I have come to accept life as it is these days for me. I live alone and venture out only for specific reasons so to say. I walk if I can and when the weather permits and I am capable, I play billards once a week for fun and now play Mexican Train Dominos once a week also. I am not a social butterfly so to say, and I do not hang out at the pool here where I live. I read, I write some, I basically stay alone.

I can not complain really, for I had it all twice over in my life, two marriages, two wives, two children, two lives. I honestly know, we all start alone, and we strive to belong in society and fit in, to be social and to make friends. Been told many times, I am too loyal and yes I still have some friends out there, from my days as a teen. I don’t see them anymore, because I live too far away from them, and I can’t and won’t drive long distances at 68 years old.

Life is about choices, it’s also about voices folks. We listen to voices everyday of people where we live, people we get involved with, people in the news and events that happen. It is called life an dthen attempt to fit in is all. If someone tells me, I disturbed their space or event, or group, I walk away and do not get involved anymore. I am never out to disturb, or destroy anything happening or anyone. Like many others I like to talk, I like to laugh and I like to belong when I can. But, you will never find me insulting,intentionally harming or hurting a woman or a man. I have a full belief in each person being unigue in their own way and having their own opinions.

So, if you say to me, you disturb my concentration, I won;t be there anymore, you say to me I am too loud or boisterous, I won’t be there anymore, you tell me, I mistreated someone and they are upset because I shortened their name, I won’t be there anymore. If I am playing a game with you and you tell me, I am not playing by the rules and dpeople are complaining, I won’t play anymore. I avoid conflicts,I avoid arguments, and I avoid disturbing anyone in anyway I can. I would rather stay alone and be fine, then hurt, disturb or conflict with anyone.

As we age, we all get as humans, set in our ways, some of us can be mean. angry, aggressive, or passive. Some of us, can be overly vocal, and say things we should not say. Some of us will bend over backwards to fit in and destroy ourselves trying to do so. In my case I only bend so far, and only try to fit in, if it doesn’t work I will walk away and let it be.

I learned many moons ago, confrontations, fights, physical or verbal, are not worth the effort. You can’t change a persons mind, heart or attitude, it doesn’t happen. They must change that part of themselves, if they wish to fit in. Each relationship I have been in, I have always been the one to compromise, give in to make it work. And for me compromise is a process of give and take as it should be for all, yet many don’t get that. The other thing I have learned over time now and almost 7 decades is, we all get set in our ways, and don’t wish to compromise. Life goes on whether we compromise or not, that we all know for sure. It’s a matter of, do you wish to fit in, do you care, to fit in. or don’t you? Some have opted to fit in and change to do so, others will never do so. Some are happy, some are sad, some are indifferent and some are mad. As humans, we are a complicated mess as a species, we have different attitudes and emotions, and feelings, each of us. Mankind, asa whole is a mixed ball of wax so to say, when youdon’t match or fit that ball of wax, you are either expelled from it, or you walk away from it. That is life is it not?

We accumulate things as we age also. But, material things can always be replaced, what can’t be replaced is the person we are. I don’t care if you are liberal or conservative, I don’t care if you are rich or poor, I care if you decent, caring, and kind. I care if you treat others with respect. I care if your honest, and loyal.

Don’t come to me and say one thing to my face, and another behind my back. Do me a favor if you don’t like what I say, just say so. It’s better to be upfront, then trying to hide something. At least if it is known, one can walk away, if it is not known, it can fester and grow worse. So do yourself and I a favor, you don’t like me, just say so, and I will walk away period. Don’t play coy, don’t lie, don’t be angry and mad, just remember, we may agree to disagree, and walk away if need be. I hope that makes sense to everyone.

As 2024 moves along, American life is changing, it’sa process we all live with and know well. My only hope is that America will stay a Republic and a democracy, for all time. I fear we may be like many societies and dynasties before us and crumble, like The Mayans, the Aztecs, and the Romans. Each had their own time period at the top of the heap so to say, and each fell and have had to rebuild or disappeared. I hope and pray each day, that America as a society will continue on and get better, but never fall, to Communist, or Authorian ways. Choice is a big part of America, Freedom of speech is a big part of America, religious freedom is too. Other countries watch us, they imitate us, they forge their societies to try to match us, the reason is simple, no other nation, is like America in all ways. If we lose what makes us special, we shall fall. America is still and I hope will always be, the beacon on the hill so to say. And I agree completely with Ben Franklin, who said ” We shall have a republic only as long as we protect and defend it.”

