January 31st, 2022, after watching the Conference Championships on Sunday, I must say I was impressed by both games. The biggest surprise of course is the Cincinnati Bengals winning. I didn’t think they would but I am surprised at the play of Joe Burrows. Joe Burrows from what I have seen of him starting in the game with the Raiders, has shown himself to be level headed Quarterback who has many skills and abilities on the field. Simply amazing really in my book for a second year Quarterback in many ways, his decision making is very good.

Now I have no dog in this Superbowl really, and did not in the Conference Championships either, but I love to back underdogs and the Bengals were that. It is nice to see different teams in the Superbowl each year, gives fans a chance to think about how the game will go.

That said and done, the Super Bowl is set Bengals vs Rams, and the only question is can the Bengals play with the Rams or will they get ran over. I like the close games of each playoff round this year it gave us fans things to root for and to enjoy. As long as the games stay competitive the NFL will be making good money and the fan base will love it.

OK, now I have been looking for a new home, and my old one is practically sold now and under contract. I seek a place for me as a widower to settle in, in comfort, and to make new friends in a big world out here. I prefer a 55 plus community, because it will be among those who are in my older age group. Can I find one that is affordable and comfortable for me I hope so. I would love a condominium type place no outside maintenance and affordable to live in. Time will tell where i land as I search each days listings in Zillow and Redfin here in Massachusetts. Comfort and safety is what I want and i hope to find it soon. Only God and Fate and Destiny will tell me next.

As time goes by I am sitting here and my mind goes back over my life so far and i wonder at times, what would have been had I made different decisions or choices. In the end I look back and go nope, I made the right ones, because I am still here at 66, and doing ok. The hardest part of my life was when my wife died last August and in my younger days, when I was given away to the State for care for two years. I know I had no choices in either case, I couldn’t stop either, and had to live with it all the best I could. So, I made choices yes, after those, but, they were good ones.

My first marriage I tried to make work, and did for ten years, but it didn’t end due to me, she requested a divorce based on lies and false bullshit. So I gave her what she wanted. Never argue with someone who says they want a divorce if it reaches that stage just leave.

My second marriage was a great decision on my part and I loved my wife and still do now, almost six months after her death, which devastated me. O am slowly recovering, but I will always love and miss her,

MY decisions in my younger days of joining the service I shall never regret. I grew up in The service, was taught discipline in the service and a work ethic and did well for my time in. I served a total of sixteen years doing what I could for Uncle Sam. I do not have any regrets there and I would recommend to any young man or woman of you need direction go military.

Each step along my life i have worked overtime to not be a burden to anyone, not harm anyone and to support and care for all the people I have loved or been family and friends with. I have always served in one way or another, believe it or not. I usually think very little about myself in any way other my health and safety. I don’t ever think of myself as better than anyone else, I am what I called myself all my life an ordinary man, just getting by.

It’s how my life has always gone, now I have to pull myself together, finish selling my home i had for 28 years with my deceased wife, and find a way to live out the rest of my own life in comfort and peace. I am searching, looking and hoping for a comfortable, safe place for me and to be able to enjoy myself as I go on, to my own ending, I am now 66. Hopefully the good Lord and fate and destiny will allow me to enjoy my senior years, time shall tell.

Sunday once more, it seems just like it was Sunday yesterday, thats how fast time is flying by for me, it seems the older you get the faster times flies. It also seems the older you get the more you reflect on the past and all that has happened in your life. What I know I do, is use the past to decide the present, with a look at what the future may bring for me. As we grow older, humans learn from experiences and from what we see others do or not do too. We learn from our parents, our friends, our relatives and in the end from our own mistakes. Sometimes instead of stopping and looking before doing we rush in and end up paying a price for doing so, so never rush a decision folks you will be sorry.

This Sunday is NFL Conference Championship day. Four teams are left for a run at a Superbowl Title and a chance to hold the Vince Lombardi Trophy. I love the NFL for many reasons and i believe it is entertaining to watch and it keeps many watching with changes and the players it has and teams. During the football season, men and women alike are attracted to watching it for different reasons, some because they love the sport of it and the competitions between certain teams, some because they love the players, and some because they love their partners, lovers and friends who are involved in watching it all. The National Football League is a well loved pasttime to watch for most Americans, I believe.

