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Cancer May be Back!


      January 18th, 2012 is here, hard yo believe but so am I still, in a week I will turn 56 and have out lived my real father. He died of cancer in November 1983, lung cancer got him, as it did my step-father in 1990 and my mother in 1991. Prior to any of them was a girl I know in High School who developed ovarian cancer and still survives today. And now I have lived through my second wife having cancer also once and the chemo and radiation treatments and she has survived 5 years, but now tests show lumps coming back in her breasts. Tomorrow the battle starts once more with MRIs, biopsies, and worry, as we begin once more to wait out God‘s decision on whether she will live or die.

       The battles I have seen with cancer, go back now to 1971 and  the year my maternal grandfather died of it in a nursing home. His was pancreatic as was my step-fathers in 1990. My real parents went from lung cancer, neither capable of quitting cigarettes right up until they could smoke no more. It doesn’t matter though what you do, or how you do it, humanity has not found a cure for this, the deadliest disease on the planet. I wish to God they would and soon, but I am just one person who has people dying or ravaged by this disease, imagine me multiplied by millions. How do the survivors of cancer victims, their loved ones keep going, never knowing if we ourselves will face this, or if  someone else we know and love may too. Sadly, we can never predict it and no Doctor can either, all we can do is help to try to defeat or eliminate it in some way with money and time.

        If I could find a way to beat such a disease as Cancer, or any other diseases I would, I am not a science major, or a medical expert, so I have no knowledge of how to beat something so deadly.  The experts, both in the medical field and science fields have fought this disease now for decades upon decades, and no one can stop it , it seems. I have seen this disease caused by a blow to a leg and found in a thigh of my sister when she was young and removed. I have seen it kill my grandfather in one organ and my step-father in the same, I have seen it ravage a young woman’s life through her own ovaries, and parents die of it, from smoking. I don’t want to see my second wife go from this. Over 5 years ago now, we went all the way to Sloan Kettering in New York to help her, I will do so again if needed.  But someone , Please just tell me how do you stop a killer like Cancer?

 

Racial Comments No More Please!


CNN has many reporters and many political experts and speakers, but some one needs to explain why, it has Rowan Martin. While I believe in equal opportunity and I believe Mr. Martin can indeed speak well and write well at times, his attitude regarding racism and the interaction between the races, is in my opinion poorly handled. Here is a man who comes across as highly intelligent, well spoken when he speaks sense and politics. But go one step to speak of the differences between the races and wham Mr. Martin will go off the deep end raving and ranting. Unnecessary, Mr. Martin, this is modern-day America, not the days of slavery, or the Civil War or before. So please calm the hell down when you discuss this area of discussion. You make yourself look silly on television and foolish as an individual so educated, yet so touchy. I have seen now Black History Month come to be, we honor African American Leaders a lot too, Booker Washington, Rev. Martin Luther King JR. and others. We recognize African-Americans contributions to the country and their sacrifices daily on History Channels and more. Relax Mr. Martin no one wants to take away any fame, honor, contributions or rights of African-Americans, we all live in peace today. We don’t need a resurgence of the Black Panthers or racial riots at all, thank you.

While we are discussing this though, Mr. Rowan Martin, I have a simple problem with the way you talk also. You get upset when people call the African-American Race anything but African-American and I agree it is wrong to do, but do me a favor ok, stop calling the Caucasian Race white!. We are not white, we do not blind you in the sunlight, we are not honkies, we are not country bumpkins either. We are Caucasians and that is the fact, please refer to us in that way and get off your high horse on being African-American you’re not alone.No one likes being called racial names and slandered and attacked by anyone and we all know that don’t we, Mr. Rowan Martin, so be more careful in how you speak please.

I served in the United States Armed Forces for almost 16 years, I worked side by side with every race and cultural and nationality out there, I visited Europe, The North Atlantic Countries, South America and even The Virgin Islands. People are people no matter what color or race or nationality, If treated with respect, and kindness and as equals all will get along. We need not this divide or fight over who is superior or who is inferior in the United States, that is why we are the United States.  We accept everyone, till they disrespect us, or attack our country and way of life. So before we fight over who is Hispanic, African-American, Caucasian, or Oriental, lets remember we are a country who takes in all, and that is what makes us great. If there was ever a country in the world that, accomplished accepting all and respecting all and letting all live together it is the United States of America, and all Americans should be proud to live here and respect one another!.

The Real Election is Coming


      As the Republican list of Candidates starts to whittle down one by one for lack of funding, we are getting closer and closer to the big bout of the year. That being a Republican Candidate head to head with President Obama for the big prize. It will be interesting to see how such a head to head will change the dynamics of this election cycle so far, I don’t think it really will.

