Recently I have seen another person die from Cancer at a young age, yep 60 years old, same age as I, and the first girl I ever kissed. Her family waked her on Saturday and I did not go, for more than one reason, the first is, I have a wife with cancer, and we are fighting it. second she had family members who didn’t like me and accused me of stalking her and her sisters, false charge actually, but who cares anymore that was 30 years ago. Anyway, they waked the lady and I sent my Condolences over the Internet to the funeral home.

                 IN the meantime, my wife is facing her cancer bravely, but not smartly. She struggles through each day and struggles to eat or stand up, or anything else. She is supposed to be on a Drug called Affinator, which should stop the advance of her cancer for at least six months if it works. The Doctor gave her a dose too large for her size, and we called in and she reduced it. Yet my wife is not taking it now, she stopped, and won’t touch it because it causes stomach problems and she loses all taste to it and more for side effects. I battle with her to take her medication so she will be here longer, her answer is always the same, its my body, and I decide what I put in it. Is she surrendering, I am not sure, but I wish there was a way to convince her to take it. It worries me everyday, and I don’t know what to say or do.I don’t want to fight or argue with her, she is already stage 4, it has gone over 10 years from breast cancer to bone cancer, what can one say or do when the one your loved is dying and terminal?

          Now, I am not inexperienced at this cancer shit, I have lost, my grandfather on my mother’s side to it, My real father to it, my step-father to it, and my mother. The first girl I kissed, above died of it December 1st, 2016, and had it from age 18 to death. So, I have lived with it in my life in more ways than one, including my own lung cancer in 2013, when they took a lobe and one third of my right lung. Yet I am still here and fighting on. It’s one hell of a battle folks, no matter how you face it.Let me say this to all Cancer Victims/ Patients, don’t surrender ever, fight on so mankind can find a way to someday destroy this deadly disease, we need to give them a foundation, from what to fight from! Fight on Cancer Victims, you deserve to live longer too. Remember your attitude and fighting spirit will keep you alive longer, as long as you fight!

 

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      Her name was not important at the time I met her, what was important was her attitude and bubbly self consciousness and her smile. she was vivacious, intelligent, and one hell of a woman in more ways than many know. She lived her life her way, way back when I met her as a young teen in the 1970s. We connected in high school days, her smiling ways, her chasing me was funny at first, than it became too much for me and I didn’t know what to do. So I did what most boys of 15 years old would have done, i grew to know her, and talked to her and laughed and played with her. But, she was always herself, proud of who she was and how she lived, and for that I loved her. She was very special to many, who knew her, a friend, a lover, a caring person with a bright smile. she took in kids and adults with no home and helped them through. She had one hell of a way of loving and caring for you if you were on her good side, but cross her and you paid a price of being cast out and ignored. It was her way, she prayed daily which few who knew her knew. She suffered pain from her 18th year to her death physically, due to cancer she fought continually, yet she smiled thru it all and kept going. she raised two boys basically on her own with her families assistance now and then, she married twice, once to her boys father and once to another. In the end, she left both who couldn’t handle her, and moved on alone. she was brave, tough, loving, caring, warm and smart.  She fought to the end, until she was too tired and worn out to fight anymore, leaving behind a lifetime of memories and kindness. May God Bless her and care for her always. rest in peace, old friend, rest in peace, may all the pain and suffering you went thru in your life be gone. May God open his Pearly Gates, give you the Angel Wings you deserve so you may soar forever. Rest Bea, rest now and forever in Peace.

             Long Ago, when we were young, that night I walked you home in November was Special to me and to you too and we both knew it too.  My tribute to you Bea is the Poem I wrote of that evening on that hillside:

That Kiss

By: William M. McCurrach

I want to tell you a story you will believe,

It was a long time ago, and no one will grieve! Pause;

It was a rainy November night, the darkness fell, 

As we stood, there in fright

But the memory would burn for years on end,

That gentle kiss my female friend.

That kiss echoed through the years,

I remember giving it to you, to stop your tears.

