Heaven Someday

William M. McCurrach

September 13, 2025

Life goes on day, by day,

We live it all,

Is what I say!

As we age we come to realize,

There are less, and less things,

That come as a surprise!

The years fly by,

There are laughs and tears,

The surprise is the passing of the years!

How fast they fly by,

The things we haven’t done,

Without knowing why?

As my life runs down,

There are fewer people around,

The deafening roar of silence,

Engulfs me once more.

I have my memories of fun times,

I have my memories of loves,

Yet, I hope, and pray,

There is a place in heaven for me someday.

Up above!

Don’t Lose your Mind!

September 11th, 2025

William M. McCurrach

In a world of anger,

A world of doubt,

Some of need to step back,

Take our time, and figure it out!

Too much violence,

Too much fear,

Too much pain,

For all of us,

To bear!

We feel the pain,

We feel the loses,

We wonder at the politicans,

Their plans,

and The Bosses.

But, we know the world will go on,

But at no time,

Will we surrender,

For we know, we must go on!

The World will change, and we can help it,

If we just wake up,

Pay attention,

And Stop the bullshit!

We can disagree if we wish,

We can argue if we wish.

We can discuss all of it.

But in the end the violence,

Is not the Answer to it!

It only excubates it you see,

Makes it worse for you and for me!

Lets tone it down,

Let be mature and logical,

Lets be repectful and kind,

Otherwise, we all will lose our mind!

Starting Anew

September 10,2025

William M. McCurrach

The magic of the days I knew in my past,

Come back to me sometimes in a flash.

I see the warm summer nights, the fall days of color,

The cold days of snuggling and cuddling,

Holding one another.

The days in the parks, playing simple games,

Where we would scream and laugh,

And call each other’s names.

The simple things we did to find someone,

Seems those simple days,

Have come and gone.

Or the nights in my teens, when I would dream,

Of someone who I held in my heart,

But didn’t tell.

Because I felt we would not work out,

Or we would part, not well.

The look across a crowded room.

when your eyes met mine,

and the feelings did bloom.

Ah those days when I said lets dance,

Yes I asked and took that chance,

Little did I know it would lead,

To A long Time romance for you and me.

Is it possible to do twice in one lifetime,

It’s a question that lingers,

In My Mind.

Is it possible today in a world so angry and mad,

To find a simple lover or lover,

That will make me happy not sad?

Someone who can laugh at themself,

Someone who likes people and everyone else,

Someone who is looking like I am,

For that one connection, between a woman and man.

I wonder in today’s world,

For I am older now and I am not a boy and you are not a girl.

We have lived our lives, and been either divorced or a widower once, or twice.

The hardest part of growing old,

Is finding the energy and guts to be bold,

The boldness needed to make an approach,

Without, anyone being your coach.

I miss having a companion you see,

For she used to complete me.

If I was indecisive, she would push,

If i was too bold,

She would pull me back.

So many things she did, I doubt,

I can ever get back.

But one thing I can say,

The memories remain,

They stay in ones mind, and heart,

All the same.

We may not be able to find the same once again,

But we can start anew,

And we all deserve to do it, too!

As I age, I am finding things that I didn’t know could affect me. First is how I eat and what I eat. Diet and how much is important. I find I need more fruits and veggies as I age and less junk food. I also am finding what I eat affects my energy levels and how I feel each day.

Exercise is another thing. If I walk some, I feel better. Stretching my legs and keeping moving helps. If I tend to stop and lay around I feel worse. S0, movement is vital as I age. To help on this point I took up bowling normally twice a week now one day in a Senior League and the other with some friends, I made, where I live. Yet in the end, it helps, but, still I find there are some other things, I need to do, to keep going, as I age.

Reading is vital, whether for education purposes or for entertainment and pleasure. The mind is a terrible thing to waste was an old saying I heard long ago as a child. I still believe in that one folks. The more you know, the more you can protect yourself and advance yourself and your pleasures. Seems, to me all need to remember these things as we age, for when we fall off the cliff, so to say on any of the above, we tend to slowly go downhill in the life we live so to say. Our way of life and how we live it effects us in all ways. If we slow or do not engage mind and body, we lose the functions at times, and we begin to deteriotate as we go along.

I face the above possibilities, greater than most, being a Disabled Veteran. I suffer from back injuries of 6 herniated discs in my spine, PTSD also in two forms from childhood and service. How do I overcome, well I push through pain, or mental anguish, and look for a horizon of blue skies and smiles and laughter. We can’t always find such blue skies and laughter, so we must at times create them on our own to keep going. I am now 69 years old and live in a 55 plus community and I have seen others, older than me, who are happier than I, for sure. I just want to live my senior years I have left being engaged, participating in life and laughter if I can. As I told my mother when I was a child, when I do die, I hope it will be with a smile and some laughter on my lips.

The next problem with aging is a simple one folks. It is the loneliness factor many of us feel as we get older. We tend to isolate more, engage less and find ourselves spending more time alone than ever before in our lives. We read more, we do things like walking alone, we build puzzles and try to entertain ourselves more. We also as we age, tend to avoid others, who tell us to shut up, or calm down, or stop laughing. we avoid those who don’t like us for whatever reason, or who we dislike due to their actions or words. Now I know many say, I am wrong for doing so and I should just let these comments roll off my back and just keep going instead. But, for me, like I think, many others, if I can’t be me, and laugh, talk and enjoy, I am not staying in that crowd. I don’t care about the reason someone says for me to shut up, calm down, or don’t laugh, I just know, if I can’t do these things, I feel out of sorts and like I am not wanted in said groups.

I have said this before to others and I shall say it here and now, I am me, who else can I be? We are the accumilation of our experiences in life. Each of us react the way we do, due to what we have lived through. We enter each situation with the prior experiences we have and what worked for us in each situation. we reach back mentally and emotionally, look at the present and react accordingly to the current place we find ourselves in, we protect ourselves in this way and that my friends is just a fact of human nature.

Under today’s society in America and our current culture, men and women, are very careful, parinoid and cautious. We do not want to be abused, taken avantage of as we age. Nor do we wish to be taken for the money we earned or as fools. Add in the current anger in the political climate, and in this country, that is currently festering and wham, we have a mess to live through and we do the best we can. Also as we age, if you are divorced, or widowed, you tend to compare who you meet, to whom you had prior in your life, as your partner, wife or husband. When they don’t live up to those standards, styles or ways, you tend to walk away, going not for me. So, in the end ladies and gents, we end up alone, because we are unwilling to accept people who are different. So life tends to get lonelier as you age. It’s a fact, especially if you are a widow or widower. You spent many years with the person you lost, it was comfortable, it was loving. So, you tend to seek someone that is as close to what you had before. And as I can tell you, no two people are the same, so it it like Tom Cruise’s Mission Impossible! These are just my thoughts and ideas and beliefs on May 9th, 2025. I wish all the best, i always do.