There are no guarantees in life folks, now whatsoever! The truth is even money can’t buy you happiness, or love! Peace isa dream, for somewhere in the world will always be a war, or uprising of some sort.

We can’t control what other think or do either, nor can we force someone or something to do what we want it to. The truth is, most of the time things are out of our hands.

I made mistakes in my life, in areas I could have controlled, but in the end would I change them today looking back as I reflect, no I wouldn’t. For each decision I made wrong, I altered the second time around and got it right. You see, we learn from our mistakes, everytime and those who don’t react and learn fail in life in all ways.

When your a kid, you follow your parents advice and they guide and protect you till you are old enough to make your own decisions. even when they backoff and say go ahead they are still watching even though you may not know it, they watch from afar to see if you’re heading in the right direction. Then there comes a time, when your a teenager still, they must cut the strings, and allow you to make mistakes, because they know some things you must experience yourself to learn.

I grew up knowing I was mostly on my own, and I had to fight to survive, it was a rough childhood by any standards, The only thing our parents really provided wasa roof over our heads, food and clothing. Guidance and Love was a commodity we did not have as children in the house i grew up in. And because of that we do not have close relationships with our siblings at all. We all went separate ways, because it was how we were taught and we knew no better. I am now 63 and I can honestly say, I really don’t know any of my siblings that well and our parents are all dead and have been for decades now.

Some of us still hold grudges against our parents for what they didn’t do for us and what they did for us in other ways. some of us got ignored, some of us got beat upon severely, others got spoiled. It was a house full of favorites and the forgottens.

To Prove my point, here is how it goes: my elder brother if actually 2 plus years older than I. he was protected by our mother, given permission to play sports and escape home. he even had his first car bought for him by our step-father. he became a sports hero in high school , got injured then got his girlfriend pregnant and had to get married.

He never finished college and he got a job and moved away, gone poof. He was always poofing and never around. he went on to get divorced years later for having affairs and his eldest son died of an overdose. Then he showed up on my doorstep one day, wanting to be brothers, I hadn’t seen him in over 40 years. As you can guess it didn’t work out, but he did find out, we didn’t have the same father.

My story is different, I was a hard birth for mom, and I ruined her for natural births. I was a 10lbs. 9 ounce boy. I tore her apart coming out. I looked just like my real father so she called me by my middle name and hated me from day one.

I was a rebel from day one and fought with both parents and my elder brother as a youngster. I survived being put away for two years and took care of my siblings from 12 to 18 years old, I had no choice, my parents both worked and my elder brother was no where to be found. I served in three branches of service, Army, Army national Guard and the US Navy. I had two wives now, and with the first two daughters and two of everything. After The divorce my wife turned vindictive and had me arrested for a crime I did not commit, I spent four month in a jail until I was released by a Judge due to her lying. I recovered and went to college and graduated at 40 years old with a degree in Hotel Management.

We went on to buying a home together and we married. Now I care for her, she is a cancer patient with stage 4 cancer that has moved to her bones. One day at a time, one chemo session at a time we go.

The one who came after me, the third child was my step father’s first. he grew to hate his father and fought him stole from him and beat his your siblings when he could. He was thrown out at 16 and never returned except to steal more from his father. he ended up in The Air force andthen as a con man in Texas and California. He died from aids at 30 years old, and never talked to any of us again. His father was dying the same year he did and searched and found him in California, the kid wouldn’t reply. He died under changed name, buried on a potters hill. It’s not fake folks it’s true.

In our family, we had one girl who was born as the fourth child, she was pampered and cared for in all ways. daddy’s girl and mommy’s enemy actually. We boys protected her and so did dad. She has been married twice, three kids and divorced each time. She live sin a home by herself with her boyfriend and her kids are estranged from her as are her exs’. she does ok now, she has the house, she writes, she lives a happy go lucky life.

The baby boy of the family, grew up fine, till acar hit him and took away part of his memory. He overcame, he is an artist and he has been married twice now too. he works for a Pest control company and has his own home, haven’t seen him in I don’t know how long now.

