Sunday has arrived folks? January 16th, 2022, amazingly I am still alive and here. I swear to God I always thought, I would be gone by 40 years old, yet I am still kicking. So far I have lived with many things wrong with me and survived, it is really surprising to me.

That said, life is still going on around me. It’s like a daily soap opera really. Something different or stupid happens ora force of nature and wham, the world gets excited for a few moments in time, then it fades and another happens. Who’s marrying whom, who’s breaking up with whom, who gave the covid virus to whom, how did covid come into being? I tell you the world is like a big soap opera and we all star in it for a few miniutes at different times.

Sounds crazy right, but it rreally isn’t. Mankind is the only being in the world that not only tries to better itself, but also works to destroy itself and the planet we live on too. Why? But it happens and history will show it all to you if you study it.

Adam and Eve, even, they were given the world asa paradise and specifically told not to do things. Then, tempted by a snake Adam picks an apple and bam, the world changes for them both. Religious in ature yes, but it still shows mankind can even destroy paradise, can’t we?

Historically, nations and countries and kingdoms rise and fall. Why Greed, Avariice, Hatered, Jealousy, all exist in our souls. We want more than everyone else around us and we push it, till it rips and makesa mess all over the place. One man covets anothers woman. one woman may covet another’s man, then we have sexual orientations to worry about, politics, economics, healthcare, viruses and so much more. We tend to change things we shouldn’t and we tend to go from one extreme to the other to do so. It’s a mess called mankind and humanity run amok really.

I see whites, blacks, hispanics and orientals all equal in this world. Yet, all fight among themselves fora piece of the pie so to say, it’s normal for mankind to do. Yet, in the end is it normal, to hate someone for their skin color, or nationality, or sexual preference? Is it normal to talk about other races, colors and nationalities in derogotory natures? Not really, we do so because we are taught top as we grow up. Stop and think about it, would you still hate a person different then you if you grew up with them, side by side? I say this because there are some facts Human Kind tend to ignore in this area.

1. All humans regardless of nationality, race or color, do the exact same things daily and nightly. We all must wake up, we all must eat, deficate, urinate and wipe our own asses.
2. We all bleed red when our blue blood inside us hits the air we breath and is oxygenated.
3. We all work to achieve comfort and affordabily and ask for equal treatment.
4. We all fornicate and produce children if we are straight sexually, if people are gay they adopt if they want.
5. Wheither man or woman, we all have the same needs for food, air, love and health too.

Now let me say this, we have been warring between the nationalities and the races and colors now forever on this planet. We try to get more than we should instead of sharing and just getting what we need. We have gluttony, we have jealousy, we have envy all built into us. We have predijuce and discrimination, and we don’t even understand why we have it. Whites, blacks, hispanics, orientals, asians, what ever you are, wake up, mankind is mankind and we are in this all together.

I care not, what your color, race or nationality is, I do care if you respect me, I do care that you treat me decent and use manners as needed. I do care that I don’t have to fight a racial war or any kind of war anymore. I served my country, these United States of America for 16 years folks. I served with men and women of all nationalities and races and colors. We strove to do our duty side by side, sweated, toiled and all under the same rules and regulations and the Military Code of Justice. We signed up to defend our country and we all did it with pride. What makes anyone think in time of defense or war, we are any different than the man or woman who stands besides us and fights the same battle no matter what color, nationality or race or sex you may be? Your not folks, and those who hate without reason other than what their parents or friends taught them, are just dead wrong. Racism, Predijuce, Discrimination, Jealousy, Greed, Gluttony, Avarice, all destroy us as human beings. Yes there will be times when there are reasons, but there is still no right to hurt, maime, kill or destroy another human being. no one has the right to take another persons right to live, be free and do so in their own ways. Remember you don’t want someone doing it to you, don’t do it to someone else.

Ok, living after my wife died, has been a day to day affair for me. I slowly slipped away from worrying about my own health, and it wasn’t good for me at all. I stopped using my CPAP machine for a while and noticed I was getting headaches and heart problems from it all. I would get pressure in my chest and headaches and sit down and suddenly doze off and pop back quickly.

So I was trying to decide what was wrong me with, when I went back to my CPAP useage last night. I am hoping it is what part or all of the probem is in fact. Time shall tell now.

Next subject, Today starts the NFL WildCard Playoffs at 4;30 pm est here. The new format runs through Saturday, Sunday and into Monday. It is new for all fans, and it should be some good games to see.

