As we close in on Memorial Day 2022, I want people to stop and think what it really means, in the United States. So lets go back to those who gave their lives to create our country in The American Revolution, and then The War of 1812 and work forward to today’s world in America.

We survived Two World Wars, a Korean War we should have never fought and a Vietnam War we didn’t belong in. All of those who lost their lives in each war fought for what they believed in and we believe in as a Nation and a people, Freedom, the right to choice of religion, and the right to free speech. And then add in the Disabled Veteran’s of each war we have been through and the families of those who were injured or lost to them. The Price of America’s Freedom and the right to free speech is huge, ladies and gentlemen. Stop and think if you can of the millions of souls who left this earth early, before their time, to give us the nation we have today or choice, and freedom in all ways. When your cooking burgers and hot dogs and eating so much, and swimming and sunning yourself, stop for at least 30 seconds to remember all who gave so much, for you to be able to do so, in freedom, please.

How many know history in America these days or pay attention to it in anyway? They are few like me, they are also hard to find. While you celebrate the holiday we call Memorial Day, please remember what it really means, for with these men and women who gave their all, The Republic we live in and the democracy it is, would fall. Is Democracy and the Republic something we should forget or let go? No Ladies and Gentlemen, As Ben Franklin said, We shall have a Democracy and a Republic , only as long as we work to preserve and protect it. Our Forefathers had a dream folks, and that dream is reality today and we must remember why and by who it still exists today.

So come Memorial Day, as you party, eat, drink and be merry and head to the beaches and concerts and more, I think everyone should stop, for at least 30 seconds, no matter where you be, and give thanks in silence to those who died for us to be free!

Remember, them all my friends and fellow citizens, for in the least, they deserve to be remembered for all they did and gave, for all of us today! I wish all, A Very Happy and Joyous Memorial Day Holiday! Party Well, just stop for 30 seconds and say Thanks to those who provided it!

May 24th, 2022, Amazingly I am still kicking and alive at 66 years old. I thought for sure I would have been gone by 40 years old, with the type of life I lived in my younger days. I of course no longer run the streets of my childhood days, nor do I fight with other men over women anymore, we mature as we age for sure. I was never much of a flirt, nor have I had many relationships with many women over the years, I believe I can count how many there were and they would number less then the ten fingers I have on my two hands.

I never really learned to flirt, and I guess I will never learn to flirt in my lifetime. I always had an old belief, be myself, do what I like and just enjoy life as I go and someone will notice me and it will work out from there. If that works I am fine, if not, I am fine also. While I would like a companion, a friend and confident as a partner in my life I am not desperate to get there, so to say.

I am old fashioned in many ways I guess one would say. Some say I talk too much, others say I am too quiet, depends, on the given situation of course and subjects at hand. Do I socialize, yes sometimes, I play Billiards and I walk a lot, I watch Line Dancing lessons in person for fun, at the Clubhouse here at the Condos I live in. In the meantime I walk a lot, I read a little nowadays the eyes are not as good as they used to be. I am building a puzzle for fun and something to do. I play X-box games, watch ballgames and movies and tv. I cook as needed to eat, and I clean and do my own laundry.

I go to Doctor Appointments as needed and I pay my bills on time to the best of my ability each month. Life is slow here in Westborough actually, and some have advised me, not to get involved with my neighbors or fellow condo owners here. The reason is as one person said to me, never shit in your own backyard people talk. So I stay alone and try to just socialize by doing the Condo activities and walking.

Do I need a woman in my life, well, I don”t need anything really. I would like a woman for companionship, friendship, going out now and then for dinner and maybe dancing or events. There is no desperation for it in me at this time, I laugh, I joke, I wander and I interact as appropriate of course. yet I do miss having someone to cuddle, cook with, and who is a confident and partner in my world. I miss the daily interactions, the laughter, the conversations, the give and take of having a relationship with a woman, who cares for me as i care for her. Yet I shall never rush into anything. Caution is a thing I have at all times, for believe it or not women can destroy just as well as men can and they do it in their own ways. I am not looking for a dependent to take care of, but a woman who can take care of herself, I am no one’s sugar daddy. And I definitely don’t want to be anyone’s ATM or checkbook either. Life has taught me, not to allow hanger-ons and money grubbers or to be taken by cons either, I have learned.

