Diagnosis, action next and my Stories live! Thanks


       Each And Every Day brings me closer to seeing what has infected or grown within one of my lungs. Facing the same disease that has affected so many in my life over its span is scary, hard and not knowing what will come next is even worse. Never knowing whether you will cough up something, loose breath, or just drop from weakness is crazy. Yet so far I am holding my own since they found what ever it may be in one lung, and told me it is isolated to that lung. That is about the only good point so far in this discovery and the news of the illness!

Cancer has taken my Grandfather, on my maternal side way back in 1970, it has struck down my real father in 1984, got mom in 1991 and in between took my step-father in 1990, now it seems I must travel the roads they did with the same disease. My Second wife had cancer also but hers was breast cancer and she is still with us today. Thank God for that miracle is all I can say. At least someone survived through it so far, and that’s a plus. Yet, cancer hits different parts of the human body, and for me it has hit the lungs, which on the survival ratings, is the worse one to get, only 16.4 % survive what i have. So the battle begins, I believe come Friday of this week with them taking a part of the mass by biopsy. Then I will know exactly what I am fighting and the severity of it I am sure.

      Each day I wake up thankful for being here still and stopping to look back on my life, to review what I did and didn’t do in it.  I can’t change anything that happened before I was old enough to realize what was going on and could control my own destiny, but, I made the best with what I was handed I think. I can’t change who my parents were, how they divorced or who replaced my father. I can’t change the physical and mental abuse i suffered as a kid, nor can I change the fact I was given away by my mother and then handed back to her when I fought against it. I can’t change the beatings with pipes,fireplace pokers and shovels, or the throwing me down stairs, or yanking from my bed for beatings when I was a kid. But, I survived those too, funny how that happens isn’t it?  I survived being Unwanted in school and at home to move on to surrogate parents who helped me survive and raised me partially and helped to make me who I became. I survived the short stay in the Army, the Army National Guard and then the longer stay in the US Navy, a job that I am very proud of surviving and doing. I survived a nasty divorce and missed my daughters for years and survived false accusations too. Now I must face the road my parents faced as they died, and I am doing so with grace, pride and strength gathered from friends, relatives and my second wife. God Bless her for all she is and does for me, I love her deeply.

Time to list my stories for reading by all and hope some will read them and remember me in someway anyway. I am no Hemingway, I am no Dan Brown or Robert Ludlum either, I am a guy who takes short incidents in his life and careers and makes them into short stories and writes poetry and murder mysteries for fun and to make a few bucks on the side for my wife, who sells them on KIndle e-Books on Amazon.

      Please read a few if you can, I know times are rough in America and money is tight;

My List of stories:”Disappearing Hams”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DZPFKYS

“False Accusations”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DYAID6G

“The Burner Man”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DWYZE9I

“The Flying Christmas Tree”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DV80T9A

“The Importance of Christmas”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DS5LUNA

“Dark Secrets Overcome”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DJR1OKG

“Confrontations With Mom”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DC3BQK0

“The House on Phoenix Avenue”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D910XBS

“Children center Lesson and Years (Hamden,Connecticut)”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D6VAS6Q

“UnWanted”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CEKO3KW

“The Chase and Ending”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D6GD8ZY

“Adult Poems of Romance and Lust”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D5L684I

“Mackey”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D50GPJM

The Project Murders, in Broad-View Acres—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3QZZU8

“Tick, Tock The Infernal Clock”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CDU0FIC

“Fishing Days with Dad”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CXYI8MS

“Abraham- A Man of Contradictions”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CWNZ3Y6

“My Maria“—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CS3BTOS

“Rusty The Beagle”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CQ3S4LG

“Angie’s Folly”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CPMGIAC

“Three Mandolin Murder Mysteries in One!”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00COQNJ38

“Wails of an Attention Deficit and Hyperactive Child”——-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CO92VOS

“Three Navy Stories”——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNW9C7U

“Three Amigos“—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNV5FMW

“Passing on……………………”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXC952

“God Damn It!”——–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXD1TU

“Women are in Charge!”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CLXBS4Q

“WHy Hide It?”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CK7F696

“The Poems of W.M.M.”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CHQPNQQ

“National Guard Heros——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CIH88HU

“The Holy Land Murder”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CCCZQ8A

“Romance,Sex and Fools”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CH6VX1U

“What Really Happened to Alex?”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDBX0

“Unattainable Love”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDGDU

“The Northern Woods Murders”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGMRXDC

Thanks for reading my Blog folks!