Today two games, four teams meet for a chance at the National Football League Title. We take time to talk about the games and predict who we support as teams and players and why and which team is better or favored to win it all. Men argue, women argue and in the end it is all decided on the field each game that is played. There are turnovers, injuries, good players, bad players, weaknesses for each team still in it. Yet come game time, all the favorites are picked and the underdogs too. Some of us who have no team left to follow, do it all for entertainment and because we love the game, others for betting purposes to try to make money. Yet in the end the NFL games for me are fun to watch, interesting and some fantastic plays come to bear in who wins.

Today a team that has not won a thing in a long time, The Bengals will play a team who is in the playoffs almost every year lately The Chiefs. Now all odds makers, bettors and more from sportscasters to fans will say, this game is a one way lopsided game. It will be won easily they all are betting by the Chiefs, and they are probably correct in assuming so. But I remind all that The NY Jets Upset the Baltimore Colts many decades ago and no one thought that would happen. This game is gonna be fun to watch for me because I like backing underdogs and the Bengals are definitely that in this game. How can the Bengals beat the Chiefs, only one way, get to Mahomes, sack em numerous times. and stop the run. As I said I like backing the underdog here, but I also live in reality and facts and numbers and players, and in the end the Chiefs will more than likely win this game.

The second game between the San Francisco 49ers and La. Rams will be a good one I think. I think if you want a shoot out game, with some good competition this is the one of the two being played that will have it in it. The Rams are a powerhouse team in all areas of the game really, yet, they wil have to fight to win this one. Stafford is a good Quarterback and he has many weapons and their defense is maybe the best left in the playoffs. The 49ers, showed they can win and will do what is necessary to win in all three phases of the game, last week. Now here is the kicker in this game, hold the football, and you win, play keep away from the other team, by pounding it down field as much as possible and eat the clock. Both teams are capable of doing so here, but which has the defense to make the other team go three and out more often here? I think the 49ers have a good chance here. The favorite will be the Rams, yet the 49ers may upset them, for they have already beat them 3 times this season, I remind all. Consider this one a tough hard fought game from kickoff to ending and watch the 49ers, in it, they can win if they have zero turnovers in this game. I do love the competitive games that are close, and this should be one.

As to predicting the outcome here and who will be in the Superbowl, I won’t go there right now, but the favorites have to be KC and LA. all odds makers will say that. Like I said I would like to see the opposite though just for fun and to make it interesting, a Bengals vs, 49ers game would be fun. Yet, being logical and knowing teams and the game, I have to say it looks like a KC vs, LA, Superbowl is in store for all of us. We shall watch and see and yes I shall root for the underdogs, because in life we are all underdogs in someway at sometime.

January 29th, 2022. Snow is here and it is falling and has been since last night around 11 pm. The accumulation is not heavy as of yet, yet, there is no telling when it will stop, it is now a little after 6 am. When you get to my age at 66 years old now, you tend to not want to go dig yourself out at all so you stock up ahead of time and stay inside and keep warm. It’s the best for all of us who grow older to do as we move on in life.

I woke this morning thinking of my wife who died last August and what came to mind was two things, how much I miss her companionship and knowledge and that my mind was racing through could I have done anything in her final six months any different to keep her alive?

I laid there in bed, and did a logical progression in my head, over it all. From the moment she fell at 3am, that night, to the end in our home, and what I have concluded is I did all I could for her. I can’t see anything more, I could have done or would have either.

When she fell I rushed to her and got her up and called an ambulance. I got her into an Emergency Room and cared for. It would not be the last time, I didn’t know it. I thought she just slipped and fell and would be fine, till the Doctors admitted her. I had no idea what had caused it, but I knew she had cancer, and I did the right thing.

She went from the hospital to a Rehab facility, then from the Rehab facility in one place to a second for sixty days before I could bring her home once more. Then we had sixty days of her being close to normal at home, until one evening we were watching television and she listed to one side in her recliner. I tried to get her to sit up straight she couldn;t. I ultimately called 911 again and the process began over back to the Emergency room and then a hospital room. When I learned the cancer that started as breast cancer had spread to her bones, then to her marrow and blood stream and finally her brain. She had a mass in her head that began it all, she knew about it far before me, and never told me too. I think she was protecting me, in someway at the time.

When she left the Hospital it was back to the Rehab Facility down the street from me. I couldn’t care for her alone at home at this point and she knew it. I would drive down and visit her three times a day.