1. Raiders vs, Bengals- After seeing the Raiders come back against the Chargers to win, I sawa great game. The Bengals have not been in the playoffs in years, but neither have the Raiders. Performance wise The Raiders look better at this date and time, but anything can happen. In the end if the game is close I wouldm take the Raider,s but if the Bengals Offense is on the Bengals will win. Close game I believe, take the Bengals by 3, here.
2. The Patriots vs, the Bills- The Patriots and coaches have a advantage here in Playoff experience, but the Bills are slowly building a new dynasty in Buffalo. Who has the better Defense here will win I believe, the Bills havea decent denfense and a really good chance here at home. Josh Allen is a great QB and is mobile, and they can produce a running game. I say Bill’s by seven, if The Bills Front four get the Mac Jones three time sin this game.
3. Sunday, the First game is Eagles vs Buccaneers- This game can get interesting if the Eagles can get to Tom Brady. But if they can’t expect Brady to throw up 28 points here. All will depend on the Eagles Defense, because the Bucs defense will get to Hurts and stop the run game. Buccaneers by 14 I say.
4. 49ers vs, Cowboys- Advantage Cowboys for home field here. Prescott is pretty solid as is the Cowboys denfense these days. Running game may favor the 49ers though and can the QB for San Fran, hold up in the playoffs? I say since it is in Dallas, Cowboys but 10 here!
5. Steeler vs Chiefs in KC- Chiefs have Mahomes and a damn good defense, Steelers are a Surprise in the playoffs. Rothelsburger can still throw, but not run. Steelers do have running backs and a Defense too. Based on the KC Defense here, and Mahomes, I think KC wins here by 14.
6. Cardinals vs Rams-In LA of course here so that give the Rams home firld advantage. The Cardinals have proven themselves to be better on the road then in their home. Stafford has helped the Rams since he was traded to them. He is a much better signal caller and passer the Goff was. The Rams defense always shows up big. The Cardinals are a very good team offensively and defensively too. This could be the upset game of these WildCard games. I am thinking Kyler Murray plays great and runs for some yardage, and then throws for 300 yeards here. I will go out on a limb here and say Cardinals in an upset here by 7.

NFL Football has been a passion of mine since I was five and watching it with my step-father growing up. It is the players and the strageties that win games here. Which is why teams like The Patriots, Cowboys, Chiefs, and Buccaneers have advantages in these games. Biut every now and then a big upset happens, and this may be one of thise years they happen in the Wildcard Round.

When the y reach The Divisional Round it wil be interesting to see who goes to Green Bay and Tennesee. For both teams look good and strong and ready unless injuries or covid strike them. It is about to becaome one wild playoffs for all to enjoy. Enjoy Folks who love the NFL and all Fans I will.

As winter blasts all of us now in New England the New Year of 2022 continues on. We hide in out homes, try to stay warm and all of us know it costs us more each year. Heating oil, gas goes up, food goes up,, healthcare is crazy and in the end so are taxes. Now many think it all is caused by one President, one Administration in the White House it isn’t folks. Listen please, unless you get the Senate to work as one unit and The House also, things stagnate and we get deeper into debt and our economy slumps.

Snow will come and go and so will the cold here in New England for us all. The economy is never one man’s fault, nor is healthcare or food or fuel costs. A lot of the blame belongs on The Senate, and The house of Representatives as they bargin or fail to bargin over our future. In the meantime the economy keeps hitting hihgh inflation levels, fuels go up and food and healthcare. Let me say this to all, if Congress asa whole both the Senate and house can insure they have affordable healthcare, and decent saleries, why can’t they do the same for all Americans?

I tire of people complaining of the fact healthcare is not affordable anymore. Whyis it other nations can provide their citizens, healthcare coverage, but out won’t or think they can’t? Whats wrong with sending a team of Senators and Repressentatives to Canada and studying their system and then briinging it to America for all of us here? Are the Canadians smarter than we are on this one?

Why can’t political pressure be put on the oil producing, gas producing nations and companies to lower fuels prices for all Americans? What is wrong with this picture folks? Ever wonder why, our leaders refuse to change and make things better for us, but in the end they still get raises and healthcare coverage of their own. Why?

MItch McConnell, McCarthy and other Republicans are blocking anything and everything put forth.Why? Listen you can play your little political games in other ways that don’t affect the average American’s healthcare, food costs, fuel costs and more, if you want to, but you are getting richer, collecting big pay checks and sitting around in offices doing not a damn thing, nowadays. Why?

The one won’t pass this bill, that one blocks another bill, McConnell mouths off about the President, McCarthy won’t cooperate with the Jan. 6th, Committee and Investigation and they get away with it all, why? Why are the American people not rising up and forcing these politicians to act and make it right for all of us? Please tell me folks!

Let me say this, what does McCarthy have to fear and why won’t he testify about January 6th, 2021 and his conversations with Donald J. Trump? What does Trump have on Lyndsey Graham, and MCCarthy and others? It is to me very suspicious that these men, back Trump and refuse to talk period. Why are they hiding what they know? Simple folks, they had some kind ofinput to the Riot/ Insurrection themselves, that is why you run and hide when questioned like this. OTherwise whats the reason for not answering the questions, they know they will perjure themselves and be liable under the law is why! They are all lawyers, period. One thing any Lawyer will tell you, they protect themselves from ligigation and legal charges in anyway they can. So the game goes on, protecting Trump, refusing to testify or talk and hiding as they do in public sight.