I love history, especially American HIstory and always have. I will say this, the Founding Fathers of America, laid the foundation for all a America is today. All of them, believed in America, it’s people and it’s ways and all of them wanted each of us to have a voice in what we are and can become. I pray daily, America will stay the course, will adjust only as needed, our freedoms do not disappear, and we as a nation and guiding light for others, can survive and keep the promise of it all alive, forever more. these are some thoughts I have had, here in 2024, like I said above, I am now 68 years old. I was born in the 1950’s, grew up in the 1960’s and 1970’s. In my book, we were and still are the greatest generation to hit the country. We had the best of everything, the best food, the best cars and trucks and the best music ever. I said this once in a tavern, and got told I was wrong, I don’t believe that one. What most of America is missing these days is not jobs, it’s not money, it’s not material things, all of those can be replaced over time, what are we missing, well, empathy, caring, listening, the patient parts of life, are disappearing. I just hope and pray, America will be here, for forever more.

Since moving to Massachuetts in 2022 and living on my own I have noticed people, are mean, angry and rude. Now I thought many it was just me, thinking so, but, it isn’t. I know this because as I try to figure out the best way to get along here, I have heard others say it and then found articles on it online.

Now, here is one of the things I found online, not written by me, but by others- read this and you will see-Some say that people from Massachusetts are rude for a variety of reasons, but not all Massachusetts people are rude and mean:

Sports: Some say that being proud of sports teams or watching professional sports can make people irrationally angry. 

Sense of entitlement: Some say that people in Boston behave as if they are the only people in the world and lack common courtesy.

Lack of self-awareness: Others say that rudeness stems from a lack of self-awareness.

City-dwellers: City-dwellers tend to interact with more people than those in rural areas, and some say this can lead to perceptions of rudeness.

Road rage: Some say that road rage is a common rude behavior in Boston.

Cutting lines: Some say that cutting lines is a common rude behavior in Boston.

Another Person said this-I lived in MA for over 60 years. I always wondered why groups and clubs seemed a bit cliquish. It was very hard to make friends. People would pretend they like you, exchange numbers and you never hear from them unless you make the first move. In some cases I felt like I didn’t belong. Try going to a place like Whole Foods. Most of the time you’re just another customer. If you say something to someone, they ignore you.

I have been saying this for two years now about Massachuetts people and people tell me I am full of shit, the people above have live here most of their lives. Sadly, I can now say I am not alone in feeling this way. The real question is why, and how does one overcome it? Lets see, Westborough and the Bourghs around it are all family orientated, Boston is 33 miles from me, and while a nice city, it’s people are again somewhat put of fish and rude at times. Then they say go into Worcester and try that, I have seen people there too who act that way but not as much. So, do you talk to people here or don’t you? Do you avoid politics and religion or what? What subjects are safe, is it Sports, Red Sox, Celtics, and Bruins and Patriots? I find most Massachuetts people to be what they call themselves in many ways Massahole’s rude, indifferent and crass. why is it? The few I have met who are kind of friendly and will talk to you are in the hospitality field here in Massachuetts, for they know, they make their money that way. How, does one actually, make friends here, I have yet to figure that one out ? Then, they complain they can’t get dates if single, divorced or widowed. Well, Massachuett’s people, if your so set in your ways and unable to communicate with others, rude and crass, and mean, of course, no one is going to like it or you. Being kind is a way to go, but, kind and nice gets you shit upon too and taken advantage of, so what’s one to do? Tell, me people of Massachuetts, what’s the deal please !

Life goes on daily for all of us of course, but for each of us on the planet, the circumstances are different. Some of us, are doing well, some not so well, but if mankind helps out each other, the world would be a much better place.

We have many billions on the planet, living under different type sof governments and situation, and in the end, life will go on unless mankind gets stupid and kills itself off or climate change gets us first. Sadly, mankind is the only species on the planet that takes from it, depletes it and uses it up and pollutes it at the same time. Then we try to get it to provide for us, food wise and water wise, but we don’t pay attention to what we do to it in return.Pollution kills folks, it ruins our waters, it ruins our lands and it ruins our air quality also. The planet can only be saved if mankind decides at some point to stop taking, depleting and polluting it. It can not regenerate itself fast enough to provide for all of us. With climate change and rising heat, the planet also is burning up the trees that create our oxygen, so how long will we last? Ultimately, we may burn out our planet, it’s atmosphere and it’s water sooner than we think, unless we turn it around.

