Author: macattack56

Age 69 Navy Veteran- 16 years military, three branches Writing is my thing! Do Poems and stories and Blogs Also use social networks and chat sites MyYearBook-Domct2002 Twitter-@BillMcCurrach

Old saying, reach out and touch, somebody !


Hello March 3rd, 2024, it is early for me as I awoke in pain from my back and left hip, that does not seem to disappear, no matter what I do for it. I also seem to have problems falling asleep these days, my mind races on, and I end up thinking of the past, my deceased wife,, our life together, and other things like my current living conditions and more. As we age, and I know in my case, not in everyone’s I suppose, the body begins to give out, the mind races at times and at other times it slows. I can’t change fate or destiny, I have said this many times before, whether it is arthritis in my spine or hip, or the up and downs of my mind, I am fighting to keep going in many ways.

People don’t see it, because I don’t let them. I ignore the pain of the back and hip when I leave my home and do what I may or have to do. I refuse to let others see me limping, when I walk, or having trouble concentrating to get by at many things. There are times when I, fail to remember the simple things, but can spout the complicated also. I am learning certain subjects can light a fire under me, and I can talk far too much. At other times I go silent and just go through the paces on autopilot so to say. It’s all a part of getting older, I would guess, and the Lord’s way of saying, your getting closer to me.

Yet I try to keep going, walking, talking and moving the best I can. I try to read at times to occupy my mind. I would build puzzles when I first arrived where I currently live, now a days the puzzle sits on my table collecting dust, for I can’t concentrate to put it together anymore, so I end up doing a piece here and there is all. Age does these things to you folks, it comes upon you slow and you ignore it at first and push through, but, in the end you can not fight time, forever.

I love life, I love people, the laughter, the light in the eyes of others, their enjoyment and laughter as they do things they love. It is infectious indeed and comes out and affects you and me. The pretty look in a happy woman’s eyes, her giggle and style or more. The men in a group talking sports and joking and having fun. It’s all a part of living in a 55 plus community like I do. Let me say this though to all who read my blogs, when you live in a 55 plus community, no one knows what goes on behind closed doors. No, I am not singing the old song by Charlie Rich, but I am facing the facts of it all. So, when I close my door and I am behind it, I am different than when I walk out it in public and I think, we all are in our own ways. No one wants to show their pain, their agnony, to the world whether it is physical or mental or emotional. We hide it all, and put on a happy face, doesn’t matter if it is false, for we want no one to know, the truth do we?

In my case I have my problems for sure, PTSD, Military injuries, constant physical pain, at times depression, I think many have the same, but, the extent of it all and how it affects is the thing. I shall always laugh, make fun and tease people, it is my nature. I will always laugh when no one else will, to make someone else happy, even if what they did is not really funny. I see someone fall and I am capable I will help in the best way I know how. I see a woman fall or need help with a door or a getting in a car I try to help. It’s just me. I was raised that way, and I guess when I stop to think about it, some of it stuck. I never really stop and ask for anyone to help me, I just do and carry on, no matter what. Life is sometimes good for all of us, and sometimes bad, and the good is all we show if we can.

Doctors, and more doctors for spine and more. Discs bulging, mind bending, crying in private, all a part of some people’s lives including my own. Yet, as we age we learn to hide it all, we learn to live with it all and we learn to carry on. Some of us, take what others call as jokes, wrong, and react and withdraw, some of us, handle it differently and attack back. It is not something you would reconignize really, until suddenly someone snaps, or screams or suddenly disappears. It happens to many of us daily, even though we would never admit it, or show it publically. Yet it is a part of aging.

To counter such things, we try to go out, do as much as we can,push ourselves to belong, be a part of said community and the world. We smile at others, we converse, the best we can, we play simple games, we exercise, walk, talk like there is nothing wrong. We cover it all up and carry on. Some like to take advantage of others, use them, tease them, think they are joking with them, and not realize they are hurting people. Like I always say when I realize someone does not get I am joking with them or teasing them, I like to tell them I am, that way they relax and get it. Otherwise they may take it seriously and ignore, or walk away in anger and never forgive. There is a point of delicacy, or touchyness, you have to remain aware of at all times. Maybe I am being too senistive, in my own way, but, it is as I currently see it, in this life of a 55 plus community.

I have to say, for those who live here, they are many pluses to doing so. We tend to watch out for one another, and that is always a plus. We gather and try to keep going, and find events to do with help from our lIfestyle director, and each other as we form clubs. It helps for many of us are alone and want to be involved the best we can for social interactions and to keep mentally aware at all times. Clubs for art, clubs to play board games, book clubs, sports, pickle ball and so much more. Hell even writting clubs exist here and book discussions. I have to hand it to everyone, what they do,is very good for all here, and their actions and reactions, and interactions keep many of us going.

To each their own I am sure is what some will say. There will be some who live here, who will go mind your own, business. They won’t talk of their problems or actions or reactions to fit in or not. They just carry-on and walk on by it all, and I don’t blame them either, for we all feel that way at times don’t we? The question is as we age, do we get over those moments, do we push on and make ourselves get involved, so we are better for it all, or do the walls of darkness engulf us all and we end up alone, staring at a wall, with no help till they find us and cart us away? I hope for all of us who are here in our 55 plus community, we feel comfortable enough or brave enough to reach out to find help if needed. And that it is with those we live among that we can do so, for who knows the aged or elderly or 55 and up crowd more than those who are a part of it, right? As I said, if I see someone fall I would help them, if I see someone cry I would ask why and listen, as a community I would think we should help one another if we can, for I would want that for me, my friend. Isn’t that how we all want it, so we all have someone to interact socially, to laugh with, to cry with, someone who can listen, if we need them,or help us up, if we fall ? Is that why we all moved to a 55 plus community ? You all tell me ! Life is not a easy ride for all of us, some of us have had rough childhoods, or rough marriages or divorces, or other events that can happen to human beings, and we just wnat to enjoy our time left. Nothiong wrong with that at all folks in my book. I will never force anything on anyone else, tell anyone what to do with their life, it is not my place to do so. Like I told one person many years ago, I am fine as long as no one forces their views or what they do on me, and I shall never force mine on them. We all havea right to choice, out own beliefs, and our own ways of doing things don’t we? Sometimes you do it your way and i do it my way, as long as we get it done correctly it is fine, I say. And even if we don’y accomplish it all the way, we did the best we can, correct? The result, has to fit what we believe the ending should be for each of us, and no two are the same, right?

