February 24th is here folks, and the weather has been warm to cold and back and forth like crazy lately. Half a world away Russia is invading and attacking Ukraine. The American Economy is hurting, trucking can’t operate due to gas prices rising constantly. Politics in America is like the wreck of the Fitzgerald frankly a damn mess. Yet, life goes on daily, and somehow, we Americans keep going so that is a plus for us and the world too.

At some point Americans need to wake up to the fact, we shall never have another generation like we had in the 1950;s and 1960s. We had manufacturing, we had the best cars around, we had music and food and, people worked jobs, earned good wages for those days, and somehow like my parents did, they worked two jobs and took care of themselves and their children. Kids had food and shelter and went to school daily and learned. What happened to the America of the 1950s and 1960’s generations? What happened to the pride of Americans, The United States led the world in all areas that were important back then, now we lack the ability to lead in any way needed. Where did the pride go in American industry?

As the world is facing war now happening, and people dying of covid and more, we seem to be lackadaisical in our response to all that happens. We seem to accept things happening and let them, and I tend to wonder, when will the United States, stand up and say no to it all, and work to change it, and grow a backbone again?

No, I am not advocating we enter a war, I don’t want war for anyone on this planet, it’s nasty, deadly and innocents die. Yet the aggression from Russia and Putin must be stopped and Ukraine has a right to exist as a nation of its own. So what can we Americans do to help them and stop Russia? I don’t know myself, for sanctions alone will not stop Putin or Russia.

Then we have the political turmoil in our own country, the two major parties at one another’s throats, disagreeing on every single bill or law and locking the country in a dead stall, no progress being made at all. Common sense says, that American people control our own country, we are a democracy and a republic, yet we have failed ourselves, by electing fools to office, they have no ideas and they are controlling what happens and doesn’t happen in such a way, as to stop any progress at all. Why?

I hate to inform the American People, that under the current setup, in politics here, we screwed ourselves by dividing the government between the two parties the way we did. We the people did it and we the people must undo it too. I don’t think the American People realized how bad this was going to get politically for all of us, and what effect it was going to have on our laws, economy, job market, and more. Too many Americans just went off and voted the way they did out of anger and did not use common sense. In the end, we are stalled as a country, and that my friends sucks, for, we shall suffer if we don’t change it soon. America being at a dead standstill is bad for us all and the world too, if we the American People can’t see that by now, we have a serious problem.

I love my country folks, I served her for 16 years until I was injured in the line of duty and could not anymore. I hate seeing the country I served in this condition and politicians running their mouths against each other, and not a damn thing getting done for the American people or our stature in the world. We are beginning to look like fools, big time now.

Let me say this, I see some still backing Donald J. Trump. If you are you are backing a criminal, and the worst President in American history, twice impeached in one four-year term. He did nothing for America in his term except attempt to build a wall on our southern border, failed. He passed a tax law/ bill that protected himself and his rich cronies. Then he failed to handle covid, looked like a fool in Russia with Putin, looked like a fool in South Korea with Kim too. Then he refused to accept the facts and numbers of a legal and proper election, that he lost by the same numbers or worse than Hillary Clinton lost to him in 2016. So, what did he do, he set up sedition and insurrection against his own government and country. Why so, he can stay in power is why and he failed at that too, I remind you. Stop backing Trump people, listen to me, you backing a losing horse and a dead one at this point. He has so many civil and legal cases against him, the American People will never elect him as president again, no way in hell.

What we need to do as Americans, is put ourselves together, clean up Congress, and elect someone in each office that will compromise, whether it is in the Senate, The House, or Presidency. Those who will not compromise for the good of our nation, the country, should be voted out of office as soon as possible. We need people who listen and make sense, not just sit and refuse to work matters out. Incumbents who have been in office too long need to go, term limits need to be reset for the Senate and House. The old warhorses of the Senate and the House must be replaced by new blood and new ideas must come about in order for America to survive once more. We are now lagging behind in too many areas because of this non-compromising attitude.

In the end, let me say this, I miss the America we had in the ’50s. 60’s and 70s. I miss the men and women who were in office back then, they at least understood the word compromise and the phrase, For The Good of The American People. The ones in Office today only think of what’s good for themselves, not you or I, the average American citizen.

Americans need to realize, they still control America’s destiny, and at this time it is failing and falling apart, we are the only ones who can change it for the better at the ballot boxes on election days. If we don’t the road we are traveling down will lead to the fall of the American Republic and democracy as a way of life.