By August, I knew she was in big trouble she barely responded to me and was unable to even feed herself anymore. So I would stay and feed her the best I can until she wouldn’t eat much anymore. So, I went to the Administrator of the facility to find out her status and what they were saying. She couldn’t do PT anymore, she couldn’t do mental tests anymore or anything else. I asked how long she had left on her Medicare and was told four days, and then it would cost 350 dollars a day to keep her there.

Money now became a problem for her care and for me to survive too. So I had the Rehab call in Hospice and set her up to come home with me, where i hired a Nursing Agency and set her up in our dining room. Now, I knew at this stage what was going to happen, because as soon as you put someone in hospice you must sign a Do No Resuscitate Order for them. I did so regretfully of course I had no choice.

My wife came home for the final days on July 29th, 2021. I spent days with her while she could hear me and talked to her. She could not respond much at all. I would talk to her and feed her till her final days, the best I could. I was by now only thinking of her not myself at all. As the time clicked and days went by I became desperate, scared and felt I needed help. I called my sister who came and sat with me for my wife’s final ten days of life, caring for her with me.

I had gone to another room to check on bill payments and as I did my sister came in and told me she had passed. It was sad, it was hard on me and still is today to think of it all. Tears well up each moment I write this and think of that day, August 10th, 2021.

I did the right thing when I called Hospice to report her death then called her daughter to let her know her mom was gone. The daughter came down and said her goodbyes and the three of us sat waiting for the funeral home to send the hearst for pickup. It was over. Her burial took place August 20th, 2021.

I ended up in a hospital for ten days because of depression and thoughts of suicide, I reached out to the Veteran’s Hospital and was admitted. MY sister came and got me and kept me out of the home my wife and I had for 28 years, until we started cleaning it all out.

Now that is all the basics I go over and I know in my heart and mind and soul I did all I could for my wife whom I loved dearly and always will till the day I die. I got her a headstone with her name on it and mine too.

Do I have any regrets about anything I did no I don’t. I did all I could for my wife in her time of need and after she died. When it comes to it all being right or wrong I did it all right.

So, that’s where my mind was this Saturday Morning when I awoke at 5 am, and as i write this down. I have been going day by day, and it is my only way of surviving and making it to my own ending, I hope.

It is now over five months since my wife passed. There is always something that reminds me of her, or thoughts of her swirling through my mind and heart. I try to keep the memories of the good times with me always and push through day by day is all. Will it get easier? I am hoping so, I do know, the last words I heard from my wife was that she loved me, as I did her.

28 years together we had, and her passing has left a big hole in my life and my heart too. I hope and pray she is finally at rest and will never have pain again.

January 28th, 2022, Friday- The world is full of problems, but the problems are created by human beings not the planet itself. Yes we have volcanoes and other natural disasters, we survive them because we have learned how. What we have not done is find a way to beat man-made disasters and problems, why because man, continues to make them.

We see it everyday in the stock markets, the politics and in the way we treat the world and one another. Mankind wants everything in it’s own way it seems. We don’t control the climate folks, but we destroy it by polluting it for one. We don’t really control the markets or economy either, that is controlled by the ebb and flow of money and business. Is it right to think one President one man controls any of it, no.

What many in America do not understand is the working way of the United States Democracy and Government. Yes we elect a President every four years, Representatives every two years and Senators every six years. But who do you really think is controlling the economy, the way America deals with Foreign Policy or our Military? It is not one man in the White House doing so, the President can recommend but not force anything and if those recommendations, bills or laws he requests do not come to fruition, Congress is the one stopping progress. The way the government is set up to work it is now being used by some to stop all progress for all America. Our Infrastructure is falling apart, roads, bridges, piping, water, sewage and more. Education is failing also many of our children are not being taught correctly. Why folks why?

I tire of people who point at the President no matter which one you want to point at from the current to the past ones, and go it’s the president’s fault it isn’t! The truth is if the Senate and the House do not compromise America fails to move forward, your paychecks get hurt, you lose money and benefits and healthcare can’t even get passed for all Americans to be covered. The fact that the Senate and The House will not compromise among the members and get something done for the country tells me the system is failing us all and that is sad my friends.

