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The Westborough Dilemia for me!


 Hello January 4th 2023. As usual my morninga nd day started at 6 am, always up early it seems, must be aleftover from my service days. Ha dmy two coffees and took my meds, now I chat some and try to decide what to do for my day and with it.

  Each day is a new beggining and away we go 2024. Now the question is how to make it better for me, each day as i go. Finding new things to do or go or to meet people can be rough on someone my age, I am 67 soon to be 68. At some point I have to get out more and meet new people, but where and how I have yet to figure out here in Westboro, Mass.

 Westborough, Mass. is a quaint town, and a quiet one for sure. While I appreciate the fact it has so many banks and bars, and lots of money in it, it, still lacks places for people my age to have fun and meet others. The Senior Center is ok, but, slow always, many avoid it I believe unless i am stopping there on the wrong days or something, lol.

  I went to BJ’s in Northboro, to get a membership one day, and ended up flirting with two ladies there lol. Of course nothing happened except smiles and laughs but at least it was fun. I looked around a bit in there, big place lots there, so I will probally go back if for nothing else except gas or frozen food.

 I go to Solomon Mall to walk a lot, which is fun just to watch people go by and get some exercise, especially now in the winter months. I may walk it two or three times a week. I window shop and may stopandhave lunch in the food court there. Of course finding a woman to talk to or get to know there is a case that is slim to none, there days. The malls are not packed and most women stay to themselves anyway, they, are scared of talking to people they don’t know. So, I basically watch the crowds and people go by and stay by myself. I have learned, the women of Massachuestts are very careful and are scared or have anxieties and fears regarding men. Why, I do not know, but, there seems to me, that the women here, are putoffish and stuck-up, or something.

 I shall do my thing as normal of course iwalk here in my condo complex of the mall. I shop at SHop and Stop, and Walmart and Target. I used to bowl but, again that died out due to lack of interest of those in my complex. Then I play billards once a week on monday evenings, for fun and chat to people there and laugh and joke. reading I do, puzzle building I do and of course watching tv and such at home. Every now and then if I see a movie I really want to see I may go to a theather, to see it. I am not rich, so, I don’t try to spend a lot.

  So at times I feel like one of the characters in that old movie, Grumpy Old Men lol. Which one I am I don’t know for sure, there was Jack Lemon and Walter Matheu lol. Same old routine daily, putter around, say hello to folks ya know and just carry on. I can wish it was different for me, but, I can’t make it so, so far. I moved here in 2022, and I am lost and have no idea what to do or where to go for fun.

 Dating apps as I said before cost too much and again what I find is the women there don’t want a partner or boyfriend or man in their lives, except as a wallet for their wishes. Men get taken on those apps, the cost of the app, the paying of dinners for the women and it seems to me, the women have their own fears and anxieties there too, so they are always guarded and withdrawn or scared. Society it seems is now all digital , one on ones people fear and that goes for both sexes. Sadly, the loneliness syndrome is real in America, and the reasons are just what I am talking about. How to change it, is still a question that is ongoing, now-a-days.

 The News is never good from politics to crimes, very few good reports on anything anymore. Americans are growing tired of it all, and in the end, they ignore and do their own thing and wala, weend upwith the Trump fiasco, and a mess. Is there a way out of it all, we shall see as we enter the election year of 2024. I do know this, if Trump is found to be immune whilePresident and can’t be prosecuted or charged as he is now, then I pray for the fate of America, for that will mean all President’s can do what they please while in office without any consequences at all. Imagine then, what President’s could get away with while in office. I won’t take sides here, but my opinion is well known, in my blogs.

 I did the tour of the bars in the area, Neighborhood Tavern, Red Heat Tavern, JP’s and Central House. All have decent food and drink, and thats all I know of them really. Not a big drinker or a regular at any of them. They added the new Brewery Cold Harbor in town too, I hear it was great when it started but went downhill fast, due to lack of service, not enough employees I believe, only went and looked around once an dleft havent been back there yet.

 Anyway, 2024 has begun, I am gonna try to stay positive, hopefull and keep smiling as I go along and hope is all. 2024 has to be better than 2023, for all of us. Keep smiling, keep laughing and I will try to enjoy life as I do. Good Day to All!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My Thoughts,On The Holiday Season !


The last Christmas, I had with my wife, I took her to her daughters and sat in the background as she talked, and chatted with her ex-husband’s widow and her own daughter and her grandkids. I sat in the livingroom on the couch, and played video games on my cell phone is all. The same took place when we went to her sister’s across the state from where we lived in Connecticut, for the 28 years I was with her. On Christmas Eve I would go to my sisters and exchange presents with her and her man. Watch a movie and pack it in and go home. So Holidays to me, never were fun and never will be, but, since she passed in 2021, I find it hard to celebrate at all.

 It has now been 28 months since she passed from cancer and I hospiced her. I worked overtime, selling all I owned when she passed, and sold the home we had also. I moved north to Massachusetts, and bought a condo up here. I thought it wasa good iswa because i would be closer to my sister. Yet, that changed fast, once she found a new man in her life and moved away. I have been alone now for a pretty good amount of time, no one to really talk to, or be with, just me. I play billards oncea week with some people here at the condos I live in on Monday evenings. Other than that, I am alone, and walk, or read, build puzzles and watch television or movies as I go. I walk a mall near me some days, just to get out of my condo for a while. I shop for food as needed and go to doctors or dentists is all, otherwise. Meeting someone is not apossibility for me, as far as romance goes, because i do not like bars or taverns, so I stay home. At 67 going on 68 I have no plans to join a gym either. So at times, I wonder what I can do, to keep going, day, by day. As I see it, I would go stir crazy if it were not for the NFL, NBA, on tv, or the Billards Club on Monday evenings once a week.

 I don’t do resturants on my own, some people do, but, alone is uncomfortable for me. I tried doing breakfast alone this past week and ended up eating, alone and basically coming home. I find the people in Westborough, Mass here, very cold toward people my age. Ageism in modern america is a large factor, but, it seems even more so here. I am not sure, anyway, if I am able to handle it, if i did meet someone. I shy away and avoid talking to most, I am very aware of my age, and know most women are married and taken, in my age group. Finding a woman in my age range is impossible here in Westborough, Mass. all are younger or married it seems, or I have no idea where to find any to meet and talk to. I am lost in attempting it. When you were married for 28 years, you get set in your ways, and the whole dating scene has changed to, dating sites anyway. It’s a different world out there for sure. Dating sites cost money and most don’t work anyway, women are scarred in todays society and personally, I am too.

 So my Christmas will be one alone, at home, reading, watching tv, walking, building a puzzle and playing either video games or writing blogs like this one. New Year’s wil be the same too, there are going to be events at the clubhouse here where i live in my condos, but I do not attend them, for I feel out of place and strange when I do. It’s very uncomfortable for me, so I stay home alone. I am very aware of my age, my lack of looks and that many don’t like me here. So, I am better off alone. Whether i can keep going alone is the only question I face, and for how long I can last. There are times when I get depressed feel alone, and down, and think about what to do, I have even thought of ending it and joining my wife. Yet at the moments and times those thoughts hit me, I seem to be able to pass through it and survive. I know I am facing the hardest part of the year for me, right now, these Holidays. The hardest time is now upon me the final days of 2023 and New Years Day. I have to mak eit through alone now, and it will bea struggle. I will keep day by day, thinking one thing, survive.