Extreme-Adjective. excessive, immoderate, inordinate, extravagant, exorbitant, extreme mean going beyond a normal limit. excessive implies an amount or degree too great to be reasonable or acceptable. Now, understanding, this definition should be easy for many, of all political parties, yet some do not get it.

I am not a political person really, so I do not stand behind the democrats or republicans or independents 100 percent here in the USA. What I do not like is the extremist of the parties and how far they will go to either to the left or right side. Extreme views and pushing extreme ideas and policies are sad, and dangerous for all Americans to see and hear. Why can’t people be democrat or republican or even independent and not go so far extreme?

Some ideas I get are pitched because people have thoughts and want to voice them loudly and proudly and get others involved. The question becomes why are some so extreme and what is their point in being so. Is there a problem with being moderate in the USA?

I don’t care which political affiliation you are, I do care when you push extreme ideas and policies and incite riots or displays of violence on the American People and their government. I don’t like turning on my television and witness, murder, mayhem, madness, and more.

What took place on January 6th, 2021, was one man who was President, trying to stay in office even though he lost the election by large numbers in the electoral college and the popular vote. So what did he do, he incited his followers to attack the USA capital, destroy the property of the people and go after duly elected officials just doing their jobs. Why, because he believes he knows better than the American People and wanted to stay in power.

It has now been well over a year since Donald J. Trump incited and directed members of certain organizations to attack the capital. He walked away from the White House and the Presidency, and still defied the laws of the United States and took files and records home with him that belong to the United States. That’s extreme and dangerous to our nation.

Donald J. Trump I will remind all now, failed at everything he touched in his life, this man couldn’t sell education, steaks, water, and other products. He failed to build the wall on the southern border and anything else he tried to do. The South Korean President laughed at him, Putin laughed at him and now Trump is backing Putin’s move on Ukraine too. Sad. Extreme is a definition and word that should be used to describe Donald J. Trump, his ideas, ideologies, his actions, are all extreme. Anyone not knowing or seeing it is a blind loyalist of his and will never admit why they follow him.

I had a discussion once in a Doctor’s waiting room with a blind Trump Loyalist one day. I asked the person to name something Trump did in office that was good for America. His response was he built a wall on the border and did his tax plan. I then explained to the person, 1) The wall was never finished and won’t be ever. 2) The tax plan Trump created and passed did not affect the average American citizen, it was written for him and the rich period, now tell me what he accomplished and how good Trump was. The room went silent and the man did not answer me ever.

I remind all, there were zero accomplishments during Trump’s four years as President. He was impeached twice in four years and no President in history has ever been before or since. Trump incited the riot, is being sued for rape, illegal business operations, tax fraud, and more. Donald Trump, stole documents, ripped up documents and disposed of documents during his Presidency, and flushed them down toilets to hide facts. It is a sad state of mind, in my opinion for anyone to back Trump for a return to the Presidency! Donald J. Trump needs to be charged and convicted and put in prison for all he has done illegally in America.

I think Americans need to wake up and make changes and not back Donald J. trump for anything ever again. I think Trump should be indicted, charged, and tried for each crime he has done. Anyone who supported Trump, as his follower or lawyer or relative should also be looked into, charged, and convicted too. What I can’t believe today in America is, we the American People, are paying a man who was the worst President in American history, who led an insurrection against his own country while president, and was twice impeached, a pension, and full benefits? Why? Donald J. Trump needs to lose all benefits, pensions, medical care he garnered as President, for he fought against his own country, creating the Insurrection. Who is paying to repair the capitol buildings, windows, the clean-up, the items that were destroyed that January 6th or 2021? What American President has ever called for his own Vice President to overturn an election, and then sat back and watched as people he sent to the capital, try to chase down his Vice president and try to hang him? He let these people build gallows on the Capital Grounds to hang Pence with! What American President does this shit, folks, one Donald J. Trump! Yet you go to stores or a public place, and still people back this man for a second run for the Presidency, what is wrong with them, please tell me. Donald J. Trump needs charged, convicted, prison time, and to be stripped of all benefits, pension, and anything he gathered while President. Donald J. Trump should be constitutionally banned from ever holding public office in the United States again, stripped of all pensions, benefits from the Presidency. He should have to face a trial and charges for all he has done.

I am at a stage now, where after my wife passed, I feel in limbo, lost, reaching for answers and trying to get things done, I can no longer take care of on my own. I have done all I could for my wife before she died, running her through Hospitals, Rehab Facilities twice, and then in the end bringing her home to our home, under hospice care and my care. I did as she requested and buried her under what she requested, no production, no show just a small ceremony. It was her wish to be buried quietly and in peace, I gave her that.