Here is a good one for all to hear and listen to, as OathKeepers, and others face charges for the January 6th, attack on the Capital, and they go to jail by big numbers, Trump sits having steaks and potatos and veggieson America’s dime in Mar a Largo, Floridia. I wonder how all of these people who were arrested, charged and now convicted will feel when they are released and their lives are in ruin, because Trump told them to storm the Capital of his own Governement? Someone tell me why a twice Impeached Ex-president of the United States is allowed to give speeches, against our governemnt, collect a pension from out Governement, when he set up the attack on our Governement himself? How is this possible in America?

I watch the news daily and let me say this before I go any further. The news reports all different versions of everything that happens/ In the end CBS, ABC, NBC, Fox and more all have different insights and ways ofpresenting it all. None tell the truth alone, some add to the stories they report, some politisize the stories they tell and some just lie and get away ith it all. Why? Why is there no censureship on the news these days? It’s a sad world we live in when people can get on Television yell, scream and rant and point at the President of The United States and call his stupid, or slow or say he has no idea what he is doing! This does not help the current population of the United States in anyway, does it? I think not! Certain Media Outlets/ Television Stations should be sued for what they produce and call news, it isn’t news it editorials being spoken on television to sway the population the way they want it to go. You have facts you can back up with evidence ok, no evidence and facts, stop.

I have now heard of the woke movement, and I disagree with it period. It is bullshit, you can’t change human nature and facts to make you look good, it doesn’t work.

Anyway I cover many topics in my blogs, from health issues, to the price of it too. To education issues, political issues, covid and the econonmy. OIl Prices and wars and even elections when they are up and active. I will say this here and now, anyone who would back a Twice impeached president to run again is lost. Anyone who would back a twice losing Presidentail Canidate is lost too. Neither Clinton nor Trump should be anywhere the White House or the Office of President. Anyone saying otherwise needs to wake up, look at the facts and realize neither is good for the country or any of us.

MY final question for today is this: How Far will the American People allow the Senate, and The Houseof Represenatives go and get away with all they are not doing, before you react out there? The best way to change it all and get some results is to hold each politician who is in Washington, that we the people pay, accountable and make them do their jobs for us, the American People. If they don’t they should be removed from office an dthe blockage in Washington must end! The only way we can control it, improve it and make things happen is by voting, Vote Them Out if they keep blocking and supporting Trump too. We are the greatest nation on the planet, yet we are also so self destructive, we have to stop allowing it to happen!

I know I am old and not with the woke crowd on many issues, but one thing I am not is stupid or lost and I have lived going on 66 years, very soon. I tire of people putting words into other people’s mouths. or thinking they know better than everyone else in authority. So many people think, Covid is a joke or it doesnt matter these days and they run without masks, and they then get sick, whether it is a common cold or covid and they just keep acting like nothing is wrong. Why is that folks?

Let me say something here and it may not be liked by many, some may object to my saying it, but, in my opinion, those who think covid is a joke, or a fake thing put out by the governement, your wrong and the only way you will change your mind is if you get it, or someone you love gets it and dies. I believe all of us as human beings need to have consideration for others and we need to protect those we love and those around us at all costs. Common consideration and manners are lost in this anger about covid and how to handle it.

I do believe you should have a choice whether to wear a mask or not, it is up to you what chances you take with your own life, but what about those around you where you go shopping, or to drink or dance or sing or the movies in public facilities and businesses? Let me ask you non-maskers and deniers of covid, a simple question, do you care about other people more than you care about yourself or are you so damn selfish and foolish you don’t care? It’s a simple question isn’t it? I understand you don’t like wearing a mask in public, you believe you had covid once and you have antibodies in your system, but I remind you the numbers are growing of people who have been vaccinationed or had covid before, who are ending up in hospitals or dying. Why do you think that is? It’s simple, people don’t want to wear masks because they don’t want to be bothered because they had covid right, they are worried about what they look like, or that they have to pull the mask up or down when eating. It’s bullshit really. Many will cry and complain and put me down and make fun of me for what I am saying, but stop being so damn vain and worried about what you look like when you wear a mask, or have to pull it up or down in circumsatnces. You being vain and not wearing a mask lets a virus that can kill sprerad faster and kill more people, when it hits the people you love or are friends with you will begin to think it over. I pray you don’t lose a family member or husband or wife to covid or even a friend for if they die, who’s responisible?