This being 55 plus is rough for many of us, and many are widows, widoers, divorcees, here. The hardest part os being 55 plus is when you are alone, isolated, and have no one. There are many who are couples and have their spouses with them here. They have someone to go home to, to talk to, to cuddle with, to be in their lives to care for or be cared for. In the end though, many here have no one, feel left out, or ignored, or have to struggle to belong, to survive. Always be aware, is whatI say, for one day that person alone and lost and floundering out there may be you ! Old saying, reach out and touch, somebody, and make the world a better place for you and I.

I hope so, wish me luck!


As we get older, we also, tend to get smarter about life and avoid the mistakes of our own past. We tend to stop before we leap and think first and go wait a second, been here, done this before an dnot doing it again. It happens in daily things we do, it happens in jobs we take on and relationships we have and so much more. The fact is, we all use our past experiences in life to make present day and ongoing decisions every moment we are awake. Just stop and think about it fora few moments and you shall know, what I am talking about.

We all of us can’t all be Einstiens, nor can we all be dumb, we all tend to be in the middle, some of us are polite, some of us are rude too. Some are kind, some are cruel and this is not sexist in anyway, it is just human. Humanity is not perfect in anyway, from looks to habits, to likes and dislikes, we all tend to adjust to what we like or don’t like. Some of us are stubborn and hard headed, some of us are kind and gulliable, some us laugh easy and some of us cry easy. Why we do so is based on what we have experienced and lived through in our own lives so to say. Some have had the easy life, things handed to us on a platter so to say, and other shave had to struggle through in all we do. We don’t have full control over life, it sometimes controls us. Fates, destinies, at times can not be changed and at othe rtimes we tend to realize something that touches us personally, or is unigue to us alone, and it changes how we react and what we do next. Thats the fascination of life, it’s unpredicability daily. Life is indeed a mystery to even me, and I be 68 years old now.

I have learned lately though that you can’t force anything, you can’t search too hard, and make things happen, and that you must take it as it comes to you. I tried hard many times to force things and be something I am not, and in the end learned, people see through anything that is phoney or acting. I also learned it doesn’t matter if you dress uppretty, or dye your hair, or try to fit in by beingl like all the rest, it only makes you look and feel like you don’t fit in. Just be you, and i guess that will always be what works best.

I have friends from my younger days I have known now for over 50 years. One female and one male, and each seem to have advise for me in my current situation and age and I have given each of them advise in our younger days. I recently thought outloud on a blog and Facebook post, how I thought I had grown old and wa slike one of the Old Men in that old Movie Grumpy Old Men. Well, my female friend from all those years ago told me I amnot that way, she knows it, and that I am not too old and done in life, and more than she is and she is my age too. So, that makes one think.

Male friend, wa sthe best man at my second marriage and I have known him since i was 14. We ran the streets of our old home rown together, we fished and camped and hiked together. I knew his wife and his children in his first marriage. So he knows me well as I know him. One day, many years ago I walked into his apartment to find him surrounded by letters hew as writing to numerous women, from a magazine. He wanted a date and to meet a new woman in his life after his divorce. I was going through similar circumstances at the time. I told him to stop writing letters, he was wasting money and time. He looked at me and asked what I meant. I said look, the only way your going to get anywhere in life is to be yourself, do the job you have, do what you love to do, and they will find you. Women want men who are happy, content and who do their own things. Well, he said ok, and then I took him to singles dances and showed him. We walked into one and I just did my thing, ignoring all the ladies and being myself and he followed. Within 10 minutes two women walked upto us and started talking to us and neither of us had said a word. All I did was carry myself with pride and decently and smile. It wasn’t the look, it was the attitude and the confidence I explained to him later. Now, I met my second wife at those dances, and it went 28 years for us, untill she passed from cancer. For him the dances didn’t work, but the advise did when I tiold him to be himself and they will find him, he and his wife have now been married for 30 years now. All he did was go to work and be himself, thats all he had to do really.

Au Naturale, does not mean naked folks alone, it means authenicate, real, being you ! Don’t ever try to be something you are not, don’t try to act like all the rest, it is being comfortable with who you are and accepting yourself first, thats make sit easy for someone else to accept you. I have given up trying to hunt and peck through Dating sites, and web sites now and I have given up looking forfemale companionship, because I learned I can’t keep crying ove rit, nor can I force it, I just have to be me and enjoy life, even as a single man again anda widower. I can’t replace the one I lost and I shouldn’t compare anyone to her, just be me and accept others fro who they are too. It isa two way street, but, forcing anything doesn’t work.

So, I walk, I go out and eat on my own, I may stop in a bar or tavern, and do a movie alone. Doesn’t matter anymore what I do, I may fish, or bowl or play pool, I may just go for a ride. But, I am no longer gonna be playing the searching games, the hoping game, the wishing game of looking. It doesn’t work, the more your push or search or try the less you find it seems to me. So, I shall do what I advised my friend many years ago to do, do me, have fun and just carry on and let nature take it’s course. Thats what life is all about, I believe, and just use my own experiences and feelings and thoughts to make my own decisions as I go along in life. Pretty simple right, I hope so, wish me luck!

The answers my friends, is blowing in the wind, as Stevie Wonder, sang !


Ok, March has arrived, and the year is moving forward whether we will as people or not. As to saying anymore about finding a companion or partner in Westborough, it seems to me, there is no sense in doing it anymore. People on the Westborough sites on Facebook, dislike me doing so, so out of respect for their web pages and wishes I won’t go there again.

As to me personally, I have at least my health, a place to live, a roof over my head and food to eat. I have transportation when needed and medical and dental care as needed so I am blessed. Unlike many who are homeless, or without care, I am healthy enough to take care of myself, thank god.

Being a disbabled veteran, who served for 16 years in three branches, I live with certain conditions. I have suffered from Attention Deficet Disorder and Hyper-Activity all my life. Yet I overcame it and carried on and survived. I have PTSD-Post Trumatic Stress Disorder from childhood and military life, yet I have found myself able to carryon and help others when I can. As long as my back injury of six herniated discs from my service time does not lock up with arthritis, or in pain, I will keep going. To see me, no one would think, I am disabled, yet I am. You learn how to deal with injuries and health problems as you age, and overcome the best you can as well as deal with it all.