So there are no guarantees in life as I said, we all grew up to be different in many ways and we never really get together at all. My elder brother got sick and has heart troubles he had heart surgery in his sixties, and moved west to Arizona to survive. He came to my home wanting to not die alone and to stop the estrangement between us, it didn’t work. Life has no guarantees folks take it from me.

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From the creation of America and it’s first President George Washington, America’s Office of the Presidency has always been looked upon as a Honorable position in leadership for the country and the world to follow, an example that all the world has tried to copy, emulate and follow in all ways. Until the 45th President took office, Donald John Trump, no american President has lied to America on a daily average of 24 times a day. No American President was ever before, laughed at the United Nations, it has happened now.

I have heard some compare Donald John Trump to Richard M. Nixon, due to criminal acts in office, I disagree. Richard M. Nixon accomplished many things during his time in office. He opened China, opened Russia, took America off the gold standard, and took us out of Vietnam. What has Trump accomplished, nothing, there is nothing to point at the Trump has accomplished to help America or the World. Nothing period! he has destroyed everything he has touched, including OBama Care, why> The answer is simple folks, this is a vindictive, childish, narcissistic, individual, hiding things from you and me, yes we the American People.

Sadly, we are stuck with a President who hides like a child, refuse to release his taxes and does nothing for the American People, if it does not benefit him or his cronies and family. he has obstructed justice in The Mueller Investigation and I believe fully he worked with russia to get the Presidency, just because the russians covered their steps and his, to hide it from Americans, doesn’t mean he isn’t guilty. He wasn’t exororated by The Mueller Report or even the statement his paid and bought Attorney General put out. Just remember that now.

You want proof of how childish, foolish and assine Donald J. Trump is, just look at the tapes of him telling you, his father was born in Germany, and the next day the Washington Post produced Fredrick Trump’s birth certificate from a Brooklyn, New York Hospital. Yet Trump declared his father was born in Germany!. I bet if investigated it will probably be found out his mother was born here too in America not in Scotland! I won’t swear to it, but hey if he lied about his father’s place of birth, why not his mother’s too right?

I admire Nancy Pelosi and Her Senate CounterPart Senator Schumer for standing up to Trump at every turn. Nancy Pelosi handles Trump like the child he is, and won’t let his lil bullying ass push her or Congress around. Thank God for both Schumer and Pelosi!

Now we face the Wall controversy, we need a wall like we all need surgery. Look the wall is a fun idea Trump came up to distract from his crimes in office, what he is doing is prolonging everything he can, till he leaves office. That’s why no tax returns, he knows he will be indicted for tax fraud if congress gets his tax returns. He is scared. He cheated many contractors out of money and he cheated the American Government out of millions also.

I tire of hearing his bullshit and lies daily and you should too, if you have a mind of your own. Anyone who has any kind of morals. ethics and education worth a damn, knows how Trump lies to America daily and understands what he did. he used russian help and russian rubles to attain the highest office in America and he got away with it, at least so far. It really irks me that Americans, that small 40 percent or so who are die hard Trump supporters still back him. Seems to me, he found his backer sin the lowest educated Americans who have no idea what is really happening in the world and America. He targeted the poor and undereducated, knowing there was more of them, and then went out and bought the electoral college. The russians targeted all these people with ads on the internet and it worked. What all who fell for it don’t realize and should by now, is that if the russians could do it once and get Donald John Trump Elected President, they can do it again and take away every American’s voting right and control America! Is that what we want folks, to be controlled by Russia and Putin?

Yes Warren and other Democrats are correct it is time to disband the Electoral College! As long as it exists no President Elected under the current system will really represent the majority of America. The Popular vote should determine your President period. Not a group of people who can be bought and paid for!. It needs changing!

It took 45 presidencies, for us to end up with the most worthless, incompetent, illegal President in American History! And now that it has happened we need to fix it again! Why would anyone, especially an American President, lie about where his father was born, what purpose does it serve?

The Watch began in 2016, when a Doctor told my wife, her breast cancer had returned and was stage four and had spread into her bones. Slowly it has progressed now, her hair is gone, she has lost height but not weight yet, she can do less and less each day by herself. I feed her and she can eat on her own, she can still get angry and fight back, but her left arm is the size of two baseball bats. I have to help her shower, and dress each day!