I miss many things my deceased wife and i had together. The Companionship and ability to advise and help one another, the ying and the yang of it so to speak. The laughter the jokes, the quiet conversations, the cuddling and having someone to sleep with too. The normal everyday interactions of doing things for someone because you love and care for them, so to say. I am 66 years old now, and even if I miss these things, I know better than to rush in, for like Elvis said in his song, Only Fools Rush In.

So what do I do next in my life, for I do not know how much time i have left for sure, none of ys do. We wake up each day and see the world and we sleep each night in peace if we can. That is all we can expect in life is to have a home, a place to sleep and eat, clothing and the ability to interact with others is it not? I think so, so that is what I attempt to do daily.

Let me say this for all who doubt me, or laugh at me when I speak of relationships, or how I think on them. I was married, the first time for 12 years and had two daughters. I was married and with the same woman the second time for 28 years, and at no time did I flirt with them at all or any other woman, I don’t know how to flirt never did and probably never will either. I did ask them to dance, I did buy them a meal. But we gravitated to one another for we admired each other, not because we were rich, or chasing each other. So I guess, what I am trying to say is simple, I don’t chase women period. I talk to them, I joke with them, I interact with them, but I am not running around trying to jump their bones or get in their beds or pants. Never have, what happens, happens is how I look at it and is no one’s business except my own or whoever I am with. Sex is not my primary concern these days, I am older. Period.

I am not a drinker, I drink socially and I use light drink like Seagrams Escapes. 5 percent alcohol folks, lite, easy, tasty and refreshing one at a time, is all and never more than two so I do not get drunk. I don’t smoke, gave up cigarettes many years ago before I got lung cancer and i overcame lung cancer in 2013. I was lucky I had good doctors who saved my life. So in a basket I am decently educated with an Associates Degree, and knowledgeable from my lifetime, and my service time in three different branches that I served in. Yes i said three, I started in The US. Army, and then went to National Guard and then the Us Navy before i was done after 16 years and injured on duty and discharged Honorably under Medical Conditions. Do I hurt from my injuries yes, do I cry about them no. Am I able to walk and look normal as i do, yes. So, I put up with my injuries and I live as close to normal as i can, period.

Now, do I have regrets, I think all human beings have regrets in their lives. Don’t we all? Some f us regret our childhoods, some ou=r teenage years and some our times when we were foolish or stupid in life. Some of us regret our actions, agaionst others and those we loved, and some of us regret missed loves or possibilities that could have happened in our lives and could have made major differences, like going down a different road you know, bad turns or wrong ones. Thats what life is about folks, and yes sometimes i look back on life and my life in particular and go I should have said something, I should have done something different, what a change it would have made. But in the end the truth is you can’t change anything once the time slips by, so you learn to live with it all, dont you.

As the world spins today with wars going on, politics going crazy, the economy out of whack and more, you just have to learn to live with it, deal with it and do the best you can to survive. For that is what life is about is it not? In the end we all end up going back to our maker, and that is an inescapable conclusion to life. Old saying said you can escape taxes and death, it’s very true folks.

In conclusion today, let me say this for all, who read this. I am not sad, I am not sorry, I am not depressed, I am not glad, or happy, I am existing and making the best of what is here before me. Isn’t that what all of us should do as life goes on for us, take care of ourselves, don’t harm or hurt anyone else, and enjoy the time we have on this planet it passes far too quickly for anything else.

Sunday in Westborough, Ma, today’s temps will be in the 90’s they say, Ac units can’t keep iup it seems. Heat is becoming a problem for all of us elderly people for sure, but we shall struggle through I am sure. At 66 I am not used to high heat and humidity like i am experiencing right now so fan time and ac on too. Maybe it will work, maybe it won’t I don’t know.

Last night The Boston Celtics lost to the Heat, and it wasn’t even a close game in my opinion, but, they will come back in game four I am sure. Too many turnovers and bad shooting average got em last night.

Well, I am 66 years old, and I try dating sites to see if I can make female friends, yes I am guilty of trying them. I am finding though, too many abandoned profiles, too many phoney sites and too many just seeking someone to pay their bills. Life to me is sharing time withs omeone, having fun with someone, not paying their bills for them. Look we all age folks, and we all know it, but I am no one’s ATM to pay their bills and don’t appreciate people who try to use me for that purpose.

