Ok, March has arrived, and the year is moving forward whether we will as people or not. As to saying anymore about finding a companion or partner in Westborough, it seems to me, there is no sense in doing it anymore. People on the Westborough sites on Facebook, dislike me doing so, so out of respect for their web pages and wishes I won’t go there again.

As to me personally, I have at least my health, a place to live, a roof over my head and food to eat. I have transportation when needed and medical and dental care as needed so I am blessed. Unlike many who are homeless, or without care, I am healthy enough to take care of myself, thank god.

Being a disbabled veteran, who served for 16 years in three branches, I live with certain conditions. I have suffered from Attention Deficet Disorder and Hyper-Activity all my life. Yet I overcame it and carried on and survived. I have PTSD-Post Trumatic Stress Disorder from childhood and military life, yet I have found myself able to carryon and help others when I can. As long as my back injury of six herniated discs from my service time does not lock up with arthritis, or in pain, I will keep going. To see me, no one would think, I am disabled, yet I am. You learn how to deal with injuries and health problems as you age, and overcome the best you can as well as deal with it all.

I have dealt with the deaths of family members due to cancer, from my grandfather, to my father, mother and step-father, and my wife of 28 years. At times finding the loses hard to accept, I stumble along and try hard not to surrender, I have survived lung cancer myself in 2013, while caring for my wife as she was dying. It’s a lot to deal with yes and I sometimes repeat myself, but, I shall not surrender, I am here and alive, live and be peaceful, I say.

Some believe in churches, some believe in faith and some believe in destiny. I believe in something few will understand, I think. What shall be will be of course, and destiny and faith guide us all. I have a belief of being put here on earth for a mission. You see, we are all put here on this planet for a reason, a mission we do not understand, that we really don’t fully understand. But, once we complete that said mission, we get recalled to where we have come from. Thats what I call the mystery of life, we have no idea what we are really put here to do. Nor do we know what act or action, will be our final curtain so to say. So in the end, keep going, try to enjoy each day, each moment, each interaction.

Long ago and far in my past as a child, I used to study mother nature in the woods of my birth town. I would climb trees, catch bees, frogs, turtles, watch birds and other animals. I think many of us grew up that way, in my generation. Playing outdoors was the way to be back then and all of us did it. Be home by suppertime and when the lights go on you better be home. We had bikes, balls, and games we played from One, Two, Three red Light, to Hide and Seek and more, that we invented. Neighborhood baseball games, football games were daily experiences. That was life growing up !

I noticed as I did, the insects in the world also. Ants are a interesting comparrision to humanity in a way and if you look close enough and stop to think of it, live almost the same as we. They scurry on the planet to build homes and communities to survive and all work in one ant family to survive together and multiply. Always scurrying busily along with little regard for other creatures, but their own. When I stop to think of this, I end up thinking how their communities, their way of living and their short span of life, conicides with and equals humanities in many ways. We scurry, we work like they do, we build communities like they do and we reside on this planet like they do. The comparrison in my mind leads me to question something else, are we as humanity like the ants below our feet and is each planet out there that has life , doing the same we are doing ? Do we know enough about the universe and life, to know what it is really all about ? It does lead to wondering doesn’t it?

Yes we are limited in all we do, although some have greater physical abilities or greater mental abilities, we are all human and have our problems and difficulties in life. Some physical, some emotional, and some mentally. Yet, mankind adapts to our surroundings to the point we can and works to change the enviroment we live in to prolong our existance on earth. We have a problem as I see it though, the resources of the planet we live upon are slowly being used up, and at a greater pace than we can afford. we burn and use the planet and it’s resources daily, oil, gas, water, food. Will we be able to replace and replenish any of it, to keep us going, or shall mankind ultimately, cease to exist, because we didn’t work hard enough to replenish and replace what we need to survive ? So many questions abound, when I stop to think of it all, but, the answers my friends, is blowing in the wind, as Stevie Wonder, sang !