I have dealt with the deaths of family members due to cancer, from my grandfather, to my father, mother and step-father, and my wife of 28 years. At times finding the loses hard to accept, I stumble along and try hard not to surrender, I have survived lung cancer myself in 2013, while caring for my wife as she was dying. It’s a lot to deal with yes and I sometimes repeat myself, but, I shall not surrender, I am here and alive, live and be peaceful, I say.

Some believe in churches, some believe in faith and some believe in destiny. I believe in something few will understand, I think. What shall be will be of course, and destiny and faith guide us all. I have a belief of being put here on earth for a mission. You see, we are all put here on this planet for a reason, a mission we do not understand, that we really don’t fully understand. But, once we complete that said mission, we get recalled to where we have come from. Thats what I call the mystery of life, we have no idea what we are really put here to do. Nor do we know what act or action, will be our final curtain so to say. So in the end, keep going, try to enjoy each day, each moment, each interaction.

Long ago and far in my past as a child, I used to study mother nature in the woods of my birth town. I would climb trees, catch bees, frogs, turtles, watch birds and other animals. I think many of us grew up that way, in my generation. Playing outdoors was the way to be back then and all of us did it. Be home by suppertime and when the lights go on you better be home. We had bikes, balls, and games we played from One, Two, Three red Light, to Hide and Seek and more, that we invented. Neighborhood baseball games, football games were daily experiences. That was life growing up !

I noticed as I did, the insects in the world also. Ants are a interesting comparrision to humanity in a way and if you look close enough and stop to think of it, live almost the same as we. They scurry on the planet to build homes and communities to survive and all work in one ant family to survive together and multiply. Always scurrying busily along with little regard for other creatures, but their own. When I stop to think of this, I end up thinking how their communities, their way of living and their short span of life, conicides with and equals humanities in many ways. We scurry, we work like they do, we build communities like they do and we reside on this planet like they do. The comparrison in my mind leads me to question something else, are we as humanity like the ants below our feet and is each planet out there that has life , doing the same we are doing ? Do we know enough about the universe and life, to know what it is really all about ? It does lead to wondering doesn’t it?

Yes we are limited in all we do, although some have greater physical abilities or greater mental abilities, we are all human and have our problems and difficulties in life. Some physical, some emotional, and some mentally. Yet, mankind adapts to our surroundings to the point we can and works to change the enviroment we live in to prolong our existance on earth. We have a problem as I see it though, the resources of the planet we live upon are slowly being used up, and at a greater pace than we can afford. we burn and use the planet and it’s resources daily, oil, gas, water, food. Will we be able to replace and replenish any of it, to keep us going, or shall mankind ultimately, cease to exist, because we didn’t work hard enough to replenish and replace what we need to survive ? So many questions abound, when I stop to think of it all, but, the answers my friends, is blowing in the wind, as Stevie Wonder, sang !

Hi, Westborough once more !


Hello Westborough, Mass ! As I begin to look for things to do to entertain myself in town and the area,, I have been to Red Heat Tavern twice, neighborhood Tavern twice, and did not stay in either. I have been to Central House Tavern and Jp’s Tavern 3 times a piece now, and they are a more cozy atmosphere to me. I like Panera Bread for lunch and sandwhiches and soups, although it is slightly expensive for sure. Zita’s is good for pasta meals, so to save and is a cozy lil place, reminds me of some pizza places in Connecticut. I hear there are other good ones around too.

I have slowly been trying to find things to do and ended up at the Westborough Library and looked around in there. The Library is actually huge many books, puzzles and things to look at. The most amusing and friendly librarians there for sure. Lisa is a very cute woman, and smart and very knowledgeable, about the town and things in Boston too. I have not ventured into churches, because, frankly if I did, it would probally fall on my head lol. Now, I don’t knock church goers in anyway, I just say, not for me is all.

Westborough is a nice town overall, but as someone said to me, the people are a lil strange at times. As one redsident told me, they don’t talk much many of them and they are cautious in many ways. Why, I don’t know,but, neither did the resident, lol, told me to just be me and interact where I can. lol

I have been out looking now and then, I end up going up and down Rte 9, it’s accessable and easy that way, but not overly interesting or entertaining. I did, go to Cold Harbor Brewery, now twice and each time I did, it felt like I was out of place there. It reminds me of Red Heat Tavern some with it’s wide open spaces, and style that is airy, I didnt eat or drink there though. I guess at some point I shoulod check it out when more busy. I knew there wasa train station in town, but, never looked for it, I found that dueto the Libraian, who directed me and suggested using it if I wanted to go to Boston it’s cheaper and easier she said. I did recieve a handout that showed many places and museums to visit in Boston.

Bowling I enjoyed when I did it in Shrewsbury and in Marlborough too. The Apex contains many different things to do in it and can be entertaining with friends if you have any. Resturants are plenty in the area of all kinds of food, from Italian to Chineese. Food it seems is popular here in Westborough lol. I have not ventured as of yet into Arthuro’s, but, I have heard it is a decent place, I shall have to at some point see for myself.

While I am always looking for things to do in Westborough and the area, I do not wnat to be driving up and down the highways. The Traffic can be a killer, and then of course gas prices can get ya too, regular is going 3.25 a gallon these days. Food is up, and so is most things to do.

My one thing I wonder about is why, Westborougher’s don’t talk to each other much unless they are in a bar/tavern situation or a church I am told. Kinda funny if you ask me, people recommend churches and bars/taverns all the time, but what does one do if your not a big drinker or not religious ? It’s a crazy world out there I know and for people 55 and up, the question is always what to do. Being 55 and up in Westborough is not easy, unless, your still working, I am retired. So, finding people in my age range is not easy and yes as i said before, there is definitely a ageism factor. But, complaining about it does not help really, for no one cares to answer why it is so, and most if you push may tell you where to go, and it won’t be nice lol !

As 2024, now heads into March, weather will be getting warmer outside, and trails willopen to walk and parks, fishing will come around again, pickleball will come back into season. Now I triedpickleball, the first year I was here, and it is a fun sport to do, yet at my ageof 68 now, I would have to be careful playing it. But, the people who play are friendly as I see it.