       The Republicans left now are led by Mitt Romney who has run for public office many times and just never won except as a Governor in his old home state. Ron Paul is running to tip the status quo as he himself says and he doesn’t believe he will ever get the nomination. Newt Gingrich is running just to really put a boot in Romney’s ass and to make the whole thing look good. It’s sad really but true. Santorum meant well when he joined in this race, but he is not ready for prime time as the actors and actresses would say. Maybe in the future Rick, for your still young enough. Rick Perry reminds me of that old coach for the New Orleans Saints Jim Mora, Super Bowl what Super Bowl, don’t speak to me about a Super Bowl. Rick Perry should quit and go home he is another not ready for prime time player.And I congratulate Jon Huntsman on his ability to know when to quit without putting himself in too deep.

         Whether Romney gets the nomination or any other candidate, they will have an uphill battle to get the White House from President Obama.What I really doubt strongly is if any of these candidates left can beat Obama at all. Even Mitt Romney who speaks pretty good and says things pretty clearly does not have the strength of experience to overcome Obama this election year in my mind.

       Sadly but surely the list of candidates will whittle itself down, one by one, and one Republican will stand to face President Obama. In the end though who can really beat him out of those standing? I don’t know, but I do know this much, as long as Obama keeps working to fix the economy, keep his health care plan in place and keeps us out of wars, I am ok with him for four more years.

Mackey- By; William M. McCurrach


     

Mackey

Hidden inside every human being is that desire to be loved, wanted and needed, but, some never get that attention do they?  Such is the case for Mackey  Storm, a boy born to parents in constant  confusion and pain, Mackey believed he was alright, at least that is what they always told him, yet as he grew older Mackey knew he was different, then everyone else. His mother seemed to pull back from him when he was around 5 or 6 years old. Why Mackey never grasped or understood and his father well he never got close anyway, always busy, working and doing his own things.

Mackey began to notice how he was different not from his looks that’s for sure, cause Mackey was always a handsome lad, with bright eyes and dark ebony hair and a smile that made others smile back. No it was when people started to talk to Mackey that things changed. Mackey always seemed to be one step ahead of all conversations and knew what others were going to say, why, Mackey never understood.  Mackey was a straight A student, but he was shunned by the other kids, they sensed he was different.

Mackey began to realize he was different himself at 5 years old, when his mom told him no about something he wanted and less than 5 minutes later after Mackey stared at her, she changed her mind and gave in.  Mackey got the candy that day and every day.  At least it was so easy for Mackey he would laugh at anyone having trouble with anything. The other kids would try again as Mackey said to and the next thing they knew, as Mackey stared and watched them they flew through it and finished it all correctly. Mackey had that kind of effect on people, he would reinforce them by telling them they could do it and wham it was done. Mackey did this to whoever, he could, never hurting anyone, because he was a good kid.

By the time Mackey hit ten years old, he stood 6 feet tall and he was an imposing figure. Many thought he was tall for his age and they were right.  What wasn’ t  normal were those days when Mackey seemed to control everything around him and everyone too. It was like a magic spell fell over every person within Mackey’s eye sight.  He would just watch and see things done the way he thought they should be. Amazingly, he would stare and his brow would furrow and his eyes became like two pins of light. The next thing Mackey knew, no matter what it was, came out Mackey’s way.

When Mackey hit his teenage years at 13, and he noticed girls, he could have anyone he wanted,   they swooned for him and hung on his every word.. It was wild to watch for sure, but Mackey or those who knew him never questioned it, they just assumed he was a popular kid. Never a question was asked why it was all so, it was just accepted by all.

Then at 16, as most kids do, Mackey began to mature a bit and see things a little differently and he began to understand this weird power of control he has.  By concentrating, Mackey could make almost anyone do anything and he seemed to see into the future too, he could tell people not to do something cause he could see bad events in the future, in his sleep.

At 18 Mackey filled out and his weight went up to 220 lbs. and pure muscle. He never exercised a day in his life, it was natural for him.  Mackey was now a young man, he was strong physically as well as mentally. Mackey’s predictions of the future, became more intense and clearer for him. He could now make out faces on the people in his dreams and he heard names and sounds too. His dreams were now, as good as being awake.  After a night of these dreams, he had to go out and find the people in them and try to prevent harm from happening to them. Mackey saved many a person this way in his 18th year. He would run to the places he saw in his dreams and find them in real life and sit and wait until his dream started becoming reality and then step in and change it, stopping the person from getting injured or killed. Mackey begin to believe this was his purpose in life, his destiny to help others with his gift of future sight and control and intelligence. It had to be thought Mackey, why else would he be able to know and do all he did?  But, it grew tiring after a few years for Mackey. Something was wrong with Mackey now, but, he couldn’t tell what. The pattern of seeing, reacting and fixing was slowly wearing on Mackey’s nerves

On Mackey’s 21st birthday, he awoke in a peaceful manner, his eyes opening slowly as the light from the window hit them and he adjusted to it. He lay in bed, just relaxed and no aggressive moves or actions did he take, just   laying   there. Mackey thought finally it is over, no more dreams, or sights, no one close by I want to control or even will try to. A peace hit Mackey that day. In his mind all Mackey could hear or see were his own thoughts, no one else’s .