I know Uncle Sam says that covid virus was created in a lab in China, that doe not mean we just let it run rabid through the world’s population, or do we. Who really believes this crap of let the covid virus go and learn to live with it? Do you really beleve that, if you do, you need to wake up. People are sick and it is spreading all variants, and it is only a matter or time till it hits someone you love, a friend, family member or you. When it does, don’t blame China, don’t blame Joe Biden, Kamala Harris, or Dr. Fauci, take a look in the mirror and ask your self, why didn’t I listen, why didn’t I at least be more aware of what I was doing and those around me, and how did you get it ultimately simple you didn’t vaccinate, you didn’t wear a mask, you bucked the system and the way you were told to do things, because you think they are violating your rights. They aren’t folks, they are not running you down, slapping a mask on you or fining you for not wearing one. They can’t, we are a free society and have our personal right I know. but in the end, people are dying and you could be next, wake up please.

Here is a second subject for all to listen to, I think. Why is everyone blaming Biden for the economy? The man is President for a few days over a year, you really think he caused this inflation in a little over a year? No he didn’t! The inflation we are experiencing was there under Trump and grew out of what Trump did , wake up. Trump pased his tax package for him and all the rich not you or me. He didn’t build the wall he promised either and in the end he did not really accomplish a damn thing in four years in office. The truth is the truth here and who else as President, was Impeached Twice in one term in Office? Who tried to tell people to drink bleach or inject themselves with it to beat covid? Who, failed to expediate the covid vaccines and put them out on time. Trump is who? It’s a sad tale when I hear people blaming everyone for things Trump did or did not do. BIden is trying and he makes more sense than Trump ever will in my book. I don’t argue politics on a normal basis, why because the conservative side backing Trump goes crazy when you hit them with facts, they run, they scream , they raise their arms and hands. and they defend a man who was a twice Impeached President and is a walking criminal in more ways than one. It’s sad to see, what did Donald J. Trump do to deserve such a following and what about those who are now going to jail, for doing the Insurection and riot Trump told them to? I bet they are happy now laying in jail! Ask them if they still believe in what Trump told them to do when they get released and can’t get a decent job in their future. It’s sad tale to her a and watch really, for they all should have realized what they were doing storming the capital, but they didnt, it called a frenzy they went through. Sadly, as they go to jail for listening to Trump, Trump sits in Mar a Lago playing golf and eating like a king on our tax dollars still. Wake up please!

January 12th, is upon me now, and I awoke at 5am. Pitch black outside and I laid in bed for a good 15 minutes wide awake, trying to go back to sleep but failed. Now it is 6;20 am and I am on my second cup of coffee here. I started looking at mobile homes and mobile home loans now as well as condos. My thought is simple I need to get a place of my own and I would prefer owning to renting. Time shall tell of course.

I am thinking I am a single man again and a widower. Am I worried what anyone else thinks about me, or where I live, no. Look, I get questions on why would you want a mobile home, why don’t I get a rental place, or do you know no woman will want you, if you live in a Mobile Home? In the end my response to each question seems to not hit people correctly. I am 65, very soon to be 66, I am set in my ways basically. I like who I am and what I am and I do the best I can. I am not out trying to chase women or date women, nor do I really want a relationship at this time. I lost my wife who I loved for 28 years last August 10th, to cancer. It will be hard to replace her even if I tried, so I am not interested, in really trying. Nor have I ever learned to flirt in my life, although I was married twice.

As to home for myself, I am currently staying with my sister and her man here. I try extremely hard to not bother either of them and to steer clear of all they do. I basically use four places in their home, a bedroom to sleep and store my clothing, a kitchen I use the microwave in, a small area in their basement to store my stuff and finally a livingroom to watch tv and an island chair to use my computer on, at their bar. Period folks. Thats my life now a days. I do my own laundry, my own dishes, and I mind my own business. But even under those circimstances, I can feel an uneasiness growing, and I get suggestions on things like why don’t I rent a place. Look I will look at rentals and condos and mobile homes, and try now to find something I can afford. My biggest holdup is trying to sell a home I had for 28 years and it needs some work, so I now have to lower the price. In progress is that one now.

I know people need their privacy and I try to never stick my nose in anyone’s business here. So, I go one day at a time doing, home searches for condos, and mobile homes for myself. I hope to never interfear in anyone’s life here or be a burden to anyone.

My medical condition is not 100 percent and I know it and I am cautious with anything I do. From my PTSD, to my 6 Herniated discs in my spine, to high blood pressure and diabeties, I go one day at a time. I believe I have had even a minor stroke just recent;ly, but I say nothing to anyone.

Life my friends is not easy when you get older and you lose your partner in life. You get shocked, you have to adjust, you tend to not want to, and you tend to miss them dearly. We all have loves in our lives folks and I pray none of you lose yours suddenly like i did, I knew it was coming before she did, but still. It’s a shock to my system and my life.

As soon as i can find a place to live, and I can move on I shall for I do not want anyone thinking I am a burden or a pain in the ass to them. I undertand people are being nice and letting me stay in their home with them. I understand it has been a while since I came to stay here. But, some think you just make a decision and move on, at the snap of your fingers, it isnt how it works. It never does work out that way, folks. When your used to living life one way and move n with others who live it their own way, it can be a situation where things don’t always fit properly, so you compromise and avoid any friction. I don’t think anyone likes being dependent on anyone else, nor does anyone want to be a burden on anyone who is trying to help them.

