or problems in my future. I have taken to not reacting harshly to much these days, and the only thing that ever got me angry, was when a guy tried to take advantage of my wife who passed in 2021. So, unless, someone attacks the ones I call family I do not get mad. I will walk away before I will fight over stupidity.

As I look back at 2024, I find I did things as usual for me. I just go to my Doctors when needed, walk when I can, build puzzles and read. I also walk when I can depending on weather of course. I do participate in playing pool on Monday evening, and Mexican Train Dominos on Wednesday evening. I was doing Friday Afternoon Mexican train Dominos, but I won’t anymore for personal reasons.

Del Webb Chauncy Lake as a community, will be expanding soon enough over time, to a compound, of 14 buildings, 50 condos per. When you figure it out it’s 700 condos. That leaves us as one person said, a large part of Westbourgh’s, Mass. tax base. Hopefully we can maintain some kind of involvement with the town, so we have our say. We have the ability and the people to do it, if we keep abreast of all happening.

As 2025, is now not far off, I see myself, as doing what I think is right for me. I shall maintain what I have of course. As to what to do, well, I try to avoid large crowds, and I know I am not Mr. Popular anyway. Never was Mr. Handsome, or Mr. Personality, and I avoid confrontations and arguing. I find that people do not like me, most of the time. My sense of humor some say is strange, sometimes I speak too fast or soon. I do try to get along with everyone I can, but there will always be some, it doesn’t work with. Thus the avoidance factor I brought up earlier. Get angry around me or upset, I feel it is my fault I leave and won’t bother again. I am old now, so I am set in my ways, in situations, of course.

Someone accuses me of something suddenly, bye. Some judge me wrong, some think I am rude or crude. But, my humor is hard to take at times, and misunderstood. Some I poke fun at, or joke with, it is all a game is all. I have come along way from my childhood of attention deficit disorder and hyperactivity. I lived with those in my childhood years and at times they get me today at 68 going on 69.

The more I stay alone, and away from people the better it is for me, I think so I isolate and stay home. It’s a crazy idea but it works, can’t see me, can’t say I did something, lol. when you get to my age, you know damn well when someone doesn’t like you, and you do avoid.

All of the above just means not many changes will happen to or for me. I don’t attend every event planned here, nor do I plan any. I try to stay away, for these are open events paid for by those who attend them. And I am far from socially as adept as many others here. Never was a social animal, have always been one to stay away and alone and watch from a distance. I think, I never had the right social skills as a kid and as an adult. Yet I survived two marriages, and the service. Not bad. As 2025 comes in, I plan on trying to open up some, but I know, it won’t be easy. It is like I told some people I just talked to about a club, I haven’t talked in front of people in a long time. I tend to avoid women. Most men here, have no problem with women, me well, what can I say. I don’t trust many people that’s for sure, never did. I still have the Navy in me in many ways also, once a sailor always a sailor they say. I don’t drink really, I am not a party person for sure. So, as I go forward, I am going to do what I have for a while since moving here. One day at a time, avoid confrontations and arguments, avoid those who don’t like me. As I told one person, I only come out of my condo for certain things these days. 1) Doctors, 2) grocery shopping 3) Billard’s on Monday evenings, Mexican Train Dominos on Wednesday evening. I walk, I mind my own business, and I try to treat all with the same respect I want for myself. That is how my New Year shall be, it’s like a resolution by me. Time will tell. Some say, volunteer for something to do, so I have. Some say go to church, I am non-religious so that’s out. if I walked into a church it would probably fall on my head. So, the town of Westborough, is like the small town I live in my my teens. All we had were bars, taverns, banks and churches. I am old and I get bored at times, I feel the loneliness of course, but, struggle through like others I had met. It’s a process is all and we live through it all, don’t we?

Final Blog, MacAttack56


Ok, my subscription to Word Press.com is coming down to it’s end soon. So I want to say, blogging has been a pleasure for me, and I have covered many subjects over the years I have done so. It has helped me through some sad times, some depressing times, some time of writing of stories and books and poems. Through the times of ups and downs, attempts to recover some things of my past, healing some hurts and pains and even creating others. Blogging to me has been a blessing in many ways and I am happy and proud of what I have said or done with it.

Times are changing and I am getting older now and each day brings me closer to the elderly ages of many in America and the world and makes me think twice about continuing in it. The energy level is not the same for me, since my wife passed in 2021. I miss her and he input as well as her caring and loving feelings, she gave me and her encouragement for it all. The Period from March 2021 to her passing on August 1oth 2021, wa sthe roughest period I have faced in my life and yes I miss her dearly and always will till the day I join her.

Blogging has helped me to find my daughters, to know them some and to feel like I told them the full truth and I hope they understand it now. That said, I still get depressed about all the years I missed of their growing up, and the time I wanted to spend with them and the things and moments I missed with them. I wish I could have spent more time with them both, their spouses and of course, my grandchildren. Yet, I am not rich, nor am I able to overcome the fact to travel the over 500 miles to see all of them when I wish or they wish me to. Life, my friends and family is a journey, through which we must pass alone, and make the best of we can, and I have tried. I have laughed, I have cried, I have been up and been down, I have seen highs and lows of which few have experienced. I have seen the world in my days in the services of America from Connecticut, to New York, to New Mexico, to all over the world with the Navy. I accomplished things I never thought I would, my life was filled with 2 marriages, 2 daughters, numerous homes and more.