America is facing what I call it’s greatest challenge as a nation and democracy currently. If we fall as a nation into a communist country or an autocratic nation, we will be a like many nations that failed in the past, The Aztecs, Incas, and Romans all fell. Dynasties fell, civilizations have fallen, for the same reason America is on the verge of trouble now, divisions, false beliefs, anger and jealousy. America is a divided nation at this time, between two political parties and their candidates. The anger and confrontations in America has now led to a man trying to shoot a candidate. It’s a sad sight to see. I love America, I served her for 16 years till I was injuries and now disabled. I am proud to be an American, but, I am worried about our future now. I pray the divisions and anger can be controlled and that we can still live in a democracy and Republic in the future. The lies and angry rehetoric on both sides is far too much, it needs to cease and they can argue records and issues and truths, but lets stop the anger and lies please. tell the truth, no more lies, talk your plans for the future please.

The things people do not understand about dating, over 55 and up. First off it is important to remember your not young anymore, so, things go slower for you in all areas, including the dating world. Your older, more responsible, smarter and experienced. What ever you do, do not, push or press too hard and don’t act desperate, women and men, know desperation up front they read it well and avoid it.

Is there a large difference between men and women and what they want in a partner ? Well, in fact there isn’t too much difference really, of course there are the requirements for any relationship. 1) Open communication, do not be afraid to speak of any subject. I am not saying go off the rails on a subject, control it yes, but respond properly to it. It’s nice to have passion about a subject, but read the room sort of, if she is losing interest stop. It’s pretty obvious then she is not in to it like you are. 2) Honesty goes a long way, but don’t get brutally honest. When I say this I mean, you can tell the truth but do so in a polite way, if you disagree be real. Not mean. 3) Eye contact should not be done until you, actually talk directly to someone. If you stare from across the room, it will backfire on you. Don’t rush them, or press them, . 4) Physical signs will come up if they are interested in you. It can be a smile, it can be someone moving closer to you or laughing with you, not at you. It can be a subtle look, or touch, beware, but, anything physical will only happen if you both want it. Sex is nice and for most a need, but, don’t search just for it, it becomes obvious when you do and scares people. It should not be the primary thing you seek. 5) You want to meet someone and your lonely, don’t be writting or speaking like your desperate in anyway, do what you like, what you love, be interactive, if you are having fun, laughing and doing what you love, you will be noticed. 6) Do not be dependent on someone else, don’t be a burden or impose on anyone, be self-sufficient in all you do. Don’t expect someone else to hand you everything you want, it won’t happen, and if it does, they will hold it over you later. People have prior experiences with others prior to you, we tend to look back and compare, to avoid problems. You don’t know what she or he has been through before. We all look for signs of trouble, and sometimes it blows up. 7) Let me introduce a word few want to hear or understand here, Compromise ! Learn to compromise folks, I don’t care if your a female or male, if you can’t do compromise, no relationship will work for you with anyone. In every relationship,that works there is always one or both persons who compromise in someway. If you are not will to compromise, you are not ready for a relationship. 8) Be aware humans get jealous, they have anxieties and they get triggered in many ways. The Green eyed monster does come out, and it ruins any good relationship. 9) Trust, if you can not trust someone, don’t get in a relationship with them. Trust is vital, for you can’t be there 24/7 in anyone’s life, they work, they play, they talk to others. But, if they come home and stay, it is easier to trust them. Men flirt, but so do women, it is a two way game, but, if they come home to you everytime, your fine. Avoid the Freinds with benefits thing, because that’s just a player wanting sex for free. 10) Lastly, let me say this, you can try dating apps, you can try bars, you can go to libraries and Senior Centers and more. But, any attempt to rush into a relationship is a bed idea. Slow and steady wins the race. 11) Clean, neat appearance, hair cuts, shaves, showers, and decent clothes help. Be you yes, but don’t get outrageous. Attractive is nice and will help you. 12) Final advice for all over 55 looking to date, don’t start comparing who your with or wanting to date with an ex or a husband or wife you lost or divorced. No one can live up to the one you lost if you are widowed, a widower or divorced. Accept people as they are and you may find someone, believe me.