My search for a new place to live must now go on with a little more urgency, and it must become more intense. So, I will try to look at condos and mobile homes and loans for both, I shall also try to find an affordable rental if I can. I can’t promise anything, but to try.

Look some do not fully understand my full medical condition and I have not told anyone all of it. It really matters not I think in the end, does it? What do you do with a man, who has PTSD, Six Herniated discs in his spine, high blood pressure and diabeties, plus a history of minor strokes? Not much really to do is there?

I don’t need fancy or big, I don’t want small and a box either, looking at homes. I will never own another home that is over 4100 Square feet again, nor do I want to. I don’t want to plow driveways, cut grass, fix roofs. I want a place for me to relax in in my older days, and to enjoy myself when I want. Is it too much to ask, I hope not, Lord, I hope not. I really would like a 55 plus community, where there are others I can talk to my own age and events to do, when I want to. Something that will keep my mind busy and my heart going also. Is it too much to ask, I don’t know but, I can try, can’t I?

One more thing to say here today. I know others are reading this blog and shaking their heads at what I say, and going whats wrong with this guy. My opinions and thoughts are my own folks and so are my feelings about everything and everyone and all situations. I do not force anything on anyone and never would, not my way, ask people who have known me since I was 14 years old, they would tell you, straight up. So, please, allow me my place to vent and say what I feel or think I need to say. I don’t try to change anyone’s mind, or ways and I don’t expect anyone to force anything on me, either. My head pounds at times, I get light headed, I tend to go from highs to lows emotionally and that is how it is for me these days. My breathing can be eractic also, where as I stop breathing and then restart suddenly and yes people do notice it too. So, as to how long I last I do not know, but I do know, when I do pass myself, I just wish to be cremated, and buried next to my wife and a military funeral. I think Uncle Sam can do that for me, since i served for 16 years of my life and have 5 Honorable Discharges to my name.

I would not be surprised if I died of a brain hemmorage, or a cancer related death, fate tell me it is possible and what I feel may happen. But again who knows for sure, I am just a man trying to figure out life and my own health and what to do next now, it is all I can do.

Have you ever wondered what death is really like? I know i have many times in my life, when I was beat sensless as a child, when I was hungry because I ran away from home as a child, when I was institutionalized as a 10 year old. Those are a few of the times when I thought about what death really means. I thought of it many times since too and I am going on 66 years old now. Have you?

I wondered what death was like as I sat, on board a Navy Ship serving my country a few times, I thought about it when I was going through my divorce from my first wife and the loss of my daughters to her. I thought about death so many times I sometimes wonder why I am still here and alive these days.

I came close to death a few times in my life unknown to many of course. Yet I survived and am still here going on 66 years old in two weeks. Listen when I my wife died last year I wanted to commit suicide and almost did. It isnt easy folks, to live a life like I have had. Yet, I survive because i have refused to surrender in many ways. I almost lost my life to lung cancer yet I am still here today. I am still here after seeing and witnessing, my grandfather dying of cancer, my father, my step-father and my mother too and my second wife. Each time I wondered should I join them, what right do I have in being here today?

Illnesses come and go, and we live on, but cancer really never lets go does it? I know, I have had lung cancer and lost a lobe and a thrid of my right lung to it, and I know each day I live is really pure luck that the cancer has not returned. Yet I also know it can anytime on any given day or night. It is a fact in life once you get cancer you live with it, everyday and hope it doesn’t return.

Recently I recieved a letter saying I have two nodules in my right lung that are sitting there. I was told not to panic and not to worry, so I try not to. Then, I have been hit by jolts in my body, my whole body jumps and recently, I had a jolt in the back of my head. Now is it cancer I do not know, do I want to know if it is, not really. As it goes now at 65, going on 66, without my wife who died in August of 2021, I really have no idea, really!

There was a time when I was full of life, happy and content, I had a beautiful life and wife and home for 28 years. Now it is all gone just as my wife is gone. It’s painful, and lonely trying to find my way to do anything these days. I lost my get up and go and any motivation really, I dont care much about what happens to me anymore.

My head hurts these days, and it pulses at times on me. So, I have no idea what is wrong or what happened, but, I say nothing to anyone about it these days. I go one day at a time and hope to awake each day or morning. I know few reasons to stay alive right now, it is how I feel these days.

My struggles with thinking about death began many decades ago when I was a teenager. I found a way to stay busy, and did all I could for others all my life. It is what made me, me.

Once you run out of motivation or reasons or things you want to do anymore, you lose the drive to stay alive. It’s a basic fact folks. So as all of this goes through my mind, I wonder what is death really like? Is there pain when you die, do you feel it when you pass, do we just cease to exist, or is there an afterlife and a heaven or hell or anything on the otherside? I don’t know for sure, but I do know, so many people i knew in my life are now on the otherside and I am still here, struggling through. Is it darkness on the other side and where does our spirit really go, do we fade from existance and like a light bulb burn out? Whats the answer folks does anyone really know?