Each day she is awake less and less and three times a month, on Thursdays she gets chemo, but first she gets pepcid and decadron. Then they do her Taxial to fight the cancer head on. Then we come home and into her small recliner she goes to pass out, for hours at a clip. She is fighting it the best she can in all ways she can but her awake hours are slowly slipping away, and her sleeping hours are slowly growing, now they are well over 12 hours in a 24 hour day.

I watch her daily as she plays games on her computer in our office across the room from mine. She does the bills electronically for us and we fix what is needed around the house the best we can. Each day I am more and more alone and it grows daily believe me.

I call it the Watch, for all any man or woman can do when their spouse is a cancer patient is be patient, watch, take care of them the best they can, until,as I know one day will come, there will come the time I can’t do anymore for her.

I have my memories of our trips and good times and dancing we did, movies we saw, and plays, eating our for special dinners and traveling to see sights. Her smile, her laughter, are with me and will be till the day I die. We are at 26 years together, come May 2019 and married going on 19 years come September.

I will never regret asking her to dance, I will never regret loving her, and caring for her ever. She is my better half in more ways then one, believe me.

But the watch keeps happening, getting up in the morning and the first thing I do is stop by her recliner to make sure she is still with me, and hoping I see her move or watch her breath. Then getting my coffee and hoping she will awake again for another day. It is called the cancer Watch by me, others call it a death watch as you will for the inevitable to happen. The spouse has no choice in what he or she does, we stand and wait and pray it will be painless for them when they go, when do we have to dial 911 and ask for help, we never know. Yet we do it, for we are the ones they depend on to care for them, to make them comfortable and keep them stable and as happy as possible. When the end will come we can never know day to day, yet we have to steel ourselves for it, mentally and emotionally. It is all we can do to keep going ourselves. We give up whatever life we have ourselves to live theirs to keep them company and going as long as we can and pray they will pass without pain or suffering. Yes It is a Watch, and we who do it suffer almost as much as the one we are watching it breaks our souls, our hearts and causes us tears!

That’s the Watch folks!

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Destiny awaits all of us in one way or another, not all destinies have to do with money, fame, or outlandish stuff very few can reach. Destiny represents, that place we all end up reaching in one way or another for destiny is not ours to set, it was set by the creator or God we all know is there and believe in in one way or another.

Destiny is really the reason we are put here on the planet earth andwe are born to be and accomplish. Each and everyone of us, were born to reach certain pre destined goals in our lives. We were put here for a purpose is the bottom line here, do we know what that purpose is, no we don’t. We will face that destiny at one time or another, and when we do we will achieve it and when we do, it is all downhill from there. Yes Life has it’s peak, and it then starts slowing down as ya enjoy the ride to the end of it.

Everyone is put here for a reason on earth, each human being, is put here for a purpose, we don’t really direct ourselves, we just were given a brain to do the functions we must and to decide what may hurt us or those around use and a control switch that most can control and others can’t.Yes, some are put here for destructive purposes, and other shere for greatness.

The fact is most of mankind is put here to complete a mission we are sent to do. We don’t know that mission and we are not aware of it, but it is implanted in us at birth and we end up accomplishing it without really knowing it.Some are just here to propagate and multiply other, are here to further mankind’s ways and health and wealth and such. We never really know what our purpose really is do we?

The biggest question now facing mankind has to do with destinies and fates folks. How long can mankind continue to exist? We are the only beings on this planet that can control our environment and help it heal after we have destroyed it too. I remind all I talk to about the coming death of the planet we live on. Are we destined to see earth die, and us with it, or is the destiny of mankind out there in space on another planet. Even if we reach a new planet and reseed or populate it, can we as mankind survive it, or is our fate and destiny tied to mother Earth?

Cancer, it hit millions of people world wide and it takes those we love from us too soon. It strikes every nationality, color, race and does not discriminate at all. It grows within us and then takes our energy, strength and will to live steadily until we can’t can’t hold on to live any longer.

I say this because i know I have seen it, lived it and survived it while other shave died from it who I liked and loved dearly. Sadly for me Cancer has been with me for many years in my family and life and it keeps popping back up.