I have commented on numerous things, of political nature, of news, of life, love and beliefs I have had. I have commented on friends, events, views of where I lived, and even my wife and her fight with cancer and my own. The hardest part of my life has been the years from 2006 to 2021. I stood by, assisted, helped and took care of my second wife, Melinda for those years in all ways I could. While in the middle 2013, I suffered my own bout of cancer and lost a lobe and a third of my right lung and survived it. And continued on taking care of my Melinda, until her passing in August of 2021.

I thank my sister, who helped me through all of it, for without her I would have been lost and frozen in time God Bless her for being there for me, and supporting me in all the ways she has. There is nothing better in life than, to have a sibling who is close to you all the time. A sister rs a blessing, I hope all, can have in life.

As. this is my final blog, more than likely, because, I basically can’t see how I can stay at it, at 68 years old, I want to say one thing to all who ever read my blogs, Thank You for doing so! We may not have agreed on many subjects or ideas I blogged about, but, I thank all who read them. We may not agree on politics or what we believe about some politicians or laws, or things that happened in the world, but at least, I was able to voice them by blogging so thank you WordPress.com also.

In closing let me say this, it has been an adventure and a honor to be able to blog to the world, and to have a small part of it hear my voice and what I believed in and more. Thank you to ALL !!! I did write many poems, that are out there now in the ether of the internet, on Amazon.com, small stories and books, I never claimed to be a real writer, I did them with encouragement of my now deceased wife, at her asking me to. They will remain out there for who ever reads them or likes them or even those who don’t. I tried only because of my deceased wife wo said, I had stories to tell, and I should tell them.

Be well all, and as time marches on, I hope, you all, stay healthy, happy, get wealthy and live a life you love ! God Bless !

My Religious Thoughts/ My Beliefs


      I received a comment today on a piece I wrote about Jesus and The Bible, claiming I only skirted the issue and know very little about religion or Jesus Christ. I never said I was an authority on this subject, just that I was expressing my views on it and why I chose not to be dedicated to it or attend church on a weekly basis or even holidays of the church. I find it interesting that a reader would send a comment such as the one, I got. It means to me, that someone was reading and it hit a sore spot in their beliefs and they decided to comment. Good for you!

       As I said before and I shall say again, religion is a choice, some choose to follow and dedicate themselves to and others do not. Religion to me is not the full commitment to a church or a certain religion, it is an internal belief you carry with you daily in your heart, mind and soul. ,yet you do not need a Paster, a Preacher, a Priest to tell you to believe, or to give penance or how to pray. Nor do you have to pay for a religion to build a church, please read your own Bibles if you think I am wrong, one of the first things it does say is, God sees and hears all, no matter where you are!

      Jesus is a figure in time, who was made into a Savior by the Disciples surrounding him and believing in the way he lived and wanted to live. Yet research will show you the man in mortal form had his own faults just like me and you. His story resounds the way it does, because of the portrayal put into pictures and words, not because it is the truth. If you create a church and want a pack of people to follow you, you must have a strong symbol they can worship and believe in.

        The Bible itself, with each chapter and verse is a long tale of creation, exodus, and saving. Each chapter or book is written by a different man, a human being, the imperfections of it can be found if you study it closely. Now I can not say if the events, people or places and times are correct, but I can say this, as a writer and story-teller it is easy to see how the story could be handed down generation to generation to get it completed and accepted by churches world-wide.  Ever wonder how or why we have two versions alone just in the Christian Faith, never mind what the Muslims have and believe, or the Hindus, or the Jews. Why is that so, and where did they all come from? So many stories are written on Jesus, and the times of his life. The stories alone of the creation of the world and the powers it took to create it, well, you can see what I am getting to.

       To the person or persons who made their comment on what I wrote I give you this as my answer, I lived the Catholic Faith from birth to the age of 12 years old. I was baptised, I made my Communion, and Confirmation and went to Sunday School and read my bible many times over. Religion is still a choice, not a forced item in world and American culture. We choose what we believe because it is indeed a constitutional right in America. I tire of people who believe and then force their religion on others or attempt to do so, it is wrong. So please don’t come in my direction telling me I don’t understand religion, Jesus or the Bible, because I do very well. Step back yourself and question your own beliefs and make sure you are right enough to believe them yourself, before you try to force them on another.

       The Catholic Church and many other Religions do not allow women Priest or Paster and that in and of itself is wrong also in my book. Mother Mary could have preached and I believe had her own book for the bible which the Catholic Church disallowed in theirs. Sadly, the simple act of not allowing female Priests or Preachers is wrong, for God Created all Men Equal and that includes women.

         Yes I know there are many different Religions, many different beliefs, all I ask is a right to choose what I want to believe in and not be forced to believe in something I don’t. I also reserve and protect my freedom of speech, whether in the verbal sense or written sense thank you. I shall write, talk and live free, in the Land of The Free !.

      One more note before I end, The Churches of the WOrld are hypocrital, in many ways, and childrena nd young adults have been molested and sexually abused by Priests, Preacher and more world over. They take the one with the accussations against them and swap them from one church to anothe rto hide them, but it doesn’t stop the abuse and molestations.  So if the Chjurch no matter what Religion, does not allow female Priests or Preachers, does not stop the sexual abuse and molestations of children and young adults that happens daily, why should i go to a hypocrital organization totpractice my faith or beliefs when I don’t believe in what it is doing itself.