When we broke, you smiled you see,

Said you had to go home from me.

That kiss lives on in my mind,

That kiss never died even in time.

Five Years passed by and I saw you again,

You invited me over to have tea like a friend,

As we laughed and reminisced, suddenly up came that kiss.

I never answered your question you see,

Because I knew you weren’t for me.

That kiss still lingers in your mind and yes indeed even in mine.

One gentle kiss that we both shared,

Yet never once did you or I say we cared.

But the kiss lingers on till the day we die,

And I shall never tell you why?

Yes That kiss lingers on and onnnnnnnnnnnnn, till we dieeeeeeeeeeeeee!

 

           New day, new subject, but by now becoming an old one. Donald John Trump. Look I know he won the Electoral Vote and will be the 45th President, we all know it, ok ! So can we just move on and suffer for the next four years and be done with it? Sadly, whats done is done, but he does need some advise for his term. 1)  Stop crying over the popular vote, who cares 2) Get a god damn haircut and stop being so vain, if ya gonna be President look and act like one. 3) Pick your damn Secretary of State and stop screwing people around. 4) release your damn taxes and stop hiding them, unless you are hiding something, then America will find out anyway and you will pay. 5) If you mess with or change Obama Care you better make sure those who are on it have coverage before you yank it out from them. 6) Take your wife and kid with you to the White House, we can’t afford to be paying a million bucks a day for her to live in Trump Tower, it’s a waste of the peoples money. 7) don’t mess with Social security or Medicare/ Medicaid, people depend on it to survive. 8) I suggest Mr. Trump that you do take care of our Veterans, increase the Disability Payments and make our medical care better, but no Sarah Palin for Veterans Affairs head, she sucks.

            In Closing Mr. Trump, you may have started your run for President, by attacking Mexicans, Blacks, Hispanics and so much more, but you better stop that shit soon. and stop pushing building a wall between us and Mexico, just the cement would cost us 53 billion dollars, never mind the rebar to hold it together, the digging of the trench and the men to dig it. Then you have to increase security men to patrol it border patrols, and talk to Mexico work with them not make enemies, and  additional costs, are you nuts? Wake the hell up, Mexico doesn’t want that wall, Americans really don’t either, increase the border patrols and communicate with the Mexicans, and lets make it work the way it’s always been. There has never been a massive wall between Mexico, and America and there has never been one between Canada and America either, so cut the bullshit. I know as an American veteran, Disabled and who served my country for 16 years, I don’t want or need any damn walls built, Build our economy, create jobs, innovate. Not cause division and hate. Manufacturing is what needs rebuilt Mr. Trump, saving Carrier was a penny in  the bucket, face it, 1,000 jobs taint shit, when there be millions more looking for work, not accountable on the unemployment rolls these days. So many have stopped looking these days the numbers are staggering.

 

      Ladies and Gents, I don’t know how your family was growing up or if you had siblings or not, but I was the second of five children in the family I grew up in. Lately, I have been receiving messages from my elder sibling telling me I dislike him and don’t care for him at all and he is misunderstanding what I am saying, so I going to explain the problem here, for you, Keith.

       First off Keith, I really don’t know you even though you were born in December 1953 and I, January 1956. We were never close, think about it, even as babies there are very few pictures of us together.  By the time I was five the only contact we had was your being made to walk me to school each day, until I learned the route on my own, then poof you were gone, and I suffered through elementary school on my own. You didn’t come to my rescue then or help me then when I couldn’t fit in, you ran the other way and denied me as your brother.  You were embarrassed by me, and stayed with friends ignoring me. So don’t come blaming me for any estrangement between us, I don’t really know you.