Beaches will open again when the season comes, and I live on Chauncey Lake in town. We have a pool here at the condo complex also, even though I don’t use it. I find it crowded, and it can only hold a total of 25 people at a clip, andone pool for the coming 700 total units here, will not work out well. Condo living has it’s plus’s and it negatives too. It a two edged sword in it’s own right. Living in a condo situation, is like living in Peyton Place, everyone knows your business and talks. I must admit, there are things to do at the clubhouse, from Billards, to Cooking and Food Clubs, dominos and even movies and Art Fairs. We are lucky, we pay for a entertainment director to be here, to help and keep us busy.

As a elderly, widowed man, I am finding it hard to fit in, probally due to the age factor and the fact, Westborough and the State and area is not built for us. I know I have heard I should volunteer, but when ya new in town finding places to do so, is not easy either. I know about the Senior Center but, each time I ventured there no one is around. Maybe I am choosing the wrong days to visit there. Time shall tell for me. I looked into gyms, like Planet Fitness, and came away with why pay em, when my condocomplex has it’s own here. Some say for social reasons I should do so, I will see, I am not getting any younger. I wish they had dances for singles or widowers or widows, or divorcees. But in the end that does not happen in Westbrough. So finding a companion to hang out with in Westborough at my age is nearly impossible.

I shall continue to investigate the area I live in here in Westborough, Ma. and surrounding areas if I can. Malls are good walking spots for exercise as are parks and lakes I know. I wonder many times, did I make a mistake in moving to Massachuetts and Westborough ? I wonder if it is me, or just a bad location in general for peoplemy age? Questions abound for sure for me, in Westborough, Ma. and it’s surrounding areas, time shall tell !

The end of America is upon us !


My opinion on Donald Trump and all he has done is mine alone. Yet the Decision of The Supreme Court to take up his Immunity Claim at this time and delay the trials and legal actions against him, to help him is not right. Trump’s Immunity Claim, which he knows for a fact and most believe is nothing more than a delaying effect by him, makes me very Suspisious of The Republicans on The Court. Seems to me, Trump’s appointiees are running the show On The Supreme Court and working in tandum with one another to help Trump. As the News hits on The Supreme Court to hear these arguments on his immunity and the timing of it, as well as the fact the Supreme Court did not fast track it, makes me wonder, are the Republicans on the Court, working with Trump ?

There may be no communication with Trump by The Justices that can be seen, yet it should be investigated if there, may be. In my opinion, their refusal to fast track the whole immunity factor, makes me think, they are backing Trump for President. More then one of them ,I would guaranteeing are doing so because Trump put them on the Court and they are returning him the favor. Yet The Supreme Court by hearing this Immunity Claim, needs to realize the time factor regarding the election cycle in America. If they do not fast track this case, it will run dead into the election cycle and confuse many Americans, as to the fact of Trump’s ability to stay on the ballot. For if he has no immunity from the crimes he is charged with, it will go one way and could halt his candidancy, and he can be tried for felonies. If they say he has Immunity, then all the other cases disappear and the mess will not be solved in time, for all to decide how to vote.

The Supreme Court needs to realize, if they do not solve this immunity claim, they are taking the chance a felon and criminal will be running America! Which means if Trump wins the election, he can on his own stop all prosecutions against him and get off free. I don’t believe that should happen and the Supreme Court should not allow that, Trump led the riot, he called for those who attacked the capital on Jan. 6, he told them to do so on public tv and he refused to call it off for over 188 minutes. Am I alone in thinking the danger of not fast tracking this, is purely evil and will allow Trump to gain political advantage as well as please his follwers, agravating the situation in the country, they will cause more violence, and confrontations, as well as have to run for cover themselves, For either way they decide this, can leave people angry, mad, and cause an acting out of violence beyond caompare in America. For The Maga Supporters and Trump supporters will go crazy if he is not given immunity, and the anti-Trumpers will go crazy if he gets immunity. We are already a tense nation angeed over this whole issue of what happened on Jan. 6th, we are at a boiling point for sure. The Supreme Court is being foolish and not intelligent in taking this up ! Also, is it right for a President to do what he wishes while on Office and get away with it too ? I thought we were a country of laws and of equal justice for all, why give Trump Immunity he was not acting as President when he did his acts, speeches an dmore on Jan. 6th. He was acting as an angry candidate who lost an election and plotted to keep the White House and presidency. On top of all of the above, he had people tear up the capital and threaten VP Pence with hanging, yet he is claiming ummunity, come on now.

I feel sorry for the country if Trump gets immunity, and I feel sorry for the Supreme Court also. I will also feel very sorry for all Americans, because if Trump does it again, or the next President after this election does it, we are done as a republic and democracy, just walk the communist into office ! If Trump gets immunity in this case, that means no President can be tried for any crimes they commit while in office So that means if a President sets a hit up on a opponent, or commits crimes of theft, or more, they can’t be touched for any crime. Imagine folks, a President is now, a God, and can do as he pleases in office with no way to stop the president except, Impeachment. That means, while President, a person can do anything they please, and that if so, is indeed the end of our constitution and our form of government and the Republic.

The end of America is upon us, now brought on by Donald Trump ! I hope and I pray, the Supreme Court wakes up and realizes all of the above. No man or woman is above the law, and equal justice must be given to all, or you may as well just throw out our laws and constitution and all Admendments !

Is openess and Converstaion the way?


Hello Feb. 26th 2024 ! Time marches on for sure, and Westborough an dlife is no exception for sure. Westborough, if it continues raising taxes, will tax itself out of existance soon enough. The town needs to be more realistic in what it is doing, I know they want to movetoward city status here, but, you will lose the elderly and those who work fora living daily fast, but increasing taxes each year. The tax increases, need to stop soon, or the population of Westborourgh will decrease not increase.

I see Westborough trying to have it two ways here, you can’t attract seniors by building 55 plus communities and then tax the hell out of them and keepthem. Limited incomes come into play folks wake up!

I have only been in Westborough since 2022, March to be exact, and I am learning that if you don’t drink in this town, you don’t really meet people. You need to drink or attend church lol, thats it folks. If you go out to bowl or eat, people don’t really talk to newcomers or strangers, yet, how do you get to know people here?