I tried to give her daughter and sister what they wanted even after they sat next to my wife as she died, dividing the house up between them. I bent over backward to do the best I could for them and myself and I am hated now by her daughter and sister for not letting them do as they pleased and run through my house after her death taking what they wanted. Now, Neither talks to me and both hate me, I am sorry for that, but, I did nothing wrong.

I was told I yelled at my wife’s granddaughter when she showed up for an estate sale after I warned the daughter not to come. I didn’t yell at anyone, I help the kid gather momentos, and boxed them for her, and walked with her to her car to sent her away with a huge hug. I did not hate or yell at anyone.

I was then pushed to allow the daughter in the house and i refused right till the end, it was my home and all of my stuff. Her mother left the daughter nothing in her will at all, why, simple, she has two houses and two of everything and has a job that makes her over 200 grand a year. My wife stated clearly, she doesn’t need a thing. So by law, once my wife passed all was mine and will be mine to do, as I please with.

I was generous to a fault according to everyone who knows me and witnessed it. I gave her a trailer loaded with items and an SUV full too. Now, she claims I didn’t give her everything, well, I gave a lot more than her father’s second wife gave her upon his death. She got three items from her and told me that was it, and she stated that in front of my sister and her boyfriend, and I.

After her death and burial, I received a list of items in text on my cell phone from the daughter, of all items she and her aunt wanted. I fulfilled said list, except for one item. Then I am told by the daughter, that I didn’t let her in the house like I told her mother I would, that’s true, but, it was my decision to make. Then I got told she paid two thousand dollars for her mother’s death, In fact, her mother’s death cost me 12 thousand dollars and the two grand she speaks of she spent on a reception she wanted and two obituaries she wanted in papers nowhere near where we lived. I paid all costs of medical, death, and burial myself. It was my duty as her husband and I did it, out of love. Not because I wanted my friends to come to some reception.

Once, I got the headstone for my wife’s grave that includes my name I texted the picture of it to the daughter, told her it was done, and paid for it. What I got was a speech in a text saying I can’t be friends with her, I broke promises to her mother and she blocked myself and my sister from her social media period, on Facebook and removed our phone numbers. Sadly, she now has to live with some facts. One, she went on vacation with her children as her mother was dying in a bed in my home. Why? She was told to not go and stay, she refused. She has to live with the fact she and her aunt sat across my wife’s dying body, dividing up the property and making lists of what they both wanted. I could and will never forgive either of them for that. So, she thought for sure, it would bother me when she removed us from her Facebook Page and phone guess what she learned differently.

Now my wife has been dead now over 6 months, I am alone and trying to find my way to a new life at this time with the help of my sister and her boyfriend. Will I survive it all or will depression get me, will I finish the sale of the house and the buying of a new place for myself? Time shall tell as I ride an emotional rollercoaster of shock, depression, loss, and then highs of trying to move on. Nothing has been easy or simple these days, and I don’t know for sure if I will make it through. All I can do is try!.

Death Be Not Proud was a book written about a man’s son dying of brain cancer. It had its own meaning of course, that belonged to the Author of the book. The basic of it was a boy died, and no one really understood how or why fully. At least that is the way I translated it in my mind.

Now, as time goes on I know, death has now become a fascination for me since my wife’s death from cancer last year. I find myself, leaning at times to ending my own life for I find no purpose anymore in being alive here on earth without her. Everyone who lives and is living daily does so for a purpose. to reach a goal, to accompany someone they love, to create something, or to make something right. We all are supposed to have things to live for, are we not?

What happens I ask now when you run out of reasons to be here, reasons to want to do things, you lack the motivation to do anything. What happens when all your goals are gone and you are left, an empty shell of what you were, and in the end, you can’t find another motivation to carry on?

I find myself at that point in my life after my wife died last August of 2021. I find myself just going through the motions of eating, drinking, sleeping and each step I take when I get up is on autopilot so to say. I feel like there is nothing I am doing that is worth anything anymore. I try to see my way to a new beginning in the near future, maybe a new location, a new home, but I find my mind and heart, not in it. Without someone to share it with, or to be with me I wander aimlessly and have no real purpose.

As I now look at death and what may come I find just what I say to keep going is Death is Not Proud, but I find the resistance to it all slipping from my mind and heart. I find no reason to go on really and find myself thinking of different ways to just leave this place of existence I am living in. It is now just that an existence without meaning or purpose, so why am I here still?