               You chased me when mom wanted to put me away, with your friends, trying to catch me for her. I didn’t let you or them catch me then, but was retrieved by the police and put away for two years. why because you teased and ostracized me and ignored me and so did mom. By the time I returned from the Children’s Center, where were you? Did you invite me into your life of sports and friends and running free, nope ya left me and never said five words to me, right up to the day you moved out with your first wife and had kids. Did I know your wife and kids nope, did they know me nope, did you ever meet my first wife or my daughters face to face nope. So don’t blame me for the estrangement, or tell me I don’t like you ok.?  It’s all bullshit and I tire of it.I didn’t survive like I have with you, I did survive despite mom and you and being beat by Abraham too. Didn’t I, Keith, and I made good for myself, after all I went through. Where were you?

             When James McCurrach died, you came to his wake and embarrassed and humiliated me and yourself as well as our mother with your performance, but didn’t think twice about doing so did you? Why, Keith, your never even made one attempt to meet the man when he was alive, so why pull that one? Did I see you once in all the years you were in North Carolina and I in the Navy in Virginia for 12 years, less then 300 miles apart, nope you never made an effort then did you.?  Yet you came to court when I was falsely accused and convicted and spread the word I was a felon around, and I wasn’t, it was all over turned over lies. I appreciated you paying my way home when I was released and told you I would pay you back if you wanted, you said no.  When did I see you next Keith, you tell me that court procedure was way back after mom died in 1992, you called me in 2015 and wanted to come see me. worried about dying estranged from me, did I refuse you, nope, I let you come here and talk to me, and stay in my home as you did. Yet I guess that wasn’t enough right? I even gave you the truth when you started asking questions as far as I was told it by many. That’s what a sibling does Keith, he treats the other sibling with respect and the truth, and doesn’t hide anything. So please don’t ever send me stupid statements about I don’t like you, because I don’t know you and you just don’t understand it do you? How can I know you if you were never around for me to know you? Answer that!

        In closing, let me say this to you and the world, my parents as I grew up didn’t make me who I am, neither did my elder sibling. I used other families of my friends i met in schools as surrogates and made it work and they did too for my good.  I hid in other people’s homes Keith in High School days and after, so I didn’t have to go home and live in the devastation I saw as my own family. Abraham was a brute, a bully, and violent, Mom was lost in her own world and one mean bitch to all around her. You were never around Keith you escaped into your world of sports and sex and booze, you didn’t see or live through it all I did. You didn’t have to protect the younger two, April and Matthew from Alex like I did, battling him daily as he tried to bully them and beat them up and destroy his own parents too. Alex didn’t go bad on his own, he went bad to get revenge against Abraham and Mom too. So don’t feed me bullshit of I don’t like you ok!  Again I don’t know you, not really !  So if you want to read my stories, do so, if you don’t, don’t, I don’t care.    I don’t want any money from you, nor did I ask for any ever or from anyone else, I did my shit on my own, busting my back, and made it my way.   I may not be the best writer in the world, but I am the best me  I can be each day and I served and protected my country, not for 4 years or 6 years, but for a total of sixteen years and got injured on duty,I am proud of my service to my country. I am proud I went back to College and graduated at the top of my class, and received Awards and Honors, at 40 years old. I am proud I own my own home and have no more mortgage on it and I am proud I remarried and made it work. and I never said I disliked you, I said I don’t know you or understand you, because you were never around. Now I hope you understand me and what I am saying, and stop moaning and crying and grow up and face the facts, you choose your route not me. I hope this ends the question of dislike for you, I don’t understand you, that’s all. God Bless You !

 

 

 

 

       The Trump Administration is taking shape with some of the richest people in america’s history folks ! Rich picks everywhere you go, and then medical insurance and coverage’s at risk, social security at risk and education costs also. sadly, the american people have screwed themselves and they don’t even realize it.

        Trump is not acting like an incoming President he is acting more like an incoming Dictator! He thinks he can get all his appointments approved easily and do as he pleases. Sadly because of the American people’s vote on November 8th, 2016, this country will begin it’s downward slide into a second class society and third world nation!

              Trump is toying with Mitt Romney and playing him for a fool! Any American with a mind knows what Romney said about Trump during the run to the Presidency,  do you really think Trump is the type of person to forgive and forget that way? Hell no folks he holds grudges forever.