Now some will ask what am I looking for in a female partner or companion. Friendship is one, caring is two, loyal is three, and fun is four. Intelligence is good and a sense of humor too, and active in some ways. I am retired and trying to learn a new area in Westborough, ‘s passing, it isn’t! If you spent 16 years taking care of a cancer patient and stayed by their side, you would know what I am saying is true. I did what was right by my wife as she passed and while she lived, I was dedicated to her completely.

At 66 now and a widower, I want a companion, I want communication, I want laughter I want adventure in many ways. I want a woman with a sense of self and smarts, and a sense of humor. I want someone who is interesting and likes to cuddle and takes it easy too. I do like walking, I do like reading and writing, I do like socializing with people at billiards or, watching people line dance, or even going to karaoke clubs. I like exploring and walking malls too. What I am finding is I am a social person to a degree and there are times when I want some private quiet moments too. I hope that makes sense.

Look, I tried Zoosk, and Ourtime and other web sites, online dating is not working for me. I don’t like the politics and religion bullshit in these chats and sites. I liked years ago when there were singles dances i attended and where I would go listen to music gab fest and have fun and if I saw a woman I liked I asked her to dance. Those days it seems have died in modern America and amid the covid crisis. AT 66, we all fear getting covid and dying, so we become over careful and I get it I do, but at some point, you have to take a chance and live your life out, also.

How to find a partner when your widowed and 66, I have no idea. I am in a new State, Massachusetts, A new town, Westborough, and have no idea where people go to have fun and meet others in my age group. People are polite here and i appreciate that I do, and i like it, but, to meet someone it needs to go beyond Hi, How are you, for a conversation, ya know what I mean.

Let me say this, and I find it laughable and funny when I do, I was married twice in my lifetime, once for 12 years and then the second for 28 years, and in that time and in my life I have never learned even how to flirt! I have no idea how to flirt with a woman, I have no skills in that area, see. How did i meet my wives then some will ask, one was playing pool in the navy and the second was found in a singles dance, I attended one night.

The way I have always thought about it when I do, is, just be myself, do what I like, have fun and someone will find me. I like walking, I like being me, I like listening to music, reading, writing. As to what else there is to do in my area here in Westborough, so far I have no real idea. I like bowling at least I used to also. I am old fashioned i guess when it comes to relationships.

Anyway, that’s my thoughts for today, May 22nd, 2022. I am hoping at some point I can find someone, but life is complicated and busy and people are doing their own things in this world for sure. Time will tell, but I don’t want to wait forever either, I am 66.

Well, May 2022 is well underway now. The weather is getting warmer and it seems people are coming outside some. Covid is still with us folks, so unless you have had it and are vaccinated I would suggest wearing a mask. There are now many strains of the covid virus and no one knows for sure how many there may be. For me I had the vaccine and two booster shots and still got covid in December of last year. While the vaccine will keep the symptoms down for you if you get covid it will not fully prevent you from getting it. I am 66 years old and I have other medical problems, making me capable of getting the virus so I am vaccinated. Now, some don’t believe they can get the virus and believe it to be a hoax, it isn’t, the death numbers from it prove that in and of itself. So please be careful about it all.

Next subject to address for me. Dating sites believe it or not! As a widower who lost his wife last year in August, I have been experimenting and checking out certain dating sites. What I find is because I am a widower, many women frown on me for looking or attempting to find someone, when my wife passed last August. Ladies do me a favor, don’t determine by the date of my wife’s passing whether it has been too short a time for me to be looking, ok. I spent 16 years, taking care of my wife with her cancer and she passed, before I even thought of looking at other women. So, 16 years is a long time for a man to go without being with a woman. So please don’t jump on the wagon and say too soon to me. it isn’t.

I have tried Zoosk, I have tried Ourtime, and others, I keep looking and hoping to find a woman in my new area of Massachusetts where I live. Then I get asked why are you here in Massachusetts? Simple folks I am 66 years old, my wife passed, and the only family I have really is my sister who lives in this state. I wanted to be near someone I love and who is family to me. I hope that makes sense to all. The hardest part of all I have been through is trying to start over in a new state, in a new city/town and not knowing a single person. So I try to reach out by looking at dating sites for the area I am in and hope to find a woman as a friend first, and if it develops into a relationship fine , if not that’s fine too, as long as I can make friends.

