Childhood Traumas/PTSD Adulthood


      Childhood traumas are not things we wish upon ourselves, nor do we elect to have the parents that cause them. We do suffer the problems from them , throughout our lives, plain and simple and we never escape what is imprinted on our mental patterns and minds. We are what we are taught is what they say, the matter of fact is we are actually souls within the vessels of a human body and whatever mental and physical abuse and a pain we suffer as children is carried through into our adulthood days.

       I know from personal experiences and from my own life, that mental and physical abuse on a child stays with a person all their life, I lived it. You live in fear, and run from pain and mental anguish as much as you can, I know I am a running man. I never slowed down in my life to smell the roses, cause the thorns that caused the pain and anguish that drive me, left so many scars and so much damage.

        I was not born a lucky son like my older brother or a wanted one like my youngest brother, nor was I born a female for special treatment. I was my mothers second son who was as she called me the problem child. The one child she couldn’t control or understand is what she said. The child who did so many things wrong by her standards, that I was labeled an emotionally disturbed child and put away in an institution for two years. But why was that so, oh she knew just as her husband knew, they told others they didn’t but they did. You don’t slap your child around, and pull them from bed and beat them in the middle of the night and expect them to be normal do you? Face the facts, what parents pull their children from bed each night and beat them then go to bed themselves as their children cry to sleep? . What mother tells a child their father is a piece of shit, grease monkey and hides the facts when they ask about it all?. What child has the bottom of their feet burned on a stove top for taking cookies, or gets thrown down stairs because a parent believes they stole something they didn’t? Are these normal actions in a normal family and household, no. So, you run and survive as soon as you can, you reach an age if your lucky enough and you run as hard and fast and far as you can. Thats called surviving and making life work for yourself. You find a surrogate family and a surrogate parent or two to help you through. Still you know you will never be normal no matter what.

       Me I ran and ran, starting at a young age, trying to escape the pain, the torture, the family that didn’t want me. Running released me from the mental and physical torture I lived through and gave me a place to hide. I ran everywhere in my younger days, hoping never to be caught by what chased me, bad dreams, nightmares, pain, anger, beatings, and I survived. We all have a way of surviving, each of us is different. Some children escape into music, some into sports, some into science or reading and make-believe worlds and writing.Many are not lucky enough to escape these bad family lives and end up suicides, in mental institutions, or in jails and prisons because they can’t control themselves and act out. All of it is actual and does happen, sadly it is a fact of life in the world.

       Children do not stand in line to be brought into this world folks.They are not in a line awaiting a descent to earth from heaven and praying they get a fine family, they don’t ask to be here. Children don’t control what color or race or nationality they are, who their parents are, where they will live once born or what atmosphere they will grow up in, but they are all affected by all of this. And whether parents and Doctors realize it, it is true, children are at the mercy of the people who have them.

        Parents need to remember if you have no parenting instinct, don’t have children. If you have no patience, understanding, don’t have children. If you do you will destroy them mentally and physically I am sure. Too many children grow up now a days, to be damaged adults. Some control it and live as close to normal lives as possible and no one notices the differences. Others are so physically and mentally damaged, and abused in so many ways, including sexual abuse, they can’t cope no more and end up in places they don’t really belong,

        I do not want to carry on this forever nor hurt anyone in any way. I just want to say, abuse to a child happens every few seconds of every day in America and the world. Don’t you think humankind should awaken to this problem and help the ones being hurt the worse? I do, children need nurturing, love, protection and caring, not beatings, mental put downs, abuse and sexually assaulted. Wake up world, wake up and realize these children are indeed the future of the planet and the human race. Lets not damage them, and make it bad, lets nurture and love them and make it right. Remember the childhood trauma you put upon your children, are the PTSD years of pain and nightmares they will live through later.

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