Ben Franklin said when the Constitution was signed, ” We now have a Republic now and we shall only have it as long as we protect and defend it and work on it!” That was said a long time ago in 1776 folks and let me tell you something, Ben Franklin was correct in his statement. We now have hit the crossroads he spoke of, where we can not compromise, we can not discuss and come up with solutions for the American People so we sit in a state of deadness, stalled by all of it. The only way to change it is not to elect a new President or to attack the current sitting President in office. You want to change it and make something happen, change Congress both the Senate and The House members. Get rid of the members who refuse to do their jobs and compromise, make them do so, by voting them out of office if they don’t. For a nation with the population we have to be stalled and stuck and not moving forward to help it’s own people is a damn sad thing to see.

You want Healthcare, jobs, a good economy? You want lower food prices, clothing prices, utilities, gas, oil and to make life affordable, make The Senate and The House react and work with each side. Tell the Republicans and The Democrats and Independents, to compromise and work together! Vote the non-working, non-listening, non-compromising individuals out of office and replace them with new blood, new people with new ideas to push things through. Let’s set term limits on how long a Senator can serve or how many terms one may serve in the House and Senate. Term limits would help big time, it helps with The Presidency it will help in Congress!

January 27th, 2022. I watch the news and I am sure many do too, daily in the morning or evening of each day, and I have seen the reports on covid, the economy, the retiring of a Supreme Court Justice and of course the reports about January 6th, 2021 and Trump’s involvement and inciting of it all. I read reports on all of the above and wonder, how many Americans really, understand it all.

Some are blinded by biases, some are uneducated and just follow the opinions of others to fit in with their friends. Sadly few really understand all that is happening and how it all really works, concerning their own future and what it means for our country and the way we live day to day. They only worry about how much they need to pay for heat or to run their cars, fuel wise and of course utility costs and food. How many really understand the repercussions of all Trump did, how he did it and what it means for the future of democracy and our republic? The act of inciting a riot, insurrection against the government that he was supposed to be running as President is not only illegal, selfish, corruption and more, it is downright treasonous in all ways. And I remind all, he did so and incited it all, so he could stay in Office as President and he failed thank god.

Now before I go further here, I want to talk to those who are the Oath Keepers, The Proud Boys, QAnon members, are you happy now paying for the acts you committed under Donald Trump’s direction? How do you like having to pay for court costs, lawyers and being convicted of crimes, and even some serving time as Trump sit in Mar a Largo, and eats steak and parties as he wishes and plays golf and collects a massive pension and benefits from his presidency?

Lets be real here, Trump supporters elected a man to office who had no knowledge of a damn thing, and then backed him despite all his failure in his life. This man failed at selling water, selling steaks, failed at Trump University too. Look he barely gets by in real estate only because of his father’s name, otherwise he would be a broke man.

What’s even sadder about the whole Trump fiasco, is this, he has corrupted his own children and put them at risk just like he has his Trump Org. personnel and his own lawyers. So tell me folks please what kind of individual, puts at risk his most loyal followers and his own children too, for his own purposes? What kind of a man are we paying Presidential Benefits to at this stage of the game and why?

Let me conclude this one in this way folks, I am no fan of Donald Trump’s in anyway, that is obvious of course, yet I do not hate him. What I hate is his selfish, greedy ways, his way of trying to bullshit the public and twist everything in his favor. He lost the election by over 80 million votes on the popular voting and in the electoral voting by a large margin too in 2020. Yet he sent his people, his lawyers out to falsify and add illegal made up Electoral Vote ballots to make it look like he won the election and steal it from The Current President and the country. That my friends is treason, it’s illegal in all ways under our laws and constitution yet he remains a free man in Florida having a good time on your dime? Why?

I believe just because he served as President, Prosecutors in New York, Washington and other states all fear him and his money. They fear charging him and figure they can’t convict an ex-president, but I remind them, he lost all immunity or any privilege when he was voted out of office. He is a citizen of the United States only now and he is open to prosecution the same as any man, woman or child who broke the laws. He deserves to lose his pension, his benefits and and to be convicted of the crimes he has committed over his lifetime and when in office. Is it fair for a man to get away with all he has done, just because he served four years as President, no! That is like saying a Veteran of any branch of service while on duty is immune from prosecution, if he commits a crime. Nope ask the Federal and Military prisons on that one and ya will find millions of Veterans in them, who were convicted too. No man, woman or child should be immune from prosecution or being charges and convicted of crimes that break the Laws and Constitution so why is Trump not charged? You tell me folks!