Am I going about it wrong, I think not, I now live by myself in a condo thats new and in a decent town, Westborough here. It is quiet yes, and it is hard to get to know people for me, because all are different of course and it will take time.But with hope and looking forward I am trying. I would like to spend my remaining years in comfort and with a woman who likes having a companion, a friend and maybe a lover too. But, I also know women can be reluctant to associate with strangers. So I don’t push anything on anyone I am me, for who else can I be.

I like to write short stories, blogs and poems and I like walking. I am learning a game called pickleball up here and have only played it one full day. I hurt an ankle doing it and I am slowly recovering now from that. I love the game, was just not equipped with the right sneakers when it happened.

I fish and I like to walk the lake here and the malls around too. I play billiards with some here in the condo community and I am slowly watching line dancing lessons and trying to make friends. I hope it is working. I take care of my condo of course and my belongings and try to be me, is all.

I do not interfere in others lives, and I try to just have fun and be social, it is what life is about for us, who are human beings, is it not? Anyway, I go on alone these days, because i know not this town, or this state, so I am trying to find people to meet, places to go to and things to do to entertain myself and to get involved. It is rough when the only person you knew ,so well passes, and you have to start over at 66 years old, so, I ask that people try to consider that as I go forward in my life. I don’t know how long I may live, 66 is no spring chicken that’s for sure, but, I am not ready to depart mother earth by, a far means. So I want to try to enjoy my elder years, as much as I can, and hopefully with someone, time shall tell. In the meantime life goes on and i feel sometimes lost and at other time unsure, but I go one day at a time is all. I hope that makes sense.

I try to stay out of certain things, I am sure others do too. I try to avoid politics and religion, mainly because it only causes fights and arguments. I love sports, and friendly clubs and music. I used to DJ online, but gave that up when my deceased wife got sick years ago. So, these days it is chat rooms online, Xbox games for fun, television and movies in my home, and walking mostly. I do enjoy cooking when I get a chance or am in the mood to do so. Reading I do on and off or build puzzles. I really have no idea what to do in the area being new here.

Life will move on no matter what I do, so I plan to try to enjoy, I try to laugh and make friends and hope I can build a life enough to love my own out in.

Second Life ia huge platform which includes adult areas, such as sexual in nature, D/s and BDSM areas also and more.

Now, while I believe in the BDSM and D/s lifestyles, I do not believe in Ratzu Darkstone or his Cafe O sim or the way he handle it and runs it.

Now I am far from a professional lifestyler and I do not claim to know everything regarding it either. But I do not approve of Ratzu Darkstone an dhis sim of Austin in any nature or his so called program to train people. He fails at many points in his own program and leaves no choices in his sim. He uses the Submissive women in his sim to teach the men to become Masters. That in and of itself is just using the women he has on his sim as members for his own purposes. It is sad thing to see, a so called Master, using these women to increase his membership on his sim.

Ratzo Darkstone acts like a child in his ways and his only reason for having his sim is to populate it with female submissives that report back to him twice to three rimesa day on all they see on his sim. He doesnt run it himself again he uses the women who are submissives to get reports on who is doing what and then he also take recommendations from these women/ submissives and bans who they don’t like in that sim. He claims it is an educational sim, but he steals all he teaches off the internet, and from other people online also. That is not the way a Male Dominant or a Master in the lifestyle should be doing business. He is the Master right, well should he be teaching the lifestyle and guiding the program he runs, yet he doesn’t. A Master should also know no two Masters or Dominants, or no two Submissives will do the lifestyle the same ways, so there will be different opinions and ways of living the lifestyle. The point here is this, he tries to control all on his sim in Second Life.

Anyway, Ratzu Darkstone is a sad example of a Master for he uses each and every submissive on his sim for his own reasons, not theirs.

Yes he builds his sim constantly to attract more men and women into his sims, but in the end he uses every woman who enters his sim in one way or another. He either has sessions and uses them to scene in private or holds his ceremonies in his lil castle he built for that purpose in and of itself. Ratzu Darkstone is a user and abuser of women period in all ways he can do so. The sad thing is Second Life allows him to do so, and that is sad indeed. I have seen how he works and believe me, Ratzu holds no right to claim to be a MAster in the lifestyles, nor should he be teaching anything. All of his workshops, and Lesson plans and assignments he has stolen from others. Common knowledge will tell you no two D/s or BDSM relationships are the same. Nor are an two Masters, or Submissives the same. You can’t be a Master in D/s or BDSM unless you understand that first and foremost. He tries to remake all into what he wants them to be, and when you refuse or argue or say anything about what he is doing and try to tell him he is wrong, he just bans you. That is why he requires voice recognition and to take your IP address, uses them to ban you if you don’t go along with his plan or ways. He is making carbon copies of himself, and well in the end people catch on and leave.