I will reinvestigate the Senior Center, and try places like panera Bread and such and hope to meet someone, but, those hopes seem very slim for anyone 65 and up and I am 68 now. Ageism brings to light a factor we all must face sooner or later in life , we all face it of course, but, few, overcome it, or help those of us facing it. But, I warn Westborough and it’s population, time marches on period, and we all age, so you have to account for it here in Westborough, or lose on the financial side for sure, elderly folks will leave taking their funds with them, and go to cheaper places. I have already seen it happening in the newer 55 plus community I am in in Westborough. Then on top of the rising taxes and HOA costs to live here, ageism becomes the additional factor, because you can’t bridgethe age gap and give the elderly places to get together it seems. A Senior Center itself alone can not work for all Seniors to meet, it is not to be the lone social place for the 55 plus crowd.

You need to expand somethings in town and attract more business’s that will help the elderly here or lose us. Singles dances for 55 and up would work, but, you need aplace to hold them and to mak ethen affordable. You could bring in Roller skating, oldies music, crafts, or arts. SHows, a theater would work in town for movies. Now I know neighboring towns have some, but, what person in their 55 and up ages wants to be driving all other the area and state to find things to do, be realistic ok. The elderly need tax breaks and the ability to do things once retired, or unable to work. We end up walking lakes or malls, or staying alone because our options in Westboro are slim really.

Anyway on my personal front, I go day by day, still trying to explore and understand Westborough, it’s people that I am now a part of. I am also trying to understand Mass itself, it’s style and it’s way of operating. Don’t get me wrong folks, I am not saying I don’t like Mass or Westborough, I just don’t fully understand it, and it’s people. In a way it is a struggle to really get used to living here, why Id o not know, it matters not who I talk to here, it just seems people are either stuck up, stubborn, or don’t want to be involved meetingnew folks. Why that is, is beyond me, but I shall keep trying to talk to whoever I can. So My one question for all of Massachuetts and Westborough itself is simple, is Open COnverstaion and talking to people the way to go here ? Will that hekp to get accepted in Westborough, Ma. , you tell me folks!

Central House Tavern/ Westborough, Mass./ more !


Sunday the 25th, of Feb. 2024 begins early for me, I awoke at 6 am here. The sun is just starting to peak out, and that day will begin slowly, I am sure. As the world turns and things happen from wars, to deaths, to politics and crimesm all I know is life goes on, all the time.

I usually stay home and not do much, because I don’t like wandering around by myself, I always feel out of place and isolated when I do. But at 68 years old now and alone since my wife passed in 2021, I am finding the isolation of the aloness is a killer in it’s own right. The more i stay alone the worse off I am, I am beggining to believe, so, I am trying to find places to go, to just meet people in Westborough and do things. So, I decided to ask about some Bars/ Taverns in Westborough on a web page on facebook, and was told the top two in my area would be Central House and JP’s both taverns. So I have in the past tried each a few times and found myself alone and not talking to anyone, so I decided I would give it a new try last night.

I decide to wander into the Central House, and see what was happening on a Saturday evening, I ended up there around 5:30 pm. Got a bar seat and got me a sandwhich and a draft beer. I remembered they had a good pastrami and cheese on rye there so I ordered that. I watched the Kentucky/ Alabama Game on the tv and started talking to a couple next to me first, then ended up talking a gentleman my age Wally, and a young woman who is getting married soon. In the end I spent about 30 dollars in whole and wa sthere about two hours give or take a few minutes. The Central House is a cozy tavern for sure and clean and neat and seemed to be friendly enough to me. Bartenders are friendly and helpful when needed too. Being as I am a widower, I wa shoping to meet a lady there if I could but, not many to talk to there at this time that I was there. It’s not the world I grew up in anymore out there, it is all online dating sites and they cost and don’t work for real. Yet, it was better then sitting home staring at a book or the television.

Central House is just a house converted into a bar/ tavern with decent food for sure and a decent atmosphere that, is welcoming to all. As one person told me, the place can be slow one second and then full the next lol. And that did happen while I was there. it got full but not overly crowded, on saturday while i was there.

Now, the other place that was recommended to me was JP’s Tavern, off of RTE 9 here in Westbourgh. Jap’s is a cozy lil hole in the wall for sure. It is dark in there, and if you go usually crowded around 5 pm. I have been twice and JP’s is a all cash set up, they don’t do credit cards, but have an atm there. The place was great the first time I went in, it was clean and neat and crowded, but I got a bar seat. Watched some games and golf on tv there, and talked to a few people is all. Most seemed busy with either dates or spouses to me. So the first time I only had a meal anda beer and basically left. I went back a second time and to be honest, I left in ahurry, I thought they had forgotten to clean the place up. Thew floor was covered in popcorn lol. I didn’t like it so I left. I think it isa busy lil tavern/ hole in the wall and it seems very popular in town to many. So I may go back in the future and try again, tame shall tell, the bartenders are friendly, and most of the people seem to be too.

Some have said try Arturo’s or Red Heat, Red Heat I was in once with mys ister, and then once with another friend, but it was not at busy times. It seems light and airy, but I know not what the crowd is like there. Arturo’s I have never been in yet, but I am told it is a good resturant and a decent place to go. So there is decent bar/ tavern scene in Westborough, it does seem. Then someone mentioned Cold Harbor Brewery, I went in once looked around and left, airy and wide open it is, and it seems nice, but I wil have to re-check it when people are there.

Now I have done bowling in the area and Bowlero in Shrewsbury, is a decent place to bowl and have a drink. Also I have been to The Apex in Marlboro to bowl also. Both alleys are fun, the Apex is newer of course and more crowded I believe. They both have tvs for sports, and loud tunes playing and bars in em. They have food also if your hungry. Now I bowled with my neighbors in either place, for a year, and then they changed the day of the week and time and I fell out so to say. I love bowling and have fun with it, so, I hope I can get back to it soon, time shall tell.