Hello, year 66, for me! It is now January 26th, 2022! As I said before time waits for no one or any reason it just ticks away as we age. We may not know how long we can live, because that is not determined by us, but what all should do, is live life to the fullest and do what you want to do while you are healthy and can.

You have a place you want to go to visit or live do it, you have a person you want to ask out do it. You have something you want or need to buy and can afford it, do it. Eat well, stay healthy and in the end live long I say. Do what you want really in life, enjoy, be happy, while you can. The Good Lord put us here on earth, and we should all enjoy it as we can, and in the end the purpose we are here to do or take care of will come to light and we accomplish it and return unto the Good Lord’s side when we pass from the planet. We can’t determine or control when, but we can try our best to, make the best of our time here.

Seals and Crofts wrote a song, that goes, Life So they say, are for the fools and they let it drift away, peace like a flying dove, should be flying but it’s only just begun, Like Columbus in the olden days, we must gather all our courage, sail our ships on an open sea and cast away our fears so all the years will come and go and lift us up always up, For We may Never Pass This Way Again! IT’s a verse in a song yes, but the meaning is true to everything in life we do and should be applied by all of us. For it points out the fact everything we do, passes by, and we shall never be able to repeat any moment, in time. So live fully, enjoy as you can, and along the way you mission or purpose in life will happen one day.

Woke up this morning and realized, my wife was on mind,

Missing her is not easy you see,

Because she meant that much to me,

She was my friend,

My Lover,

My confident,

My soul partner,

My Advisor,

And so much more,

I hope she knows how much I loved her and will for all time.

Ok The AFC Championship will be first up at 3 pm est, Sunday January 30th.

The Bengals are the definite underdogs here and I believe the Chiefs will be favored by at least 14 points or more here. While Joe Burrow has shown up in these playoffs along with Jamar Chase and others, the Chiefs defense will probaly win out in this game. Mahomes has weapons of all kinds here for the Chiefs on Offense. The only chance the Bengals have here is if they can cause turnovers, sack Mahomes, and keep the KC Offense on the sidelines. If not count on a one sided game here in the Chief’s pocket.

The NFC Championship Game- will be next at 6;30 pm est, This game will be a good one i believe. The 49ers ar a good team and if they have zero turnovers and they get to Stafford with their front four, they can win. The Rams Defense is big in this one and it could prove the part to win. Yet, The 49ers have shown their defense is no push over either. So, I say this game will be the closer of the two, and probally be a 7 or 10 point game in the end. Does San Francisco have a chance against the Rams, yes they do, all will depend on their Defense and the 49ers having zero turnovers, and they can play it and win. In the end though if i am correct, the Ram will probaly win it here.

So My prediction for a Super Bowl this year is La Rams Vs Kansas City Chiefs. And that my friends could turn out to be a good one if it happens take it from me. I do l ike close games, so no blowouts please here.

Life has many stages to it folks, your baby years and then your childhood years, then your teens, the next thing you know your through your 20s and into your thirties, why because your so busy. By the time you hit your forties, your pretty much settled into a family life of your own in some manner. The next thing you know you fly through the forties and fifties and suddenly you hit your sixties, and realize shit I am on the downslide side of life. All of us tend to not realize it, until the aches and pains start to happen and catch up to us. Welcome to my world now, at sixty six years old. I never thought I would pass forty years old, yet here I am.

What did I learn for sixty six years of life besides the basics of course, 1) Treat all you meet with respect 2) Never forget your family and friends 3) LIve life each day, without harming anyone else. 4) Slow down, smell the roses as you go 5) Do what you want to and need to, as you go, if you really want it do it, or you miss it and will regret it. There is always regrets in all of our lives, I don’t care who you are, in the end we miss things we never should have, and go damn. Can’t change it and you learn, there are rules to life, morals, ethics, manners and in the end we all have reasons for our choices. Choices we make, we make quickly sometimes, or slowly, but once made we must live with them and carryon. So, stop, think and then decide especially if it is a very important decision.