Do yourself a favor if you are into D/s and BDSM, don’t join Ratzu Darkstomes sim! I have seen some prominent Masters and Dominates leave or be banned from Austin, and Cafe O. So if you want to do D/s and BDSM in your own way, have a choice in what you can say or do, Austin and Cafe O Austin is not the sim for you.

Cafe O Austin in Second Life is supposed to be a destination in Second life for the teaching of D/s and BDSM as a site for all walks of life and to make Masters and Submissives of men and women online. In fact it is far from that and is used by it’s Owner to get women to have sex with him. Sadly, some think, the Owner of sad Sim, that lives in Austin, Texas is a big Master of D/s and BDSM and the lifestyle in general. He isn’t, if he was, he would understand that no two Masters are the same, nor are no two submissives. Nor no two Domme’s are the same either. Instead he plays the game his way and in the end all must adhere to his ways and only his ways or you get booted from his sim.

Sadly, Second Life allows him to run his sim his way of course for he pays for two sims at once each year, and continually builds and changes the look. What he cannot do is handle people who do not conform to his style of the lifestyle, nor can he handle people with different opinions than he has on the very subjects he claims to be teaching. Now here is the kicker about his so- called sim, he calls Cafe O Austin, he is not teaching people anything they don’t already know if they are in the lifestyle. He fails miserably, to teach properly and he fails at doing what he calls the lifestyle for he is not the one making the decisions as to who stays in his sim, the women do that, not the sims owner.

He holds discussions on subjects that all who have ever lived the lifestyle already know and then he tells you how to do them his way only on his sim. You are not allowed to voice a different opinion or way of doing BDSM or D/s while in his sim. If you do so, it gets reported back to him and you’re banned. Now he also doesn’t believe in Allowing Dominants to be Dominants in his sim, he cut that out years ago, so you have no choice now, either go full Master or Full Submissive, or leave his sim. That is how he handles his so called ,BDSM / D/S teaching Sim. On top of this, it is not the Masters who teach anything on his sim, it is the Submissives that he uses for this purpose. In the end he is using Submissive women to teach D/s and BDSM to any male who enters his sim, and any female also. The so called Masters, do nothing except come in and hang out and screw around with the submissives that are new, and the ones ,there longer are ignored and lack attention, so they end up alone and wondering what they did wrong.

Now, many have told me in the past, to not talk of this Sim anymore, I laugh at that for my opinion is my own and i have a eight to voice it as I please. We do live in America, where freedom of speech is still one of our basic rights as is freedom of religion. Voicing ones opinion is a basic right in America and it does not matter how much money he pays Second Life for his sims. What all need to understand is this man, controls others that will boot you too from their sims, without explanation also, on his word. It is commonly called a clique folks and it exists in Second Life. Now I don’t hate Second Life or BDSm or D/s at all. I like all of the above, what I don’t like is one man who thinks he is king, controlling women who are submissive in this way and them not catching on that he is using them all the time.

I feel sorry for the women who are tied up in his sim, because they claim they need his protection. They don’t need his protection, and they don’t need to conform to his stupid rules and ways of doing things either. Just because a submissive is a submissive, does not mean they have to do things his way. A submissive has he same rights as a Master. In fact a submissive has more power in any D/s or BDSM relationship then the men who are Masters. For no woman can be used and abused, spanked, cuffed, bearen without saying yes. if you say no ladies/ submissives, no should mean no no matter what. Yet the owner of this sim forces you to teach other males how to use your submissiveness against you. And that is sad to say and hear.

I know where the man lives who runs this sim in Second lIfe also. It is sad the a company like Second LIfe is, is allowing him to continue his practices under the guise of a teaching or educational sim. It isn’t really, it is a sex sim is all, ruled by the owner, period. If Second life and it’s owners, had brains and common sense and logic they would know all that is happening in this sim I speak of and they would monitor it and ultimately figure it all out and shut it down. It is repulsive, that one man is allowed to control so many women for his own pleasure, in this way.