Yesterday, a young 20 year old Republican, took a shot or more, at Donald J. Trump the former President and current candidate for the Republican party. The man missed and nicked Trump’s ear, and Trump was covered in secret service agents and taken to a hospital. In the process one, maybe two others died and a third was injured. It is vital to remember the young man who did the shooting is dead, shot by the Secret Service agents protecting Trump, and that he was a Republican.

As the news rolls on and the reporting continues, I am sure Trump will try to use it as a badge of martyrdom of some sort, or to promote himself as a hero of the people, he isn’t folks. He is very lucky to be alive for he turned his head at just the precise second. That being said, the last Politician to be shot at in this way by a lone gunmen was Ronald Reagan. Let me say this now and let me make it clear to all Americans, Trump is no Reagan, he is a man who talks and walks anger, he lies, he will try anything in his power to avoid going to prison for all he has done.

Before Trump, we did not have all the hate and animosity we now have in the American Public domain or population. His words and lies and actions caused this, not, anyone else except the shooter. Trump has constantly lied, cheated and hurt people, to get what he wants, most of his life. The truth is if Trump had stayed in his Tower in New York instead of running for President, this country would have been better off, period. With his words and actions, Trump has riled up crowds, called forth the Oath Keepers and Proud Boys, Stormed the US Capital and destroyed it, stolen secret and top secret documents, harassed sexually women, is a 34 times convicted criminal, and facing 54 more counts across the country for election interference and more. Do not confuse this shooting and this shooter with any liberal or Democrat, he was a Republican.

Do I believe, in what the shooter did, no I don’t and I condemn such violence in America. Yet, as a citizen of America and a Disabled Veteran, I can honestly say, I saw it coming. You can’t keep spouting angry, mad, words at the world, and rilling up people and not expect this to happen. Trump’s stands on many issues are crazy and too conservative even for many of his own party. He has raised the anger level in America to a fever pitch and this is the result. In the end the shooting incident, will be replayed again and again on tv and talked about for a lifetime I am sure, but at no time is this the fault of anyone other than, Donald J. Trump and a young 20 year old man. Trump is indeed lucky he is not deceased today, the bullet missed him by less then a quarter of an inch. There will probably be others who attempt this too, in different ways, Trump has created a divided nation, rilled up people constantly and he won’t stop. Do not think, this shooting was political in nature or backed by the Democrats or Joe Biden, it wans’t. Although that will probably be the line Trump will use. It would be a false statement and accusation if he does. As we move on in the 2024 Election Process, we must remember, the anger and animosity being raised across our land, must be controlled and violent acts like this must be halted. I do not want Trump to be President again and I will never deny that fact, but, I do not approve of anyone trying to gun someone down.

The Trauma the shooting brings to America and it’s people as well as the world to see, will stain this country in the world’s eyes. It will be used by some to get ahead or push an agenda, to try to get Trump back on Office, that should not happen folks, Trump is more dangerous than the 20 year old who shot at him. Trump ust be beaten at the ballot box !

To: President Joe Biden

Mr. President, I donated to your Presidental Campaign in 2020, and so did my deceased wife, on the basis you could do the job and defeat Donald Trump and you did, God Bless You. Many Americans like myself, appreciate all you have done Sir to push forward a progressive agenda and to take care of the Veterans, Active Duty Military and more. We appreciate the fact you have kept and saved Medicare and Medicaid and Social Security also. We also approve of your efforts to turn around the economy and to handle our interactions with other countries in all ways. Sadly, as we all know Sir, there comes a time when our age, starts to affect our abilities, slows us down and making decisions difficult and you slower than is needed in the White House and Presidency. While we all agree with you that Donald J. Trump is a danger to America and the world in many ways, and we all want him defeated, the fact is you are no longer the man you once were. The Presidency ages it’s members and it can be seen in many other Presidents as well. In your case Sir, I honestly can see the difference in how you were when elected compared to now and your decline is apparent to all of America and the world.