IN all my life now of sixity six years mind you, I have never really celebrated my birthday and I don’t need to. Yet, when I turned forty, my second wife before I married her, gave me a forty Birthday Party. I loved my second wife and still do today, over 5 months after she has passed and left me here.I miss her, she was my lover, my confident, my partner and more and i will miss her forever more. She did tell me before she passed, 1) I would be ok 2)She loved me and 3) She wants me to be with her for all eternity when I join her. So, as it goes now, I am trying to carry on and move on with life and as I tell everyone it is one day at a time. Thank You to all who know me and have reached out and sent condolences and have wished me well.I believe no matter what, I am living a life that has been decent to me in all ways, even if I lost my wife to cancer and I have had cancer myself. Never did I surrender folks and no one should, stay strong, stay smart, have a heart and remember, to be good, fair and treat all decent. Life is only a mystery we live through, because we do not control our own fate, or destiny, but we adapt and adjust and survive. No one knows when the Good Lord shall recall us to his side, so we live on until he does. God Bless All!

January 24th, 2022. Well, after a exciring weekend of NFL PLayoffs, DIvisional Round, I must sya it was the best playoff round I have seen in a very long time.

Out of the four games, there were three upsets and only one favorite that moved on to the AFC Championship Game. New blood in the Championship rounds in both conferences is good for all fans and the overall NFL itself.

The Bengals were the first and biggest Surprise for me on Saturday, and I must say, after 31 years of not getting into the playoffs, they showed themselves to bea team that doesn’t quit.

The 49ers, showed they have enough firepower offensively and a decent defense that steps up when needed, Well done on their part believe me, great game when they beat the Packers.

The Rams victory over Tampa Bay, went as i predicted, They got to Tom Brady, harassed him and sacked him enough to ultimately beat the bUcs, in a close contest. Well, done to the Rams.

The Chiefs will now after beating the Bills in a shoot out in Kanas City, move on and defend their AFC Title from last year. Mahomes and Kelce area great combo in KC, and that defense is good too. So how will the next round the two DIvisional Games go in my opinion and will I predict them, well, I will not at this time today. The possibilty of the 49ers beating the Rams is low considering they will be in the Rams home field, but, the 49ers can surprise and have. As to the the winner I would say ultimately the Rams. Time shall tell, it should be a good game for the NFC Crown. As to on theother end the AFC Championship, The Chiefs have proven they area powerhouse and Mahomes can do it allo, add in Kelce and the recievers and then that Chiefs defense and the Bengals are in trouble here. I admire the Bengals grit and never say die fighting spirit that got them to the AFC Championship. Yet, as much as I will root for the underdog Bengals to win it all. they are young, maybe too young to win this one. SO Look for Kanas City to win this one.

As the month flies by January always has for me since i wa sborn this month, it seems one step at a time even at the speed the month is passing is all I may do. I got an offer on my home in Connecticut and now must call two attorneys to get it done, one for the probate release for sale and the second to do the closing. Once those are complete, the house should go by March and I can pay off my car and buy a new place for myself to live.

IT is now over 5 months since my wife’s passing due to her cancer. I still miss her and think of her daily Like i told someone yesterday here, we grieve for the ones we love when they pass, then you get to a point where the grieving goes from grief to anger, to a numbness, Then you begin to realize, there is no way, you can bring them back. So, you begin to gather your wits and spirit back and recover slowly from the loss and do what is necessary to move on with your own life, taking care of yourself, each day in all ways. We have no choice ladies and gents if you think about it, we can’t choose who passes or when or how, the Good Lord handles that. It is beyond our decision as to when we get recalled to the Lord’s side.

Fate, and Destiny and of course the running of our life’s purpose and why we are on the planet earth are not things we, as mankind have ever figured out, the reasons for. We don’t control it in anyway. I once told someone, we are in a way, much like the ants that crawl beneath out own feet. We build our own ant hills so to say, cities, towns, hamlets or whatever, the ants do ant hills. We forage for food, we store it and we eat it and we scurry across the planet in outr own ways. We look down on the ants, but who is looking down on us observing what we do and how we do it is the only question here.IN the end we shall never know if my observation of the human to any comparrison is real and valid or not, just that I had it.

Well, next, is what? I don’t know yet as i work my way through my wife’s passing, the probate, house emptying and sales i must do. As I told one person it must be one step at a time, one item at a time until finally it is over and I have whatI need to survive on y own till my own passing.

As I said before to thers and I shall repeat here now, all I want now till I pass myself is a place of my own, for comfort, warmth and peace. I hope and pray I shall find one in a place where I am among those 55 plus and comfy. Do I need huge or expensive no, warm and comfy well heated and in the end easy access and close to hospitals I need to reach helps. Time shall tell I am sure now. Time waits for no one and the battle for supreme position will always be between Mother Nature and Father Time, neither has won and probally never will, unless, one side or the other fails and that shall be the end of all on earth.