I remember a book written long ago, the title I remember was Death Be Not Proud, at least thats the title I remember. I never read the book of course but the title stuck in my head and still does today. Why, because no one knows if the title means anything or not. Death comes to all of us I know, and in the end we are remembered not for what we own, or what we have material wise, we are only remembered by those who knew us and they remember us for how we treated them period. We never know once we are gone if we are remembered or missed do we, how can we? So, is death a light flickering out and never coming back and do our souls wander endlessly or do we end up some place like heaven or hell? Will we ever know? I doubt it.

January 11th, 2022, I am shortly going to enter my 66th year on this planet. Unbelievable to me really, for I honestly never thought I would get past 40. Yet here I am and still kicking, struggling to survive and trying to find a way to move on from my wife’s passing. We all suffer loses folks, and losing my wife was a large one for me. Just saying. I have good days and bad days too, now and I know no matter what I must carry on, for I am still here.

Enough on that subject for now, doesn’t help to keep reviewing and going over the whole thing again and again. Now, I must sell the home we had in Connecticut and move on as soon as possible to a new location and home here in Massachuetts, where i am currently staying. I need a decent place to live in a 55 plus community, I can afford and be comfortable in, alone. I have looked at condos, I have looked at manufactured homes also. At this time all depends on what I can get for the house in Connecticut and how soon it shall sell. I am lowering the price tag on it already here in January of 2022, no choice really under the current market.

Next, subject bill payments must be made for electric and oil to the old house to keep it going for sale. Then my car payments and other items come up. I will pay on all of them of course and keep myself alive for future endeavers and living.

I have many interersts as far as the future go, finding a decent 55 plus community that is safe, is one. A place to park my car off street, a full bathroom, a living room, eat in kitchen area and I think two bedrooms would be perfect for me. One Bedroom to sleep in and one for an office. I have been told of single and double wide mobile homes and condos too, the prices are wide these days, so picking what I want will be vital to my future. I am not going to worry about, what someone else thinks I should buy or do at this point, I need to examine all options and save my money as I go along. I do know I have no interest in shoveling or plowing snow period, nor unless I must, I have no interest in cutting or mowing lawns. I am 65 gonna be 66 soon, I did my time doing these things already. I am not interested in doing a lot of maintenance on a home or property.

So now it is time to really start a massive search for a place to live and to decide on what I want where soon enough. I can’t rush anything, but I am willing to sell the home in Connecticut at a fair price for me. Time shall tell how it goes.

I have been asked if I am interested in dating or relationships, right now not really. I lost a wife I loved for 28 years 5 months ago yesterday. It still hurts and I am still grieving her in my own way. Will I ever be looking for a partner/ woman again, I have no idea right now, I do know if I do it will be as a companion first and foremost. Even Widowers get lonely folks, believe me!

What else can I say at this point? Well I am still and will always be a big NFL Fan and the Playoff Season is upon us soon. I watched the Chargers, Raiders game that ended the season and I was amazed and enjoyed it big time. It was not only entertaining, it was a well played contest.

Now entering the Playoff Rounds, it is time to examine the games coming up.

1. Raiders vs Bengals- While I personally favor the Bengals here, this game will be determined by who can run the ball and control the clock. If i am right it will be a close game with the Bengals winning by 3.
2. Patriots vs Bills- Round three begins between two teams who are hungry here. While the Bills won the division, the real question is can Allen for the Bills eliminate turnovers and still move the offense and score. I expect this game to come down to the fourth quarter, since it is in Buffalo, the Bills, by 7.
3. Eagles vs. Buccaneers- in Tampa and at home, the Bucs should win this easily, but, you never know, because the Eagles play is up and down and how will the Playoffs be for either team. Experience goes to Brady and company and i believe so does the defensive side of the ball. I would take Tampa by 10 here.
4. 49ers vs Dallas- This could be an interesting game if the 49ers play will and have no turnovers. San Fran hasa decent lineup on both sides of the ball and can be a physical team. Dallas has offensive and defensive weapons also, but, if I were to pick a upset game this one may be it. I know it is in Dallas, but, 49ers, havea good chance here. I say a very close game here, and I think 49ers.
5. Steelers vs Chiefs- While The Steelers got in by backing in really, the Chiefs are legimate as a team and power in the NFL. Can the Steelers stop Mahomes and his offense, I doubt it. As to Rothesburger and the Pittsburgh Offense they face a very stiff Kanas City Denfense in this game. I don’t expect a blowout in this one, so I would take Kanas City by 10.
6. Cardinals vs Rams- Monday final WIldCard Weekend Game. This may be the best contest of the whole WildCard Playoffs. The Cardinals are for real folks and if they have zero turnovers and get their running game going they stand one hell of a chance against the Rams. Now as to the Rams, whether they win or lose this game will depend on their offense vs the Cardinals defensive unit. My thought here is a very close game determined by a field goal here, and it is areally a toss-up, in my book.