Yes, President Biden we know you want to beat Trump again and think you can, but the polls, the newscasters and the American people do not think so, anymore. No one is saying your fifty some odd years in service to our country is anything but a great job and a legacy for you, forever more. Yet, Sir, you have said it yourself, you move slower, you speak slower and you make mistakes doing so. Your fragility and condition, affect the way the American People and the world sees you and reacts to all you say and do. This reflects on the American People, it also affects how people react to you, to your face and behind your back. Your Democratic partners in your administration, The Senate and the House, all are now starting to tell you this. President Biden let me say this to you and please forgive me for being honest and frank with you. You need to step aside, and stop your run for re-election now, there is no shame in aging Sir, and as we all know as we age, we do lose abilities and the energy to do the jobs we have, so retirement happens. You are now 81 years old Sir, and your record is immense and very powerful and fully admired by all. But, there comes a time, when we all must stop, carrying a bigger load of responsibility, and basically retire. There is no shame in aging, it happens to all people Sir. The more you go before the American People and the world the more people see it in everything you say and do.

As to who should replace you at the top of The Democratic ticket, you, yourself choose Harris as your Vice President and put her next in line for the Presidency. The poll numbers show to all who read them you will lose to DOnald Trump, but, Vice President Harris can beat him. Unless you step aside, and allow her to do so, you are endangering America, the Republic and Democracy in which we all live. No one wants to force you to leave Sir, but on the other hand, they are all asking you to step aside just for the reasons all mention, age, stumbles, falls, and memory problems.

If you step aside President Biden, there is no way, the party could overlook Harris at all. She earned her way the last 3 1/2 years working under you and learning from you. Please believe in her, for I think many Americans do today. She is probally the best person to beat Donald Trump. I believe a man who has been convicted 34 times of felonies, harassed women and was held libel for raping them, and stole documents and ran an insurrection of his own government is highly dangerous in all ways, just like you do. add the fact of taking Secret and Top Secret Documents home and withholding them when asked to return them and Trump is truly unqualified to be President again.

You trying to hang on for a second term as President is taking attention away from all the crimes and evil that Trump is. If, he is returned to office as President, America, I fear will be lost before he is done. He has eroded our foundation, gone against our Constitution and Laws, hurt women in America and failed at all he attempted to do in life !

The best chance Sir is, for you to politely just tell the American people and the world you will step aside and let Vice President Harris run and support her fully. At least with her, America and the Democrats have a chance to win again and keep the House and Senate. Please, Mr. President, consider stepping aside, for I am not alone in what I am saying here, but few in politicians in America will stand up to you and tell you the truth. They have much respect for you Sir and they do not wish to upset you or anger you, but the facts are the facts.

With all Due Respect !

Had a few conversations, about dating apps and such. Some recommend dating apps some do not. Being a widower, I thought maybe dating apps were the way to go. I tried Zoosk, met three women and nothing worked out. So, I gave up on Zoosk and ran the subsciption out. I have tried Match.com now and so far nothing, seems to click for me. Why I have yet to figure out, I was never a flirter, never learned to flirt, I am just me always.

My first wife I met in the Navy, and we had two of everything, including two daughters. It ended when the United States Navy discharged me for an injury. The money ran out, and we ended up having the house foreclosed on and moving in with my mother-in-law and her son. It took a total of approxiamately, five months living there, and divorce began.

My Second wife, I met at a Singles Dance in a tavern in Connecticut. We were together for 28 years total and I still miss her today. We had a great life together and we were happy and content. It all ended on August 10th or 2021, she died of cancer. It will be 3 years since her passing soon enough now.

I figure 3 years is long enough grieving and life must go on and I am not sure how to move forward anymore. I live alone in my condo, walk as much as I can depending on weather rof course. I play billards once a week, and I play Mexican Train one night also. I have investigated the Taverns and Bars around me, and I am a non drinker, so, it is hard for me. I used to go bowling once a week, but, that died out for me. So, I am basically in a 55 plus community and alone these days. I have learned to live alone again, since her death.

What will the future will bring for me I do not know, I do know I am doing ok right now. As long as I am self-sufficent and well enough to do what I can, I am happy. I write blogs here, poems and short stories as I go along. I try to keep my mind busy, by reading, writting and building puzzles. Never have been a social butterfly type nor am I a casinova of any type. I consider myself an average man, I am not handsome or unique in anyway. I just be me, being a phoney is no good, so, I try to interact here in the condo complex. Living in this 55 plus condo complex, reminds me of my childhood days, in the projects when I grew up. Everyone knows everyone elses business, so I avoid all I can.

