November is rolling along now, Today is the 11th, Thanksgiving and other Holidays will be coming up, and I will do what I have always done in the past, stay home. Even when my wife was alive, we only went to her daughters because she wanted to, and I would sit alone an dmind my own in the background. I do not like holidays, and i am not a social animal or person. been that wya, since i wasa kid, never got into family gatherings or parties.
As the Holidays begin soon enough, I shall do what I do daily, walk, builda puzzle read, chat online and read. I watch NFL games and the Celtics play when they are on for entertainment. I do have Max, NetFlix and prime for movies if i want and UtubeTV. I watch the news and some shows is all. I cook if I get bored, thats all.
I miss my wife, and the life i had when she was alive and well enough to do things with. I spent 28 years with her, so I am set in my ways of course. The last 16 years, I spent with her, taking her where she wished to go on holidays, her daughters, her sisters, and I sat in the background and played on my cell phone. I never got involved with anyone period, I did chat with folks of course but, that was it, to be polite.
I am a loner by nature, always was and always will be. I know some are trying to draw me out, get me involved in the 55 plus community I live in now, and I just don’t go there really. I don’t want to be judged, looked at, or told I am doing something I shouldn’t or didn’t do. On top of it, living in a 55 plus community is not as much fun as i was told it would be, before i moved here. People tend to judge others pretty quickly living in such a community, and they talk a lot. I talk to very few here, I say hello, goodbye and hold short conversations, usually to be polite or to straighten out misconceptions about me, or things I know about that happen here. Other wise I walk, read, build my puzzles, chat online a bit when able and once a week I play billards at the Clubhouse. I may go walk the mall, for exercise of just to get out now and then. As time rolls on, I just go day by day is all. Life is not a bowl of roses, but, it is not a brair patch either. I go to Doctors as required or needed and dentist for work to be done. I shop at Stop and Shop and Walmart basically and maybe ya may find me in the bookstore around the corner. Thats my life now a days.
I do write blogs like this or on politics or ederly living or on the loneliness syndrome in America and in Massachuetts here. Although I live in a 55 plus community in Westborough, Mass. I know there is no relationship possibilities here for me. So I don’t attempt to get involved with anyone here, except to say hello or goodbye really. Someone brought that up once and my reply was a simple one, you don’t datre people who live in the same complex as you. If you do, if something goes wrong, it is always the man who will get blamed and if that happens you may as well sell your condo an dmove else where. It’s just a fact of life folks.
I do blog on politics, and the curerct state of affairs regarding Donald J. Trump, Joe Biden and the economy, and more. They are opinions and my feelings and beliefs is all, and I do not argue when others defend a certain view or not, I state mine and shut up. I don’t want to get into a physical confrontation or even a verbal one, it’s not what I am interested in at all, I avoid it. I am not akid in my teens or 20’s anymore and I am not and never have been rowdy or mean, I am just honest and I speak my mind and move on. I have not defended anyone on any point here where i live, because people than say you are taking sides or defending someone you shouldn’t. Not my place folks, have fun ok.
Yes it is a lonely life, no I am not happy about it, but I deal with what I have been dealt and I do ok. How long shallI be around and be alive I do not know, none of us do. The truth is we are brought into life, and know not the reason why. but we are here. We do day by day the things we believe we must, and i havea firm belief that we are put upon this earth to complete missions we really have no idea of. We do not set our destiny, we do not know who we may run into or why, nor do we know exactly who we should affect or not affect. destiny, faith, belief, cause and effect or something we do not know, leads us to where we must go to complete the missions we are here on the earth to do. My belief is when we complete the missions we are set here for, we are recalled back to from which we came. If that is heaven fine, if it is another plane of existance it is fine too. No one knows for sure, where we come from andno one has been able to tell us, where we go when finished, it just happens. Thats the way I see it folks.
My purpose is one day ata time, one encouter at a time, one conversaqtion at a time, each interaction is not practiced or planned, but they do have purpose in life and how I live. I don’t change fate, or destiny, nor do I control them, but I do live through it all and do the best I can. I think that is how we all react to what happens around us, to us and to others we know. Again just my beliefs, my opinions and how I feel in general. I hope, when my missions are fullfilled and I pass, I get to see the ones I loved who passed before me, is all. If I do I shall be happy, if I don’t I can’t control that. God Bless is all I can say.
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