 

Health, Bea and Life!


      Cat scan and Pet scan both confirm a mass in one lung for me. Next up is a Biopsy of the mass coming up on August 2nd, 2013.  I feel a painful chest now and then on and off and I get tired easier now, but otherwise I am fine so far. The question is for how long will it go on before it knocks me down on my ass and makes me unable to get up again? No telling, but I shall keep plugging along, as it goes.

      My stories are not great, or perfect nor are they interesting to all, yet they will probably live longer than I. I hope some learn lessons from them, for I tried to write what I knew and enjoyed in life, so Enjoy folks please.

      “Bea——–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00E674TIM, is the last story I wrote so far, but it is short like all of them, but tells of a young girl who became a cancer patient and survives to this day, whom I admire for her courage, strength and guts as a person. Bea will always be a  part of my memory and life I have a fond memory of , for we laughed, we skipped through rain puddles and snow storms and much more! God Bless ya Bea, for your persistence  your courage and your love of life, you encourage me to face my trial of cancer in the same way you did win or lose! Thanks.

Cancer for Me/ My Stories Live on!


       Well here I go down a road traveled by my parents before me and something I figured would never really be. Before me I lost a Grandfather to cancer in 1970, my mother’s father. Then in 1984, shortly after I found my real father and met him, he died of lung cancer too.  1990- the man who raised me as his son, my step-father died of cancer, then one day and a year later my mother went and followed him with lung cancer too. It seems cancer is in the family for us all and i have tried to tell my daughters to quit smoking before it gets them too, but alas they smoke on, and me well I quit smoking now 6 to 7 years ago, but, I got cancer of the lungs too, recently diagnosed, and the Journey toward Valhalla starts. 

First the coughing and hacking stared, then the spitting up of phlegm and blood for a short period of time. Then light pains in chest and the ability to move fast or do anything heavier than sit and talk goes. I went to the Doctors at this point I was sluggish, slightly painful in chest area and still coughing. Doc says ok let’s get a cat scan,so I agreed. 

One phone call later, I was told we found some spots on your lungs and I am ordering more tests. The tests included, Pulmonary Clinic, Breathing Tests, Blood tests,MRI of brain and finally a Pet Scan in one day!

The next morning 10:00 am the phone rang in my home and I answered it. My Doctor called, and told me, there is a growth in your lung and it is good size and very active on the Pet Scan.  I need two more blood tests from you, and to set you up for a biopsy and to see the surgeons. Stop taking your daily aspirin  and I will set it all up. Cancer had arrived in me, and this time the fight will happen, I can’t and won’t go slowly. As I await the call for the set up of the Biopsy and the Surgeons talk, my wife is with me and we shall talk together to the doctors and make the decisions.

Long ago, I used to say and I always believed I would never live passed 40 years old, but I did and 57 isn’t old, but it’s no spring chicken either. I always believed I had missions to complete in life assigned to me by whoever put us on this planet as human beings, is there any more I have to complete before I am done, only time will tell!

Ok enough on that one, I shall do what needs to be done folks. In the meantime I have my stories I am selling on Amazon’s Kindle e-Books site and sales ares low these days. I was hoping for more but what the hell at least some are enjoying reading them and that counts. Never called myself HemingWay or Ludlum, but, told short stories the best I could to teach lessons, talk of love and write health and murder mysteries. I hope they will be enjoyed by many.