The age factor comes into play for me, being 68 now and on my own. I know some men, like to chase younger women, but, it’s not my thing. I am sometimes loud, sometimes silent, sometimes annoying to there’s, but, I am not hurting anyone or myself.

I am always wondering what to do each day, to keep busy. Yeah, the Community here has events and clubs, I do two, As to anything else well I don’t know, I am looking at MeetUp to see what’s possible is all. I am not a religious person, haven’t been to church since I was young. The LIbrary is always here and available, since I don’t work due to my disability, it becomes a walking thing for me, either routside or at a mall. For me being single again is a two edged sword type of thing. The point being, I am 68 now, and it is hard to meet anyone when you don’t go out much. So, life will roll on for me, and I can hope is all.

As the day gets underway this July 11th, 2024, Americans are about to face a choice they do not wish to face, does one Vote for Biden or Trump. When I think of the coming election, I think of what each man got done as President, what they stand for and how they go about their business in politics, period. I also have to consider character and morals and ethics, as I try to decide.

Biden has served the American people for over 50 years now and accomplished one hell of a lot. Even in his 3 1/2 years since elected President he has worked overtime to represent the American People, to face immigration, the economy,jobs, and equality for all Americans. Yes, Biden has grown old now at 81 years old and as he said himself he moves slower, he talks slower and he knows he is older. he also knows he must consider all of the above and the call of his party and the American People to step aside. As I said already, Biden has been serving for over 50 years now in many positions and capacities. I believe, Biden will make the correct choice as to staying in the Race for The White House or stepping aside, for Biden understands the country comes first.

Trump on the other hand is 3 years younger than Biden and he says he is healthier, yet he hides it well is all. Trump has mental problems also, and more. Trump also did nothing he promised in the term he did serve, with the exception of a tax plan, for himself and his rich cronies. He did not build the wall he promised, he did not get Mexico to pay for it. He failed to control the Covid virus, and told us to drink bleach on public tv. Next he lost the last election to Biden, refused to concede it, set up a insurrection on the capital, calling the Oath Keepers and Proud Boys to come in and storm the Congress, and destroy the place, scare all politicians there on both sides of the political releam. He let the Proud Boys and Oath Keepers build a hanging platform, and look for hos Vice President also. He sat in the dinning room in the White House and watched dit all on tv doing nothing to stop it. When Trump left office he sulked out of office and town and went home to Mar a Lago, taking Top Secret and Secret documents with him why ! What was he doing with them, what was his purpose in taking them and who did he show them to ? When asked to return them, he refused, and forced the Justice Department to get Warrents and to search his home to get them back. Trump isa convicted felon 34 time sover also and still had 54 or so charges to face. He has been Indicted 4 times folks, he is a confirmed sexual harasser of women, held liable for raping some women. Is America going to actually elect this man President again? Trump has said he be a dictator the first day in office if he wins again. Does America really want to allow Trump to do as he pleases and choose two more Supreme Court Justices? You Tell me America ! At some point in time, Americans must realize they are going to elect a convicted felon to the presidency, if so, do you trust what he may or may not do?`

Let me say this in ending, even if Joe Biden steps aside, we do not need a second Trump term in the Whoite House, he is dangerous, and who knows what lil whim hits his fancy, and what he may do next . Americans need to wake up now !

Political Perils facing America are not good as of this date. Where will America go next is the real question. Will they stay with President Biden or take Donald Trump ? If they stay with Biden, will his age be a huge problem, will he falter due to it? Donald Trump is only three years younger, he stumbles in his speeches also and is erratic. He lies constantly, leads a cult of Maga followers, wants to be a dictator for a day he says, is convicted of 34 felonies already, more legal charges are out there to a tune of 54 more at least. He has been accussed of many things and charged. The January 6th, insurrection at the Capital is all Trump calling for it, arranging it and he made it happen. He refused to admit he was defeated, tried to stop the legal process of the electoral college. Then when he left office he decided to take secret and top secret materials to his estate in Mar A Lago and refused to return them, until the FBI got a warrent and went in and retrieved them. The question is why did he take them what was his purpose with them, who did he show them to and why?