To me, Death Be Not Proud says there is something to be ashamed of in dying, I do not find that so, in my mind. Without purpose, reason, to go on, why stay alive? I have had three people I have known in my life commit suicide and I used to think what a shame that they did. I don’t find myself thinking that way anymore, I find myself thinking they found the way to eternal rest on their own timeline and for their own reasons. They seem to me, to have followed their own reasoning and logic, to the conclusion they believed was proper at the time they did it. Am I wrong, I doubt it these days for I feel the lost, helpless feeling they must have felt. I find no purpose in my life anymore.

I had two marriages, two children, two dogs, two of everything in my life. I did all I could in my life and achieved a lot. Is there any way, I could have done anything I did differently, I don’t think so, at this time. So in the end, if I stop to think of all of it, I can honestly say, if I die tomorrow, my death would not matter to anyone, so I now understand, why Death Be not Proud! There is no pride in dying, but there is sadness in staying when there is no reason or purpose in life in being here! It only drives one to depression, sadness, and isolation. It may be that Death Be Not Proud is true, but at least in the end it is a peaceful eternal rest isn’t it?

I have lived 66 years and at no time in my life have I ever felt so alone and scared of the future, especially since my wife passed last August. I have tried to be brave, to be strong, to hang on and carry on as if all is ok, and it isn’t. I know I miss my wife, I know it is normal to grieve and to have periods of sadness and up and downs. But I also know I am scared of being alone in the future.

I know my thoughts and my emotions and feelings, and I know for me it will be rough and I am not sure how long I can go on. I have no purpose in life anymore, I find myself staring at walls, talking to myself, and crying alone in bed. I find myself wondering what will happen next, do I wish to see it and can I handle any of it? Do I really have any more left to contribute to life? I have my doubts big time folks, and I know some may think otherwise. I am physically weaker, mentally weaker, and emotionally a wreck and I hide it all. I have to too, I can’t allow my sister to see it all.

I know I had ten days in a facility to try to pull myself back together and it helped for a bit. Now it is like a page from the past lost to me like my wife is. It happened I know it happened yet, I can’t remember it anymore or what I was there for and what they tried to help me do.

Many think I am fine and I would never say otherwise, but my future is going to be living alone in a condo, in a community of 55 plus people. I haven’t lived alone in 28 years folks. I am scared, nervous, and under the facade of a smile or joke, I shake internally in all ways. I am scared, terrified of the idea of being fully alone again. Is that hard to understand, or am I wrong for feeling that way or thinking that way?

At times I think I would be better off not to be alive anymore, seriously. I think of what it would be like to join my wife again. To not have to worry anymore about how I will survive, what to do. I am lost, floundering, wandering, and wondering, how long can I last in this state? Is there a way out of it for me, or what will happen? I have no idea and it sends shivers through my mind and body, I have no idea how to stop the fears.

Look I know I can impose on my sister and her man here. I understand they have their own lives to live, and I am a burden being in their home. I also know, they want their lives back and their privacy too. yet I wonder, what will happen, once I am alone on my own, and there is no one here to talk to or see anymore. The silence alone will get me, and I know depression will hit me again. So, I have no idea what to do about any of it. I know it will be rough, and I have no idea how I will handle it or what I may do.

I have been down the suicidal path now, and I see it coming at me again. Will I survive it or not is the real question. For you see, being isolated and alone is not good for me and I know it. I have seen it already, and I have no idea what to do on my own.

As I see it, there is a great possibility, I won’t last long on my own. It doesn’t matter if I have a new place to live or new furniture. It will all be nothing more than material things to me that mean not a damn thing without my wife to share them.

I have been told I will meet new people and I will be fine, I don’t believe it really. I don’t see how it will be possible for me. Yet, I know I have little choice in any of it. I am not an extrovert, I am not a super friendly person, I am not someone who attracts others, impresses others, or makes friends easily. I never have been.

Each night I climb in bed, I look at the ceiling and then, my CPAP Machine, I fill it with water. I take pills to sleep with, I lay in silence praying to sleep well, yet, my mind is racing at ten thousand miles an hour over my wife’s passing, her burial, the way it went. I end up swearing at her daughter and sister for what they did as she died. I end up hating them and then trying to forgive them and can’t find a way to do so. I roll over again and again until I pass out. Sleep is not easy for me, these days, too many thoughts, visions, and dreams come to my mind. Nightmares of her death, hit me and I sometimes talk to her laying in bed and no one responds. When I finally sleep it is for a short period of time, my body jumps at times, and my breathing even on a CPAP machine is not normal, I sometimes stop breathing and I know it. It is all a pattern now, I go through each night. Is it normal, is it right, am I crazy, am I broken and damaged, am I falling apart, I have no idea anymore.