It all started for me with my Grandfather, on moms side way back in 1971. He died, from prostate cancer at 71, he loves life and kids and we all loved him in my family there was five of us. Sadly, we had to return from Florida when he died , we were vacationing.

The next bout with cancer came years later when I had a girlfriend and i mean friend not one who I was serious with, come down with Ovarian cancer at 18 years old. she would survive getting fragile and more fragile as the years would go by and ultimately she held on to age 63. Chemos and Radiation, losing her kidneys before finally dying.

But Cancer didn’t stop in my life it kept coming. It returned in 1990 in my life when I came home from serving my country for 16 years and I was going thru a divorce too. My Step-father the man who took on my mom and two boys, had cancer of the prostate also. It would take him from us in October of 1990 at the young age of 58. he went from 6′ 2″ to almost nothing in 9 months. Cancer kills and destroys. We buried him, with Military Honors.

Then One year and one day later cancer hit took my mother lung cancer, she would die in my sisters home, in a back bedroom. We then buried mom and dug up dad and put them together forever in one grave. Cancer sucks folks!

But Cancer was not done yet in showing up in my life. It hit my second wife who I married in 2000, in 2006, breast cancer. More doctors, and hospital, chemos and radiation treatments and an operation to remove all her lymph nodes under her left arm. Then the cancer went into remission for us.

Then in 2013. I went to see my Primary Doctor at The Veteran’s Hospital in West Haven, Connecticut. It was a regular appointment a check up of my service back injuries. The Veteran’s Hospital was doing a survey and check of all of us who served for family history of cancer so she asked me about it and I told her. When I did she put me in the survey, and into a Pet Scan to check me out. Yes, she found a tumor in my right lung. At first it looked bad they thought it was stage three. After seeing lung cancer specialist they brought in from Yale Hospital, I was operated on and I lost a lobe and one third of my right lung. Upon checking it it was only stage one I got lucky, I survived it well.

But cancer chases people and it kept coming, it returned in January 2016 to my wife, Her Breast Cancer came out of remission and attacked again, It now spread in her from breast cancer to bone cancer, We live daily with it now. Three weeks out of a month on Thursdays we are at a Cancer center, she receives Taxial and Pepcid and Decadron to fight the tumors and cancer in her body. I spend my life taking care of her, feeding her and cooking, cleaning house, doing chores, shopping and more. I sit for four hours with er as she receives it. cancer is still her in 2018 in her and the battle continues each week and day. I am going nowhere no matter what. I have learned to live day by day, to the fullest, enjoy the time we have and take care of her. It is what I d, it’s how much I love her.

Listen folks, cancer needs to be destroyed, killed and eradicated. All should fight it for it will hit someone close to you or you one day, possibly. Give to The American Cancer Society and lets fight it now, for all we love, for the precise moments and times of life.!

Lets talk about Trump’s problem with anything to do with Barack Obama!

President Obama stood proud and tall in office accomplishing many things, and in case you haven’t noticed Trump has targeted everything President Obama ever did. Now why is the is the main question right? Well I’ll tell you why right here.

before The 2016 election, Trump attended a dinner at which President Obama was giving a speech. He sat in the office, as Obama saw him and then commenced to bust his ass publicly, it humiliated Trump, it embarrassed him and all he could do was sit there and take it and turn red faced, he had no place to run or escape to. He hated Obama from that moment on, and when he got elected President he went into Office determined to kill anything with Obama’s name or reputation attached to it. He hated Obama from that and he will never let go, he is like a vindictive woman I tell ya. He is worse than a child or a mad woman, he is a narcissistic, anger lil boy who will never grow up! It’s sad, all he wants is his name on something so history will remember him, it’s like Ann Coulter told him, build that wall Mr. President or you will have no legacy, she was right, cause he can’t accomplish a damn thing. he has failed from day one and he will fail till he dies, that is who he is a failure.

Sadly, he is now on a vendetta against the media, and he wont stop that either, until someone gets killed, he is a hate mongering white supremacist too. He is a liar, a con man and a draft dodger on top of it all too. Sadly that is what the Republicans voted for and got and now America suffers from it!