My List of stories:”Disappearing Hams”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DZPFKYS

“False Accusations”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DYAID6G

“The Burner Man”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DWYZE9I

“The Flying Christmas Tree”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DV80T9A

“The Importance of Christmas”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DS5LUNA

“Dark Secrets Overcome”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DJR1OKG

“Confrontations With Mom”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DC3BQK0

“The House on Phoenix Avenue”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D910XBS

“Children center Lesson and Years (Hamden,Connecticut)”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D6VAS6Q

“UnWanted”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CEKO3KW

“The Chase and Ending”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D6GD8ZY

“Adult Poems of Romance and Lust”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D5L684I

“Mackey”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D50GPJM

The Project Murders, in Broad-View Acres—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3QZZU8

“Tick, Tock The Infernal Clock”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CDU0FIC

“Fishing Days with Dad”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CXYI8MS

“Abraham- A Man of Contradictions”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CWNZ3Y6

“My Maria“—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CS3BTOS

“Rusty The Beagle”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CQ3S4LG

“Angie’s Folly”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CPMGIAC

“Three Mandolin Murder Mysteries in One!”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00COQNJ38

“Wails of an Attention Deficit and Hyperactive Child”——-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CO92VOS

“Three Navy Stories”——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNW9C7U

“Three Amigos“—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNV5FMW

“Passing on……………………”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXC952

“God Damn It!”——–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXD1TU

“Women are in Charge!”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CLXBS4Q

“WHy Hide It?”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CK7F696

“The Poems of W.M.M.”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CHQPNQQ

“National Guard Heros——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CIH88HU

“The Holy Land Murder”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CCCZQ8A

“Romance,Sex and Fools”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CH6VX1U

“What Really Happened to Alex?”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDBX0

“Unattainable Love”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDGDU

“The Northern Woods Murders”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGMRXDC

 

 

Health, Prince George/Survival/Stories


      Welcome to Hacker and wheezerville a place for people with lung problems. We hack, we cough, we spit of  blood and we try to breath here! Ah life shall go on I guess, even when sick right? Went to the Doctor and hospital, cat scan was done, spots on one lung near connector at top pretty good sized. Doctor has looked at it and yesterday became test day for me, I went through PUlmonary Breathing Tests, a Pulmonary doctor, then blood tests, and then a MRI of brain and a Pet Scan of full body to find out if anything has spread from my lung to anywhere else in body. Time shall tell next, so I await the results. Taking it all one day at a time until I have a diagnosis at least, but I suspect cancer has hit me, like my parents before me.

Next subject folks, The royal baby has been named George Alexander Louis, my question is why? LOL, don’t the British Monarch realize it was King George who tried to keep America as a colony and failed at it so bad? Ah at least Americans know, it can’t be repeated King George or not!

My Medical journey has begun to find out what is in my lungs with all the above tests mentioned. What it is, is suspected to be cancer, if it is I shall fight on till it overcomes or I overcome is all I can do. It comes on top of 6 herniated discs in my spine from Naval injuries, sleep apnea, PTSD, and Depression what a lucky old sailor I be huh.?  I shall survive in anyway I can like any other human being would try to do, I fight is all I can do. In the meantime life continues along at it’s usual pace, as my dad said before he died, the seconds turn to minutes, the minutes to hours the hours to days, the days to weeks and the weeks to months and then years. It shall continue long after i am gone and I hope the best for mankind and humanity of course.

Attached is links to my stories on Amazon’s Kindle E-Books: 

“God Damn It!” —http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXD1TU

The Serial Killer he wanted to get and did, at what price!

http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DZPFKYS
Disappearing Hams
A Navy story of humor, and sailors out smarting Officers!
Ya might like this if ya like a laugh now and then and silly stories!

“False Accusations”
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DYAID6G

A true story of how abuse ruined not one, but three families and lasted for decades!

“Angie’s Folly” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CPMGIAC
“My Maria“——-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CS3BTOS
“The House on Phoenix Avenue”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D910XBS

“Dark Secrets Overcome”
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DJR1OKG

A story of False Accusation of sexual abuse and the destruction the original criminal did not only to his family but to mine too from the period from 1978 to 2013!

 

Journey on Health/ Royal Baby’ Stories


       July 24th, 2013, a new journey begins today. Medical people and tests will be left and right of me all day, as I start a journey to find out what is making me hack, cough and wheeze.  It has been happening to me now for over a month at least and the more I try to do physically the more it happens. So it all starts  by 8 am today in a pulmonary Clinic at a Veterans Hospital as they test my quick breathing skills, then on to a Pulmonary Doctor at 8;30 am for review of the testing and an exam.  Next will be blood test ordered for me to have before my afternoon MRI of my brain. Lucky me huh, one test after another, by the time I come home in late afternoon it will probably be 4 pm, a day shot in full.