It is the hardest thing in the world to stop your mind from returning to the thoughts, going over the events, her death, and the emotional turmoil at times kicks my ass, to be honest. I fall in and out of depression and in out of thoughts of suicide. I lean to it and then run from it. I get the thought over and over, of why am I here anymore, what is my purpose, should I end it all. Somehow I hang on and I don’t know-how so far, but how long will that hold before it doesn’t anymore. That is my question that I cannot answer these days.

February 12th, 2022, I awoke early this morning and tried to go back to sleep after only four hours of sleeping and was unable to. It’s been this way now since my wife passed in August of 2021, from cancer. It is hard for me to get tired and sleep much at all. Why I don’t know for sure. I did all I can regarding her death and I know I did right by her in every way I could at the time.

Time, it seems is not being kind to me as I age, at 66 years old I am losing weight now, and not being able to sleep a straight eight hours at a clip anymore is not good for my health. I know it and I am aware of it, yet, I can’t force my body to do a damn thing about it all. I wish I could even sleeping pills don’t help these days as I wake up with my mind going over and over my wife’s death, my own future and where I can live, and what to do next. My mind races and I have dreams that come to me regarding, her death and how I miss her, and if I can move on without her at all.

Bills to pay, a house to sell, problems with the sale due to pipes bursting, putting money down on a new place, and hoping all works out has my mind racing in many directions now. I am constantly cold in body temperature and have trouble staying warm these days. Why I don’t know, I just know what is happening to me, or not happening to me. Each moment I am awake I wonder how much further in life I can go alone and survive. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore, it is as if I am losing my reasons to care if I live or die really. I know some will say that I am crazy or I am having a pity party or something, but the truth is I am trying to find a reason to keep going nowadays. Is that wrong for me to do, I don’t know, but I know what I feel and how I think right now, and I wonder what the hell I am still here for.

I had a purpose when my wife was alive for 28 years I cared for her and our home to the best of my ability and we were together always. I would take care of her, feed her, take her to doctors and tests and she would support me in all ways. We were companions, friends, lovers, and always there for one another. I so miss her it is crazy and each day is now a struggle for me.

Many will never understand what it is like to lose their partner of so many years they married and loved so unless you go through it all, you will never understand. It saps your energy, your spirit, and I wander sometimes aimlessly trying to make sense of what to do next. I get up every day and I see no real future for me, because she is not with me, and the loneliness eats at my soul and heart. Am I crazy, or am I losing it, I don’t know anymore, is it just the grief I feel, or is it a lot more than my mind and heart can handle?

I try to find small things to hang on to and keep going daily, but they are few and far between in a covid-19 world these days. When you have no one to talk to really, no one to share hopes with cares with, or love with you tend to go what the hell am I here for. You struggle to get out of bed or to shower or shave in my case. Or, get up and wander aimlessly to get coffee and stare at a tv screen or computer screen trying to connect with the world and not getting there most of the time. There is a sense of disconnect, a sense of being lost without a rudder, a sense of why am I here, what is my purpose is here. Will I be able to keep going and then I feel like I am hanging on by no more than a thin thread of life here.

I watched as my wife went downhill from her cancer over the last ten years of her life. It sapped her strength, her physical strength, her mental abilities, and finally immobilized her. I was with her every moment of it and stayed with her till her end. I cried and still do today over the loss of her and all she meant to me. I will be crying for the rest of my life I am sure.

I am trying to find a way forward, a new location to live the rest of my life, a place to find people and make friends again. Can I, only time will tell now, as I try to buy a new home, rid myself of the old one, and in the end try to start over. I knew the moment my wife died I would be lost without her, and I was right in all ways.

I took the advice of friends and family to sell the home, I knew I could never stay in it anymore. Now I am trying to sell it outright and buy a condo. Now, new is nice I am sure and many would love the idea of a brand new condo and a new place to love new everything. Yet the loneliness of it all and not knowing what will work or not work for me is a big thing on my mind now.

I am trying to take one day at a time, stay positive look for the good in life, and get done what is needed for me to live in the future. Yet I realize I am 66 years old, my health is not the greatest, and I fear aging myself and being alone forever. I don’t really know anymore what to do with myself.

Life is not meant to be a lonely time folks, it is meant to share with someone. If you have been alone all your life well I have no idea how the hell you did it or are doing it. I always wanted someone with me, for companionship, as a confident, lover and friend for good times and bad. Maybe I am wrong but I believe the good Lord made human beings to be with other human beings. Am I to be alone now forever till I die and pass from this planet? I don’t know but, if so, I know it will be a lonely ending for me if it is so.