Otherwise I end up walking alot around my condo complex I live in, reading, building puzzles, watching tv, and playing on the internet on my computers or xbox, I have. I like cooking now and then, but, with no one to cook for I don’t do it much. Art wise I like to draw cartoons and scenery at times and even attempt to draw people I see. But, that is only every now and then when the mood hits me. As to the Condo Complex I live in at Chauney Lake here, I play billards on Monday evenings and then fo rthe last two weeks I have tried mexican train dominos with my neighbors for laughs and company. Again being a widower, I live alone, and am struggling to find my way in a town I know very little of. So, I am trying to adapt slowly to Westborough, Mass. and no I do not want to be running to Boston, while Boston is a very busy city, it isa tourist attraction mostly and very costly. I prefer small venues and towns nearer to me.

I like fishing every now and then, there is Chauncey Lake and of course the Resevoir off of South Street in town. It’s nice for fishing and peace and quiet moments.

No Movie Theaters in town, but there is Soloman Pond Mall around the corner in Marlboro, and Neighborhood Tavern also on Rte 20. Many place to eat around too from Diners to resturants of all kinds, up and down RTe 9 and 20 and in Marlboro and more. SHopping is always there, many stores and many plazas.

While Westborough has a Senior Center in town, and i have been there I think twice now, it is usually not busy that I see. Once they had a yard sale there and the secone time I saw some gentlemen playing pool togeher. I am sure there is more, so I will have to check it now and then.

While Senior Centers exist in neighboring towns, also I am told, I have not ventured there, yet. I have not seen any dances for seniors around, I use dto love roller skating too not here it seems, and ice skating used to be fun, but age ya know. As to meeting a woman, at my age, of 68, my chances are slim to none and I know it. At least I am not stupid enough to believe meeting a companion, friend or female lover, can happen for me. When ya reach 65 and up, ya get the idea if ya know what I mean. What woman wants a 68 year old man in today’s world in Westborough ? Westborough is a fine town with a growing population, but, I do recommend if your going to build 55 plus communities here, you should gear some of the entertainment venues/ bar/ taverns or events to the senior population. The town is making enough in taxes off of us and should give us seniors more to do to enjoy our time left. Just an idea folks !

It’s sad but true, Trump will sell us out !


Feb. 20th, 2024, Tuesday is well underway. The Sun is out and so is the cold was 20 degrees this am. A day like all the rest in my book, being retired and disabled, makes it pass slowly. Sometimes I think I should just surrender, but, I don’t. It is a borderline area, few would discusss I am sure, when they reach the stage I am in. At 68, one begins to realize they are on the downslope of life so to say, and we tend to protect and preserve ourselves in may ways. Our health and well being, comes first, but, we still seek to be involved with the world and attempt to keep busy. I think if one keeps their mind busy, they are far better off than most. It is involvement, activities and finding things to do, that keeps one going. Once a person stops being involved, or stops talking and communicating with others, and they isolate themselves, the decline begins. So, whatever you do as you age, stay involved, keep the mind busy and use your body as much as you can.

Living in a 55 plus community like I do, for me is rough. While the people are decent folks, I also know there are gossip kings and queens here. You neighbors watch everything you do as you come and go. They question, what they see, and of course behind your back they gossip about it all !. 55 plus communities, while they are great for those of us who live in them, because you are near to people in your age range, they are dangerous also in some ways. Some get cast aside, or overlooked, or ignored and others get included in all that happens. Those smart enough to know better, don’t date within the community. Looking around in such a community, leads you to see, we have widowers, and widows, we have divorcess here and of course some couples who are married. Yes it is a diverse community not only on racial, ethic and other backgrounds of all of us. You learn to accept everyone and just putter along like all of them. Excitement in a 55 plus community is a birthday party, or a popular event happening. Life in a 55 plus community is really, about fitting in and how much fitting in one wishes to do. For if you get involved in the activities and events here, you at least get people to talk to. Friendships take time to happen if you are new, but with very little effort it will happen for you or me. Personally, I talk to anyone I see, if I can, but I will neverimpose, or burden anyone, nor, will I force myself into anything or on anyone. As a widower myself, I feel how hard it may be to live in such a community, for you know if you cross the line and attempt to het involved with a member of the oppisite sex who lives here, it can be dangerous in many ways. For we all know, when relationships go wrong and many do, the ones that work are few, it is usually the male half that gets blamed. And if your a single male, you lose out and get forced by peer pressure and community pressure, and outcast and that leads to selling and moving.

I stay alone and try to stay aloof in all ways. That way, no one can say I did anything to them, living here. Once your marked as a problem in a 55 plus community you end up, looked down on, and cast out so to say. Isolation happens, and you find no matter what, others won’t talk to you. In the end this can lead for a person 55 and up, to isolation, and that can lead to your mental and physical health going south so to say. Keep busy folks, walk, run, play sports, play cards, dominos, or whatever is available. Pickle Ball, hikes, walking malls, and if you drink there are many bars here in town. For me at 68, I feel I am on the downslide or downslope so to say. I don’t like to drink much and would only do so to fit in. So Bars/ Taverns, are not my favorite place to be or go. I always feel I am out of place when I do go to one, ageism is in effect for sure, here in Westborough, Mass. The world tends to start pushing you aside when you reach 55 and up, so don’t be surprised if it happens to you or me out there. I will say this, I was a baby boomer child, we had the best of everything there ever was. The Best music, the best car, that were metal folks, we had roller skating rinks, ice skating, dancing, played sports outside. Now a days it is all electronic lives ! TVs. Cell phones, computers, video gaming machines like X-box, Playstation, have taken over, for the newer generations. Few actually read a book, or write anymore, few build puzzles or just walk. America has become a electronic device country, people walk around staring at their cell phones, not even looking up at times. America lives on electronics and the internet, even dating wise these days. Although in recent weeks, I have read articles saying, americans are now heading back in time a bit, to speed dating meetings and meetup events. It’s hard to fake profiles or looks or education or personality faults and attitudes if you meet in person. So, hopefully that will help some. The old meeting face to face through conversation works best anyway in my mind.