I hope and Pray come November 2020, we shall all see Trump voted out of office if we don’t this country will go down the tubes for sure. I pray Americans are smart enough to realize by now what they really got!

 

 

 

World Wide concern should be happening right now, on climate change and the world we live in and whether it will be hospitable for our Children and Grandchildren in the future and life period. Scientific facts show the temperatures on a global scale rise 2 degrees a year, and the polar ice caps and icebergs melting at a faster rate than ever before. Which means the following for those who are not listening or paying attention, temperatures rise, icebergs melt, the polar caps melt, waters rise in the oceans and land masses disappear underwater. As lands recess under water there will be less livable land for humans to live on and the carbon released into the atmosphere will make the air less breathable folks. Guess what we are killing the planet we live on and polluting the very air we breath, so how long do you think it will take mother earth to shut down on us and leave us ona water covered barren world mostly underwater? tell me folks how long does mankind have to reverse this process and save the planet we live on, or find a planet to live on once this one shuts down on us? Tell me!

Scientist are saying we have approximately one decade left to reverse these changes in climates and temperatures as it is now. If they are correct, in one decade the earth as a planet will have it’s land masses decreased as well as it’s food production for all. Meaning less to eat, and the air will get so polluted, the oxygen content will decrease, meaning you won’t be able to breath anymore. Am I being too much on this issue, I think not if you study the data and the facts as they sit today!

Our Governments across the globe better wake up soon, for if they don’t, unless we find a habitable planet mankind will cease to exist! I know it sounds like i am yelling and screaming and making too much of it, but the facts say I am not, please look it up yourself, Google It Search it and learn what needs to be done to save people and the planet we rely on! The Future of mankind is at stake here and the planet earth.

Now that the Mueller Investigation has ended and the Barr report is out, the last thing we need as the American People is the actual Mueller report so we can read it ourselves. If Mitch McConnell and his Republican Senators block it from public view, then there must be something they are hiding. If you have no fear of the Mueller Report then release it and lets get on with it. Why try to block it’s release unless you afraid of what’s in it?

Next subject for I tire of talking of the misdeeds and crimes of Trump and his cronies really, it sickens me, to see such a asshole as President, but I can’t change it for now. No one can and there will never be enough time to Impeach Trump, he can be sanctioned though if it is pushed. The rest will have to be resolved at the time of the November 2020 Presidential Election at the Voting Booths. That is where we must concentrate now no matter what party you belong to Democrats or Republicans.

For the Democrats, they must widdle down the number of Candidates as fast as possible and then back the one they fully believe will beat Trump period. I see very few who will withstand his assault when it starts, the ones i think can I will tell you here so far.

Kamala Harris is a good bet to get the Democratic Nomination and she does not fear Trump’s mouth or his wraith. I like her views on the issues at hand and I like her public speech and actions. I think she makes sense on many or the major issues like Medicaid, Medicare and Social Security. Her stand on Education and Crime Enforcement, a big plus for her is her stand on the Environment and Climate Change, I believe she is 100 percent right we must react now, or put at risk all humankind in the next 10 to 12 years. The change is coming right now an din action we have to fight it and reverse it.

After Senator Harris I would put Joe Biden, the only problem with Joe in my book is his age. But he is also a little too moderate for my liking. Too generous and not hard assed enough. But that’s my opinion at this point, he hasn’t officially declared as of yet so time will tell.

The third possibility I see for Democratic Nomination is Amy Kolchahber. She is a midwest person with midwest values and beliefs and she has no fear of Trump or his big mouth. If i were The democrats I would look at her well.

Now those are the three I have seen I like so far. As to the rest they will have to set themselves apart and try to stand out better to get my attention. Just attacking Trump will not get my vote show me solutions and how you will do it and what you will change for the poor, the middle class and I will consider you.

Lets get on with the issues at hand and let Trump finish his term, when he is out of office in 2021, they can indict his ass and throw him in prison then. For Now the issue at hand must be defeating Trump’ Re-Election period. He is a danger to America and the Democracy and republic or America.