Final thing I will say regarding this Cafe O Austin Sim, if Second life is smart it will send someone in, for both sides of the equation and investigate it themselves, before an angry person, sues them over what happens in said sim. The amount of money Second Life and its parent company can lose is major. I would consider that first and foremost for you didn’t buy Second lIfe as a program/ world to allow such acts to carry on, and the chances of a suit being brough by an angry individual, whether female or male is very high. Never mind the publicity, that can come about for this. But it is not my money or time or efforts that will mean anything, for once a female or male starts this process, I speak of it will be Second life, that loses overall in the end.

I have found in my 66 years of life that different chapters of it close off or change for different reasons. The reasons I have found are simple yet exist for all of us regardless of the sex we are male or female.

Chapters change or periods of our lives change due to things like, moves, distances, lies, and actions others know they should not make but do anyway. Honesty, and open communication is key in each case, unless you move for reasons of your own choice, or you are dishonest or a phoney using someone for some reason of your own and hiding it.

I have seen relationships go up in smoke because of lies, because of cheating, because of lack of communication and most of all because some people get into relationships for the wrong reasons, or they basically lie and are using someone for their own purposes.

I have seen the trophy wife/ girlfriend bit. I have seen the dishonest bit, and the lying bit too. Or the false presentation bit, where the person presents themselves as one thing when they are another and they are found out sooner or later. I have seen people drift apart, not communicate, not have the same likes or needs, and so much more. Sexual incapabilities, or needs come into play also. It seems to me, some people need to find some basics if they ever need to keep a relationship going.

Some basic rules should include the following, 1) Honesty, 2) Trust, 3) Open communication, 4) Loyalty, 5) Self control of ones emotions and temper.. Anger kills, lies kill, distrust and not spending time with the one you are supposed to. When your friends become more important than the one your in the relationship with, it is time to be honest and communicate it and move on from the relationship period.

Women want loyalty, commitment, caring and listening, and open communication, they want honesty. The want to know they are wanted and paid attention to, by the man they are with. If you fail as a man to hold up any of these areas a woman will notice it and the relationship will end if you want it to or not. Some will say I am speaking out my ass, i don’t know what I am saying, but go ask a woman what she seeks most of all, it is companionship, caring, honesty,fidelity, and open communication. A woman will not put up with aman who pushes those she loves away, or her friends and doesn’t accept them. A woman usually is not a bar person, she doesn’t enjoy a tavern or bar unless she is with aman who pays her full attention and a woman likes a respectful place if you take her out. Am I wrong I doubt it, for I have seen too many relationships fail over my lifetime, and these are the failures I have seen that cause it all.

When relationships end, it is usually one partner or the other that fails to keep their side of the bargain so to speak. The one that refuses to compromise or communicate properly loses. What matters most of all is open communication, honesty and mutual respect. What I have seen is one of the three I mention here disappearing and that kills the relationship. If she can’t communicate with her man, a woman shuts down, if you lie to her and she catches you you lose, if you can’t compromise or pay her the attention she needs, no woman stays. Why would they, there are a million men out there, she can run to or be with. Think about it folks, now the same can be said on the other foot too, men feel the same way if they get disrespected, or lied to or ignored. Ignoring the one you are in a relationship with, is the one sign you can bet on, that shows you the relationship is ending. If he or she thinks their friends are more important than you, it is over folks. Get out of the relationship! if they push away your friends and family, it is time to pack your bags folks. Nothing is more important to either sex, then their immediate family members, or old friends they have had, for many years. When you try to isolate someone in this manner you are telling them, you have a reason for doing so they don’t like or want you to know. If they need to isolate you from all, it is time to ask why and move on when they won’t stop it.

Usually, I just advise others in these areas of relationships, and I never have tried t have a relationship since my wife passed last August. Yet I know there things for my forst marriage went 12 years , my second went 28 years. So you may see my point, I learned to compromise, I learned to accept thing and let them go, not just to make her feel better, but to keep the peace because i didn’t want to lose those I loved. Ask anyone in a long term relationship, what keeps them together you will find what I am saying to be correct, honesty, loyalty, open communication, trust, and paying attention to your partner number first or near it all. Financial reasons for staying in a relationship do not work, you can be tied financially to someone, but that is not enough in and of itself. I know I am not Doctor Phil, or a relationship guru of any kind, I am just a man who had long term relationships and made them work, are you? Maybe at some point it is time to sit back and consider the advice given and to realize that what you thought was important, is not, and that what you need to do,is look at the facts and get out, if it is bad.