As to politics, well this country is screwed up now, due to the Trump, Maga fiasco that Trump brought with him. I basically avoid anything Trump or Maga and would never vote for him, no matter what. I tire of the evils, damages, and bullshit being put out by Maga and Trump, period. Never supported him and never would. I will say this, as Trump cries election interferance, he brought it on himself. You don’t get 2 Impeachments in one term, 4 indictments, and 91 charges against you, because you did nothing wrong! I just want to say, that many prosecuters, judges,, federal and state, would not waste money or time, unless they know he is guilty period. Funny how everyone is wrong except for Trump and his people isn’t it ? If it were you or I, did all Trump did, we would be in a jail cell and never released again to the public world. try it folks, go ahead, do what Trump does, lie, cheat, steal, con others. Go ahead steal American top secret and secret documents and see what happens, lol. I dare ya !

Go stand on Capital grounds in DC and on TV and call for the Proud Boys and Oath Keepers and others to come and march on the Senate and House of Representatives. Hold a Riot, and direct them like he did and lets see, how long it takes your wrists to get cuffed and locked up. Bet it would be very fast, and you will not, be let out fast. Ask the Oath Keepers and Proud Boys and those already convicted how they feel now behind bars and charged and convicted. Go Ahead folks, ask them how they feel about doing Trump’s bidding now !

As we go forward toward the next election in November, I hope America will make the right choice once more. I know Biden is too old, but Trump is only three years younger. Age is a factor and will be, it is a fact we must deal with. If we don’t deal with it or don’t really want it, then, I would say this. We could definitely end up with a Nikki Haley or Kamala Harris as President. If we do, we won’t be the first country to have a female leader, and it may be what we need to do now.

Let me say this America, if you vote, Trump or Biden, be prepared to face the first female President. I believe nether Trump nor Biden are healthy enough at their ages to complete a full term. So, Biden already has Harris on his ticket and if Trump can’t win in the General, then Republicans will have to back Haley. The Republicans have a fiasco to overcome in Trump, his 2 impeachments, 4 indictments, 91 charges, and his loses in defamantion trials and hush money schemes, is crazy. By way of defamantion trials and cases he is also a convicted rapist, in a way. Is this the type of President American Women, want? I firmly believe there are enough Americans over all, who can see and listen to, all of this happening around Trump and all he has done, that he can’t win in 2024. Just my opinion all, if Americans actaully elect Trump again, well, lets just say, I believe we shall not be a democracy and republic anymore, start learning russian folks ! It’s sad but true, Trump will sell us out !

Online Dating, Adult or otherwise.


Online dating sites, really do not work, no matter what they base their matches on ! I have looked at many of them since I became a widower and even before. Let me say this, it matters not, for each one is set up to make money for it’s maker/ creator of course, and in the end, they exist because people, fail to communicate person toperson in today’s world.

I looked at Zoosk, Match, Our Time, for some, then I also looked at Adult Sites, figuring that may be easier, for you are dealing with people with like minded ideas. Yet, I find that is not the case either, then some one said try people your own age, and still theose sites fail also. The real question is why right, does anyone know why these dating sites charge so much, but do so little in reality?

In the end, I even looked at The Friend Finder Sites, including Adultfriendfiner. It is suppode to be for adult meetings, swingers, and sexual in nature. It advertises, itself as a way to find a partner ina Friendswith benefits situation or as a swinging situation, and it handles all sexual preferences of course, but the people who join it, end up posting nude pictures and basically texting, messaging, or chatting with one another, by way of chat rooms, or emails. The odds of meeting someone through it is slim, relaly, for, in America or across the world, peopleare scarred, hesitatant, they have anxieties, and fears and they hide behind things and avoid actually meeting anyone. You can meet someone yes, chat online, but people are critical of what you say or tell them, and they basically do not believe you are who you say you are. Why because it isa pretend world they are living in, so, the photos, and profiles are not real for about 50 percent that are in there. It’s a sad world to see actually, although some of the chatters do make friends in there, and chat on a daily basis. While the premise is good, it’s actual implimentation and how it is done is wrong and can be dangerous in today’s society. America and the world has too many predators, creeps and criminals out there, who come into these chats and dating sites, and wait to pounce or attack, those who are there. So, as the world is currently set up, dating whether on datings sites, adult or otherwise is dangerous. Today’s society, as awhole does not trust as much as they used to, and in the end dating is harder and more difficult then it has ever been in prior generations.

Some are now moving on from these dating sites to, things like Meet-Up, and events like Speed Dating and such. I have not ventured there personally, and I have not seen any data on how they work, or if they really do. I do think it is better to meet face to face in person, than it is to try to meet someone online. As children and teens we tend to meet others in public places, by playing with them in real life and that works. Yet we all fall into patterns and groups in someway do we not? We are divided by race, color, religion, sexual preferences, and so much more, education levels are included. Sadly, we also divide by age, and so much more. I don’t like your poluitics, I don’t like your skin color, etc. Personally, I hate no one, but, I have a belief, you don’t force what you prefer on me and vice versa, and we do just fine folks. When one forces others to be like them,or touch others without permission it’s wrong, and I hate anyone who touches a child in anyway, it’s just wrong morally, ethically and damaging to the child and society on a whole. They need to be jailed and punished if they do so, period.

So, let me say this, Online Dating whether Adult or not, does not work !. Today’s society, is fearful of it, it is also, being as careful as it can of course. Women fear taking chances, but so do men in their own way too. While women fear being taken advantage sexually, molested or stalked, men do too, but their worries come down to financial and more too. It is a two way street out there folks, so when we try to date because we are single, or widowed or divorced, we know we are taking a chance. That chance is in letting someone into your life and fearing they may not leave if it doesn’t work out, or menatl or even physical abuse can happen, or they want money. It’s a sad statement on society these days, the problems, complications and more, seem to multiply over time these days. So in the end what way do you go, if your single, on your own and wnat a partneror companion in the world? I wish I had the answer for all of us, but I don’t. As to social media, it broadcast much for sure, but it doesn’t bring people together and there is much bad advice in it. So, you learn to take social media with a eye on what it is saying and whethei rt fits you or those around you in anyway. Because even if Social Media is made on the purpose of good intentions, it can turn bad in many ways, privacy matters, sexual matters, political matters and attacks happen due to it. While I believe in the constitution and the first admendment in America, there are times when it protects the wrong ones, who cause more than is needed. So, the world is at a critical point as far as society should be concerned. We fear interacting with one another, because we can not judge the reaction of the other, always in the right way, the unexpected happens, anger, jealousy, attacks and self defenses that go too far. It is a part of humanity, and ho we use self-control comes into play.