If anyone doubts how dangerous Donald John Trump really is, you should read the book out, The Dangerous Case of Donald J. Trump, 27 Psychiatrists and Mental Health Experts Assess a President.

a Quote from the book is here for all to see: “There are still those who hold out hope this president can be prevailed upon to listen to reason and curb his erratic behavior. Our professional experience would suggest otherwise. We collectively warn that anyone as mentally unstable as this man simply should not be entrusted with the life and eath powers of the presidency”. End Quote.

We must watch Trump like eagles watch the skies and ground for prey! He is dangerous and unstable believe me. I fully Believe that and I am sorry Americans were so desperate and needy as to trust him and elect him president.

If Americans in Kentucky have a brain, in their hearts and souls, they must also put Mitch McConnell out of office next election, all he does is enable Trump to destroy our country. Vote McConnell out of the Senate!

Ok Attorney General Barr and his Assistant say no collusion with russians. That’s fine but lets see the actual Mueller report in its entirety. Lets see what the the American people paid to get done, and not rely on one man’s opinion of it, he was appointed by Trump.

That said and done and requested release the full report AG Barr, let the american people read it for themselves and determine what to believe or not to believe. The American People deserve that much at least, we paid for it.

Now some questions till come to mind for me, like: Why were the Russians all of a sudden interfering in the American Election process period and who asked them to? At whose direction were so many rubles spent to run ads on FaceBook, Tumbler and other web sites, directed at the American People and against Hillary Clinton?

If we get those answers we may know how to stop future interference in our Elections if not it will happen again unless we find a way to stop it all.

As to the Mueller Report Vindicating Trump in all ways, it is not so, even if you read Barr’s statement he released. But for the purpose of avoiding further bitching and crying by any politicians out there in either party, lets see the damn report and the Americna People can determine.

What was going on in The Trump Tower Meeting and why did it occur and who knew of it? What did Trump know and when is the real question here, not whether he personally directed it, but did he know anything about it? Period.

Look I don’t care if Trump is impeached or not anymore, my concern and thought is this, what really happened and why were the russians in that 2016 election and campaign? How do we stop it in the future?

In the meantime we are living a nightmare we as American People should not have to live. We have a President who is racist, a white supremacist, and who is tearing down the Republic and Democracy we live under and defying it’s constitution and laws. Do we continue to turn our head and look the other way and let him do it? Or do we step up and stop him?

The bottom line to me is this Mueller couldn’t get proof, that would hold up in court is all. It does not Vindictae Trump in anyway, especially for obstruction of Justice.

I know one thing if Trump gets elected again for four more years social security will go, medicare and medicaid will go and the poor will be raped in taxes, a sthey are now. He will not help the lower class or middle class, only his millionaire and billionaire friends. He has already proven it, just look around his 2020 budget calls for cuts in Social Security, Medicare and medicaid when he promised to never touch them. What the younger generation is about to get if he cuts these things is simple, they will get the bills for caring for their parents and grandparents and children dropped on them. full bills not partials folks, and the price of medical care is humongous i hope all understand that. Obamacare helped with all of that till it was killed by Trump, he never replaced it and doesn’t know how to, so, the generation out there now is screwed and will pay out their asses. And how many seniors will be tossed off Social security and Medicare and Medicaid if he gets reelected of continues on his path and die without help?

I think in 2020 we need a new President and someone who will recognize, we must keep Social Security, Medicare and medicaid, we must help the seniors. We must realize, Global Warming is real and fight it as fast as humanly possible. The Warning from the science world are clear folks, we have ten to 15 years at best before the earth will change and the weather will get horrible. Will you children and grandchildren have air to breath, land to live on and planet to stay on? You tell me, do the research online and you will see.

I can’t change anything, I am only a Disabled Veteran who at 63 gave up 16 years of my life defending America an dour way of life. But I can say this, Trump has destroyed our reputation in the world, the economy he brags about is not real and reaching the poor or middle class and jobs are still disappearing out there. Saldy, he has failed in too many areas. His Border Wall is a distraction really just to make an issue so people won’t see the fact he has no accomplishments at all in over two years in office. Sadly the fact is he will go down as the worst President in American History!

Vote for anyone else except Trump on November of 2020, let’s turn the mess around now!