Then on the 25th, will be a Pet Scan of my lungs to see whats in them and what kind of problem this may all be. My original cat scan showed shadows in my lungs and that combined with the hacking and coughing and wheezing on and off and the spitting up of phlegm with blood leads to testing. What fun! Although I do consider myself lucky for it is Uncle Sam who is doing the testing at a Veteran’s Hospital with no cost to me for serving for 16 years. Imagine the numbers such testing would be at a civilian hospital without my having insurance! 

How much of what I am going through is related to my service time, the years I spent removing asbestos from the ships I served on? The U.S.S. Dahlgren, DDG-43, or The U.S.S. Monongahela AO 178, or the last one I served on The U.S.S Pounce LPD 15? I don’t know for sure because I also have a family history of cancer too. My father died of Cancer in November 1984 lungs, My Mother died of cancer October 1991, My Grandfather died of cancer in 1970, so is it cancer I don’t know the odds seem pretty high to me it may be. Am I wrong, well I can only hope I am wrong, I can’t be sure of anything, so I must test and find out for sure. As my wife says, better to know and fight it than, to let it sneak up and take me out without a battle. She is right, one has to fight!

       Next subject for  putter around  on my health problems. The Royal baby was born and is now in the hands of the  Royal Family.  Mom and Dad took home the little tyke yesterday, and as William said he has a  set of lungs this boy already! Congrats to the Royal Couple and I hope they name him soon, the world wants to know.

As I end today, I am leaving a list of my lil stories I wrote and place up on KIndle e-books on Amazon for sale; 

Mackey-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D50GPJM
The Project Murders, in Broad-View Acres -http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3QZZU8
“Tick, Tock The Infernal Clock” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CDU0FIC
“Fishing Days with Dad” ——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CXYI8MS
“Abraham- A Man of Contradictions” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CWNZ3Y6
“My Maria“—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CS3BTOS
“Rusty The Beagle” —–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CQ3S4LG
“Angie’s Folly”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CPMGIAC
“Three Mandolin Murder Mysteries in One!” —–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00COQNJ38
“Wails of an Attention Deficit and Hyperactive Child” —http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CO92VOS
“Three Navy Stories” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNW9C7U
“Three Amigos”–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNV5FMW
“Passing on……………………”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXC952
“God Damn It!”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXD1TU
“Women are in Charge!”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CLXBS4Q
“WHy Hide It?” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CK7F696
“The Poems of W.M.M.” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CHQPNQQ
“National Guard Hereos”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CIH88HU
“The Holy Land Murder”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CCCZQ8A
“The Poems of W.M.M.” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CHQPNQQ
“Romance,Sex and Fools”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CH6VX1U
“What Really Happened to Alex?” —http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDBX0
“Unattainable Love”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDGDU
“The Northern Woods Murders”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGMRXDC

There are some new ones too:

“God Damn It!” —http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXD1TU

The Serial Killer he wanted to get and did, at what price!

“False Accusations”
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DYAID6G

A true story of how abuse ruined not one, but three families and lasted for decades!

“Dark Secrets Overcome”

A story of False Accusation of sexual abuse and the destruction the original criminal did not only to his family but to mine too from the period from 1978 to 2013!

 

 

 

Time Rolling/Why Must The Days End


     The Time slowly rolls by, and each day bring different adventures, emotions, rushes and pains, and in the end I know tomorrow I shall wake up and do it again. Life must roll on no matter what, as my step-father told me years before he died.  It’s nature, it’s humanity and it’s life.  Enjoy what you have in life and what little pleasures ya get folks, before ya know it, it can be gone in a poof.  Always remember, it is not what you get in life or receive, it’s not material things that count, it’s the emotional ones the, commitment ones and the caring ones that count. Those are what makes you important to the ones you may leave behind !

Well, I haven’t written anything new lately folks, been busy with running to and fro for medical for me and my wife. So when I leave you with something today, I leave you with a poem to read and think on.

I wrote this one years ago in 1990, October to be precise, when my Step-father died of cancer in the hospital.  I called it;

                                             Why Must The Days End?          

Why do the days have to end?

           Why do the nights have to come?

            The Darkness rolls in,

           Night reminding me,

           Of, my past, my sin.

 

 

           I didn’t  know what you wanted or needed,

           You refused to say,

           So now I wonder and think,

           All night and through the day.