Mackey’s parents now older and in their 50’s gave Mackey a 21st birthday party that day, they invited all his friends and relatives, spending a good grand on it all. Mackey got presents and money and lots of hugs and kisses and Happy Birthdays. The party lasted most of that evening and into the night, not ending till 1 am. Mackey was now 21 and he was dead tired, he trudged off to bed now, and fell asleep.

The next day, for Mackey was weird, he had no more control over others, his intelligence seemed just normal not high anymore, yet Mackey felt normal in all other ways. He wasn’t dreaming of anything, anymore, Mackey felt scared too, for the first time in decades.  Mackey knew then he needed  help, someone who could answer what happened to his abilities and powers so to say, why have they disappeared? Mackey wanted to know but had no idea where to turn for help, he floundered around looking for reasons and help,  no one came to help him at all.

Mackey awoke on his 22nd birthday and climbed from bed, his hair a mess on his head, his eyes half open, and stumbled into the bathroom, looked in the mirror and froze in surprise. The man looking back at him, looked like an 80 year old man!. Mackey screamed and his body shook and shuddered as he screamed and yelled, help me!  But no help was coming, Mackey knew it now as he raised his hands to his face and felt the creases and wrinkles of old age and cried, I am only 22!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That afternoon, Mackey laid in his bed, tired again and no place to turn to, he closed his eyes and prayed to dream, but, no dreams were to be found for Mackey now.

6 am, the next morning, Mackey’s friend and neighbor came knocking on his door, no answer so the friend kept knocking for the next few days, after three days and no answer, the neighbor got worried and called the police, they arrived within 30 minutes of the call. As the neighbor explained   his worries over Mackey’s disappearance and not answering the door, the police listened . They told the neighbor we will check on him before we leave, then, headed to Mackey’s apartment.

Knocking on the door and no one answering the Police decided they needed to look in on Mackey and make sure he was ok. Sending the neighbor for the key from the landlord they waited outside Mackey’s door. When the neighbor gave the key to the police, they went in. A smell came from the apartment as soon as the door opened, causing the police officers and the neighbor to gag at the smell.

In the bedroom they found Mackey, sprawled across his bed, a skeleton was all they found. Mackey was dead at 22 years old and all that remained was his skeleton in his bed. Mackey had burned himself out, by dreaming his dreams, following them and controlling others, his futuristic visions and powers had eaten Mackey to death.  Mackey self combusted from the inside, out, is what the autopsy found, and they never found the cause. He lived his short life helping others with his futuristic visions and his power of controlling others, Mackey will go down in history as a helper and humanity will miss him.

 

Why The Days Must End? by William M. McCurrach


Why The Days Must End? by William M. McCurrach.

Why The Days Must End? by William M. McCurrach


Why Must the Days End?

Why do the days have to end?

Why do the nights have to come?

The Darkness rolls in,

Night reminding me,

Of, my past,my sin.

 

 

I didn’t know what you wanted or needed,

You refused to say,

So now I wonder and think,

All night and through the day.

 

I go thru life, a statement reverberating in my mind,

It’s one I carry with me,

And shall for all time.

 

My father, laid dying on his bed you see,

And these are the words he said to me:

My son he said my days have come and gone,

I shall leave you before for long.

 

But live you life to the fullest and enjoy,

Do today what you love the most,

Enjoy life to the fullest, and love those around you the deepest,

For though I be gone and you may cry,

Please remember these words, I give you to keep and hold.

Live your life with honesty and truth,

Be happy, be true, be honest and be bold.

 

As I leave you now he said:

I shall be gone and you will cry,

But remember this is not really goodbye.

 

We are all put here for a purpose, yes a plan.

When we fulfill that purpose our time has come,

And our life is done, and I am just a man.

 

The days will pass, the weeks will come and go,

The weeks, will turn to months, the months to years,

And over time,  you will, have cried all of your tears.

But live your life for each day you are here,

For the calendar will continue to roll,

Time will pass before you know,

In the end my son,

We all eventually do what we have been put here for,

And our time is done.

 

Then he rolled his head, in his bed,

The vomit came, his eyes rolled back in his head,

And peacefully, and in silence he was dead.

 

I remember that day oh so well,

I remember the fishing trips, the pizzas, the laughter and the tears,

And have carried his words, with me and lived them for all my years