               As he toys with  Romney and plays him as a fool to humiliate him, he is considering Sarah Palin for the Veterans Administration Director, damn is he out to screw America and it’s Veterans then. Sarah Palin know nothing of Military Life or Medical costs or procedures, is Trump sick or joking, cause if he is serious, he is screwing america’s veterans who gave all to serve and protect. Sadly those who lost limbs, and suffered PTSD serving their Country are about to take it up the ass, if Sarah Palin is approved or  allowed to run the VA.

             Sadly, Americans believed trumps promises and for the next fur years we shall have to live with his beliefs and plans and the results he puts forth, for his party rules in Congress now. It will more than likely take, about 16 to 20 years to recover from Trumps four year run as President, if he wins reelection in 2020 it will take more. The damage he is going  to cause America in Overseas Affairs alone will rocket us backwards toward a cold war with not only Russia, but the whole world. President Merkel of Germany will have his ass banned from the country if he pulls his sexist shit with her and so will many world leaders. Koreans are laughing at his election and looking for ways to screw america over already, sadly.  Unless the Electoral College, overturns his election by December 19th, 2016 we are stuck with him and done in world affairs. All I can say is America, America, God Shed his Grace on Thee, and we have to hope God will Protect us well, the next four years.

 

       Cancer, a nasty word in any language around the world. It kills at a steady pace, and it is slow and painful to die from it, as well as to be the one to watch someone die from it. No matter how you look at cancer, there seems to be no way to fully stop all of it it, it comes in many different kinds and changes to another when it is determined to get a life

           I know this because my father I didn’t know well was hit with cancer in 1984 and died from it, lung cancer, my mother died of lung cancer also in 1991, my step-father died of cancer in 1990.  I had lung cancer caught at a early stage in 2013, and my wife had first breast cancer in 2006 and now it has become bone cancer for her. I am surrounded by people dying from a deadly disease daily it seems. I have survived it so far, cause mine was caught at stage one, and I lost a lobe and 1/3 of my right lung to it and survived. The important thing is to know if it is in your family ancestry folks and to prepare for it mentally.

           My wife started with breast cancer and is now into bone cancer. We have been through one set of chemicals, and are now on a second set for her. Her energy level is .low, her legs are heavy and weak, her arms are weak and she sometimes can’t lift them, she sleeps far too much and eats like a mouse, even though I try to feed her all the time. The side effects of the chemicals she is taking, are worse at this point then the cancer I think. I think the chemicals are taking away the energy she needs to enjoy her final days on earth and I think at some point a decision must be made by her to lower the chemical intake and get some energy back so she can at least live some in her final days. What do you think folks, do you believe like i do, that the quality of life, is more important than the quantity of life for cancer patients, unless the pain and suffering is too much, then you allow them to terminate keeping them comfortable? Am I wrong in believing this folks or right, or is this determined on a person by person basis. I know this for myself, if I am to die of cancer, I would want to be kept as painless as possible till my end and I believe that is what all patients deserve, no matter who they be.

             The real question folks is this, Is it worth keeping people with cancer alive, if the pain they suffer is so bad they can’t do a damn thing worth living for? You Tell me folks, at what point is the chemicals, medications, tests, and scans no longer worth it and the patients rights violated by the Doctors?  Just because, one has Cancer and is dying when you are deemed and called terminally by the Doctors, doesn’t mean you are an experiment they can test their new drugs on ! Is It? Does it? You Tell me!

 

 

 

         Hello America, welcome to the Donald Trump years as President of the United States of America!