I have family, but few now, I have friends again but few who know me really. They recommend and have told me to stay strong, carry on, one day at a time and do the best I can. I am doing that, one has suggested I should find another woman to share my time with and get to know, I am hesitant on that, for in my mind and heart no one can replace the wife I lost. I don’t think I am wrong in that assumption, or in feeling this way, I think all who lose someone feel it too. Is it right, is it wrong, am I weak or am I strong, I don’t know anymore, I just know I am here and I can only do what I can to go on or give up. Surrender has never been an option in my life, although I have considered it more than once now. I have friends who died young and one who or two who shot themselves and I never even thought of that. I don’t know what will happen in my case now, will I carry on and be able to handle the loss and pain I feel, or what options are left for me now? I don’t know anymore!

I have faced problems in the past, and overcome them, but this is not a problem you overcome when you lose the one you loved so deeply for so long. It is a process that is rough emotionally, and mentally and it affects you even physically over time, I know I am living it now. They say, when your husband or wife dies, the one left behind joins them soon after, will that happen to me, I know not. I wonder at times what I really do, for each day is one at a time.

February 11th, 2022, I have had covid-19 now, how I got it, or where I have no idea really just that I have. According to the doctors I saw at the Veteran’s Hospital in Boston my case is not very different than many others they see. We don’t even know we have it, and our symptoms are very lite as in my case here. So, I do not feel alone in the fact I have had covid-19, as one person told me, it looks like all will get it at least once and maybe more times. Variants keep coming and in the end, we will build immunity to it, at 66 I am scared of having it, but it is receding and I am fine right now.

The funny thing is I don’t go out much and the times I do are few and far between these days. Others go to taverns and bars and more two sometimes three of four a week and they don’t get it it seems to me. Maybe it is my age and conditions, or maybe some hide the fact they have it, but the facts are the facts with me.

Anyway, in two days, the Super Bowl will happen once again. Two teams will clash for the honor of being dubbed Super Bowl Champions of the National Football League, World Champions they call them.

The Underdog is who I will root for in this Superbowl 56, I always root for the underdogs, and in this case, The Cincinnati Bengals are it. While I know the odds are against them in many ways, it is nice to see a different team that hasn’t won a Superbowl make one and I wish them the best for sure. Can the Bengals win it, you never know on any given day do you, upsets do happen.

Against a team like the L.A Rams, I am not sure the Bengals even have a chance. The Rams have a high-powered Offense and a high-powered defense too. Can they beat, yes, but that is not the question is it, folks, it’s really can The Bengals pull off the upset? I like watching these games and wondering as they go along if they will be competitive or not. In this case, the only way it is worth watching is if, in some way, the Bengal’s defense can stop the Ram”s offense in my book. The Rams are a quick-start club that scores early and they keep going. The only way to stop the Rams is to stop their running game and bottle up Stafford and get to him.

How will Joe Burrow and the Bengal’s offense attack the Ram’s defense is another question here? We shall see if they can come up with an attack plan that can keep them in this game. Now, I am an NFL fan from way back in my youth and I will say this now if this game becomes lopsided and way out of any chance of the Bengals winning, people will turn it off quickly. No, real, football fan likes a blowout game! Lopsided contests become boring and not worth the time to watch really and fans like to see close games. So, I will await the Superbowl game like many fans and cheer for the underdogs and hope to see a decent contest.

OK next, subject, the Trump fiasco continues in America only because we the American people allow it to. We all know what Donald J. Trump is now and we all laugh at it and give him leeway and ignore the laws he broke, and let him get away with it all. It’s been that way for most of his adult life and definitely during his Presidency too and since. Why do we the American People allow him to do all he does and still go out and rile up crowds and cause problems as he is? He is being investigated for January 6th, tax fraud, and so much more yet he is still walking free, why? He takes Presidential papers home, he tears them up and flushes them, and gets away with it all, are you serious here? Look, I have never been a Trump Supporter and I shall never be one in any way. He failed at everything he ever tried or touched, he is a walking disaster zone, just waiting to explode. So why does he have so many supporters still after all he has done? Someone tell me why anyone would back Trump now!

I hear the excuses of Biden isn’t doing well in office, he’s old, it’s true and I won’t deny it, in my opinion, yet, there is no excuse for all that Trump did against his own government and while in office. Look, no one man can clean up the Government or what’s wrong with the economy folks, Congress has to help here. So, time will tell with Biden, but, there is absolutely no way, Donald J. Trump should be allowed anywhere near the public, office again! He is a danger to Democracy, the Republic we live in, and our way of life period.