Now, I understand the problem of Biden’s age, and his mental accuity, he may be slow, but he is not illegal, or out to become a dictator. Biden has well over 50 years experience in governing and policies and more. But, if America does not vote Biden and he loses, then we shall be stuck with a man sworn to bea dictator and more. So, what will America do, and will we stay a free democracy and Republic as the founding fathers set forth, or shall we crumble and fall, and become Russian ? Many questions abound here folks, and who will be able to stop Trump from selling our nation to Putin, or Kim, or anyone else?

America is now in a crisis of many proportions, and at a point in it’s history, the founding fathers, would declare dangerous and deadly. Stop and think what would Washinton, Jefferson, Adams, Franklin, think? What would they say of a man who wants to kill democracy, kill the Republic they built, who stole secret and top secret documents, and led an insurrection at our capital, then skunked out of town only to rise again four years later, trying regain the presidency. In American History, only one man, tried to turn on his government during the Revoluntionary War, Benidict Arnold. He sold secrets to the Brittish as out nation was fighting for our freedoms and finally becoming a country. What happened to Benidict Arnold, he was banned from America and outcast, to die in sorrow in England. What should America do with Trump, now, is the question ? If America elects him again, what will the results be ? He wishes to ban taxes, cut social security, cut medicare and medicaid, he wants to give himself and his rich cronies another tax break and most of all he has already affected the Justice system beyond compare, now he want stop add two more Justices of his own chosing ? Really now, he killed Roe vs Wade, that alone should be enough to stop women from voting for him. Yet, he sits at the head of a cult group he calls MAGA, why?

Will America allow Trump the Presidency again, and are we smart enough to see what we would be allowing before it happens ? No matter what people may say about Biden and his age and problems, he never ran an insurrection, took secret and top secret documents and harmed women’s medical coverage, or tried to take away benefits that help millions. If America chooses Trump, you are chosing your own countries demise folks.

We are at a pivitol stage in our countries history and life span. 248 years. I remind all, all the top world powers are watching us, and in the past all the great powers of the world have crumbled under such conditions. The Maya, The Incas, The Romans all fell from power, are we the next nation to go under ? Is America the next great powerful dynasty to fall, will we survib=ve or go under, and end up sold to Putin and Russia, or Kim or some other dictator ? History shows great dynasties and powers that be only last so long, has America now run it course and lost it’s way ? Is the great American Democracy, and Republic now lost it’s way, and can we save it ? That Americans, is the real choice now, do we Americans have the same courage, guts, and balls, the Founding Fathers had in creating this nation, or will we fail and watch America and democracy disappear ? The choice is the people’s of course for we still have elections, and we can still save it all, if we have intelligence and the guts to do so.

Note; I know I do not have spell check folks and my grammer is not always correct, but at least I try to voice what I can.

Ok, I don’t have spell check folks lol, but, I do have thoughts, ideas and more.

I shall not bash Westborough anymore, because, I have no real reason to, my anger and being upset is more about my own state of mind and emotions, Yes I am depressed and missing my wife, and no one else is to blame I know. I also know that grieving takes time and the longer I, stay alone and do nothing about it, is my own fault. I have been told many things I can do, like volunteering , or finding a grief group, going to the Senior Center, Library, and even walking. I am told bars are not the way to go for a man who is 68 and I agree, especially since I am a non-drinker in all reality.

Some have suggested MeetUp to find things to do, some suggested trying Worcester. Or surrounding towns in my area. What I do, I can not be sure, for I am not the most social butterfly around for sure. I don’t talk much until I know someone and trying to know someone causes me to go silent or freeze up. I tend to shy from women in general, why, because I do not consider myself, handsome or a catch. Then add in my age and well, the picture is not pretty for me.

I shall look into MeetUp, and then retry the Library and The Senior Center at some point. I am grieving yes I know it and there will come a time when I must learn to move on and live again. I believe, at some point, I need to at least make some new friends and new people in the area. Isolating myself, does not work, it only makes a circle of loneliness, that shows me no way out. I have to overcome my fears, anxieties, and moods, and live again.

I was told to try dating apps, because that is the way the world is these days. It is probally correct, since most live online these days. So I did sign up for Match.com and post a profile there, hoping at some point, I will meet someone that way. I am not asking to marry someone, or to jump into a relationship full time. It would be nice to just have some friends, of both sexes I can talk to, hang with and get to know some. Anyway, I shall continue on, try to keep a positive attitude. It can’t hurt.