My belief is dating sites can be more dangerous than helpful, unecessarily expensive also. Too many posers, fakes, liars and players and in the end predators are taking advantage of these sites. Should they exist, maybe, but, unless one extrememly careful, you can be taken, used or abused by those on them. Beware is all I can say folks.

Aging,Processes!


 Lets talk about aging, we all do it of course until we don’t, lol ! Now as we age, we tend to get smarter, and know more, but, we also, tend to either lose the physical abilities due to age and injuries, or the mental abilities due to age or disease, or some of us lose the emotional abilities we were born with, and get old and cold so to say. It is funny how it happens without us actually realizing it, but it does.

 As We age we get set in our ways and thoughts and beliefs and refuse to open up to other ideas. We learn what works for us and we stick with it, all. And that in and of itself, makes life a little easier for us as we age. Our bodies get weaker, unless we are exercise freaks and do it daily. And our minds get weaker because we are less depended on and more isolated, because of the age we reached. We get discarded in a way, for the newer generations that are behind us and when they catch up, they get the same treatment and don’t realize it is coming at them, anymore than we did at their age. It is a cycle of life we all must live through. It’s natural true, but not pleasant if you get my drift.

 When we reach a certain age, doesn’t matter which sex we be, we are set in our ways and we frown on those who are different for sure. Ever find yourself wishing you were younger or able to be more active, physically or sexually, or emotionally, and then going wow I remember that stuff? I know I do !

 I may be 68, but I am not dead yet, I still can move, I still can interact and I still can feel emotion and care, and attraction and fears. It’s just that, as we age we are more careful, we have seen and heard and done so much, we know where to avoid, dodge, run and duck so to say. Experience counts in life folks, whether it’s in games, sports, love or just laughs. We tend to know and feel what is right for ourselves and avoid those and things that aren’t, don’t we? Just because we learn, doesn’t mean we are dead and don’t want to be noticed, loved or held, or are not sexual in actions or thoughts. It just means we are not as easy and free caring as we were in our youth so to say. I hope some agree, but even if you don’t, remember we are all human we all feel and we all can be hurt ! We don’t enjoy being put down or ignored for being older either, we just want to be excepted and be included is all, we get lonely too.

 I have heard many say they like their lonely periods, they can think better, they can relax better, alone. We all get to that point in life, believe me folks. But, excessive isolation, causes problems with the human soul, and mind and being. Thats why, we always seek out things to do, places to go so we are never truley alone ? Evne the elderly, tend to end up together in Senior Centers, Concerts, resturants and more. Even if we don’t know one another personally we find the gathering and make it work somehow so we fit in, we adapt to whats there, don’t we? The human ability to adapt, is amazing really, and it works for all of us. Thank God for that at least right?

 We can’t all be rich and well to do as we age, some of us don’t reach the independent platuea so to say, We depend on our children to care for us, or end up in nursing homes or convalesent homes. Sadly, as our lives wind down, our relatives and families carry on their lives, and place us in such situations and we end up with no choice, we need to be cared for. Time stops for no one thats for sure, it’s amazing how it just keeps marching on. Yes, it’s true, The only one who messes with Father Time is Mother Nature folks, and they have one hell of a lengthy and long affair. We just live through it and watch it go by daily and happen. We benefit from it weather wise, but the constant is that time moves forward and we cycle down with age. We can’t avoid it, there is no miricle fountain of youth or elixer folks, we all face the passing of time and older age. If we survive and avoid all the pratt falls, mistakes and accidents along the way and of course we are fortunite enough to keep our sanity too. So many pratt falls and dangers in life, physically and mentally exist. I have seen then up close and personal, cancer, suicides, fires, guns, violence, accidental deaths on the roads or at events. So many things take people out, we are not super human and invinceable folks, no supermen or superwomen exist on this planet. I wish sometimes I were super, and I bet you do too, but, in the end, we must face old age and the fact we are human.

  If your lucky in life, you have at least two loves, you have had at least two special relationships, and you enjoy being with others. If your lucky you get your fair share of hapiness and love and material things you need. But, some just aren’t that lucky and they get by with less and are happy still. Remember as you age, and head down the ending slope, that it’s the interactions and the people you had them with, that makes you happy that counts, as long as they were happy too. It’s nice to be a single person, who had it all, but it all falls away if you have no one as you age. Believe me I know, I am a widower and have been now for 3 years almost, you fear involvement, you don’t want to compare someone to the one you lost or hurt them, you fear rejection, you fear the fact your aging and don’t look as good as you used to, your wrinkles show, your hair falls out, the jolt and jumps in your steps stop, and you slow to a walk then to a crawl before you fall. Gravity gets ya, anger can eat you up, inside, depression comes on and you realize at some point you have to cast it all aside and drive toward your own finish line at your own rate. It’s just a fact of humanity that we all must face, don’t we? Doesn’t matter if we are the president, or a peasant on the street, it is a fate and destiny that we all do meet, it’s called death.

 So, yes aging, is a process we all face, knowing and learning we are limited in life’s length, is just a fact we all must face. So we prepare, we save money, we buy insurance,and plots to rest. we try to make sure, we are not a burden on anyone as we age, nor do we want to impose on anyone or interfear in their lives either. So, we learn to live alone again, once we lose the one we loved. If we get divorced or our partner passes, most of us, do not rush into a new relationship for many reasons. We don’t want to compare others to the one we lost, we don’t want to be hurt emotionally, or financially, physically or mentally either. We are cautious, we are slow, to engage or open up. For once we do, we are taking a chance someone will hurt or damage or take from us, and we can’t replace or repair it. It is like a cautionary tale, in an old book or movie, me I am like one of those Grumpy Old Men from that old movie, that starred Jack Lemon and Walter Matheau lol. I putter along, I notice things, I carry on, with what brings, But, I watch from afar, and I don’t get involved, and no one notices me you see, for that is how it should be. And I am not stupid enough to think anyone would care either, all are too busy living and doing their own things. Life goes on.

  I used to think we are like the ants beneath our feet, We scurry all over the world, collecting food and what we need to survive. And below us the ants do the same. We do not know what our purpse here is anymore than they do beneath us. They have their drives and motivations and processes and we have ours. It is indeed a endless cycle of life is it not folks, you tell me !