If you want companionship, and love and caring and your missing something, I would recommend, you reevaluate the relationship, and then move on as needed. There is always someone willing to provide all you need and caring out there, don’t settle and put up with bullshit or head games either, it’s not worth your effort or time. Your better than that, and you owe yourself more than that as a person, period.

Trying to move on after you have lost the one you love is not as easy as some may think it is. I wake up each morning thinking of her and go to sleep not knowing when I may join her. It is like an endless cycle as I try to move on after her passing, so during the day I try to find things to make me forget and have some fun.

I wish to God life could be easier for me, and that I can find someone new to share life with once more, but when you reach 66 like me, you get stuck in certain patterns and ways. That is what happens when you spend 28 years with the same lover, friend, confident. It is just a fact folks, we adapt so well to those we love and care about, taht when you lose them and they pass, you become lost on your own. Moving on after a loss of someone you were married to and loved dearly is not easy, for you look for certain qualities and things they had no one else has, at all each day.

I am beginning to realize, there are somethings you can’t replace and some people too. I have to realize I must let go and move on and hope to find someone else. Memories are good folks and we all have them and we all hang on to them as we move through life. Sometimes it is good, sometimes it is bad to do. i am 66 years old now, and I am realizing at some point, I must start anew and hope I can find a new friend, a new lover and a new confident ,all in one again. It is not easy to do, because you tend to look for the same qualities your passed loved one had, in someone new.

I am beginning to realize, I won’t find someone easy now, the conditions were different and the time has changed and so have the circumstances. So, one has to learn to adjust they say, soI am trying to be more open, look online and in day to day, without pushing or trying too hard. I once told an old friend of mine, stop pushing and trying so hard, just be yourself, have fun and the women will find you. When you push too hard in attempting to find a partner it shows as being forced and you don’t win that way. women sense when you not yourself and they feel the uneasiness and walk away. It worked when i told him that, he found women coming to him then, but the time shave changed and being retired basically, puts me at a disadvantage in finding a new woman in my life.

I am not young like before, my energy is less qand my interests are few these days. Yet I do like to cook, read, play games, even dance. I do like computers and movies and television and wish I had someone to cuddle up to now and then. I guess you can say I am in the fall of life so to say, I don’t need much, just someone I can share life with and go from there. Is that asking for too much? I hope not!

I have a new condo, a new car, new furniture and a lonely life i now live. I walk a lot and explore malls and outdoors, enjoying the fresh air. I may buy a fishing pole and some equipment just to sit on the lake and fish some for fun and to relax. In my younger days it was a favorite of mine to do. I may just go back to it once more. I like building puzzles too, so who knows, but I have to find a way to keep myself busy and entertained.

I left behind the home and sold it once my wife passed and used the money for what I have now. I am in a new State- Massachusetts, in a new area Westborough and trying to find my way around and meet people once more. I am not a bar type really, I am not into standing or sitting around and drinking and getting drunk, sorry. I would rather go eat, see a movie, walk, or play a game or something. The mind they say is a terrible thing to waste, I agree with them.

Anyway a new day has dawned, my eyes have opened once more, I am still alive and kicking so I wil find something to do even if it is just do my laundry, cook or clean my home I live in now. I may go to a book store and have coffee, or walk the mall near me. You may see this old sailor in my hat, just chugging along as I walk, but at least I am trying.

Living for 66 years makes one think of the past a lot and reminisce about what happened and what didn’t. Sometimes you sit back and go I should have done this or that and in the end you realize, how it could have gone differently for you. Yet you also know you can’t change the past or go backwards, it doesn’t work that way.

I have seen many things and done many things in my life, some are decisions I regret and some I will never regret. It is a fact of life we learn to live with as we age and get closer to the end. We stop and wonder what if and when we do, we end up realizing, the decisions we made were for the best of all involved and around me and myself also.