              Watch as Trump makes himself richer, his children richer and the middle class and lower poorer.  Watch as he gives the Billionaires more money and tax breaks and forgets the little people who voted for him in a worse situation then ever before. Watch as the roads never get fixed, the wall never gets built, and jobs never come back to America. watch as he alienates other countries ad leaders and isolates us from the world. Watch as he appoints people he has no business appointing as President, and does as he pleases because he believes he can. Keep watching America as your money goes south, and instead of getting factories back you get more skyscrapers and less to live on. Watch as he insults and angers, other leaders and the UN and so much more with stupid ideas, cause it is what he shall do. Trump deserves to be impeached even before he starts in my opinion, but time shall tell, I just hope Pence knows his possibility of becoming President is very high.

           As we go forward folks into 2017, and the Obama’s say goodbye to us all, remember the class they have, the style they had and the peace they kept us in. Remember the graciousness of Michele Obama and her great looks and kindness to all. Remember their full support of Hillary and why they did it, in fear of just what we got, Trump !

                 I will be close to 61 years old when Trump is sworn in on January 20th 2017. I have seen Presidents come and go many times over, from John f, Kennedy’s assassination till today, as Obama closes out his 8 years in service to us all. Never in our history has a man so unworthy of the Presidency ever been elected to the office as Trump is. I pray daily for Americans living on welfare, social security, medicare and food stamps and disability payments, for Trump will try to rip them out from under all under them, who earned them. if you or yours think you will have Social security when you reach your sixty’s or seventy’s, forget it, If you think Medicare or Medicaid will be there to help you in old age or illness forget it, Trump will kill it all.If you think Trump cares about the average American Citizen, you can forget that one for sure, Watch and see folks, watch and see!

         The American people got sucker punched when they voted for Trump, you will all see it begin in January once he is sworn in. he doesn’t care about education for the poor or middle class, he cares about it for his rich children though, so when you try to get loans to send them to school or college, and can’t get a penny, don’t say you were not warned, you all voted for him!

          My advise for all working Americans, middle class and lower is simple folks, pay off your mortgages, your credit cards and bills now! Save every penny you have now, and in the near future, prepare like Boy and Girl Scouts, and hang on, the ride is gonna be a rough one, especially with a man who is calling cheating in and fraud in an election he won!

 

 

         It seems to me, by Electing Trump President, the American people are about to learn just how the rich get richer in America! Trump is going to fix the tax rates in such a way as the poor and middle class pay more and the rich pay less, sadly, killing off the middle class and below, in at a quick rate. If the Middle Class and below have ever had a say in the economy of the United States, they won’t when Donald Trump is finished for sure.

        Also the hope of many Americans for health coverage and insurance will probably go down the drain also, as he works to dismantle and destroy Obama Care, tossing millions off of it, to recreate it.  I hope he stops long enough to figure out, what he is going to provide instead of it and installs it first.

         And what of Medicare and medicaid and Social security folks? Will Americans still have it? Or is it to die and not be there making all of us work till the day we die? You Tell me folks, you Voted Trump, not I !

       Do you really think Angela Merkel of Germany will put up with our President Trump talking down to her like he does to American Women, I think she will kick his ass the hell out of her country and go it alone without us. She doesn’t put up with the same shit American Women do, and neither do the women of so many countries. Go ahead Mr. trump touch the women of other countries as you do American women and see what they will do to you. They won’t care if you President, they will come after you, you fool!

        One more thing Mr. Trump, you promised to take care of the United States Veterans, who served and kept this country strong and defended our nation and others, you, I hope will keep your promises in this area, we Disabled veterans need a raise in our benefits so we can live our lives in peace. Will you give us a raise and treat us right and allow for death benefits for us too? We are watching and waiting Mr. Trump. your day is coming to lead show us how you will do it.

        In closing, whether you stole the election, or the Russians helped you win, or how ever it was done, remember this, Mr. Trump, no Nazi show allowed, no raising of hands or fists in Nazi like expressions. We the American People don’t want it here and you should condemn and destroy the whole organization and any offshoots of it too on American Soil. At no time should any organization of Neo Nazis, or Nazis of any type be allowed in America.  Remember this Mr. Trump we are all watching to see what happens and which way your taking us, don’t go the wrong way. We The American veterans are watching and believe you me, we can and will react.