 

          I go thru life, a statement reverberating in my mind,

          It’s one I carry with me,

          And shall for all time.

 

          My father, laid dying on his bed you see,

          And these are the words he said to me:

          My son he said my days have come and gone,

          I shall leave you before for long.

 

          But live you life to the fullest and enjoy,

          Do today what you love the most,

          Enjoy life to the fullest, and love those around you the deepest,

          For though I be gone and you may cry,

          Please remember these words, I give you to keep and hold.

          Live your life with honesty and truth,

          Be happy, be true, be honest and be bold.

 

          As I leave you now he said:

          I shall be gone and you will cry,

          But remember this is not really goodbye.

 

          We are all put here for a purpose, yes a plan.

          When we fulfill that purpose our time has come,

           And our life is done, and I am just a man.

 

           The days will pass, the weeks will come and go,

           The weeks, will turn to months, the months to years,

           And over time,  you will, have cried all of your tears.

           But live your life for each day you are here,

           For the calendar will continue to roll,

           Time will pass before you know,

          

            In the end my son,

            We all eventually do what we have been put here for,

             And our time is done.

 

            Then he rolled his head, in his bed,

            The vomit came, his eyes rolled back in his head,

            And peacefully, and in silence he was dead.

 

            I remember that day oh so well,

            I remember the fishing trips, the pizzas, the laughter and the tears,

            And have carried his words, with me and lived them for all my years.

 

 

July Flies/ Health/Military Stories and More!


       The month of July moves along at an unbelievable rate and speed for me. Hard to believe it is the 22nd already and that I have been coughing and wheezing now for months on and off. I have had a cat scan that worried my doctor and showed dark shadows in my lungs, that is now two weeks old, next is the 24th of July and a pulmonary clinic appointment, followed by a Pet Scan on the 25th of July.  Do I fear what they may reveal, yes, who wouldn’t, am I overly worried no. I have learned in my 57 years not to panic or get hysterical at all over anything. SO I will deal with each day as it comes and each result as presented to me.

I served 16 years in the Military as I went from the U.S. Army to the Connecticut Army National Guard and then onto the U.S. Navy. Each presents a different kind of  pressure to perform and survive. I’m sure with those lessons and times behind me, I will be fine, besides I am a stubborn old half Scottish, half french bastard!

Anyway, my stories online in Amazon KIndle‘s E-books, on KDP will outlive me I hope as i continue to write and post what I have done. Yes my stories , are not the worlds best, nor are my poems, but I tried to express myself in a way the world could understand the pains, the aches, the laughs and the loves, I hope i achieved that!

From my military life I produced two stories; 

http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DZPFKYS
Disappearing Hams
A Navy story of humor, and sailors out smarting Officers!
Ya might like this if ya like a laugh now and then and silly stories!

“National Guard Heros”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CIH88HU

I hope some of my Stories will hit ya and you enjoy em!

Mackey-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D50GPJM
The Project Murders, in Broad-View Acres -http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3QZZU8
“Tick, Tock The Infernal Clock” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CDU0FIC
“Fishing Days with Dad” ——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CXYI8MS
“Abraham- A Man of Contradictions” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CWNZ3Y6
“My Maria“—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CS3BTOS
“Rusty The Beagle” —–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CQ3S4LG
“Angie’s Folly”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CPMGIAC
“Three Mandolin Murder Mysteries in One!” —–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00COQNJ38
“Wails of an Attention Deficit and Hyperactive Child” —http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CO92VOS
“Three Navy Stories” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNW9C7U
“Three Amigos“–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNV5FMW
“Passing on……………………”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXC952
“God Damn It!”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXD1TU
“Women are in Charge!”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CLXBS4Q
“WHy Hide It?” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CK7F696
“The Poems of W.M.M.” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CHQPNQQ
“National Guard Hereos”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CIH88HU
“The Holy Land Murder”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CCCZQ8A
“The Poems of W.M.M.” —-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CHQPNQQ
“Romance,Sex and Fools”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CH6VX1U
“What Really Happened to Alex?” —http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDBX0
“Unattainable Love”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDGDU
“The Northern Woods Murders”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGMRXDC

Jobs/Help/Writing/ My Stories


       Yesterday, I attended a meeting with my wife of an Organization intended to help people, Financially and many other ways. People today may think many things are scams, lies, even games but this company does what it says it will and pulls it off. Insurance, for health, life, cars, homes,, Legal Help Prepaid , and an option that allows you to get a job part-time or full-time running your own business! Now the thing is you have to like helping people, you have to like people and communicate openly and do the job, or like any other business, you won’t make it. If done right and you follow what those above you say do and follow the program you can be financially free in five to seven years without a problem!  Does it sound good to you, do you think you could handle it and commit to being a worker in it? Contact my wife and ask her about a business opportunity or help in any of the financial areas I mentioned at mmccurach@comcast.net!

      Next, among some out there, I get complaints on my writing, and stories. They say I did not make them long enough to be called books, I admit I only do short stories not long books and I don’t charge much for what I write. I am only beginning to understand writing as a hobby and job and trying to make what I write as worth while to others and convey what I felt or lived through or what my mind creates for fictional stories. So if you read my works most were not intended to be books but were written into book form for me to make a few dollars extra any help would be appreciated.

Now, talking my stories, I did a few new ones I have posted on Amazon’s Kindle E-books; I hope some will find them interesting enough to try them: 

“Disappearing Hams”— A Navy Story with Humor-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DZPFKYS

“False Accusations”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DYAID6G- A Story of how one child’s false accusations almost ruined many lives!

“The Flying Christmas Tree“——-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DV80T9A— The Story of how Christmas went out the back door one year!

“Tick, Tock The Infernal Clock”
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CDU0FIC
My Story I Wrote, on E-Books on Amazon’s KIndle E-Books

http://www.amazon.com/Amazon-com-Kindle-for-Android/dp/B004DLPXAO/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1369313575&sr=8-1&keywords=kindle+software+for+pc This is the Kindle Reader App for Windows PCS

As a Disabled American Veteran, I  try to write what I have lived or experienced or every once in a while a totally imaginative story comes to mind and i produce it. I hope when you look at my works, you notice most are fueled by life’s experiences and written in short form because it is how I convey them. Also, since there is not much else a disabled veteran can do, I do this to keep my mind and soul going strong. Thanks to all who read my works and help me to get across the things I say.

 

Battles of Atoms, LIfe, Mankind and What?


       Battles of atoms, and air particles, small explosions everywhere, slowly they join and build what is known as space the final frontier.  Worlds are formed from collisions and stars burn bright because they are old worlds, burning up from burning out. Existence  becomes reality, as small planets are made then added to by collisions with meteors and comets and, more. Suddenly, a planet grows and changes into a livable planet that has atmosphere and a gravity comes into effect, because a moon aligns itself just right. From this point, particles, chemistry takes over and life is formed in nature and we find insects, small animals and fish in the seas, the oceans form and life begins there. Slowly the waters recede and the fish step on land or are stranded there and have to adapt to walking and breathing air to survive. The forces of nature on the planet has begun. Life now springs forth on all four than grows to adapt to two legs and mankind is born from the result. Stop and think, is this where we came from, is this what really happened, what compressed the particles, molecules and atoms into the planet we live on and what put us together in the way it did?

Mankind is ruled by three things, 1) instinct to survive and adapt, 2) Emotions, 3,) the ability to think and react, that is contained in the human brain. The human brain a mass of lightweight, jelly like muscles and electrical impulses, that direct our natures, our thoughts, our reaction and our emotions. As it fires the impulses that keep us going and alive it makes us think, direct and do what we must to survive and learn more. Amazing, isn’t it, and if those electrical impulses in the human brain keep us alive, does the human brain also contain the personality and life soul of the human being themselves?

In comparison, we can look at the ants on the planet, rushing to and fro, gathering food for their queens and building ant hills beneath our own feet , and ask, are we not just like them in many ways? Don’t we , mankind scurry here and there and all about gathering, family, gathering food and creating homes, and exploring the world around us like they do? Yes the ants are below our feet, but who is above us, like we are to them? Good Question I would gather and few shall ever answer it if anyone will, I doubt it can be answered.  So as you scurry about the planet working, eating, dancing, living, playing and emoting, stop just for a moment and think, what if above us there is a larger more powerful being, we are underneath really and they step on us like we do the ants? Will people cease to exist then?