I suggest and ask Congress and both main parties to get together and bring in independents too and ban Donald J. Trump from ever holding public office in America now. Donald Trump should be banned from public office, his pension and benefits and security removed from him and he should be charged for all he did in the Insurrection on January 6th, 2021. If he isn’t charged or banned it can happen again, let’s not let it. Call your Representative, your Senator, tell them, Ban Donald J. Trump, from holding any office, push for the removal of his pension, his benefits, and security, he is rich anyway and doesn’t need it. Plus in my book, he is one of the biggest con men and criminals in American Political History. He brought Qanon, The Proud Boys, and more to Washington at his request, they destroyed the capital and attacked the government, if you allow him to do it again you deserve what you get is what I will say, which will probably be an authoritarian government or a tyrant in the White House. Are we still a democracy and republic or will we lose it to a man like Trump? You Tell Me!

On February 9th, yesterday I went to the Veteran’s Hospital in Boston for the first time. I was trying to transfer my care for all areas I am covered in up here. I had to get tested for covid before any Doctor would see me and well surprise, surprise the test came back positive. I am now a person who has covid in America and as one person told me, all will probably get it. The symptoms I had were no more than a sinus drip into my throat and an achy body. I didn’t even think I had it at all, yet I do. A second test was taken and sent into the lab and I will be called with the results in a few days I am told.

In the meantime I am now staying in one room and away from all people. I may have got it from someone, but I refuse to be the one passing it around much at all. I wear a mask when I go near anyone now or even in the same room with anyone. I take decongestion pills, and my regular pills also. I suffer from other medical problems too, like diabetes, and blood pressure problems so I have to stay safe and fight his through. Each day has been a fight to keep going since my wife passed, this is now just another hoop to jump through and survive I gather. Seems, these days everything isn’t going easy for me at all.

In the meantime I am currently selling the old home I had with my wife who passed, trying to buy a new place to move into after I have emptied the old one. Sell this, sell that, pay the bills, fix the old house for closing. One thing after another, it seems to keep popping up and getting in my way. I will press on and be persistent of course, I really have no choice, right now.

I have said this before in blogs and I will say it again, every day is an adventure and a fight o survive when you get to your sixties folks. As we age the mind stays clear for most of us unless we face mental illness of some kind or things like cancer like my wife had. I am also a cancer victim myself so I have to be careful about covid that I now have, I have a lobe and a third less in lungs than anyone else. BUt surviving and fighting my way through it all is what I shall do.

I have said it before I am attempting to survive my wife’s death and to move forward with my own in any way I can. Finding a place I can live in comfort, make new friends and stay healthy, and have some fun will not be easy, but, I shall do it. I just want to be comfortable, to live in peace. I will have to file taxes of course this year in the near future also since no taxes were for the last two years by my wife. One thing after another keeps popping up for sure. Will I find peace and comfort and be able to enjoy the end of my life as I go forward, time shall tell is all I can say.

Ok, a new day is dawning once again! It seems we in the United States have a problem and many are too gullible or don’t pay enough attention to the facts in the world and about people in general. Many become blind loyalists and no matter what you do, even if you were to smack them with a hammer, they wouldn’t listen to facts and reason. Now, I only mean that in a non-physical way of course, but, when you try to change someone’s opinions, and they don’t get it you have one choice left and that is to let them be.

Case in point, Donald J. Trump, ex-President,, twice impeached, he has failed before he was elected President at so many things, people seem to ignore them all. He failed at selling steaks, water, creating a Trump University, and much more. He cheated I don’t know how many contractors are out of their money, it’s crazy. He’s been sued for so many things it would fill a notebook of large proportions. Yet, people voted him in for a four-year term as President, why? The man swindles contractors and the people of his own home state of New York dislike him severely. So tell me why do Americans, want to allow him to be President again? I can’t see it, folks.

As President all Trump ever got done was the passing of his tax plan to help himself and his rich cronies. He did nothing else right at all while in office. He failed in Korea and in Russia, he did not build the wall he promised, either. So please tell me why people are backing this man Trump!

I remind you he is a twice Impeached President in one term in office, he bungled coronavirus, asked if we could inject bleach into people’s veins to kill the virus too. That’s not logical folks and some kids almost did it too, luckily the bottle has a warning on it.

Trump refuses to this day to admit defeat in the 2020 Presidential Election, the proof is right in the open how he tried to rig the electoral college votes and more. He used a plan to change the votes by putting his own in place. America wake up please, this man needs to be stopped!

Because he could not change the electoral votes as he tried to, he then stages a rally on Capitol Grounds calling for Qanon, the Proud Boys, and others to storm the capitol, and stands back and watches as they build a gallows to hang Mike Pence his Vice President. he watches as they destroy government property, threatening Senators and Representatives and laughs. People go to him and tell him he must act and say something to stop it all, and he lets it go on for hours. That’s not a patriot folks, that’s not a real President.