Hows that for WildCard Weekend Predictions folks? Look I am not a Pro, but I do know football and yes upsets can happen and will. So onward into the most crazy and wild Wildcard Weekend we go all! That my friends and blog readers is my predictions in the NFL and a brief review of life as it goes today.

Ever notice certain thing are what people get drawn to, pat attention to or get vocal about? There are many of course for people vary in what they believe in for different reasons. Each of us are raised in different enviroments, by different parents who believed different things correct?

Ok, some of us are taught religion is the way to go, and it doesn’t matter what color skin you have or nationality, it is what you are raised to be. Some shun religion and end up going political and end up either extreme right, or extreme left. Then you have the moderates on each side or progressives of each side too.

We have radicals, we have passifices, we have violent people and joyful people too.So what makes all of us go the ways we do and become who we are, influnences by those we love growing up, and those who raise and protect us daily, mom, dad, grandma,grandpa, etc. Family life is what makes each kid who they are, and eventually who we grow up to be. The enviroment one grows up in and the ones who teach us or abuse us as we grow determine who we become as adults, period.

Some of us fight back against the violence of physical abuse we recieved as children and the verbal and mental abuses too and overcome. Some of us fall to it all and become violent ourselves, or so mentally abused we lose track of what is real, and start l ashing out at others and hurting all around us. Time will only tell us as we grow older what we have become.

I submit that some of the greatest minds, personalities, out there in humankind, fought back and overcame and became beloved, and looked up to because they did so. It is a fact of life, and they should be lauded and celebrated for all they accomplish in life.

For those who have fallen or succumbed to the pressures, mental abuse, physical abuse and verbal abuse, and have not fully recovered or overcome, I suggest, instead of going with the flow you were given, find help and change it. There Are Doctors, Clinics, and much more all the way up to institutions, that can help you overcome. Some believe in medicating, some believe in theraphy sessions and other things. Just let me say this, if you seek help, then you are going the right direction. All of us, need help at some point in our lives, don’t be afraid to seek it and accept it, use it to better yourself and your position in life and move ahead.

I have a belief and many do not get it today in modern world terms, across the globe and in The USA. I happen to believe in Military Service for all. I dont care which sex you are, if you lack the ability to conform, the ability to control yourself, and need discipline and to get educated more and learn how to get along with other join a branch of service. The USA Military Service can save your life and give you direction you may need. PLus you serve your country for a while, you learn to respect others and get along with others at all times, and you learn that all are on an equal basis in the world and it doesn’t matter what your skin color is, your sex or anything else. All get treated the same and all must conform and work together to survive.

Just my belief is all, and what few get is the MIlitary takes care of it’s own also. I did it, andi am proud of my time in service to my country. I served in The Army, Army National Guard and then the US NAVY. I am proud of doing so and always will be, I was injuried aboard a ship due to a fall, but, I will never regret my service ever. I love my country. As one President said, You are not patriotic if you follow a President, You Are Patriotic if you follow your country and fight for it!

January 7th, 2022, Yesterday I had to go to Connecticut, and transfer my funds to a new bank here in Massachuetts. While, there I made a stop by my wife’s grave to speak to her, and to say hello and good-bye for the moment. Everytime I do so I end up standing there and crying over her death and passing. I speak to her as if she was with me while there, through my tears, and find I have to buck myself up to leave and live on. 28 years with her was happy, content time and we supported and helped each other everyday we were together. God Bless her fully and keep her comfortable until I join her. Yes I still grieve her passing, all these months later.

Anyway, January 7th, 2022 has arrived and snow has found us here. It falls in tiny flacks today, and colored the ground and tress in white, making it look like it is a pure new beggining on the planet. We have covid with us of course, as all in the world do, we have an economy slowly recovering in America, jobs are growing slowler than expected also. We seem to be slowly recovering as a nation, even if we would like it to be faster.

Will we ever be able to recover our democracy and republic to what it was before January 6th, 2021? How many hearings andchanges in law and convictions shall it take to straighten out the whole mess it caused. I want to say one thing before people throw their hands up and scrream and shout and attack my blog here, and I say this clear to all- AT NO TIME IN AMERICAN HISTORY HAS AN AMERICAN PRESIDENT, INCITED AN INSURECTION AGAINST HIS OWN COUNTRY AND FORM OF GOVERNMENT WITH THE EXCEPTION OF DONALD J TRUMP!

I know many will try to defend Trump for doing so, because he lost the election to Biden, in a landslide way. He just wanted to hang onto the Power of The Presidency folks period, he didn’t do anything proper with it and accomplished zero while in office. His greed and avarice and his lack of mental brainpower and knowledge mad ehim fail.