 

 

Race,Stand Your Ground/Cancer/Stories


       July rolls along folks and the country hits a heat wave after a heat wave, we can fry eggs on some sidewalks these days. Stay out of the sun, stay cool, get air conditioning, drink lots of fluids and soon it may be over. Heat weaves are thing that happen in the world due to climate changes, pollution and global warming, so all anyone can do with it as human beings, is live with it the best they can.

Next, I am tired of this caucasian versus african american bullshit, on television, I am tired of normal terms being racist, I am tired of black who can call white crackers, or crackas, and then cry when white call them black! Come on folks lets face facts here it is all bullshit, and you all know it. I am sorry to say this, but I don’t hate african americans, whites, hispanics, orientals or any other race, nationality or color, I do hate the fact when one thing id done wrong by one person a whole race jumps another race and calls us racial and unfair. Thats crap folks and I am hear to say it.  And yes I understand the projects, and apartments and rough neighborhoods I grew up in one. I grew up in a project where all races were mixed, white, and blacks were lovers and friends, not enemies. we didn’t care if a someone helped you nor were we scared if someone fought you, we didn’t thing well that black boy hit me, nor did we think any other color hit me, we though bully! Bully’s come in all colors, all nationalities and all races, not just one. sad to say but yes in someways, there is still some discrimination in america, but come on folks, lets face the facts here, all of us did not write the Stand Your Ground Laws in Florida.

I refuse to listen to the Reverend Sharpton and Jackson when it comes to calling the Martin killing a racial incident thats crap.  No one screamed any racial names, no one stopped to say I am killing you because your white or black or anything else. What happened is a tragic event yes and I feel for Trayvon’s Mother and Father and grieve their loss with them as a country should, and will face possible changes in the laws. But be realistic here please, the whites or caucasians did not kill your son, nor did he die on a whim or a dream or from being different in color or race, he died in a tragic event for both sides, believe it. Zimmerman will never be able to live in peace and find gainful employment and Trayvon will never return home.

Across the world events are taking place with more wars and miseries to come. Syrians are being killed left and right Egypt is in unrest once more, Afghanistan is still in turmoil and pain, the Middle East is a smorgasbord of pain and suffering and death. All Americans are being sent to fight these wars to help these people , regardless of color, race, nationality, or anything else. We do it to stop war, pain and suffering, can we stop the suffering of racial inequalities here at home in America, by stopping to think of this: we all eat, drink, live, bleed and die of the same things folks. Cut me and I bleed red, and my blood inside is really blue till it hits the air. No matter your skin color it is the same for you I know it. I served 16 years military, in three branches protecting my country and giving all I have, and skin color has no problem when your being shot out, or hunted or have to defend your country does it. We all eat at the same mess halls in the military, we all go to the same Doctors, and Hospitals, attack America and we all join forces at once to defend it, so lets stop the bullshit of racial discrimination and pointing fingers and screaming, and remember if this were a communist country no one would be heard to raise their voices, we would be shot for it, so do so peacefully and the right way folks.

Finally, with that said and done, as to my feelings on it all. I can now move on to the next subject. Between 1984 and 1991 I lost three people to cancer who were at one time a part of my life growing up. One my birth father- lung cancer,two my mother lung cancer, three my stepfather cancer again, before them in 1970 my grandfather on my mother’s side died of cancer too. The gene for it seems to be in the family and we all know it’s a killer. 

Now comes the part I hate because i now hack and cough up flem and blood, I breathe roughly and know something is wrong too. I hack and wheeze when breathing, and sometimes can’t stop, so I had a cat scan done. Finding dark shadows in my lungs is what i got folks. Is it cancer I do not know yet, but next is a Pulmonary Clinic and then a Pet Scan to find out. No one said cancer cares who you are or what color or age or race, it is just here. If I die from it, I know I did what I can to prevent it is all, but I can’t change it or anything else, so acceptance is my only way to go, I shall see after tests is all.

On that note, today I leave you with links to my stories once more, at least a few of them: I hope you will buy some and enjoy:

“Disappearing Hams”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DZPFKYS

“Dark Secrets Overcome”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DJR1OKG

The Project Murders, in Broad-View Acres—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3QZZU8