When he finally leaves office he takes several boxes of Presidential Papers with him to Mar a Lago, after tearing up many in office too. The Government has to go get them back from him because they belong to the American People and go in the Archives. Trump took the documents for himself, for what to hide the proof of his involvement of course. I remind all, no American President has fought to stay in Office in this manner before and we have always had a peaceful transition of power in America. No President has ever tried to cheat and change electoral votes in any way in American History except Donald J. Trump. Stop and think about that folks, he was the 45th President, and none before or since would have even thought of doing so or attempted it. Doesn’t that tell you something about this situation we in America now find ourselves in today?

I have heard many still walking around spewing The Election was stolen from Trump. It wasn’t folks, he lost big time because he failed to accomplish a damn thing he promised. He lost by a very wide popular vote margin of over 80 million votes, and the same electoral college margin that Hillary Clinton lost to him in 2016. Hillary Clinton didn’t stand up and cry about it all, she accepted the vote and graciously conceded. The numbers were worse for the 2020 Election because Trump failed as President period. His failures have followed him around forever now.

Congress, both sides, The House and Senate, must use the laws of the land and the Constitution to ban Donald J. Trump from ever running for a public office again in America. He should never be allowed to run for a public office, especially the presidency ever again, and he should face criminal charges for all he has done and incited and took part in. Why should he be treated any different than you or I, I ask, doesn’t the law apply to all of us, including him?

He should lose his Presidential Protection, his Pension, and all benefits too. He instigated, incited, and led a revolt against his own country, can’t people in America see just how dangerous this man is? His rhetoric and words today in his speeches, still are inflammatory and angry, and still, he is trying to fire up people to join his cause, he has to be stopped. This is not normal political recourse folks, this is an angry man, who wants revenge and to get it in any way he can. Congress as a whole needs to ban him from any public office period and especially the Presidency.

7th of February 2022, the cold weather is still with us in New England of course here, although we all are looking forward to a warm spring.

Yesterday, I watched parts of the NFL Pro-Bowl like many NFL fans did I am sure, it is not what it used to be for sure. It is now played in such a way as to avoid all injuries to players and that is understandable of course.

Next, up for me is the Super Bowl I like to watch each year no matter who is in it, it’s like a yearly celebration game for me. I always back the underdogs, why, because it is nice to see a loser become a winner as fast as possible. This year is sure fired I back the underdog game, for me. The Bengals haven’t won a Superbowl and this is the first time in 31 years that they even got in the playoffs. Been a long time since anyone has mentioned the Bengals in anyway in the playoffs and I think that is great for their fans and them too. As to the results of the Super Bowl this year, well, time shall tell, of course.

The odds makers have the Rams as the favorites no doubt about it here. The Rams are a powerhouse team, built to move fast on offense and defense. Both sides of the ball as I see it favors the Rams. The addition of Stafford as their Quarterback gave the Rams stability there. They have running backs and great receivers also, and of course a great tight end.

The Bengals are mostly an unknown commodity to me, Burrow as a Second year Quarterback is doing fantastic indeed to be in this game. He shows poise, and determination, doesn’t rattle easily and makes some great throws/ passes. The running game with MIxon is ok, but they will have to pick it up in the Super Bowl and keep the ball as much as possible in this game. They need to find a way to keep possession away from that Rams offense. Can they do so, I don’t know, I can only say how I see it.

Will I pick a winner in this game, no I won’t, because I have been watching Super Bowls for lets see close to most of them. In many cases upsets happen and it can be unpredictable, due to so many factors, from the players and injuries, to coaching decisions and adjustments for each quarter as it is played. Then you have to factor in the Officials too, and you get mistakes from them also. So I hope if there is a close call, they do instant replay to get it right.

I still remember the heavily favored Baltimore Colts vs the New Jets. How big and bad the Colts were and how they were favored by such a large spread and the Jets came in and beat them. So, as we watch the Super Bowl this year, I can still back the underdog in the Bengals for fun and enjoy the game fully no matter who wins in the end.

Get some chips, dips, drinks and a comfy seat folks, we are now 6 days away from Super Bowl 56, so be ready ahead of time! While many will be crazy over the game itself, it is important that no matter who wins here it is not life or death, it is a sporting contest. Don’t over bet, stay within what you can pay out, don’t bet above what you can afford! And in the end, do yourself a favor whether you bet or not, remember, it is a sporting contest, anything can happen in it.