That said, I see that the January 6th, Committee is pursuing Trump and his children and his associates fully. I hope to see Donald J. Trump Charged for Inciting the Insurection and more as time goes forward. I hope his childrfen get charged and convicted too. The damage the Trump Administration and Donald J. Trump himself has done to American Democracy and The Republic we live in is such a large amount, we shall be lucky if we recover in 3 Presidential Terms after he is gone.

Some want to blame Biden for a lot Trump is soley responisable for, just stop ok. Biden took onthe Presidency after a man who was acting like a tyrant, a dictator and a fool. It is hard to clean up messes of people who have no idea what they were doing while in charge. Don’t come tell me how Trump built his wall either, thats crap, the border is still open today. The only thing Trump got done folks wa shos tax plan to benefit himself and the rich not you or I. I am watching for the results and what happens in New York to the Trump Organization and in Washington too and legal circles.

Next subject, The NFL’s final weekend of games will be upon us starting tomorrow for the regular season. I am disappointed on certain teams who fell apart this season and i know changes will be coming to many teams, over the offseason for sure. Even if I am fully disappointed in my team I favor and support, it is now apparent they have to reset their whole organization, so no crying in spilled milk for me there.

The Playoffs will start not this weekend but the following since the season was expanded by one game. The WildCard Games will come first guys and gals. Nad once they finish we shall see the better teams hit the playoffs and head toward the next Superbowl. It is a Playfoff and Superbowl time that excited and pleases me to see. I always love playoff NFL Football! Just me folks.

I have NFL Fever this time of year, I follow my Vikings but they are a mess and fail and kill themselves each season. Then, In Baseball I follow The Red Sox of course have all my life. The Boston Celtics I love also and will watch their record and season as they go. I do love sports folks.

Anyway, as my 65th year alive is beggining to come to it’s end, I try to stay positive and move ahead in time and find a new place for myself, I may struggle, I may stumble, but I shall keep going. I am looking forward to finding a new place to live, and to settling in and meeting new people and learning new things. I hope at sometime I can get into a 55 plus community, make new friends and find things to do again. I am praying 2022 will bring hope, and for me happiness and comfort as i move on. Have a Good Day All!

January 3rd, 2022, has arrived and once again, the demise and dismantling of the Minnesota Vikings as football team has become apparent for all to see. Look i have been a die-hard Viking Fan since their early days in the 1960’s, I saw them make the appearances in the Superbowls but never win. I still backed them till today and i was five years old when I started and am 65 now.

Every NFL season, the same happens in Minnesota, they get rated as a possible playoff contender, and they make trades and draft player like other squads do too. The problem is the Vikings, don’t seem to even pay attention to what they really need, instead of what they think they need.

So, lets discuss the current situation in MInnesota now. The Viking spent millions on certain positions, and in the end they got zilch in retrun for their money. Case in point, I don’t care what the numbers say, Quaterback Kirk Cousins is not a superstar who can lead them in tough games to victories they need each year and he is overpaid. He lacks the ability to lead and come up big when needed. They need a Quarterback who can not only throw the ball, but who is also able to manuver and run when needed.

Next Problem in Minnesota Viking land is the current Head Coach sad to say, and i was oringinally a major fan of Mike Zimmer. Yet, his coaching style is lackluster at best, and secondly his decision making at times sucks. His job is to prepare his team to win each and every game they enter, he fails at this, because he uses the same schemes every game they are in and teams know it well.

Third problem in MInnesota, and this is a question for the ownership there, is it ok to bea runner up all the time an dmiss the playoffs each year and show no improvement over the past year? I remind the Owner of the Vikings, the way to being a better football team and winning a Superbowl should be the way you should be heading. Yet, you let things sit and no changes get done at all. I know you spend money on trades to improve the team, but much of it has been a loss foryou in the end. You want to win, pick the right problems to fix. Coach, Quaterback, Cornerbacks are needed. As can be noted by the past in the NFL and Superbowl HIstory shows, it is not a high priced QuarterBack that wins it all.

Every year I watch the Vikings game after game, lose due to the same reasons, an interception, or they give up the long ball for a touchdown.One season they had the highest scoring offense in the league and still couldn’t get to the Superbowl, why because you are not paying attention to the parts of the team you need to win it all. iT’s sad really, and i wil always bea Viking fan, because I am no trader and never would be, but, I do tire of how each year you fall from contention to out of the playoff race period.

I remember teams under Bud Grant, the Purple People Eaters, Playing in the cold, and getting to the playoffs and Superbowl too. AT least under him there was discipline and control of the team. I remember players some forget, Joe Kapp, and many more who gave their all for the purple and gold but were not able to win the Superbowl, but in the 1960s, the Vikings never quit, never gave up and always played hard till the last second of every game, win or lose. What happened to the team pride of that era of Viking’s History I ask?