My decisions ,I made that I believe were wrong come to mind when I slow down and have very little else to do. So your mind starts going over decisions in such a way that you have to slap yourself and say stop it and live with all of the decisions you made. Life is based on decisions folks, it is based on the biggest decision always, do I stay or do I go? {eop;e come and go from our lives, because we either screw up the relationships we had, or we are forced or feel it necessary to change and head in a new direction. It happens Ladies and Gentlemen believe me, we all do it and have to face the end results.

Do I regret the key decisions is the real question and that should be the same for all of us. Did we leave school too early, did we miss out on that one person we should have dated or been with, did we lose the big chance relationship in our life? Did we quit the wrong job, make a mistake and lose the job we wanted, did we lose the love of our life, due to our own foolish mistake? So many questions come to mind for me and I am sure for others. I can sit and think them, over forever if I let myself do so, but is it worth the energy, or not? More than likely not, why, because the longer you go over it the worse you feel and the less you can do about it all, and it becomes depressing. So, in the end those decisions must be pushed aside and life must go on.

As we go forward the one good thing about thinking over the past, is we tend to use the past to make decisions in the present, and that helps with our future. never forget the past, never doubt your decisions, and realize you made them for the right reasons at the time you did.

Do I need to forget the past, only those things that hurt me, and then I go forward avoiding the same mistakes. It is what life is about these days, some tell me i am wrong when I tell them things I see happening, and get angry or mad at me. But, late they begin to realize I was right and they didn’t see it, like I did. I live with it when they get angry or mad at me and iIjust go, I tried to tell you. In the end though, I can’t make someone else listen to my advice, I give them from my experiences, so they suffer till the light goes on in their heads and hearts, so to say. You can’t tell people what to do, what to say or how to react to anything they decide on their own and in the end they have to love with their decisions just like I have to with mine. Good Luck folks.

I can’t stop, telling the truth or calling it the way I see it and never will. If it is someone I love and care about I give the advice to, I cringed and back-up when they don’t listen. Then what I told them turns out to be true and they end up living with it. I can’t change that one. anyway, I figured maybe some would understand what I am saying and maybe just draw from it and learn to slow down and make better decisions as you go along.

Good Morning world, how are you? Been a while since i wrote a blog so, I figured give a new one a try.

I moved into a brand new Condo recently and i like the condo and the 55 plus community I am in here in Westborough, Ma. Although I have found it to be boring and people are basically conservative in how they talk to others here, I have noticed. I try to keep busy of course taking long walks around the lake here, and try to stay in touch at the Community Center they have here also. I found Solomon Pond Mall and like to walk it also for fun. Yet, people are busy and quiet and I am of the older crowd by most standards now, I am 66 years old here.

I keep looking for things to do and how to meet others in my age range daily, but it is slow going for sure. I guess I shall check the Senior Center in town soon enough and then the public library too and see what they have as to things to do. I am wondering where people in my age group go in Westborough for things to do, and meet others. I am lonely at times and I guess I miss my wife big time who passed last year. So, as to what to do with myself besides setting up my condo and cleaning it and walking I have no idea, I am new to Westborough and Massachusetts overall, I came in from Connecticut. So, I know no one here, and I know nothing of the area and what to do here. I am always looking for people to meet.

As to the future, it looks like this is it for me herein the condo I am in, I like the place and the style. I like the peace and quiet, but, one can not survive by oneself especially when I was used to always having a wife. I guess time shall tell what happens on that point for me.

I have watched the world news and find it sad. I hate the violence that is happening of course. I served my country, 16 years myself, and I am a disabled veteran here. I am proud of my service time and of the fact I am still kicking at 66. So, I am going one day at a time and trying to survive in peace, but still have fun and meet others.

I am hoping that sooner or later I will meet and make new friends here in a new place. Yes I miss my home in Connecticut, but, I miss my wife also. I sold the house we lived in after her passing, because there is nothing a single man could do with a four bedroom home alone. Too much snow blowing in the winter and, grass cutting in the summer and too much to pay for to heat and to take care of for me. So I sold it and moved north here into Mass, to be nearer to my sister the only relative i really have left these days. Yet, even getting closer, still leaves us a 40-45 minute drive apart in an age where gass is high priced. Life is not the same as it was for me, before and that is expected of course and i understand adjusting to a new place, yet, I am still lonely and hoping is all. Time shall tell, for sure for me, I am hoping for the best.