If I were Stephen King, Doris Kearns Goodwin, or any other famous Author/ Writer, I could push out a couple of thousand words a day, by forcing myself into a pattern of doing so. Locking myself into a space or place where only ones imagination and word craft can be seen or heard and is produced on a computer or paper, for latter reveal to all. No two writers, write the same or use the exact same method to produce what they do. Some research material for biographies, some use a format to create characters and round them out as they go along in their process. Some create places and lands and have great descriptions to their stories that take a person’s mind to places of wonder and unbelievable heights not easy to reach. The point is this in my mind and it is life that gives writers material to use daily and sometimes even by the minute or hour, for as we move forward it is happening around us, but how many really stop to convey it to others in writing , in order to write one must have a passion for what they are talking about, and they must be able to let it flow from their heart and mind onto a piece of paper or on to a computer hard drive or disc. I heard one writer say and I quote ” Writing is like bleeding one’s soul in the open air and trying to capture it and explain it to all around you.” Now, I do not remember who actually said it, just that it was said and I read it somewhere.

We all have experiences in life we have lived through, and those alone can be basis for good stories and tales and factual writing. Experiences in life that can be bad, can be demorializing, or painful, or happy, and joyfol, all can be described and used when writing. People we knew or know who can inspire us because of what they did in their lives, or are doing daily in their lives and their reasons for doing so too. Look back at what others have written and watch the subjects they cover, some imaginary, some factual, some biographical and even some non-sensical. How do they do it is really the question isn’t it?

Use of the human language in conversation everyday can inspire dialogues, and converstaions in your stories. Events happening can be added into your stories for the time period you are writing in, or you can just invent some. It is all a matter of a few special traits many writers have.

First trait is, determination and persistance. The good writer’s will hit blocks and struggle through knowing at some point the words shall flow once more.

Second trait is that a writer must have a good imagination and be able to create worlds, or convey them in detail, descriptions make the story realistic.

Thirdly, character development as one goes along is vital, don’t throw the reader off by going too far out with what your characters do, it is a pattern they must follow and they must stay true to who they are in your story.

Fourthly, and I say this because I know, you must develop your story or writing to follow a pattern that makes sense in it’s progression. If a murderer you created kills for certain reasons, then those reasons must be held to the charactor and his reactions or hers, in the story. Case is in point is a television series I have just recently been introduced to, Dexter. Dexter the charactor killed for his own reasons, even though he was damaged goods himself, and he stayed true to form until his ultimate demise in the show, when he broke his pattern. The sudden change is what made the last program of Dexter shocking to many and I won’t give away the ending of course, but it is that kind of writing that makes it interesting, the unpredictability.

In the writing, we tend to sometimes drift away from the subject, or change a character in someway, before you do, make sure you give a reason or show a reqason for the character tochange, otherwise you may lose the reader.

Fifthly, stay with the plot of the story and genre you are dealing with. If it is a horror story stay with it, if it is sci-fi, or a drama, of a biographical nature, stay true to it. Don’t mix and match or you will lose the audience/ reader.

Last thing about writing I will say to anyone who tries it, if you don’t persist, if you don’t let it all out, the story won’t sell, the reader must be able to feel your passion,, you emotional input and understand where the story is coming from and where it is going. Then they will want to follow it.

Writing is a craft and in it’s own way an art. Any writer who says it is not, has a problem with perception really, for to grab a person’s imagination or to make a subject you write on interesting enough to hold their attention, it must be done in some logical progression. The story must unfold a world for the reader to get engrossed in, or taken away in. And to do that with the written word is not as simple as it sounds. Words must be learned, phrases invented, styles conveyed for it all to work. You can’t take a person from the 50’s era and slap them into a 2000 era and make it work without explaining how they got there can you. So always remember, a character, will change if you do so, but it has to be because they need to to adopt to the situation you put them in.

That my friends is my thoughts this am, on the writing craft / art. It may not be the best thoughts or the best advice someone can give to others, but it is what I understand it to be. If something is in you and you need to let it out and let others hear it and understand it, get a dictionary, and sit down and figure how to convey it in written word. But do so in plain english, and then if you must rewrite and edit it later. The importance of getting it out is vital, for once it is on paper or disc, or computer, a reading of it and editing of it, will make it acceptable to an audience and you can be heard by many. Editing is vital and makes it logical and worth reading.